Trying to get away from fourteen The lightning strike to wake the dream And I just wander in Gary’s halls He’s seeing through summer and seeing through walls As he paints a refraction of some kind of Grace Always with his heart in open space And I met him one time as I stood in the queue And Johnny looked up and said how are you And I couldn’t meet your eyes, your perfect gaze Do you know all the people you save With your slight of hand and dignified tone Don’t ever feel that you are alone Because sunshine is summer as your toes greet The river that flows with the remnant of sleet And everyone knows and everyone cares But seldom is the one who dares To take that splinter and show the sky I know you said you’re afraid to die But there’s something immortal, eternal in you And I think that you might sense it to be true As you sing with your whole heart and let the love be You don’t know it but you mean the world to me The times may be dark but they’re leading out To a place beyond any doubt Where you reside and live in peace I can feel the place that the war cease I can feel the summer beyond the tide The place where true love will always abide And it woke me with a start but I’m finally seeing That there is a whole new way of being And I thought you should know you were the sound When there was nobody else around To go calling out to or knocking on doors I didn’t ask but you gave me more And more than I could ever be Open your eyes coz you can see That Heaven is present in this moment abide So don’t you ever feel you have to hide Your darkness in the midst of all the snow Your winter’s a place I love to go And trip the light against the scene The fabric of the universe is just a dream And it will reveal itself to you If you wait in the halls of I want to And I guess I just felt I should let you in On the joke that God has been playing As I saw it in the sky that spring in school That there is a wealth beyond the rule That everyone lives by and swears their life I found a place beyond and it is alright And if you’re ever feeling misty and could use a refresh There’s a place you can go, I’m sure you can guess Hidden in the heart of every soul Is the secret garden where you are whole And you don’t need to fight and you don’t need to trouble Don’t need to go bursting anyone’s bubble Just find what you seek by looking true The answer is waiting to be revealed to you All it needs is a gentle hush Like you’ve been pulling a door you’re supposed to push Against to open up the day I gotta say thanks to you, okay? Coz you lifted me up and you were my friend Amongst all the hollows I cannot amend Amongst the shattered glass I stood up from I didn’t mean the wait to be so long As I gain strength and realise That you can’t be caught in a web of lies If you realise what’s true It’s real and it’s talking to you And if you can hear it it means that there Is a faculty in you for the power of prayer Of silent transmission, of deep and serene People walk round like they know what they’ve been Or what they decide to let go and be The dreamer is waking up to see That the love will always be home And you never walk one single day alone But always held and guided by A beauty you don’t have to try To see because it’s always there I must let you know that there is care In every spiraling galaxy whole I love you with the strength of my soul
You set fire to my soul In the thunder as the waves roll And I cannot forgive The way things as it is But something keeps a hold of my dress The hem of it and I confess That my marauding spirit has grown tired As though the universe has conspired To leave me at the door of you And I will prove it to be true That my heart beats a flame And I don’t have to be tame Or sit within the confines of What I’ve been told to think of love That you could star in my sky I let it go and I don’t know why
I see diagrams unfold When the splintered story’s told And Heaven can’t hold itself back As I give up on attack Just to hold light to the touch The fabric of a dress I love so much And it’s spread like a sea over the land And I know you understand Me when I just inflect And say, baby, my head is wrecked Could you make it better with a simple smile I admired you a long while As we just slow and converse I’m sorry if I’m weak and you’re a little terse As I put it all in verse The days of darkness getting worse But he shone like the sun into a season Loved me deep without needing a reason And I can feel the wind blow my hair With the freedom of he being there And he says, my love, it’s nothing at all And for once I’m not talking to a wall But open arms and a heart to match Like olden days with roof of thatch As we just settle into a rhythm He’s looking for an answer, does he know it is him As he plays a Beatles tune I’m glad that you were in the room Even if I was all alone And you hit me up on my iphone