Tag: beauty

The Flood That Washed The Bones Away

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It’s either a famine or a feast
So say the ones who have deceased
And left us with their words
And I may be away with the birds
But I still have something left to impart
Because that holy dart
Struck me straight into the heart
And said stand up and speak 
The one who says to the weak 
Or the cripple to walk
I’ve been silent but now I talk 
And my voice is resonant 
With a power that’s heaven sent
As the Christ makes Himself known 
In the garden that has grown 
In the absence of stares
And somebody cares
About who you are 
And every star
That ever was must burn
So why did my sky take a turn 
To spin around the sun
I think I know the only One
That will ever come to reside
In the heart where love abide
As I give the King his reign
Please don’t ask me to do that again
But if you do I will consent 
And acquiesce to your request 
To be the tower in the shade
It’s something I cannot evade
As I spill secrets to my GP
And she looks back at me 
With frightened eyes
My disguise
Has grown thin
Since I revealed myself to him 
And I can no longer lie by omission
Or sell myself for a commission
But bullet reverberate around my soul 
Leaving me riddled with holes
Like the pillars of the GPO
Who are the British in this, do you know?

The Machinations Of War

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I tried to scream but they stifled the cry
Now I must watch the people die
And it’s game over in the extreme
As people wake up from the dream 
And wonder what it is they have been doing
The empty hands they are pursing 
In the hope that it will bring them gold 
But they forget to look inside their soul 
To find what’s there to share
The loaves and the fish and people care
About each other
A bomb drops and another mother 
Hears her child’s stifled scream 
For the last time as the seam 
Is burst on the dress we sew 
And there may be people in the know 
But they can’t see what we are 
I look over at him in my car
As we drive to the sunset in my sky
But I watched the fading from view lie
In wait for every summer sun
You wake up and you are the one
Who will be the endeavoured in the replete
The woman may have washed Jesus’ feet
With her hair
But were you there 
When he let her be
And for free
Forgave what held her down
Like the men about the town
Who used her for what she could 
Only sell in that type of wood 
And the trees holds whispers still 
Feel the weight of heavy will 
Signal summer in the breeze
The weight is heavy but my knees 
Can finally lift their stone
And if I must I will leave home

Enchantment

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The look of men as they cross my path
And something in their stillness dulls the wrath
Of the God inside my heart 
One’s a musician, another makes art
Another studied with me in school
And we broke every rule
That night in Tripod when we 
Kissed the edge of destiny
And made two into the one we are 
He reminds me of a burning star
In its effervescent red 
And I know he took other girls to bed
But it doesn’t dim the look in my eye
Because I know that I would die
Just to see him smile
And I haven’t seen him in a while
But we are connected on a level beneath
The roads that move under our feet
Do you remember the night I chased you down
As you tried to escape to your side of town 
And we talked about having a cup of tea
As you looked over at me 
Wondering what I might mean
But you are more than the dream 
Supping oxygen in the tent
I wonder where those years went
And you threw your arm around my neck 
In the days reality seems to wreck 
With it’s assurance of get to be 
But you were everything to me
And somehow you still are 
I wonder if your heart
Is still the same hue as it always was
I needed you to know because
It’s not every day you meet upon the trail
A love that simply will not fail 
So when you look up into the sky
Know that there’s a love that will never die
And it burns for you here 
In this heart beyond the fear 
Of what they might say
You showed your cards and I play
My own onto the table so you see
That you meant the whole world to me

The Fields We Know

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The dying of the light
Everything is gonna be alright 
Because the night
Only comes so that the dawn
Shows you what was never gone
And we are in a cyclical spin 
But I am always in love with Him
As, steadfast, He spans the dream
And I only know how to be a queen 
Unselfish unto the sky
And not afraid to die 
For what I Am 
Standing for what you cannot plan 
To come to be and sustain
The fields do not refuse rain

Pinprick

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She makes a pinprick to draw blood
Just to see if she could
To see if I’m still real
If I’m alive, if I feel
And it’ll heal
But I remember the shark in her eyes
When she met me that day in the car
So far away from where you are
Looking at your ship go out
Before I was submerged in my own self doubt
As it washes to shore
And I couldn’t have loved you more
But it wasn’t enough
Coz when times got tough
All the pencils failed me and broke
And I could feel my breath start to choke
On the words I spit out at you
Coz you don’t love me too
Or so they say or so she says
Coz she’s familiar with your ways
In real life
I’m just the wife
Who is too close to see
In her eyes that all he wants is me
Submerged in the subterranean wildflower bloom
And I’d know if he was in the room
Coz electricity flows from his pulse
I describe it and she revulse 
At the thought he could shock me awake
I gave it up for your sake

Oh Elaine

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Oh Elaine whose words of wisdom
Would you use them to forgive them
For me
You were always so eternity
As you encourage the best of me
To keep on with the fight
Like you’re the match and I ignite 
With every spark that fuse
Uses the road to confuse
Me with the skin I know
And I did not let you go
I just had to gain some ground 
So I could hear the sound
Of alone together 
And the weather
Brings me back to your door
I knock and ask if you love me more
For the absence that held
There was something that weld
You to me
In those years infinity
As we traversed the town
And there was no trace of a gown
As we blue jean the scene 
Like a Jane Eye and Lizzie dream
I have the blind hero and you
Are heir to a love most true
That beats in both our hearts
What is it that it imparts
I hope that equanimity 
Still holds the best of me
In the soul of you
It means so much to me that us two
Were what we are
I still drive the car
With the memory of you knocking on the window
To show me left from right though
And you do not let go
I love you always and I hope you know

