Tag: consciousness

When They Try To Control

.Reading time 1 minute.
When people implore me with their eyes
But I don’t care who dies
Because I have seen beyond the form
And what happens when the body warm
Soon turns cold and depart
The spirit leaves by the heart
And returns to join it’s immortal core
They struggle to say I love you more
In their attempts at suppression
Some kind of drive at oppression
Til I’m twenty nine and in confession
As the priest says this will be your last aggression
But I just can’t muster up the energy to say
I’m saving it for another day
Because everything is now
And somehow
In the forest of storm 
I found that which was never born
And so can never leave this earth
The something beyond the hurt
And though they try to scratch and claw
They are no match for the Great Thaw
That is unfolding humanly 
On the planet and undoing me
Well the “me” I thought I was
It does not abide by laws
But sits in it’s own sweet soul 
And tells the waves to roll and roll
They will still meet the beach
If this is what it is to teach
Then call my words silent prose
This is the less travelled road

Image Credit: https://pin.it/5uVA1s7GZ

The Control

.Reading time less than 1 minute.
The control is like a vicegrips, it sneaks round my neck
And I wonder which part of me she will wreck
With the next seize
I let go and I believe 
That everything is okay
Innocently go about my day
And then it comes 
Like a wave of a hundred drums
Banging their beat
Like people with the floor and feet
And she snatches up what she can grasp 
But this thing can never last
Coz it just burns the fuse
When I am something she would use
To ameliorate herself
And gain some kind of wealth
In someone else’s eyes
But it’s a disguise
And the lies
Are so obvious now
But when I believed them, not somehow

Image Credit: https://pin.it/4fwyypwW2

A Starship Far Away

.Reading time 1 minute.
Somehow there is a starship far away
And it is hidden in every day
In the midst of meals and courses
In the midst of screaming fights, divorces
And I call that love, it’s a futile road
To ever carry that heavy load 
They call life
And every wife
Knows the weight
Of hiding in her husbands hate
As he trudges through the snow
Pretending he is in the know
And I’m taking apart an institution
Because it is in my constitution
And I always wanted to be a newly wed
So I could share somebody’s bed
But that dream has faded 
And I’m jaded
At thirty three
Like I swore I’d never be
I’d follow every dream to its resolution
But now it seems the only solution
Is to let it go
And rest and know
That every cloud has its silver lining 
And I’m one who is undefining 
What it means to be woman and grown
I plunge into the unknown 
And come out smelling of roses
I didn’t realise that I chose this 
Over a life of steady familiarity 
Rooted in the ground like a deep tree
So steady in its being 
But there’s something else I’m seeing 
In the mists of time 
It’s you and I and we are fine 
Just as we are 
Behind every black hole is a hidden star 

Image Credit: https://pin.it/2KRmIgE1o

Life Is A Tremulous Thing

.Reading time 3 minutes.
Life is a tremulous thing 
And a bird with only one wing 
Flies in a circle if she flies at all
I just remember running into the hall
And screaming bloody blue murder 
As I woke up from a sleep 
I had been held in the bed
By a weight I could not keep
And they all held like snooker balls
Atoms of air until they all fall
And weigh on me like turf
But I am released and I surf
The wave out of the room 
Imagine arms catching me with the sound of doom 
And my parents come to me in a flash
And I’m crying, trembling and I can’t put the genie back
In the bottle now that he’s been set free
Every time the phone rings my heart beats against the tree
I use to hold myself together 
Because the weather
Was unpredictable and strange
And no matter how stable it would always change 
As I lose a grandmother to the going away
And I must not cry because she could not stay 
But my ears are pulsing with the noise 
And the din rattles bones like they are play toys
As I always expect the next mute surrender
I gave in to always remember
The torture of losing love to the emptiness
Now the darkness starts to dress
Me in its own clothes and cloak 
Everything around me in the bespoke 
Am I just reading the dial 
When people look at me I fake a smile
So they don’t look to hard
And see the facade behind the business card
I hand out to everyone who wants to get in touch
And you’d never know I love you so much 
When I just stare into your soul 
Every wave is beautiful but they all roll
Into the one 
And every man is somebody’s son 
And deserves respect and compassion
Even when he sings about an assassin 
That lives in his heart
She aimed true though and took the part
He had been protecting out of the dark 
And I bet he was the better mark
In the end
I’d like to think she knows I’m a friend 
But all bullets find their way home
I guess that’s why she’s complete and I am alone 
With my own front facing tremor 
I don’t think I’d want to be on the good ship Endeavour 
Even if I was to stake a claim
And somehow make a name
For myself in the western based media 
But its not all what they feed to ya
As babies cry for mother they’ll never see 
I just don’t want that to ever be me

Image Credit: https://pin.it/560rL1i95

A War Of Wills

.Reading time 2 minutes.
Me and Power had a war of wills 
And he flexed his skills 
In my direction 
But my selection 
Is to reside where I’ve always been 
And sit in the seat of a goddess or queen 
Somewhere in the avenue of soul 
I wander the grounds and I just roll
With the wave they want to crash
I’ve had better nights on the lash 
As he forces a pill into my hand 
Like he could inopportune the ocean with sand 
And he draws waifs on the beach
And comes to teach 
Me about the dragons that breathe fire
On the weak and never tire 
To seek out souls to ravage and dement 
He doesn’t realise I never went 
Away but to come again 
And I am not afraid of men 
Or of beasts that gnaw
What’s trembling me is the great thaw
As it steals aspects of my glacier 
I am the North Pole and I need ya 
To stem the flow of climate change
But I feel the days get strange 
As I see the ferocious that eats her 
And I know it wants to delete her
And she senses it too 
She’s not mad, she’s just looking into
The abyss and it’s looking back 
I look at the jenga I stack
And I know this house is gonna fall
And I’m not up for playing hard ball
With someone who thinks he knows
Why the woman is on the road 
I just flash him a glance
I think he knows there’s no second chance 