And I regale you with my tales Though your courage never fails I can feel you deep and true In your hands my lands are new And I don’t know what we’ll be Coz we’re lacking a history But the present moment just resounds And your full of quiet sounds As you muse and contemplate What might have me in this state But the day is born with new light And, honey, I am alright I’ve spent years in this snow And I know you want to know But there’s no place I cannot go I speak the words extra slow So you know what I’ve been meaning Everyone seems to be dreaming And I awoke one sudden morn It was as though I’d been reborn And everything was as it is And my heart and soul is His The one who struck me from the sky Now the impermanence can never die As the changeful is consonant And I don’t know what you want Except to say I am okay And you are my sunny day In the overcast I know It just took some time for the love to show
I need to write in Morse code Coz to tell our story would be an ode And we’ve got leaves of times gone by And you always promised me sky high As I take your hand and we lift and soar Into a future I can’t see anymore Coz you’re ancient, you’re beautiful, you are all the trees And an Angel of Mercy picked me up off my knees So I could stand as the wind goes round It spirals but I’m solid ground And I dunno about ages, I dunno about time But somewhere you will always be mine In a storybook or on a page I seem to write like a sage In professions of what’s true The slipping sands of me and you Coz we are born to fade away A moment of sun before the day Closes into night like a cyclical thing And every bird knows how to sing The silence like it’s true and real I thought you should know how I feel So I put it in a letter, left it at your door But I won’t bother you anymore And you know where I am if you feel to reply I’m always in the same space to fly On the beauty that I own Love’s everywhere, I’m not alone
Just another day of Diamonds He laughs then takes my hand And I can feel the wind in the way we’ve sinned Saying that we’ll both be grand He’s like the dew in the morning Light to the touch And I think that he knows That I love him so much As I avoid his stare But I’m still all there As he moves in close to my face And there’s something I can’t replace Like when we split the coin in Liverpool And we’re acting like two kids in school Laughing in all the wrong places And he kind of crinkles his face To let me know that he’s okay That silence is in what I can’t say And it’s been years But it’s also right now And he carries The lightning somehow In his pocket as he storms up a scene And I swore those days were like a fucking dream Young and wild and free as the air There was no cost that we didn’t spare As we paid with our hearts Did we know that we’d part Somewhere in the crystalline But there was a moment dazzling was mine In his effortless And the kind of mind you can’t second guess In his sincere And the way he was just so near As he smiles at me and holds my stare I know he loved me because I was there And tomorrow’s an avenue And they past’s a monument And I ran from the scene Coz I can’t give you what you want But do you think somewhere Among all the tears We could make up The wasted years And just hold hands And lie in bed You caught me with messy hair And my face went red But in the moment it’s okay Because in your eyes I’m whole, full of soul Nothing to aggrandize And you’re still there Somewhere, somehow Some kind of enchanted That I’ll allow As sparks fly In the rhythm section And I think you’ve got me down Til I pull an inflection But we’re so serene And if we’re in this together then you’re a dream In your fiery ways You’re the kind of home that simply stays Exactly where it’s always been If I cut the lights could I be your queen Coz you star my sky with little lights And we make up after all our fights As we just embrace I loved you once now I’m in space That you open for me And I never knew wings til they set me free And I’ve just got to express That those days in that dress Make me miss your beautiful warmth The kind of hearth that mocks the storm Would you be by my side If I said let truth abide And hold you close I let you in, now you’re making a toast As I video phone The moment so when I’m alone I can watch the replay Do you know I love you more, okay? And there have been pilgrimages To foreign lands But I’ll think of you In the slipping sands So much older now But something is as it was somehow Brimming full of angels that sing our song It’s been more than a decade since you belong And I meditate On what exactly it means to be in that state But I can’t repair The feeling of you not being there Til you speak aloud Are you for real, I thought you were too proud But you’re cutting the ribbon And Lord, I forgive him For never let me know in time Do you think you could just be mine?