The Ribbons And The Dress

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Darling, be true, be true to me
Coz the ribbon you’re pullin is setting me free
And it’s as though the waves of you reach the shore
And I’m always hoping for a little bit more
Coz the rivers they play on the blue of the wall
I thought I was through it but I wasn’t at all
And the knives and valleys follow me round
But if a tree falls do you hear the sound
In a forest that is both deep and green
You make your way out like it is a scene
On a movie set and the script
Is one of adventure for which you’re equipped
And I may be strange and you may be weird
I don’t think I’ve seen anyone with the same kind of beard
But you just throw the light in magnificent shapes
And you’ve got the kind of wings with which I could escape
If you’d be willing to bear my weight
Like the tide go with all of the hate
And let the sea clear what’s never been known
Would you love my true colours if I let them be shown

Waiting For Dreams

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I’m waiting in Longford town
To see if you’re free to be around 
And I know it’s a futile endeavor
Rachel says that it will never
Happen to me, at least not with you
Or at least not now and that’s all well to do
But sometimes I feel you scorching my soul
Heave with the ocean as the waves roll
And the thunderclouds clap
All of my ideas off the map
As I write the essence of you
In plurals and mosaics split in two
And I wonder what are we
What is the difference between me and she
And she looks pretty fine
And if I was a guy I could call her mine
But you, oh, effortless you
Are just like the window that I see through
And delineate 
Draw it up, then call it fate
As I awaken inside
To all the love that just abide
And bursts through
I want you to know I’m thinking of you

That Leaden Feeling

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To find that she doesn’t slake the lust
Lost in cobwebs of broken trust
And you look at me with a sigh
Coz you just want me to die
In the bed I’ve made for myself
And blame the tragedy on poor mental health 
So you are free to do as you wish
And never is our first kiss
To quell the storm
Do you keep a body warm
When you’re lost in pain
In agony and the rain
Clatters against the window 
But no Cathy to let her in though
As I quote a novel from centuries ago
Healthcliff was kinda mean though
Though the eternal rocks beneath
Resemble the pavement that make up the street
And concrete boots as I walk to you
Would you wear another’s shoe 
Just so you could find a mile
Leads you to break a smile 
As you see a new dawn
In a place where the person’s gone

Her Complicity

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She was there when you weren’t
I had to get by
On crutches 
So I wouldn’t die
And the battering winds 
Shook the shutters 
Wooden and thin
Til I stumbled upon the dream of him
Somewhere on a reading scene 
It was like something woke the dream
Up from where it was in bed 
I found myself instead
And I had a flame so red 
Looking into my eyes 
But I couldn’t hide the disguise 
That just erupted 
Have I fucked it up
Coz I know I still think of you
And his trail of blue 
How do I decide 
Which one I choose to tell lies 
Like I could be bound in matrimony 
But it just starts to feel a little phoney 
Coz I could never be tied by a ring
That follows me round like a golden string

The Pain You Inflict

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I can not deny it hurt
And made me question my self worth
As he throws barbs across the line
For the way that he does time
And wants me to know the feel
Of the way his pain is real 
And that cutting a deal
Is out of the question now 
But still he pulls me in somehow
Into a sort of heavenly light
I think you’re awesome, alright
And he knows it too
But I can’t ignore that she’s with you
Every night to keep you warm
Imagine you next to her form
As you both share a bed
One where you’re colossally wed 
While I’m tinkering away in the shed 
Making something for your eyes 
That pierce through an ample disguise 
That has shrouded us in mystery
Oh, what a fabrication is history
When it comes to what is here 
And you are always near
To the soul that beats my heart
I didn’t mean for forever to start
But now it has and be damned 
I’m in love with the same old man

Nirguna Brahman

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Up and out
Beyond any doubt
I was struck through the core
And I was not the girl anymore
I didn’t have friends, I didn’t have foes
It was no longer anything goes 
And Deirdre had wound a spell 
Until I was very unwell
Worrying a thread
That took up space in my head 
When suddenly free
Forgiveness and destiny
Found it’s way around my limbs 
Life is like a game of the Sims 
Little people living their story
But the great expanse simply adore me 
Now that I’m free
Breathing in and out eternity
And I’m not sure if I should explain
That you don’t get wet when you stand in the rain
A shower from the sky
I am that which will never die 
In the ocean of disrepute 
A current that you can dispute
Its its own life
And they ask the wife
How it feels to be so
600 points but they won’t let go
Of what they think they know
A doctor ma’am?
I don’t think they know what I am
As the dragon, it breathes, my chest rises and falls 
Does Peter Parker have to walk up walls?

Empress

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I try so hard to be what you need 
But we both bleed 
From sensitivity and wounds life inflicts 
They say time heals but there’s something that sticks 
And it may be that you
Just can’t bear to walk into 
What walked out into the sky
And I wrestle with the fact that we all die
And that everything is empty air
But I know you were there 
In the years and I look
You’re still an open book
And I love to read 
Something in me was freed
To read between the lines
When will be our time 
To triumph like the lion over the sea
It’s a crowd and they’re worshipping me 
And you, the steady stone 
Let me be with you alone 
You’re a monument of time 
And your poetry rhyme 
When you put it into verse 
You can be a little terse 
With me but I see
Cracks of eternity
Shining like light through the clay
And I stay 
Away so you can have your space 
But I love your face 
And the example you set
A love neither one of us forget
As we age
I get another page 
And scribble down my truth
A shared youth 
And trial by fire
But it only burns to take us higher
Or deeper you could say
A soulmate in the play
Of form
And the storm 
Batters the coast
But somehow you still stand for what I love the most
Truth and integrity
A fierce abandon and wilful sincerity
Matched only by your deep stare
How is it to know we both are there
In the eternal zone 
Just call me when you feel alone 
Coz I am here 
Though death may be ever near
As it threatens me 
With the despair and identity
That will never be enough
To barricade against the love 
That shines relentless 
I think you may be Empress