Image Credit: https://pin.it/3IF8np5di

The Darkest Shame

.Reading time 2 minutes.
The darkest shame is that I followed the clues 
That I thought would lead me to you 
And there were blue chalked streets and bears 
They say the fabric of my sanity tears
When I believe in secret tomes
And become one who roams 
The avenues of misty eyed tears
As the date nears 
And I cannot bear the truth
So I pulverise my own youth
By putting myself in their hands
Now after slipping sands 
Have run the hourglass down
I still feel like I want to drown 
Some where in all this emotion
It’s as though the road is an ocean 
I cannot climb into 
And it becomes a sprint to
The door
And I couldn’t have loved them more 
But somehow I feel the wilderness in my bones
And I refuse to answer my two phones 
When they call out to me
And I could’ve missed our history
In the avenue I let bleed
Because I know you need
Who I used to be
But its just that they have destroyed me 
In their attempts to keep the dark away
I just lay in the bay 
And it was not San Francisco 
Or some kind of cool fuckin’ disco 
It was like being drawn on a string 
So he could live on everything 
He ever thought he was 
And I take the hit because
I want him to be sky high
And not afraid to die 
A death on the floor 
I just want to prove I love him more 

Image Credit: https://pin.it/1kX9MeWFa

To The Land I Love (Éire)

.Reading time 4 minutes.
Half of the town is missing in Bermuda
You could search for a reason but it would elude ya 
Why the history of partition and pain
Became as common in Ireland as rain 
And I fight to hold my rebel spirit 
Under control so that no one might hear it
Because I have the heart of the Gael
And my soul is not up for sale
And my blood used to boil
When I would read history about our sweat and toil 
Under the rule 
Of the English that we learned in school
Had us under the thumb
And they would kill anyone who would not succumb
To the heavy weight of oppression
And it is my confession
That some part of me bears generational hate
For all of the acts that left us in that state
The people I would love to be kin 
To if they hadn’t died of the sin 
Of merely ceasing to exist 
As the loyal service of a crown that I missed
When they educate 
You to clean your dinner plate
Or you will die
If you do not want to lie
Then stand up and be counted 
As the people who stood up and shouted 
Against the lashing of hail 
And the plantation fail 
To convert an adequate number 
Now I see Palestine and their hunger
As they have no bread 
Because they are controlled by land, sea and air instead 
Of the freshness of home
Do we as a tribe leave them alone
To face the mountain of world 
Built on the conquering of the girl
In the soul of us all
Someone wants to build a brick wall 
To keep the Mexicans out 
But I don’t trust a word out of his mouth
Because the land is free
And it does not belong to me 
But I to it
The Native American’s in the place where I sit
At the altar of pride
It is not okay that I hide
When I have the privilege to say
The conquering is not okay
When you consider the truth
The civilised nations to play the brute 
And inflict 
Themselves on a future I would rather quit 
In the innocent stain 
I can see it happening again 
As the world turn 
But will the world burn
If we do nothing to stall
The advance of the darkness that answers the call
Of the nomad or thief 
I look to the sky and its blessed relief
Just to know 
That there is a space that will not let go
And though they fly through the air
And I have been there
I can’t set a flag
On a cloud so that I can brag
That I now own it 
I used to resent but I have grown it
Into simmering wisdom 
I watch the auspices of power and the Great Schism 
Split us into a prism of light 
That we are all one is the message of life
And bear no hate for your enemy 
Coz you walk in his shoes and you discover you’re free
To love enough not to be pulled low
Enough to wish him to die slow 
In the mists of time 
If I could forgive would that be a crime 
For the sake of pure love
And all of the Gaelic in the place where I stood
My ground in this sacred place
If you don’t know you can read it in my face

Image Credit: https://pin.it/6z8AkqIbK

Someday In The Stars

.Reading time 1 minute.
Jack and me someday in the stars
Belting out music as we’re chasing cars
And I followed him down an avenue
I just wonder what he’s going ta do
As he flashes that smile at me
And I know it will be a while til I see
What he’s got going on under the hood
He seems kinda bad but I know he is good
As he offers his hands to me at will
Then moved my own with dexterous skill
Until the both are intertwined
And I hardly know what’s his or what’s mine
And the autumn fades the colours of leaves
And he’s all mysterious or would you believe 
As he waits at the step of the door that I love
I think I’ve been gifted from God above
With the beauty of this connection
Are we a constellation in the northern direction 
To take note of what we leave behind
And I wonder if I am out of mind
To go on hearing your voice in my soul
What are the waves to do but roll

Image Credit: https://pin.it/6pXpspxgt

The Irrepressible Nature Of Our Friendship

.Reading time 2 minutes.
The irrepressible nature of our friendship 
It keeps on coming back
It’s not about all the towers we’ve built 
Or the modicum we lack
Coz I see the stars in shapes and places
See it reverberate on faces
As everything comes shining down 
I’m just up the road now you live in town
And we’re far away
Though we used to play
Together at the edge of fields
Now summertime’s the way it yields
To the storm on the western front
It’s not just the season or the time of the month
It’s in clouds that gather a while
And I risk the thunder to see you smile
An eon away
And I’m glad you stay
Though it terrified me to contemplate
The idea of you in that state
It’s in all my nightmares
And it’s me that it scares
When I wake up in the morning
I look outside and the sky is storming
Would you ever believe
In me carrying less than it all on my sleeve
And you sigh
And say your own kind of goodbye
And I try
To make you see the sun
That shines at the heart of everyone
You disagree
And most of all what you say to me
Has me running like silver thread
Pooled like a mothball in my head
Oh, the mountain of you
Do you think it could be in sight of us two
Where we see the horizon
Smiling now that we’ve got our eyes on
It’s effervescent glow
There is little that I show
But one thing that is there for sure
I’ve never found anything so pure
As you and I
Please don’t die
Til our time, love
I hug you coz you were sent from above 
Like a steady angel to my side
You breathe in and I abide
In the place I’ve almost been
The realm of the unseen
The place no hand can touch
Is where I love you, oh, so much

Photo Credit: https://pin.it/5rlJjfXu8

Indoctrination Vibrations

.Reading time 1 minute.
The closeted feminist
But now can I resist
All the chains they put on me
Say I must believe if I wanna be free
Coz I don’t take sides
And love just abides
And lush is the grass of verdant green
And what is carried out in the name of the queen
As she sits on her throne
I’m just myself when I’m on my own
With no moniker
And I don’t wanna be her
Of stand alone pride
I trust in the rush of being alive
Do you see what I paint
At the sight of blood I get faint
And I waver every time I see
Proof of what I don’t feel is me
Can you just let go
I’m not what you say I am, you know
And how we’ve been trained
But your conditioning is in vain
As I collect
All the things you say are wrecked
Do you get what I mean
Is this life but a dream
Coz you can’t rely
On everything that is destined to die
And I
Stand up just to let go
Pull the needle through on the bed I sew
Til it’s all but done
I don’t think I am the only one
To feel the heady weight of foolish glee
You can stay on time, but it wouldn’t be me