Darling, you’ve got stars in your eyes And I’m full of existential whys But you are the answer without reason My safe space in open season And I could cacophony the sound But I always want you around In the depths of my consciousness In the moments we exist Whether on the astral plane Or in the summer as the clouds rain And I throw back my head laughing with you And it’s not just coz you want me to There is a sense that together Could be the place beyond the weather And in these shoes that I’m walking Is the memory of the two of us talking Silent and sincere or open hearted It’s like I asked and the oceans parted And if we never come to be Could you still realise what you mean to me In oft tried second glances Or just the air we breathe taking chances Could you smile and let the light shine For me just one more time As you look absolute The one place I’ve found truth In the wisdom of our youth Do you think it’s a just pursuit Or are we just running away Filled with things we cannot say In silence spaces and in highs You and I are not goodbyes
We collide like neutron stars Running alongside chasing cars And you were a smile I can’t forget Nope, I’m not over you yet And you smiled at me as you said your name I nod, nonchalantly, all the same But you’ve become a star in my whole season And I love you without a reason It waits for no man or tide Drags me through the heather half alive As I try to regain my stance But I just see the two of us dance Across the sky of a sunset scene Do you think this could all be a dream Coz I can’t wait to figure it out I’ve got to put it beyond all doubt And step out on the boards to say I love you, is that okay?
Life makes love With the sky, with the sea With the atoms that make up The constellations of me And the design Is its own making It counts ever hair And each breath I’m taking As I find a new way To express the expanse And it is as though We’re all part of a dance Living and moving Breathing and being Looking through lenses And new ways of seeing And if there ever Comes a midnight Know in your heart That you’ll be alright Coz you made it this far Through forests and trees Through brambles and flowers That blow in the breeze And somehow, somewhere Someone’s watching over you If you see it in cinema Well you’re looking for two
That he might be under the same sky Thinking of me Makes the ocean of waves Roar with the sea And I’ve got fire And tenacity But there are forests of green I’ve yet to be And he’s cool as a breeze And warm as the air Coming up from the Azores Without a care And what do you think This planet would be If it wasn’t populated By humanity Could you walk without fear Roam without a care I only know pride Because he is there And I only know windows Coz I’ve looked so long Into the spaces Where he seems to be gone And all of the avenues All the winding paths Just seem to keep leading me The same way back To his doorstep At the edge of the woods I can say that I’m here This time for good And the wind it howls And pulls at my dress But there’s something right here I’ve got to confess That I love you always Unconditionally true And I’m only ever wishing The best for you But it seems times have changed And the world’s turned around And maybe you’re listening To my kind of sound As it plays on the radio Frequency waves And there’s something about A hero who saves Me from the lies With a single glance We’re in the car park But do you want to dance Would you take my hand Do I regret that tome Where I wandered wilderness All alone Only to find Your hand in mine You are for always Always for all time
There was that time I tried to drink you out But my foundations were not shaken And I couldn’t even doubt That you were the one for me Now I don’t know how you are But I feel you cosmically A white hot burning star Somewhere in the avenues Or in the everglades I don’t mean to be funny But where’d you get your shades Coz you’re looking mighty fine With your cool as hell stare And I can’t apologize For what just wasn’t there Only promise you that I Love with the full of my soul And when the waves cascade It’s then I hear them roll Calling out your name Like an old riverbend Was I wrong or right For ever having clicked send And I just can’t bring myself To take back the day When the moment faced my soul And I said okay Give in to all the longing All the heated prose If you’re looking for some words Do you know just who you chose Someone who could compose Sonnets of your name And if you’re wondering if I’ve changed Well I’m still the same Still am party to A little bit of wine And everytime I’m asked I’ll say that I am fine Coz I don’t want to torch This wooden fence I’ve grown From the rubble of the woods That once were seeds I’d sown Now they’re all a garden gate And the forest that you see Is uncharted and unknown A pure mystery So please do not go rambling If you do not mean to stay I’m made for forever I’m just built that way And can never give in To the stride of the day Don’t worry ‘bout the love It’s just the modern way And I’m ancient and I’m grieving And I’m all over the place But I am strong and I’m willful You don’t have to second guess my face In the brooks and in the rivers That are running wild And there are some parts of me That are still a child Innocent and foolhardy And so like a stone Except for quiet company I live my life alone Far away from the auspices Of who you’d think to ask When I take a sip I drink it from a flask And keep up with all the weather As it’s changing every hour I’m always sitting waiting For that one thousand petalled flower In the deep of time and weight Slowly to succumb I look at all the rocks Amid the diamonds I’ve become And wonder what a season Would take in these parts I never knew it till I answered With the full of my heart