Erasing The Distinction

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Erasing the distinction between this and that
It’s not like I came down in the first batch 
Of Commerce students from 2010
But would I live those years again
When the trauma of the classroom
Was simply exhausting 
And I used to hide in the loo
The girls banged doors and put on make up too
And their voices were so loud 
So I learned to drown out the crowd 
With Biffy Clyro in my ears 
They scream of a puzzle littered with tears
But I found a boy with eyes like the ocean
He looked at me with genuine emotion
And I learned to feel the flame 
When I’d hear someone say his name 
And he was red as a ruby, a precious stone 
And I was not alone 
When he used to say; join the gang
And my phone, it rang
With joy instead of pain
Will I ever see him again
I wonder 
And the thunder 
Beckons like a sudden storm
You were nothing but warm
And good to me
Do you remember the time that we
Met each other at the gate 
And entered into another state
As I let you know I had your deets 
And yet you shared your sheets 
With anyone you’d like to choose 
And it was like a life I’d lose 
When I’d see you with lips to match
Burning in another girls thatch
I could feel the envy start
Then you’d tell me I was smart
Because you’d heard the rumour that got out
About the grade I did without
And we just dropped home Sam
You were in my car and I had no plan
To let you go
I still love you, I hope you know
As we brew our own beer
And no mountain is worth the fear
It takes to make it to your side 
It’s the kind of thing that abide 
Somewhere in my ocean deep
You are the love I love to keep
Safe and secure 
Hit me up, any time, I’m sure
You’re welcome here 
I hope you’re well and you’re still cool, my dear



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Tell You How I Feel

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I wrote a story in the years of twenty two
I was the heroine and I was with you
As your drug of choice 
Never mind that my voice
Was stifled in your angry stare
I woke up to realise you weren’t there 
But with some other chick
I cursed under my breath and called you in the thick
Of it just to confirm 
That the way my heart burn
Was a solo affair
And my only prayer 
Was that you be content
Coz the way things went
Could be enough to dement
The both of us 
And broken trust
Lies like glass on the floor 
As I lie to the one I adore 
For the sake of propriety
Does he know that it ignites me 
When he spills words on a screen
What is the difference between the dream
And the real
Does he feel
Anything akin to love
I watch the dove
Take flight from my heart
And journey to your part
Of town
But I drown
In words and phrases 
And the city the pain razes
As I try to shut it down
Because I see a gown
On the horizon
And it’s all I can keep my eyes on
When everything is going to hell
Did I tell you that I wish you well
A one winged bird and I fly 
In the empty open sky
Full of love for what you are
I watch you from the vantage point of a star
So near but from afar
And dream of you in my car
Where I keep the music box
With cds that undid the locks 
On the both of us 
Just laughter on the bus 
In a place no one can reach
Oh, the vagaries of what they teach
Is right and just
You seem nonplussed 
As I leave it on the line 
I would like to call you mine
I falter, would that be okay
Babe, why didn’t you say?

Buataisí Beaga

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The fire seems to catch me by the boots 
And throw me upside down 
I catch my breath
And then I drown 
In the ocean of what we are 
Cosmically, a star
Fluttering somewhere on the edge of what we know 
I hold on because letting go
Isn’t an option now 
I see you somehow 
Through the smoke and fog
I throw another log 
On the burning hearth
It keeps me warm when it gets dark 
And you share this strength with me
As we fight, wilfully 
Abandon all life thought to know
About twin flames in the snow 
Finally, to realise 
We both share the same skies

Benjamin’s Blues

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The mountain sure seemed high til I climbed it
They’d tell you why but I wouldn’t mind it
And I just kick out from the shore 
I couldn’t tell you which I loved more 
The going away or the coming back
Do you really know something til you’ve felt it’s lack
And I was wandering in a cavalcade 
When I just happened upon your shade 
And it let me in 
I was warm when I was with him
As we both pause at the same time 
And he questions my rhyme 
I say it’s funny and he laughs 
I let him in because he asks 
So genially and off the cuff
Five minutes in and I know love 
Has me by the lapel 
But I think it’s too soon to tell
Him what I have on sheets 
Under cover and the streets 
Reminded me of the time I was tripping 
I hold the frame but the picture’s slipping 
And the more I try to steady the ship
The more I can sense an eclipse 
Coming on 
Now the reference is gone 
And I’m trying to even keel 
But the way I feel 
Just tells me to be honest
But I wouldn’t count on it 
And Benjamin is a sure shade of blue
I let it go and I trusted you

Caves And Close Shaves

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I’m burning down the house I made in my mind
Leave that old cave behind
The one I used to spit and moan
And mainly just feel all alone
Coz they inoculate shame
And call you by your first name
When they want you to back down
Or go ahead and drown
In the ocean that submerge
Don’t you know it’s just a word
They used to categorise 
You so that you’re something in their eyes
And maybe they steal
But they can’t take what is real
No matter how hard they try
And I know that we all die
But I can’t stay under this roof
Where’s your evidence, where’s your proof
That I was ever anything other
Than a cloud that would smother
You with a hot heat
Thick and heavy as defeat

Paddy’s Eyes

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Paddy’s eyes were like stone opals 
And I wonder how he is
Did he get his woman
Did he get his wish
Coz for a while he was mine
And I can see the sparkles shine 
As they encase his face 
Not one hair was out of place 
And he had that devilish grin
And a personality that would win
You over with a smile 
I keep it on file
But the memories fade
And the bodies age 
Do you still have facial hair
And a presence that is just there
And we crossed paths in Spiral Tree
I caught you stare at me
As I wait by the bar
Oh, if I could only know what you are 
Coz you escape definition
And the early edition
Of the Longford Leader
(If you took time to read her)
Announces our notice true
What would my life look like with you
By my side, coz you’re in my heart
I watch the comet turn an arc
And come back to flame
Is it okay I used your name?