Image Credit: https://pin.it/20OMEhPOn

The Male Aspect Of Consciousness

.Reading time 3 minutes.
The male aspect of consciousness 
Is forever inviting
And the spin is all that I’m fighting
As it is embodied in opposite contrast
And I thought the Grand Canyon was vast
But I can see it all when his eyes open up
Find I have to take a second look
And he blushes and he smiles 
And I escape all of my trials 
As he offers me his hand
To pull me up, you will be grand
And I dust myself down and brush myself off
Remember the forever we held aloft
And he is tough but he is soft
Says that I don’t have to pay the cost
Only let it go
I had a thing for you, you know
You and your hair
And the fact that you were so there 
For me, for them, for all the rest
I’m talking about love if you haven’t guessed 
And how it just grows like the grass
And I know there were things you never asked
In the silence still between us both
Like the gusts of wind wrap the coast
Is the feel of you near to me
There were days I was set free
To run afresh into open fields
The power of the earth that wields
Our love like it was candlelight
I think you are a bit of alright
And if you are to chance the storm
Then I would like to keep you warm
In the days we rest side by side
Knowing what it is to be alive
With somebody there for you
There’s a journey somewhere for us two 
To take with two hands pulled in close
I guess it was you that my love chose
To shine afresh in the garden
Of peace we know when we discard them
Only for to know again
Do you think that you could be my friend? 
And we could run like the wolves
Be the thread that longing pulls
To undo that unseemly knot
I hope you know exactly what
I mean when I say to you
That I love everything through and through
And all the midnight can’t take away
The sunshine in the light of day
And weather rolls and thunder rumbles
But my castle never crumbles 
Only stands to be a fort
And there is nothing to report 
But meaningful and the dawn
I left with a sigh but I’m not gone
Only holding onto the deep
And the promise that you keep
To be the steady, lonesome star
Oh, the wonder of what you are!
Image Credit: https://pin.it/1hseSx4jX

Beautiful Disaster

.Reading time 2 minutes.
I found beauty in the trauma
And the flora and fauna 
Were hidden from me 
In the dark forest of history
And she enclosed me with a snare
It was almost as if I wasn’t there 
When she sent the splinter into my side
Did she really not want me to be alive
Because she did her best to trump the card
Did she realise she made things so very hard
And I was just a teen 
But I wanted to exit the dream 
By any ways and means 
And I’m sewing a dress but the seams
Keep busting and they won’t fit 
And there are no boys I want to hit
On anymore
The dark expanse was the door 
Into a greater purveyance
And the conveyance
Was suffering and pain 
Til I opened my arms to the rain 
And instead of getting wet
A sun broke that I cannot forget 
In my darkest night
I became the light 
Of the only and ever one
If you feel you are coming undone 
Then you are on the right track
And somehow I cannot go back 
To what I was
I know this because
I have tried
And I hide
My new found skin
With everyone except with him 
He just touched me paper thin 
And I realised destiny was a sin 
I long to make with his touch 
And I love him so very much 
Though he may never know
I thought he should so I let the bird go
And fly across the sea
To where he lay in grey mystery 
Just pondering a solace
But it was a volatile
Explosion in the moment of us
And though it hurt I still trust 
In the infinity that we are 
If you burn then let that star
Combust in its own atmosphere 
That’s how you know that God is near

Photo Credit: https://pin.it/35I9x9fTO

One Here

.Reading time 1 minute.
I know that he and I 
Will always be one here, we will never die
Like all bodies are destined to
But I found heaven in you 
And it’s something that cannot be taken away
Not even when comes the day 
That the great forgive must let us go
As we travel into mists we do not know 
But I was bought and sold
The moment I saw solid gold 
Shine from his eyes 
And I know though he tries
He cannot separate
Me from the place where we equate
Everything we ever were
To the trust he found in her
And in us 
It’s not just lust 
It is a spiralling spark
That shines even brighter in the dark 
So much so that I wish for my old days
When I was lost in so many ways 
And the balance I’ve found
And the solid ground 
Only distances the despair 
I loved because you were there

My Time As A Drifter

.Reading time 1 minute.
My time as a drifter 
And the time he wanted to shift her 
In Hillstreet in the dark 
And I lost a part
Of myself when I agreed 
To the part of me that it freed
In the lines in between 
It was the worst part of the dream 
I had just been set free from the blocks
And I was all about breaking locks 
And seeing how far I could take it 
But I didn’t mean to wake it
Up from where it lay
And it is not okay 
That when the dragon breathes fire
You blame me for the post that I conspire
To burn in my flame 
I am not within my name 
I am barely brimming at the edges 
And I can see over the hedges 
As the man trims them with his machine 
And I am who I’ve always been 
But that seems to do me no good
If I can only find salvation in the wood
And when I’m on my own 
If I could’ve I would’ve known 
Twenty years ago 
But it took time for the life to show 
Through the facade of the veil 
And I set sail 
On a foreign sea 
To find the part of me 
That I lost in the melee
Do you think you could just be a friend to me? 

Photo Credit: https://pin.it/7eMgRNkBt

Blackpool

.Reading time 1 minute.
There is a black pool at the core of my being 
When it’s light it’s just a reflection you’re seeing 
Of the moon in the water 
And I have been a “good” daughter 
Always abiding by the rule
Getting grades to fly by in school 
But I have grown up and in 
And I found myself in him 
When he set me free from the stricture 
And it was a mighty picture 
When he showed me his own shade of blue
And I wanted to be one with you 
As you just were yourself 
And my mental health 
Is not up for debate
But I’ve learned there’s something beyond the hate
You can even hold for yourself 
There is a wealth 
In verdant green
And it’s the best thing I’ve ever seen

The Saint

.Reading time 2 minutes.
The saint was born the day that I died
Like Gandalf the Grey becoming the White 
And there was no absorbing light 
Only a peaceful flame 
That does not go by any name 
You could call it earthy awareness 
And I could guess
What you mean by that 
But it gives you something it can’t take back
And when the dream is rendered moot
No one can play the flute
Not with you, not anymore
And they think I close the door
But the reality is I am pulled away
From the places I cannot stay
There is distance in between 
Me and her and her and what they seem
To be 
But free
Does not mean foolish or prude
I’m sorry if I appear a little rude
But I’ve got to speak my mind
When I don’t I do hard time 
At the institution they call St. Pat’s 
And there are welcome mats 
With my name written on 
They don’t realise I’m already gone 
As who I used to stand as 
And it’s nothing bad
But it is unusual and unexpected 
And it’s not as thought I would have rejected
Him without good reason
His love is a season
In the infinity of space time 
For a moment he was mine
And then we were separated 
Like the schools where we were educated 
In to make good people of us
With rulers and lines and teachers we could trust 
Some at least 
And I wonder if the last supper is a feast
Like it’s portrayed
And if Judas was dismayed
To be singled out like that 
And I wonder what was he at
To betray a saviour true
Til I had it done to me too 
By a girl I used to know 
She cracked the whip so I let her go 
And I don’t know if time is fast or slow
All I’ve realised is that it doesn’t exist though