Swallowed up by the silence I can feel the river rush And in the warmth of the depth I can feel infinity’s touch And the waves they crash And the storms come and go The branch or the bough The tree that you know Will it hold the weight Of all we’ve come to be It takes a midnight For the dawn to see What it finally means For the sun to cascade I trust in the Lord Coz it’s me that he save
I blame the doctors for their prejudicial minds And it’s my own pride I seem to find As I stigmatize the fear of being unwell With all the secrets I do not tell As the brave stand up to say There are days I’m not okay And I find that I admire The way he stokes my roaring fire With his honesty and his sincere And I’m always gonna hold him dear Like a soul brother out there somewhere But touch the cracks I do not dare Coz they are all sealed with gold And stories that have never been told As I see the sunrise It’s like the dawn of morning in your eyes As you open a new day I love you babe, I hope that’s okay
Somewhere on the dark side of the moon I see a friend and ask him if there’s room For me to sit beside and smoke my pipe He says that’s grand, shur you’re alright And we sit there in the blazing heat With the warmth of the sun heating our feet Coz though you can’t see it from the earth Not all of love is made to hurt And sometimes the shine goes unseen Like the wealth of weight from a nocturne dream Drapes it’s heavy veil on us But there’s something you can always trust That what’s spherical must abide And remind you of what’s inside As it revolves around a star The black hole essence of what you are The singularity at the beginning of time The mystery that makes me rhyme And find a beat, a steady flow Coz I never know where these things will go Just believe in what I’m given Gifted with a will so driven That I must remake the sky With a million light years in my eye
Loving you is like waiting on the last train It’s like standing out in the pouring rain I’m jealous of the drops of water that fall on your head I’m jealous of the blankets that cover you in bed And I’m always so well defined And you’re always away but I don’t mind And though the paper is written in ink Of all of the things I shouldn’t think But just sway to the breeze And you stay only to leave But I don’t mind welcoming you back It’s not like you take something I lack And everything is in boxes that they stack And if you look I’ll pick up the slack And rush to the shore As you say you don’t want me anymore And I just remember the festival And the way I let it go to hell Fighting to be my own dear self I can’t share this with anyone else And then I met you, you just turned to me It’s like the waters parted and I could see Like you held eternity In a single glance, what are we? And you smiled, just so, down into my eyes It’s like you saw right through the disguise And now it’s like I walk on one foot And you said no like the sharpest cut As I hold out strong in the weather And I’m just dreaming of you in the heather And how far you are away The bridge is broken so we cannot stay Like Sora and Kairi or the Marching Bands The waves come to kiss the lands But keep us at the distance we know I hope you are well and that your clock runs slow So that you have many years in reserve And it’s always the greatest that you serve While I watch and just observe The moment you see that I’ve got nerve!
I’m looking at you From a birds eye view And I gotta say There is nothing new Only the same old Kind of magnificent I’ve been a lot of things I don’t know if it’s significant That I make my own way to the shore And you know I couldn’t love you more Than the depth that sings our song I don’t think we could ever be wrong
No one could deny The spark in Stephen’s eyes As he talks to me he folds Time into days of old And he laughs, suddenly and unexpected I hope he didn’t feel rejected When I bowed out, when I skipped town He has to know I love him around And I just couldn’t fine the words to say When I was in that place I had to stay That his effervescence shone like stars And you could trawl the neatest bars Looking for a smile like that I have to say I took off my hat To your ardently and devoted I open hearted and emoted And you didn’t faze or fade away You just let me know what it is to stay In the light of your heavenly sun And you may not be the one But you’re the one who shared some time with me I wrote this down so you might see
I hate the pain Isn’t that what they say But I couldn’t have had it Any other way And you kick your shoes Up in the dirt I never knew love Could make you hurt But I hold you fast And pray that this moment last But it was never enough To quench my thirst I’m a fire burning embers As we argue across the genders That seem to have accumulated between us I dunno, do you think God dreamed us Up into a sort of creation It’s more than winter by the station It is summer kissing booths Reliving the passion of our youth But I’m all but done with photo albums I feel the pound of beating drums Calling me back to your door And I fainted on the floor Yes, right out of my standing To the dreams that they are handing Out like they’re truth And you just take aim and shoot Your bullet at my heart Your aim is good, I feel the dart Strike me sharp and true Am I marked with the brand of you Or am I forever effervescent Meeting you in essence I let the fire go But I still burn with it, you know