So Close It’s Hot

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What is God if not a man
And I can’t seem to understand
The love I feel 
When the mountain kneel
At the foot of you
I want you too
It’s not one sided at all
I’m standing behind the waterfall
As it shields the shimmer
And I think we’re onto a winner
As you laugh and mess my hair 
I remember coz I was there
And I was so much younger then
But so we’re you and again
I play the tune that resonates
Could we call the Ball our dates 
As the Vengaboys play
And Liosa is not okay
So I exit the crowd with her
And I was loving what we were
As you followed us out
And all of my self doubt
Falls at the sight of your grasp
On all that is made to last

Rattlesnake

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There is a rattlesnake at my door
It whispers eclipse and a little bit more 
As I run for my life
But the rope is of being a wife
And I could have that scene I wanted to
Today's the first time I thought about you
In that way
And I say
It always comes with some sort of dread
But somehow I'm not thinking of your bed
Just your sullen eyes
And the way they barely disguise 
The heart within
Could I touch your sin
And heal you of your pain
If I make the water fall like the softest rain
Come to touch your skin
You don't remind me of him
Yet something's the same 
And your name 
Plays on repeat
I'm still on my feet
When I'm talking to you
Not knocked to the side like the thread's pulling through
To stitch a whole scene
It's just this moment and it's not a dream 
To say you're a really nice dude 
And you kinda exude
A warmth and a heart
And I would love to be a part
Of your friendship zone
I just want you to know you're not alone

Her Due Is Worth

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How do I pay her her due
Coz she was there when I needed you
In the young years of being misunderstood
She was like an atlas in this wood
Like a compass, like a dial
The queen of making someone smile
And hard times hit her and I tried to defend
But what can you say to your best friend
When you see the cascade at the mouth
Of the ocean you have come to doubt
In your seafaring ways
They were the worst of days
But they were also the best
Because we were like none of the rest
In our individual stance
And I just wanna dance
And know that she does too
I wish she knew how I felt about you 
Coz I feel sure she'd take action
And I speak your name like an infraction
Coz you're tied to another extreme
And wanting you would realise every dream 
I've ever had 
And I know I made you mad 
With my defiant stare
But I am there 
Or should I say here
The earth quakes when you are near
But she taught me of the eternal rock 
The one that's steady when you are not 
And I know we're just a ship that's sailed
But something within us has never failed
To meet the tide at it's best
I love her, and I forget the rest

Coz You Loved Taylor Swift

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You said hello
Then okay bye
And there's something about your soul 
That makes me want to cry
Coz you're perfect, you're sincere
But you falter the web when I come near
And you're soft to the touch
And you're easy, then strong
And you look at me like I
Could do no wrong
But I snuck a peak
Into the deepest part of you
And I let you in 
Coz you wanted me to
And all of the fabrications can't make this a lie
That we both wake up when the life tries to die
On us in this subterfuge
Do you take refuge
In her sudden storm
Does she do more than keep the bed warm 
And I ain't jealous, I'm just missing out
And you kind of hit the nail on the head of my doubt
When you said "tell your folks"
This couldn't be one of your jokes
That you just play on me
You're withering and it takes time to see
That the cavalcade is just there to test
And I am not bigger and brighter than the rest
I'm just the puzzle piece to your thaw
And you run the scene like you're an outlaw
As we both find solace in what can't be contained
A sky full of clouds and then it rained

Effortless

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I guess I was wrong
I was so hypocritical 
I never stood up for you
Antithetical
And the movement was counter
To the culture you know
So GAA in your face 
To hammer the blow
Home like you never knew   
But I loved you
And your depression reeks
Of the mountain you never speak
And I know you have something
In you to say
I can feel it when 
You look at me that way
And the colours are shining
And you’re full of pride
There’s a part of my life
That I always hide
From the well wishers from walls
Sick of getting these cold calls
From a foreign air
It’s as though I’m about to go spare
Running a race I’ll never win
If I agree will you let me in
But is that just bad form
When there’s a part of my heart warm
From the joy of just meeting you
I went along with it coz you wanted me to

The Illusion Of Separation

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Is love pain?
It’s a desire to be together again
And the separate
Kind of makes my hands shake 
As we’re torn asunder
And all that you have of someone is their number 
And years drag you apart
I am all heart
With a thin veneer
To protect me when danger comes near
And the cracks on my shell
Sure as hell wish me well
And I grow older 
And bolder 
With confidence
And the first defense 
Is the war you make
The splinters in each breath you take 
As you draw some inspiration
From the oxygen of your own creation
To live anew
I guess what I’m saying is I miss you