Photo Credit: https://pin.it/4RmrPQGth

The Apparent Solidity

.Reading time 1 minute.
The apparent solidity of matter is an illusion
And there seems to be some confusion 
Over what it means 
When sages says that its just one of those dreams
That seems to linger
And the finger
Pointing to the moon
Cannot come to soon
But do not mistake 
It for a freedom you cannot fake 
You know when you’ve been deceived
It happens when there’s something you believed 
Rather than known 
And the flowers grown 
And in full bloom 
Can fragrance a room 
So it is with you
I’m telling you coz you want me to 
Deep in your heart
There is something no one can tear apart
Not with knives and scissors 
Not with hacksaws and chisels
It lives in a domain
Beyond the realm of pain
And the Bible speaks of the Valley
In the Shadow of Death and any
One who disputes
That it encroaches on the resolute 
Must be wrong 
Because when I was strong
I felt it multiply
I was so afraid to die 
But when the midnight came
I was simply not the same 
And surrendered the ghost
To the Light I love the most 
It is my Jesus true 
And He asked me to share Him with you

Getting The Message To Where It Needs To Be

.Reading time 2 minutes.
I’m getting the message to where it needs to be
Because people drown in a foot of sea
Water as it comes up to their throats
They don’t know they can stand up and hope floats
And seeks eternity in the bones
Of the body the soul has made home
We tiptoe around the fact
It doesn’t help that I want him back
In spite of all his flaws
And the way the icicle thaws
As it hangs like a stalactite
From the room I ignite 
With my Lára flame 
You know everything is in a name
And I am not to be crossed
But look, baby, all is not lost
Not if you count the shipwreck safe
But there’s a coast we can escape
To if you just open your eyes
But you keep them closed and something dies
In the subterfuge
And it’s all rouge 
Everywhere
And people who just do not care
About what has come to pass
And the part of love that last
Far past the point of surrender
I do everything I can to make you remember 
But you are lost in your nonchalant 
As I pick an adequate font 
To write out your epitaph 
You know you made me laugh 
So hard that day
But was I laughing at what goes away 
When the midnight is done
And there is a sun
That does not need light 
Or fusion to combust into all that’s right
And I know you hobble and I know that spiders’ webs
Weave their tendrils above your head
I’m just here to be a reminder
That if you look you will find her
Right where she always was
Under the stone of your in-laws

Immortality

.Reading time 2 minutes.
I hold back what I really want to write
Because I’m scared that it might be shite
Or even worse profanity
Paying testament to insanity 
Held beneath the skin I walk
It’s only trouble that I talk 
As I head to the abyss
Fearing for a night to kiss
And they held me in a healing balm 
The doctor took my shattered arm 
And led me to the door
They drove me there and what’s more
Is I kind a liked it when 
Barry called my name again 
Out like a prophet does Jesus
Lord knows how I need it 
When I’m in the smoking room 
With Aoibhín and the sonic boom 
As we draw rainbows on the wall
In pens my parents brought me from outside
Outside the cavern that keeps me alive
For the time being 
It’s a different way of seeing 
But it’s true enough to say
I couldn’t have had it any other way 
And the doctor mumbles and utters vague treatises under his breath
On what the war with self does to make you forget 
What you have come to be
But I cannot shake the feeling that he cannot see
Just who he is talking to 
“Delusions of grandeur, we’ll add that one to
The long list we made of your faults”
And I kinda get sick of opening vaults
For them to plunder my wealth
In the name of mental health
And I wonder what they’re preserving 
Or what God they are observing 
When they make idol tropes
And then they tell Shauna how to cope
With the fact that she can’t bear
To get out of the clothes that she seems to wear
Each and every single day
But I won’t let her leave that way
So I go and sit by her side
When she’s in the horrors and I abide
I feel it fall away from her grasp
You know that bitch, that poisoned asp
And I crush its head on the floor
You’re not taking aim at someone I adore
Even if it’s by her doing 
It’s not something you should be pursuing 
In any eventuality
Me, St. Pat’s and immortality

The Age Of Fear

.Reading time 1 minute.
The age of fear when dragons rule the roost
And I like a button to give my ego a boost
And people click on things that resonate
The algorithm on your dinner plate
And there are people in Africa who find the ore
And the metals that make you want more
Does Apple pay them their due
I’m not trying to slander, I just wonder, do you
As in the Congo, the war rages
And we flick the screen like flipping pages
On a story we don’t want to hear
But I feel every single tear
You could call it empathy or a burden
But how do people know that you’ve heard them
If there’s no one there
And the forest does care
About every single tree
Because each one makes up the map of me
And we are all brothers and sisters
The fire burns and the skin blisters
On friends and foes
It’s wild country and anything goes
Because they have the power
And the tower
Fell from on high
I watched the people die 
Screaming or in silent registration 
No one could change that TV station
Because it played on the airwaves
As firemen saved
All they could 
And it’s written in blood
But I try to flood the plain
Because I don’t want that to happen again
But an eye for an eye leaves the whole world blind
Is there hope for humankind?