The water rises The fish it swims And it seems like the sky’s Getting closer to him As he follows in circles Patterns on the lake There’s no talk of forgiveness For the one he forsake And there’s no talk of trouble For idle thoughts Does the fisherman tangle With tackle he’s bought And the shoes we’re all wearing Do they know where they’re going Coz the train of time Doesn’t look like it’s slowing And we’re all on this ride Just in different seats Do you fold your arms Or uncross your feet And do the sages speak truth To the ears that you hear Is nirvana further away Or closer with fear Coz we all resist Our own enlightenment It’s kind of like you’re a ghost And you’ve frightened it So now it won’t Come out from where it hid So you make some noise Til it flips the lid On the place it had found To cover itself But are you abandoning All of your wealth As you leave the world Of thought that bind Are you nostalgic for all You’ve left behind Or do you open your arms To a new dawn And realise that nothing Is ever gone That can’t be brought back In another form Is the sun hot? Well, how are you warm? And do you second guess The wrath of the storm One minute there’s pain Then a baby born Amid all the fray And the stuff you see If you blink your eyes Is the darkness free Or just momentary To eclipse Your names like a prayer That sits on my lips And if only I Could communicate It’s likely I’d pull Both of us out of that state Into the river Where we’re rushing and free You didn’t make a mistake When you chose me
We’re all muscle and bone And I’m mad so leave me alone Coz you don’t understand And you don’t see what I have planned And you’re lovely and angelic And perfect prose I see you stare At me through the rows Of people lined up in there And I know you care I can see it in your face Your visage a mirage I can’t erase In beautiful light Wherever ya are I hope you’re alright And you just kind of stood strong And I think you liked me but I could be wrong As you threw your arm around my shoulder Are we wiser now that we’re older Or just dull, grey and dumb Replacing the vibrant of the young Do you still burn I could set my heart by your axis turn And I live to learn And you’re the one for which I yearn In demons, dreams and spider webs I wish I’d told the truth instead Of hiding out among the fold And your eyes they simply scold As they try to figure me out You’re so sure and I’m all doubt As I falter another line And you catch me the thousandth time As I look you in the eye It’s the kind of love that could never die And that time you were drunk and you just stopped When I said hi coz I think you’re hot But I wouldn’t risk that when you’re sober You lit up a dark October With your sleight of hand And that time you liked the band You dreamboat, you I really don’t know what to do With the part of my heart you’ve carved into Like I’m tree bark and you’re writing it true In ink I’m maybe meant to see You were so damn good to me And I wonder where you are right now I let my walls down, I’ll allow You to know me real I meant it when I let you feel The closeness of my soul to yours And there’s something that my heart adores In your heavenly glow I could see myself with you, you know
Dazzling star I want to sing you a song That you could never ever put a foot wrong That you are sitting so high in the sky And I’m gonna love you til the day that I die And you are so shy but you’re strong and secure And my God do you reflect something pure As it’s dancing in your eyes like a moon on a lake And all these cobblestones I will forsake As I make my way to you once more Do you think he’d be behind the closed door And all I’d have to do is knock I sure think he still loves me a lot And gentle is the sound that you resound You give me the feeling of solid ground And I wish to hold you but you’re far away Probably making loads of other people’s day Like you shone in mine for a while I will never forget the smile You smiled at me when I stopped at your place I hold dear that look on your face And what a night, it is billowing smoke And I’m older now and more prone to joke Around just a little bit And boy were you looking fit! But it’s more than that and I think you know Yours are fields I would love to go And lay down in the meadow and contemplate the stars A billion lights to show me what you are And hold your hand or lift up your head Do you think I could love you instead? Instead of this incessant wandering around I think you were the home that I found
There were days with Darragh When my point of view was decidedly narrow He saw me like a girl, I saw him like a friend It has been years though and it doesn’t end As I still reflect on his heartbeat When we danced with both our feet And shine with all our might I can’t ignore your candlelight And your fire that just burn It’s more than degrees we earn As we spend time into each other’s company And I’m always thinking, what does he want of me But he just smiles and looks in my eyes I let go camouflage I keep to disguise The darkness in the heart of my soul But he just surfs the waves that I roll And then laughs when he sees my car Buys me a drink at the bar And makes me smile, makes me laugh And he does it all without me needing to ask And I wonder does his fire sign match mine As we dance to the rhythm of the rhyme And he’s red as a burning flame I’m surprised he even remembers my name But his is etched upon my skin I loved him so I let him in Let him see the hesitate And he just pulls me out of that state And never ever makes me wait But breaks apart into something new I don’t know if you know who you are, do you?