Composition

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Staying up all night writing rhymes
Just get a damn job
But I’ve got inspired
And I would only rob
Future generations of all their freedom
I know this is good but will anyone see them
To be Amadeus out on the line
I’ve got to get it down like the thousandth time
As it rattles in my head like an old guitar
I scribble my life down at the bar
As the summer is storming and the winter is cold
And I’ve got global warming to face as I grow old 
And we’re all just sheets of paper from the end
But we’ve got our lives left to pretend
That we’re not these vessels and we can’t contain 
An ocean’s worth of indefatigable pain
As I see in you what I feel in me
We’ve both got our roots in Eternity

A Race I Can’t Pursue

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Trying to keep up to a race I can’t pursue 
It’s like trying to win the attention of you
And you just turn away, a shoulder to glance
And I am there begging for another chance
To be who I am in your company
But you know we’re just friends, it’s not eternity
And I promised you silver and I promised you gold
Promised together in the growing old
But now it’s as though a chasm has opened
Do you hear me at all or am I just hoping
As I see you though the gaps in my hands
Fingers clasped over eyes that understand 
The motion of trees
That we wouldn’t work, would you believe
In all that turns out to be true
If you rely on the weather, it just changes you
And I can’t cut the grass on the field that you own
Can’t win me over once the game is thrown
Into the midnight and out with the day
I’m kind of conflicted about us, okay?

Everest

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Her pain is a mountain
That I can’t scale 
Like many on Everest
I’m born to fail
But I keep coming back
To her heavenly light
Whispers in the morning
You’ll be alright
And we grow up
Dust ourselves off
But we’ve still got 
That persistent cough
That hints at something
Underneath
She lowers a blow
Knocks me off my feet
And I know 
She don’t mean it
But did I 
Dream it
That we once were something true
Until I disappointed you
By being myself 
In a garden of verdant wealth
All to blossom and free
Sorry but, babe, you’re gnawing at me

Sexy Motherfucker

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Sexy motherfucker up on the stage
I put pen to paper and ruin the page
With all that I yearn for in the night
You’re one kind of trauma I don’t have to fight
As you sing with your heart and soul
And I feel the ache in the place I am not whole 
In the summer of a winter’s glen
Will this happen to me again 
If I don’t swim in ocean water
Trying to be a good daughter
And adhere to the lines 
If I’ve said it once I’ve said it a thousand times 
Skiing down the hill
Against the force of the brutal will
That seems to hold us all at bay
And it is not okay
Just to swim in that sea
Is it that you’re talking to me
When you commit me to a room
And I become familiar with the realm of doom
As it beats on my door 
Telling me it wants me more 
Than any earthly thing could contain
The paint is stripped by acid rain 
As it pours down in sheets 
The car is ruined and the sheep bleets

The Golden Hearse

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The axe chopped down the tree
And, the wood, it was me
As I fell from on high
Hard, for some guy
And he brushes me off
But I sense a depth
I get the feeling
He regrets
Letting us go
But, then again, what do I know
And I used to blaze a trail
Til I found his and without fail
I used to follow, breadcrumb sweet
The pebbles led me to where we meet
But there is no way back
And I didn’t mean to attack
I was just vociferously 
Defending the best of me
As you tried to tear me down
But you didn’t see the crown
On the king
The bird can fly with a broken wing
But it’s stuttered and weak
You kind of leave me speechless and meek
As you gently assume the worst
The best dress to the golden hearse

My Longing For Dublin

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Is my longing for Dublin just coz you’re in it
I’m on the decks and it’s the way that you spin it
And there are buildings scraping the sky
And a civilization threatening to die 
And I walked the yards into the green
I was ashamed of what I had been 
In midnights and the dawn
I searched for something but it was gone
A pyramid scheme 
Til the suffering woke the dream
Up from where it had been sleeping
Now it’s just the promise I’m keeping 
As I pray to a God without belief
And the moment of relief
When all and sundry falls away
Some have called it the break of day
But it’s the dark
The dead of night in the park
Just staring at walls
Hoping for a free for all
But I got a cell and a bed to lay
Could I have had it any other way?

One Kiss Love

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He’s not up for one kiss love
And I am ocean but there’s a dove
Come to bring news of nourishment 
It’s not many who need encouragement 
To sail that way across the sea
When they find dry land they’ll forget about me
But something in his smiles’s forever
Not changeable as the weather
And he may not be right for me
But right now is all I see
And he’s got emotions that shiver me timbers
He could spin the whole world on the tips of his fingers 
And I hope he remembers our moment so still
And the light catch his eyes, oh I always will
And hope and pray your life has been good
It’s like living in forests, surrounded I stood
But he gave me ways to breathe afresh
And find solemn ways out of this mess
As we crush a penny into a shape
It’s red that we find in our softest escape 