Pinprick

.Reading time 1 minute.
She makes a pinprick to draw blood
Just to see if she could
To see if I’m still real
If I’m alive, if I feel
And it’ll heal
But I remember the shark in her eyes
When she met me that day in the car
So far away from where you are
Looking at your ship go out
Before I was submerged in my own self doubt
As it washes to shore
And I couldn’t have loved you more
But it wasn’t enough
Coz when times got tough
All the pencils failed me and broke
And I could feel my breath start to choke
On the words I spit out at you
Coz you don’t love me too
Or so they say or so she says
Coz she’s familiar with your ways
In real life
I’m just the wife
Who is too close to see
In her eyes that all he wants is me
Submerged in the subterranean wildflower bloom
And I’d know if he was in the room
Coz electricity flows from his pulse
I describe it and she revulse 
At the thought he could shock me awake
I gave it up for your sake

The Cracking Seam

.Reading time 1 minute.
I don’t wanna be your whore
Like she did in the time before
And she’d buy anything you sell
Plies you with whiskey so you might tell
Her you love her so
But there are places you won’t go
Even for a trinket she’d offer
All you want is to suffer
Wholeheartedly
And rather smartly
You hold your hand out to me
We dance and it is free
And I wonder what it feels like to know she’s only there
Because you’re willing to pay your share
Of the coin
But you can’t solder what you want to join
Together in sweet surrender
I know you remember
Coz how could you forget
And it’s there for you yet
If you want to taste the apple that grows on the tree
You know you shouldn’t but you ask me
What it feels like to be
Still young and free
And I say it’s like sleeping outside your door
Waiting for the one you adore
To realise he loves you more
Than his story on the second floor

Her Complicity

.Reading time 1 minute.
She was there when you weren’t
I had to get by
On crutches 
So I wouldn’t die
And the battering winds 
Shook the shutters 
Wooden and thin
Til I stumbled upon the dream of him
Somewhere on a reading scene 
It was like something woke the dream
Up from where it was in bed 
I found myself instead
And I had a flame so red 
Looking into my eyes 
But I couldn’t hide the disguise 
That just erupted 
Have I fucked it up
Coz I know I still think of you
And his trail of blue 
How do I decide 
Which one I choose to tell lies 
Like I could be bound in matrimony 
But it just starts to feel a little phoney 
Coz I could never be tied by a ring
That follows me round like a golden string

Infinite Gravity

.Reading time less than 1 minute.
A star collapsing in on itself 
The absence of light and what it all meant
As a black hole is created
Try as you might you can’t escape it
But does it wash out somewhere else
A wormhole into a dimension of self 
That cannot be contemplated 
They say that I’ve been educated
By my years
But the tears
Burn into me
An inferno that’s been set free
Into everlasting space
A love that breaks upon this place

The Light Of Consciousness

.Reading time 4 minutes.
The light of consciousness is like a ray from the sun
It shot me through like a loaded gun
And I was fourteen and lost in a mess
Loaded down with heavy distress
When suddenly the exit to maze
I looked up and the girl was saved 
From a fate worse than death - to live her life 
As a student, a worker, a mother, a wife
I couldn’t grow up, I was like Peter Pan
“Please don’t let me become a man”
Coz I saw what they do on the daily
Look death in the face and smile so gaily
With reasons why it was just so
They were old, they had to let go
But I stared at the body in the coffin
And knew that I was not for crossin’ 
I prayed to God that he make me anew 
And not let the tree be cut in two
So I splintered and fragmented but held strong
I am not doing anything wrong
Anxiety, depression, all kinds of tests
But my inner being is at rest
And she found a chink in my armour
And I don’t mean to alarm her 
But the thread she wound spun me in spools
Til I was sweating buckets in school
Walk into the classroom; “what will they think”
I’m clean and I’m quiet and I don’t even drink
And Elaine is so nice and Lisa too
Doireann and Kelly and my eyelashes are blue
As I try to explain, I try to convey 
Exactly what happened to me that day
A smile was born as I crumpled to the floor
Letting go of the pain and something to adore
It was all lights out as the faint took hold
And when I woke up the ceiling was gold
And Mrs. Earley is kneeling over my form
How do I tell her that I was just born
They give me tea with sugar to pump up my blood
But something just walked out of the wood 
Into the sun of the God of all time
How could I not have known the wealth that is mine 
As it spread like a banquet over the table
Telling cripples to get up and walk now they’re able 
And this message was hidden, this message submerge
But now that the ocean is on the verge
Of washing away, now the time has come
For the ice age to be undone 
And walk all the souls back to their home 
Death is not the end and you are never alone
As Nirvana grips me by the tongue
Break identification with what was young
Coz you will never grow old though the body may fade
You’ll always be vital as the words on this page
In your spirit, in your core and not by degree
Now awakening is rippling out from me
To touch every soul that ever takes birth
You were not born to live within the confines of hurt
You were not born to stoop, you were not born to cower
Wake up and realise your inherent power
As you breathe
You don’t need
The next breath to come
Each one is whole from the old to the young
And those stars in your eyes are like atoms spinning
Don’t doubt your worth when you’re bi-winning
I rub my eyes with my sleeve
Think of the fallen valley I used to believe
Was the whole story
Now the vibration is enough to floor me
Back to the day I was dancing a reel
You’re not what you think and what you feel
Is as passing as diamonds on the surface of the sea
Though sparkling, they just reflect the true civility 
Of a sun that never sets because you don’t spin 
On the axis of something I didn’t begin

The Sunshine On The Street

.Reading time less than 1 minute.
The sunshine on the street caught my eye 
And I am not afraid to die 
To the lie 
That has everyone following a string
He asks and I give him everything 
But it is no use 
I feel the pulse confuse
Us both with its throbbing might
I’m sorry but are you alright
And we both stare 
Into the space love left
Is it theft 
If your heart has stolen away 
To another pair of hands 
And we’re standing on holy sands 
As the water beats the shore
And I confess all that I adore 
To an empty blank page 
Do you think the sage 
Could mean me 
When He says Eternity

Youth And It’s Evasion

.Reading time 1 minute.
I feel the age of youth slip away
You know the one when every day
Is the break of sunrise
And you’re inoculated from the lies
But the burden crushed the butterfly
Crouched in a corner and the fever die
Creeps in on me, I was fourteen 
And the scene 
Threatened to overwhelm 
The captain at the helm
Of this great ship I own
Now the game is thrown 
Fast forward to twenty three
And everything has deserted to me
In search of a grip on the ledge
But there’s just a neighbour looking over the hedge
Wondering if I’ll let go
The sweat is pumping and you know
There’s only so long I can hang on 
My fingers fail and doing wrong
Falls into the dark
I know I said it don’t leave a mark
But it do
I struggle to get over you
Now ten years later, I’m a thirties blue
And I must give time it’s due
It soothes the welts with healing balm
Replaces death with unearthly calm
That seems to settle in my bones
You are never alone 
And iPhones
Only serve to annunciate
A deeper connection in another state
We have yet to learn
I trust in fate and it burn