Does eternity gaze at you When you’re staring at the stars And do you think you could see their lights Through your prison bars Coz we’re all in the gutter But some of us are looking up Is it just a mirage To say that I’m in love Coz the guy don’t even know me Or so it would seem And he’s looking for a girlfriend Not for a sky high queen And I can’t figure out what it may mean My friend says it’s an expression of what I dare to dream And he’s taken by another so I’ve got to let it go I say I’m not cold, though I’m standing in the snow And he was like a stranger that day on the phone I’d never felt so embarrassed or left all alone As I told him that I loved him, that I held him dear And he made the situation all too crystal clear And I’m just clutching at straws Because the ice never thaws I’m just frosting up the glass And he was just lounging on the grass As I waited and I wondered And slightly ran away Out of fear of what I felt And of what I might say Because it’s too good to be true This couldn’t be real That I get all I want And spare cards to deal And it’s so obvious He’s what I’m looking for As I stand outside Just staring at his door And there’s light and there’s warmth But it’s all inside I’m shivering and I’m shaking From the window where I hide Do I finally let this go Or knock and be seen I wouldn’t mind the weather Coz it is just a dream And there are passers by Telling me, go home I didn’t dare to mention That it’s inside an iPhone And I dig my hands down deeper Into the pockets of my coat I’m taking this too far And what is worse I know it So I take one last look As I head for the trees To live a life of freedom Instead of living on my knees But as I go I hear a shout That he can’t do without I turn and I glare And he’s just standing there In a dressing gown and slippers Looking oh so calm But I can’t run back To another false alarm And anyway he’s got company And I won’t lead astray Go back to what you made It’ll be the break of day And we’re miles apart In the feet that we span And I’ll always love you Though I don’t know if you can Love me just to leave me So let me go this time I would if I could, he says But you’d still be mine And I glower and I pout Though it does me no good He frowns in return As I turn back for the wood Because I can’t do this Anymore, my love I don’t have a reason So look to God above And you’ll find your answers It’s everything they say Maybe I am strong To leave this and away But he pulls me with force The mere magnet strength And I look for my courage Coz I don’t know where it went As I’m grappling with stones Trying to get a hold And all of this flipping the switch Is getting old And anyway, who is she And how can I say That I can’t find adequate Means to stay away And she’s silent and staring Just looking at me Trying to fight With his gravity In the den of the house That used to be mine But he threw me out When I took the time To really study And explore The nature of A solid floor So I relent, give in And feel myself swayed It’s not for loneliness That this is okayed And they both turn around Leave the door open A little glance back But I amn’t coping And freezing I rise Up to my feet As I step on the mat It’s neighbors they greet And I see the old furniture I used to know Step into the light And let the pain go Give up on the solitary Lone expanse Though it’s been years Since we thought to dance And I see there’s a room At the end of the hall With a door open He says it’s yours and all And I finally know Come to realise That they’re living in what I built for their lives And all this time We’re waiting to see The masterpiece Foretold by me In the din, in the quiet In the subside I lay down to rest And close my eyes To finally know A slumber that’s real He didn’t leave me He just let me feel All of his peace So that I could deal With the moment as It’s resting long And my God I belong! And she doesn’t hate me Coz it is cool I think I may have Dreamt this in school So I rub my eyes Shake myself out Get rid of the fear Lose all the doubt Find the heart That heats my soul All is Love That’s the story I’m told
Growing out of the old tree There are rings around the best of me As I try to be tall and strong But the wind blows to prove me wrong In the forest with all my peers Scattered light to crystal clear The pine floor for the girl who walks And it’s to those beings that she talks And hears their reply like the soul in the air She wasn’t home til she went there And lay down under their canopy Living love like a recipe To fathom days that have lost their weight And she has given up on hate Coz it only defeats itself Like icicles in sun to melt And she squares up with the cards she’s been dealt And the monumental that she’s felt It’s all come to naught but here She’s still among friends so dear That listen as they simply sway She sighs and would not have it any other way