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Her Own Shore

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She’s low in her boots
I can feel the roots
Intertwine with mine
As we both proclaim we’re fine
And try to be what we were
I used to be empty without her
And crave to find her company
Now I just let her be
As she navigates her own shore
Thinking we don’t love each other anymore 
But she’ll always have a place inside my heart
Even though we may be apart
Or unable to communicate in a way that’s true
You’re a mountain to me, darling, do you
Know that, my dear
I wipe the glass so it’s crystal clear
And we drive all over town 
Do you still hear the sound
Of the steady chasm call
I just want you to know, that’s all
That we
Forever be
Eternal and true
I was looking for the One
All the while I had you
And appreciate
When I was in that state
To be guided, steady hand
As you play a rock band
I’m not really into
But it’s important to you
So I listen
Teardrops glisten
As he riffs a guitar
Oh, in the wonder of what you are
I don’t know
The places you go
When you’re tired and alone
I call but you don’t answer the phone
Would you understand
If I said I had planned 
A season or two
Where the autumn leaves fly just for you
As the colours change
Atoms and molecules rearrange
Like they will for us too
A plurality of weaving things through
Don’t go
There’s so much I haven’t said, you know
And there are ages
To pay testament to
The depth that I
Witness in you
You’re a star
And by the bar
You raise it high
I exclaim; I’m not afraid to die
As I shake in my soul
You are the weather that cannot be told 
And a storm
Are a galaxy swirl
You have to be the scene of the girl
As she rides off alone unto the horizon
I would say I called it but it’s still surprising
Would you stay
If I asked you just for me, okay?
Coz it’s midnight without your dawn
And I can’t abide the thought of you gone
Don’t worry
I’m not in a hurry
To go picking up leaves
And everyone just believes 
In the story they’re told
I will be brave, I will be bold
And ask
You to drop the mask
And just share
In the depths of the ocean know that I care 
And will open the door
If you still want me, I implore
Don’t let the time go by
The ways and means, the way I cry
Is it just an incomplete 
Coz I’m always begging at your feet
For you to change the tune
The earth quakes when you’re in the room
And I didn’t forget
I just thought that room was to let
In the forest where I ran
And you found something I don’t know if I can
In the cycle role
What is the meaning of the soul
Coz you exclaim
Could you just call me by my name
And not let go
Every breath that I breathe is for you, you know
And the wind howls and knocks on the shutters
I catch every word she barely utters
Could peace come to last
In a gentle warmth, not a furnace blast
As everything precarious, tips on the scale
I know that I’m bought but it’s not for sale
To anyone else
And mental health
Is a slogan or two
Do you see the needle as it’s pulling through
Or just the tapestry sewn
Do you know how we have grown
To be side by side 
I thank the Lord you are alive
And shining from skies 
In the place where we’re free there are no goodbyes
Or futile tries
I’ll see you soon to look in your eyes
And know
That it’s mutual, this feeling we show
In the years and time
In for a nickel, a penny, a dime
In all the ages
And the ripped pages
Of the story we write
I dust myself off, say I’ll be alright
As the leaves blow
I’ll be up to the challenge, you know

The Way We Burn

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The flame is burning me red
I’m ashes in the skins I’ve shed 
As I grow out of another domain
Does everybody live with this much pain
Or am I marching to my own beat
They say if you can’t stand the heat
You should get out of the fire
But it just takes me higher 
As I let go of all that’s frayed 
I kinda wished that I had stayed
To feel the feel of you move in me
You kinda set me free
With a single gaze
Did you know that I save
People with my soul
And I’ll love you til I grow old
And die a death
In the land of no regret
That builds a pyre
Dark black smoke as though a tyre
Was set to plume
Suddenly you’re in the room
And I feel all the fear depart
As you simply command my heart
To flutter and still
Some things change but this never will

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Remember Me, Love

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Remember me, love
As I lie in wait
I sit on the bed
And think of a date 
I once had with you
I was one of the few
To walk in that open door
Would you like to see the shore
That laps the waves
And all the lost boys it saves
And Barry made a joke of me
But he was hella cute
Even if he did play the flute
And I’m looking at Hozier
On a magazine
Thinking he might just be the dream
Some Andrew Byrne with height
I bet we’d never fight
Only do things 
He dare not speak
Lest I see where he’s weak
And now I have the freedom
To be encased
Do you remember 
The first time our hearts raced
As we sat side by side
Just bristling with the feeling
Of being alive
And you zing with magic
Some electric touch
And I know I’m someone 
You’d like to rush
Into something unseen
I’m just part of the dream
On your screen
No solipsis, just the Queen
To put a crown on your head
And there are mornings
We could wake up dead
But, so far, we’re good
No Snow White in the wood
Just a single dancing elf
That asks you to just be yourself
When you move with me
It’s priceless, baby, but its free

The Age Of Him

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Cruising at 35,000 feet
I’m on the ground, I can’t stand the heat
As it’s burning through my clothes and skin
The rage, the page, the age of him
As he’s darkly circumspect
And I’m the weakness you know best
As you ruminate your heel
I know the ways you cannot deal
In singing songs and infidelities 
In formation like a flock of geese
And I’m weary at the knees
Trying my best to please
But you just turn your head
No empty space in your bed
But someone else instead
I think the trauma’s going to my head
As you ashen faced tell me the truth
I drop the pillars of our youth
And they fall asunder
Did you know death had your number
When he rang your phone
Now I am all alone
And won’t come to your door
Because I couldn’t want you more
But you left me like a sleep
Like I’m a problem you can’t keep
Close to your chest 
Does your lover know you best
And is it her or me
I don’t know, I’ve got to see

The Age of the Airbender

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Do you see yourself in my refractions
And are these words more than transactions
Coz I can’t spell out what we seem to be
And it’s been years that you’ve blamed me
For something that is not my fault
Like pulling tracks from the vault 
Like you’re a songstress with a pen
And I land at your door once again
With a bouquet of apologies
If you want I’ll ask from my knees
Coz you are age old and awesome
You’re a kaleidoscope 
And it’s a slippery slope
Back into what we always were
It’s always my name next to her
And it’s not all roses in this flower bed
But I’m still a place you can rest your head
And lean on if you need strength
And I return the books you rent
Coz you loaned them to me
And you are my degree set free
In moderation, that is key
As we peer through our history
The faint light we used to be
Is now a river running free
Cause there are oceans calling us
And you’re a love that I trust
To always come back around
You be silence in the sound