Glasses And The Lens

.Reading time 2 minutes.
The control and the weariness 
As I trek down the path they mark
But I think they’re stumbling in the dark
Trying to cut a swathe 
I was a person the darkness saved 
From being a rote learned bitch
It saw me open and made the switch
Now I’m the nothingness expanse
The emptiness when it starts to dance 
And there is no way to compare
What was to what isn’t there 
And Mooji says we’re cool
And I graduated from school
With the best I could 
I swore I would leave that wood 
Behind with my peace of mind 
As Tru spoke to me and I took it to heart
There was a life which depart
And I met another pair of eyes
That looked at me with no disguise 
And he is the Heaven and Earth to me
It’s fifteen years and I let him see
That a gravity in his bones 
Walked me right out of my alones 
And she was by my side
I dunno why I thought to hide 
What was real and raw
From the viciousness of an outlaw
Who abides not in time
It’s all I can do to make it rhyme
Zippered in a tent so tight
And I wonder if we’re alright
In the place it hurts
I don’t want to make it worse
But I think you need to hear it from me
I take off my glasses and now I see

Caves And Close Shaves

.Reading time 1 minute.
I’m burning down the house I made in my mind
Leave that old cave behind
The one I used to spit and moan
And mainly just feel all alone
Coz they inoculate shame
And call you by your first name
When they want you to back down
Or go ahead and drown
In the ocean that submerge
Don’t you know it’s just a word
They used to categorise 
You so that you’re something in their eyes
And maybe they steal
But they can’t take what is real
No matter how hard they try
And I know that we all die
But I can’t stay under this roof
Where’s your evidence, where’s your proof
That I was ever anything other
Than a cloud that would smother
You with a hot heat
Thick and heavy as defeat

Top Of The Rock

.Reading time 2 minutes.
Am I gonna die if I feel this feeling
Coz I hear a voice screaming in my head
And one day I’m scared I’m gonna wake up dead
Travelling through a vortex through open space 
Why do I keep seeing his face 
And that window in my apartment on floor five
How the hell am I still alive
When all around me has withered 
And the demons veritably slithered 
Down the garden path on the way to Eden
When Eve steps on their heads is it just that she doesn’t see them
And where is Adam in all of this
Is he just lost in his first kiss
With the bride of his dreams 
Is nothing as it may seem
Coz is God the overlord
Or is he simply the spoken Word
That turns Spirit into flesh
Made the sexes and all the rest
All the animals and all the birds
All the potential in the unheard 
And in the night do you hear the call
It was a freefall 
That year I committed myself to you
It’s 2012 and I’m walking through
The doors of my mind back to you then
In all of this did I lose a friend 
Somewhere in the aftermath
And I’m not scared of wrath
By some deity
Telling me that it hates me 
In the world of the hologram 
If there is a plan 
It must be Love
Coz without It what is the above
But a sanctity we fear
I’m running with wolves and near
To the free wind
To love versus to have sinned 
Coz you’re about as bad as they get
But I can bring myself to regret 
Our cataclysm 
Is it time to heal the Great Schism

Paddy’s Eyes

.Reading time 1 minute.
Paddy’s eyes were like stone opals 
And I wonder how he is
Did he get his woman
Did he get his wish
Coz for a while he was mine
And I can see the sparkles shine 
As they encase his face 
Not one hair was out of place 
And he had that devilish grin
And a personality that would win
You over with a smile 
I keep it on file
But the memories fade
And the bodies age 
Do you still have facial hair
And a presence that is just there
And we crossed paths in Spiral Tree
I caught you stare at me
As I wait by the bar
Oh, if I could only know what you are 
Coz you escape definition
And the early edition
Of the Longford Leader
(If you took time to read her)
Announces our notice true
What would my life look like with you
By my side, coz you’re in my heart
I watch the comet turn an arc
And come back to flame
Is it okay I used your name?

Love The Sun

.Reading time 1 minute.
The diary of me
Is something you’ll never see
Cos you scribbled on the page
And hit me with your rage
Fed me slowly piece by piece
To the war I cannot make cease
And she strides in with her tide
Tells me I’m alive
And what she would do to make it more so
But I just want her to let it go
Coz it’s brutality 
Though she never see
Exactly what she does to me 
In the name of love
Or at least the kind she’s thinking of 
Obedient to a fault
And I got locked inside the vault
With only T for company
And they expect me to abandon at a flaw
The heat that made the ice thaw
In the winter of my life
I love the sun, I hope that’s alright

Motionary

.Reading time less than 1 minute.
Is it that there’s too much to say
Or not enough 
Coz you’ve got to know
I’ve always cared for you, love
And there’s a distance between us
Or a depth we can’t dive
We breathe in the air
Just to survive
And the cogs they turn
In the wheels of our life
It’s like a winter’s morning
With a new bite
In the air 
That you can just taste
Oh, what in the world 
Did you create?

Composition

.Reading time 1 minute.
Staying up all night writing rhymes
Just get a damn job
But I’ve got inspired
And I would only rob
Future generations of all their freedom
I know this is good but will anyone see them
To be Amadeus out on the line
I’ve got to get it down like the thousandth time
As it rattles in my head like an old guitar
I scribble my life down at the bar
As the summer is storming and the winter is cold
And I’ve got global warming to face as I grow old 
And we’re all just sheets of paper from the end
But we’ve got our lives left to pretend
That we’re not these vessels and we can’t contain 
An ocean’s worth of indefatigable pain
As I see in you what I feel in me
We’ve both got our roots in Eternity

A Race I Can’t Pursue

.Reading time 1 minute.
Trying to keep up to a race I can’t pursue 
It’s like trying to win the attention of you
And you just turn away, a shoulder to glance
And I am there begging for another chance
To be who I am in your company
But you know we’re just friends, it’s not eternity
And I promised you silver and I promised you gold
Promised together in the growing old
But now it’s as though a chasm has opened
Do you hear me at all or am I just hoping
As I see you though the gaps in my hands
Fingers clasped over eyes that understand 
The motion of trees
That we wouldn’t work, would you believe
In all that turns out to be true
If you rely on the weather, it just changes you
And I can’t cut the grass on the field that you own
Can’t win me over once the game is thrown
Into the midnight and out with the day
I’m kind of conflicted about us, okay?