In One

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Mercury’s in retrograde
And Irish people call a spade a spade 
Coz you know that morbid humor 
Isn’t gonna make it get you any sooner 
And I’m poised between a perfect spin
And in my mind I’m dancing with him
On an empty street
Oh, how I cursed the stars that meet
Us on the street or on the bus
There was just that feeling of trust
As I let myself believe
And I watch you hide your hands up your sleeve 
That morning in the Mall
Want to take a walk or shall
We just stare at each other across a mirage 
And I draw lines across your visage 
That will one day be a wrinkle in time 
But you’ll never stop being fine
As I watch you live your life with someone else
You advise me it’s best to take care of my mental health 
Coz you know stability is a wealth
So I smack the camera out of your hand
I will be grand 
Just not knowing
Coz I’m not finished growing
Gardens in my mind 
And they’re not well tended or left behind 
They are veritably wild 
And in my heart I’m still a child 
And I scoff in the face 
Of the rules that you chase 
So go ahead, be normal
Address me in a tone that’s formal
Coz you don’t have the time 
To watch my stellar shine
And maybe you were just afraid 
Coz, you know, that “bitch”, she slayed 
And all the lines that they encase
Won’t find you that dream you chase
Of 2.5 and a car
Don’t you ever wonder what we are 
And reincarnation kinda resembles the setting sun
But do you think we could get it in one
Coz this axis is an endless spin
And Nirvana revealed itself to him
When I let him into my sphere 
Now we are ever near
Like two orbiting souls 
Planets ruled by the poles 
But what is this non dual understanding 
All I know is you were commanding
My attention when you suggested
That we go get arrested
Just for the hell of it
Who am I sharing my heart with?
But I can’t help the laugh that escapes 
And not all superheroes wear capes 
But you sure do
Could I kick it with you 
In the summer of our age
I think I’m gonna need another page 
To get this down 
I won’t wear a gown
But in a t-shirt and jeans
I met the man of my dreams

Liquor Talk

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The last time we spoke
I found you unabashedly woke
And I was a little shy
Coz I feel I’m gonna die
Like dead, like RIP me
Coz you are quintessentially free
And I can’t contain
An ocean in your mountain of pain
Because the forest runs wild
And I have loved you since I was a child 
Growing up to the brambles and brush 
Always being in a sort of a rush
Trying to fit in all I can
Then suddenly, a man 
At eighteen years old
The story’s not even close to being told 
Coz I’m ancient and I’m new
But I’ve never seen anything like you
With your debonair 
And your cute as hell fucking hair
And I know you might disagree
But, honey, if it was up to me
I’d keep you for a century, more
Fall to the floor
Coz I adore 
Everything in the way you move 
You look like Astaire in your shoes 
As they make a pattern on me
I love you Now, eternally

My Greatest Defeat

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You are my greatest defeat
I just fall at your feet
And open up the midnight in the dawn
I look to my side and you are long gone 
And I’ve mountains to climb
But there were oceans of you being mine
Just settling down with a kid on the way
What is it that people say
“You’ll understand when you’re older”
But your gravity makes me bolder
Bold enough to refuse 
The point you want to prove 
With your gravelly voice
As if I even had a choice
To choose my own oppression 
And this is my confession
You always felt like a weight to carry
This guy who sorta wants to marry
Me at half my age
There’s ink enough to fill the page
With the stories that I make of us
Pencil marks on broken trust
Coz I just rewrite the story
Think of me in all of my glory
Just asking you to stay the night
You ask me if I’m alright
And I am but I’m sorta not 
The tilted stage is a lot
And is it every relationship 
Soldiers that war equip
To hold out on each other strong
I didn’t do anything wrong
It just wasn’t meant to be
Back then, but now I see
The fluorescent in the neon light
I don’t let you outta sight
And I was queen until we meet
Hold on, I’ve got another sheet
I’ve got to fill
You forget but I never will

Grief In Waves

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I miss you and it’s been twenty years
And it’s been quite a few since I cried tears
But I remember standing with you
In the morning dew
Looking out on the fields
With nothing to do
Or seeing you gaze
At my eyeline
As I video recorded
The light that you shine
Now you’re just a photograph
Paper thin
Is there anything more
Than the memory of him
To stand on stilts 
So tall
They say time washes away
Like a waterfall
But I would never want to forget
And I remember you yet
Me, so small and hardy
You the simple net
That would catch me when I trip
I love you still and that is it
Nothing more, nothing less
And I know I don’t need to stress
About the small things
And spirit has wings
To take it to the sky
It’s just I wish you didn’t have to die
I wish I could still hold your hand
Have you say that all is grand
And that you love me so deep
I love you Granda and that’s a promise I’ll keep

Brutal Blows And The Reveal

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Death, the scar scabs over
But I pick at it 
Until it starts to bleed
And I must take heed
And heal again
Did I lose a friend
When the ocean between us
Was a nightmare so dark I couldn’t dream it
And I thought I could clamber back
But you build a house on what you lack
And I try to find away in
But I just face the sin
That builds a wall
Like the maniacs down the hall
Do 
What about you
What’s on your scene
If you could paint it on a screen 
Coz you keep it tight lipped
Would you notice the glitch if the track hadn’t skipped 
On the part where Weird Al riffs
I know there are those who’ve called me a bitch 
And maybe there’s an element of truth in their professions
But I would never want to force a confession 
Like she did to me
Did you see
The welt that she left
Cut my heart with a blade so deft
And it was like it all caved in
Til the light broke and I met him
And he showed me a shine
That used to be mine
In the days before 
She didn’t want me anymore 
But the clue
Was that I chose you
In the forest of dreams
And the screams
Are not as sharp as they used to be
Am I desensitized or do I just see
What’s there to unfold
I think I found my fields of gold

The Avenues

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Which would be worse
That you move to Australia 
Or that I meet you on the street
And the words they might fail ya
As you present 
Your wife and kids
And I must contend 
With the life that’s his
And I let it go at eighteen
And I’ve been trying to right the dream
Ever since
I wince
When I think of all the truth I spilled
Out from my soul like it is killed
And I know he knotted threads
Wore them thinner as I lay in bed
With fear in my throat
If you burn a witch would she float 
And I can’t fight with this great swathe of sea
As it’s all pouring through me 
Like a vessel in the storm
Giving voice to the cold meets warm
And there’s really nothing stopping the flow
When you know you just let go

Rhythm Section, Immaterially

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Cause of death, dying
What do you expect, trying 
And I try to reason
With him but it’s just a season 
In the garden he grows
It’s all flowers and God knows
I try not to be the sky
Reflecting blues in his eyes
As they stare up at the sun
But I think he might be the One
As he moves in a sashay
And he can have me any way
He likes to entertain
And his love is not in vain
As he holds a paper heart
Out and it makes my own start
Beating a rhythm I cannot contain
Would the sky take back the rain
It had cried in tears
If it meant it could erase the years
That have gone in between
The midnight of someone else’s dream
In a come what may
What is it that the people say
That there is a wilderness beyond the hedge
And you are more than the pond you dredge
To bring up gold
And that story’s never told
If you’re looking for a quick line
In the bathroom for the thousandth time

Full On Headwreck

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He’s full on emo
And he’s got my heart
I didn’t give it to him
He just took a part
And stole away
Into the night
He says it’s cool
And I’ll be alright
But I’m here listening to
Dashboard Confessional and you
Are some other where
With some other girl 
While I turned inside out
And upside down my world 
And he just smiled
It’s like the lightning crack
He just sighed 
And doesn’t want me back
But he paints daydreams 
In my delusions
I’m all psyduck
In my own confusion
As I try to get close
But it’s like trying to catch a frightened ghost
As he comes near and then far away
And I’m at a loss for what to say
Coz he is perfect 
He’s pristine
I’m living the teenage dream
At thirty one
He still burns like the sun
And I feel the heat from over here
Is it okay if I call you dear
Coz you’re cute and fine
And fuckin lovely
You rain the showers of clouds
That wait above me
And I’m here listening to Something Corporate 
Coz you think it is important 
And I had earmarked 
Each page that you wrote
I wore down your facebook 
With all that I quote
And it’s ancient with the life
You took out west with a new bite
And I just smile at my own defiance
And you’re all self reliance
That can get by by yourself
Do you think I could add to your wealth
By shoving a note under your door
Goodbye means I love you more
As I hold back the knot of fist
That wishes to tell you I exist
But you’ve got a chick
And I bet she’s cool
I’m yesterday
And follow rules 
So don’t be mad
Don’t hate me either
Just be glad
We swam through the ether
And found each other 
One day on the grass
For me at least
The feeling last
And if you’re truly
Down with the kids
Could you explain
The moment that is
As I sigh a grey September
Your breath is something I remember 
So cool and real and hip and dude
The beauty that you exude 
Without even trying
And you know I would be lying
If I didn’t say
Hook, line and sinker
I’m more a daydreamer
Than a thinker
And I always wish for you
But I don’t know what I can do
To catch what’s mid air
The moment is high but I’m there
And then come back down to earth
I didn’t mean to hurt
Your precious and sincere
I’m just writing this
To say I love you, dear

It Was More Than That

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It was a grapevine fire that caught onto you
And I didn’t want you to know I was staring through
A portal into another world
How did I not see that you had a girl
And all my detective, all my sleuth
Building pillars of time upon our youth
And they had me admitted to a psych ward
I just look at you when I’m bored
And it makes me smile 
Then Emmett crashes in for a while 
With his clipboard and pen 
Could you say that again 
Like I said to you
The pain in your eyes was pushing me through
The eye of a needle so fine
God, I wish we would’ve had more time
Til the separate 
Would you call it fate
Or just say it’s my fault 
That a heart’s not made to be locked in a vault
And let out on special occasions 
Jesus, what are those abrasions 
Did you roll down a hill
He tells the truth but I never will
In his company 
And he just acts the fool with me 
And I feel whole 
I didn’t realise I’d found my soul

The Dream Will Realise

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Would you ever just be mine
Coz I’m tired all of the time
And she looks slinky in that mini dress
Seductive coz she’s not trying to impress
Just being her own dear self
And you can only guess the wealth
Beneath her skin 
But do I, do I let him in 
And he comes close to the door
Knocks and asks me to open it a little bit more 
But I hesitate
And it’s not coz I wanna make you wait 
It’s just coz I
Already know what it is to die 
It woke me up
Some kind of love
Like taking your first breath above
The water when you are born
Did you know the sun is warm
Coz I never felt it til that day
It cascaded in the window 
Now it’s shining from him though
And I can’t make it stop
It’s ticking like a body clock
Down to its inevitable conclusion 
Could you tell me where is the confusion 
In telling me how you felt 
Like butter you melt
On the pavement before 
The train station I abhor

Heaney’s Shovel

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Here is my pen like the blade of a knife
As it furrows through earth already turned twice 
And there is treasure within, I can hear it call
And all of the problems are not there at all
As I open air in the core of my being
I know there is something here worth seeing
And they tell me lies but they believe
In all of the strings that hang from my sleeve
And I’m just untwining a tapestry
So the threads might be able to run free
And make themselves a masterpiece
Not somebody else’s picture to learn to crease