The Golden Hearse

.Reading time 1 minute.
The axe chopped down the tree
And, the wood, it was me
As I fell from on high
Hard, for some guy
And he brushes me off
But I sense a depth
I get the feeling
He regrets
Letting us go
But, then again, what do I know
And I used to blaze a trail
Til I found his and without fail
I used to follow, breadcrumb sweet
The pebbles led me to where we meet
But there is no way back
And I didn’t mean to attack
I was just vociferously 
Defending the best of me
As you tried to tear me down
But you didn’t see the crown
On the king
The bird can fly with a broken wing
But it’s stuttered and weak
You kind of leave me speechless and meek
As you gently assume the worst
The best dress to the golden hearse

Remember Me, Love

.Reading time 1 minute.
Remember me, love
As I lie in wait
I sit on the bed
And think of a date 
I once had with you
I was one of the few
To walk in that open door
Would you like to see the shore
That laps the waves
And all the lost boys it saves
And Barry made a joke of me
But he was hella cute
Even if he did play the flute
And I’m looking at Hozier
On a magazine
Thinking he might just be the dream
Some Andrew Byrne with height
I bet we’d never fight
Only do things 
He dare not speak
Lest I see where he’s weak
And now I have the freedom
To be encased
Do you remember 
The first time our hearts raced
As we sat side by side
Just bristling with the feeling
Of being alive
And you zing with magic
Some electric touch
And I know I’m someone 
You’d like to rush
Into something unseen
I’m just part of the dream
On your screen
No solipsis, just the Queen
To put a crown on your head
And there are mornings
We could wake up dead
But, so far, we’re good
No Snow White in the wood
Just a single dancing elf
That asks you to just be yourself
When you move with me
It’s priceless, baby, but its free

The Age Of Him

.Reading time 1 minute.
Cruising at 35,000 feet
I’m on the ground, I can’t stand the heat
As it’s burning through my clothes and skin
The rage, the page, the age of him
As he’s darkly circumspect
And I’m the weakness you know best
As you ruminate your heel
I know the ways you cannot deal
In singing songs and infidelities 
In formation like a flock of geese
And I’m weary at the knees
Trying my best to please
But you just turn your head
No empty space in your bed
But someone else instead
I think the trauma’s going to my head
As you ashen faced tell me the truth
I drop the pillars of our youth
And they fall asunder
Did you know death had your number
When he rang your phone
Now I am all alone
And won’t come to your door
Because I couldn’t want you more
But you left me like a sleep
Like I’m a problem you can’t keep
Close to your chest 
Does your lover know you best
And is it her or me
I don’t know, I’ve got to see

The Age of the Airbender

.Reading time 1 minute.
Do you see yourself in my refractions
And are these words more than transactions
Coz I can’t spell out what we seem to be
And it’s been years that you’ve blamed me
For something that is not my fault
Like pulling tracks from the vault 
Like you’re a songstress with a pen
And I land at your door once again
With a bouquet of apologies
If you want I’ll ask from my knees
Coz you are age old and awesome
You’re a kaleidoscope 
And it’s a slippery slope
Back into what we always were
It’s always my name next to her
And it’s not all roses in this flower bed
But I’m still a place you can rest your head
And lean on if you need strength
And I return the books you rent
Coz you loaned them to me
And you are my degree set free
In moderation, that is key
As we peer through our history
The faint light we used to be
Is now a river running free
Cause there are oceans calling us
And you’re a love that I trust
To always come back around
You be silence in the sound

In One

.Reading time 3 minutes.
Mercury’s in retrograde
And Irish people call a spade a spade 
Coz you know that morbid humor 
Isn’t gonna make it get you any sooner 
And I’m poised between a perfect spin
And in my mind I’m dancing with him
On an empty street
Oh, how I cursed the stars that meet
Us on the street or on the bus
There was just that feeling of trust
As I let myself believe
And I watch you hide your hands up your sleeve 
That morning in the Mall
Want to take a walk or shall
We just stare at each other across a mirage 
And I draw lines across your visage 
That will one day be a wrinkle in time 
But you’ll never stop being fine
As I watch you live your life with someone else
You advise me it’s best to take care of my mental health 
Coz you know stability is a wealth
So I smack the camera out of your hand
I will be grand 
Just not knowing
Coz I’m not finished growing
Gardens in my mind 
And they’re not well tended or left behind 
They are veritably wild 
And in my heart I’m still a child 
And I scoff in the face 
Of the rules that you chase 
So go ahead, be normal
Address me in a tone that’s formal
Coz you don’t have the time 
To watch my stellar shine
And maybe you were just afraid 
Coz, you know, that “bitch”, she slayed 
And all the lines that they encase
Won’t find you that dream you chase
Of 2.5 and a car
Don’t you ever wonder what we are 
And reincarnation kinda resembles the setting sun
But do you think we could get it in one
Coz this axis is an endless spin
And Nirvana revealed itself to him
When I let him into my sphere 
Now we are ever near
Like two orbiting souls 
Planets ruled by the poles 
But what is this non dual understanding 
All I know is you were commanding
My attention when you suggested
That we go get arrested
Just for the hell of it
Who am I sharing my heart with?
But I can’t help the laugh that escapes 
And not all superheroes wear capes 
But you sure do
Could I kick it with you 
In the summer of our age
I think I’m gonna need another page 
To get this down 
I won’t wear a gown
But in a t-shirt and jeans
I met the man of my dreams

Marriage Proposals

.Reading time 3 minutes.
I got my last marriage proposal during MCR
While I was dancing just missing her 
And a guy got down on one knee 
It wasn’t timing, it was just destiny 
And Gerard Way was giving it socks 
A year before Ken undid all the locks 
And we’re dancing to the groove
You’re covered in mud watching me move 
And I say gee shucks 
And we both give all the fucks 
In the world in that moment held 
Seventeen and in the Veld 
As we both let the music just carry
Us to the meaning of marry 
And, now, cut to the scene 
Have the past million years been just a dream 
And I know it was a joke 
In the years before woke 
Culture took the lead
And society screams the way we bleed 
In the teen years of forever 
And it’s just a step above never never
And before the banking suit
But I cut and run and he’s still a flute 
That just drinks its own flavor in
And I guess I am taken with him
From now until the end of time 
An alchemy I thought I’d left behind 
In the young years before twenty four 
Took more from me than I can adore 
And I’m all for making the best of things 
But they sort of clipped my wings 
As they held me in a cell 
In all but name and with a bell
By the bed in case I need 
A nurse to recite the creed
That I live by now 
It’s rote learned and it makes me bow 
Like a weeping willow to the floor
And it just makes me think of you more
And wonder if you think I’m crazy
And I just call you baby
In my mind when they shut the doors 
Locked them and what’s more 
Tell me that I can’t leave 
And what I’m supposed to believe 
Like a mannequin 
With puppet strings, where do I begin 
To tell the story of a desert town
And the thought of that gown 
Hanging in my wardrobe unworn
Is like the vow we’ve never sworn
To each other haze
Looking our for someone to save
Me from this maze
But it’s just the end of days
Every morning that you wake up
To begin is to end the love
Coz what Is always is
And if we meet does that mean I’m His? 
Or is it just a summer spin
Here’s the sound of me letting you in

Liquor Talk

.Reading time 1 minute.
The last time we spoke
I found you unabashedly woke
And I was a little shy
Coz I feel I’m gonna die
Like dead, like RIP me
Coz you are quintessentially free
And I can’t contain
An ocean in your mountain of pain
Because the forest runs wild
And I have loved you since I was a child 
Growing up to the brambles and brush 
Always being in a sort of a rush
Trying to fit in all I can
Then suddenly, a man 
At eighteen years old
The story’s not even close to being told 
Coz I’m ancient and I’m new
But I’ve never seen anything like you
With your debonair 
And your cute as hell fucking hair
And I know you might disagree
But, honey, if it was up to me
I’d keep you for a century, more
Fall to the floor
Coz I adore 
Everything in the way you move 
You look like Astaire in your shoes 
As they make a pattern on me
I love you Now, eternally

My Greatest Defeat

.Reading time 1 minute.
You are my greatest defeat
I just fall at your feet
And open up the midnight in the dawn
I look to my side and you are long gone 
And I’ve mountains to climb
But there were oceans of you being mine
Just settling down with a kid on the way
What is it that people say
“You’ll understand when you’re older”
But your gravity makes me bolder
Bold enough to refuse 
The point you want to prove 
With your gravelly voice
As if I even had a choice
To choose my own oppression 
And this is my confession
You always felt like a weight to carry
This guy who sorta wants to marry
Me at half my age
There’s ink enough to fill the page
With the stories that I make of us
Pencil marks on broken trust
Coz I just rewrite the story
Think of me in all of my glory
Just asking you to stay the night
You ask me if I’m alright
And I am but I’m sorta not 
The tilted stage is a lot
And is it every relationship 
Soldiers that war equip
To hold out on each other strong
I didn’t do anything wrong
It just wasn’t meant to be
Back then, but now I see
The fluorescent in the neon light
I don’t let you outta sight
And I was queen until we meet
Hold on, I’ve got another sheet
I’ve got to fill
You forget but I never will

The Avenues

.Reading time 1 minute.
Which would be worse
That you move to Australia 
Or that I meet you on the street
And the words they might fail ya
As you present 
Your wife and kids
And I must contend 
With the life that’s his
And I let it go at eighteen
And I’ve been trying to right the dream
Ever since
I wince
When I think of all the truth I spilled
Out from my soul like it is killed
And I know he knotted threads
Wore them thinner as I lay in bed
With fear in my throat
If you burn a witch would she float 
And I can’t fight with this great swathe of sea
As it’s all pouring through me 
Like a vessel in the storm
Giving voice to the cold meets warm
And there’s really nothing stopping the flow
When you know you just let go

It Was More Than That

.Reading time 1 minute.
It was a grapevine fire that caught onto you
And I didn’t want you to know I was staring through
A portal into another world
How did I not see that you had a girl
And all my detective, all my sleuth
Building pillars of time upon our youth
And they had me admitted to a psych ward
I just look at you when I’m bored
And it makes me smile 
Then Emmett crashes in for a while 
With his clipboard and pen 
Could you say that again 
Like I said to you
The pain in your eyes was pushing me through
The eye of a needle so fine
God, I wish we would’ve had more time
Til the separate 
Would you call it fate
Or just say it’s my fault 
That a heart’s not made to be locked in a vault
And let out on special occasions 
Jesus, what are those abrasions 
Did you roll down a hill
He tells the truth but I never will
In his company 
And he just acts the fool with me 
And I feel whole 
I didn’t realise I’d found my soul

Heaney’s Shovel

.Reading time less than 1 minute.
Here is my pen like the blade of a knife
As it furrows through earth already turned twice 
And there is treasure within, I can hear it call
And all of the problems are not there at all
As I open air in the core of my being
I know there is something here worth seeing
And they tell me lies but they believe
In all of the strings that hang from my sleeve
And I’m just untwining a tapestry
So the threads might be able to run free
And make themselves a masterpiece
Not somebody else’s picture to learn to crease

Emptiness, Devoid Of Form

.Reading time 2 minutes.
The feel of not existing
Like I don’t have a form
Even though the body’s breathing
Is vital and is warm
Like I’m spirited away 
To another dimension
But I’m still in this one
And there’s inherent tension
Between what I am
And what I could be 
I always feel the gap
Though others cannot see
And I’m mindful and secure
Minute and profound
But my wings are getting lazy
From staying on the ground
And I want to try them out 
To see if I would soar
You say don’t wish for miracles 
But I just want them more
As I’m touched by the divine
In form but beyond reason
It’s time to remind you
That life is but a season
And like leaves in Autumn
We colour up then fade away
Don’t blame me for wanting more
To make enough of this day
That we’re given, in between two nights
He speaks to me a moment and my spirit ignites
To burn a hole in destiny or all that is to come
I’m not just a tragic tale I’ve been telling the young
To be wary and be watchful
But don’t forget to dance
I spin the top of reason 
And give you a second chance
To be all that you might
Ever want to desire
You looked in my eyes
I burnt up in the fire
That consume like ash and rust
For a phoenix to rise
It’s been exaggerated
The reports of my demise
I’m still flipping the lid
Of every bottle top
And you cannot contain me
As something that I’m not
But something that I am
And ever will be
I opened up my heart
Suddenly, I am free

The Snowdrops

.Reading time 1 minute.
The snowdrops show their skin in January
When everything else is cold with the snow 
And like the darkest night 
It's only then it lets you go 
Coz I found 
The slightest sound
Was enough to wake the house 
So I learn to do without 
In the evenings I 
Just contemplate the way I die
To each and every moment fresh
And every second is the best 
In Immortal Being 
There's nothing new for the seeing 
Just what you have always been 
You are untethered from the dream 
That heretofore held you back 
But there's nothing that you lack 
And the dog days may be over 
But that doesn't stop me wishing on a four leafed clover 
To win the day 
It's not held within what people say 
But it is effervescently free 
But it's everywhere, don't look at me 
As though I'm something rarefied 
It's just something in me that's died
A thread that's broken, identified 
And it's more an omission than I lied