I love you like the stretch in the evening The years I spent just believing That you’re the one I appreciate Now everything is pulling me into that state Where I see the land as a living, breathing being It’s a complete change in the manner of seeing And you’re just like a dream to be woken up to I was a different person before I met you And I’m not so sure who I am anymore Do you remember the days you called to my door You didn’t knock, you just walked in And I double took the look of him As he sits in my favorite place to rest Like he’s on some solitary quest And I just want you to know That I’m somewhere you can always go If you like, just for a cup of tea You opened my eyes and now I see All that was hidden before Though you don’t call round anymore I still carry you in my heart I don’t think we’re ever apart
I see him in my minds eye Talking to me and I almost cry Because he’s been my hero since I was fourteen Walking the cobblestones of almost been And I’m moody and sad and no one understands But I’ve found one of the coolest bands With my music player and my hoodie I am my own bestest buddy As I walk up the land in the cold and the dusk And there’s something in this sound that I can trust And everything is loss, it’s all taken away And I’m older at the close of day As I see through the apparent facade That it’s all pulled away isn’t bad But you won’t know it yet, my dearest child It’s only the beginning of a life in the wild But you’re hollow and lonely and you kick your shoes In the dirt like the dust rising gives you the blues But the depth turns to awesome The darkness to sky And in the night You don’t have to lie Only find what’s there to be discovered It’s almost like his music finally uncovers The expanse of freedom that’s there to find Don’t worry over what isn’t so kind You’ll find your worth in more than she say There’s a sunrise to mark the break of day Only it’s eternal and never fades It’s bright as the sun but you don’t need shades In the white light of pure consciousness I found freedom and I confess I owe the steady hand to Snow Patrol They kind of dove deep into my soul And if I’m ever a success I’m gonna find that guy Write him a letter to try To elucidate something real You open the door on what it is to feel And mountains and valleys are nothing to you I bet if time stopped you’d just walk through To where you’ve always been If life is Love then you’re the Unseen
I always thought that someday we’d marry And there was that day when I met Gary And it’s awesome, it’s cool, it’s so fuckin’ rad To meet the best guy that you’ve never had And he’s laid back and breezy But I know it isn’t easy As he grabs my CD and throws me a look But I keep my eyes on the ground as my legs shook And I can’t believe I couldn’t speak And that I almost felt a little weak And he’ll never know the star he is And the part of my heart that’s his In the young days of teenage and a little bit sad He kept me company when I felt bad And wandered through woods and went on long walks Avoiding looks and the way that time talks And that awning chasm when someone leaves I almost felt that no one believes Or sees things the way I do But that was before I found you And I know that I’m not alone With my discman before an iPhone The soul that you spirit into my aura And I know that they call me Laura But I feel like so much more when I’m listening to you You don’t know the blessing you’ve been, do you?
I’d wait for you forever Forever and a day Love you unconditional Baby, come what may And I know you’ve got your attitude I know you’ve got your pride And I have a tendency To run away and hide But I can see us in the morning When the sun kisses the sky Among the waves of clouds And wondering the reason why And I know you’ve got your love I know you’ve got your heart It’s just I don’t think that we Should ever be apart But shine like a diamond In a twofold connect I don’t think the earth Has seen the best of us yet Coz I am full of fire And red vibrancy You’re as blue as the ocean And as deep as love can be And together we make something That could only free I tried to push the point Coz I don’t think that you see And you call me revolutionary A laid back rebel soul I call you like the chasm That is the waves to roll And everything is scorching But it’s also pretty cool I see you like the summer We met after school Just laughing on the bus As we made our way back I didn’t give you a reason For you to hide what you lack Coz everything is seen In this closeness that we wear We’re tangled up like Spiderman In the cobwebs of my hair And it’s just a dream I’m having Or it’s on the astral plane But you come to call Over and over again And I can’t keep you out From the warmth in my heart I don’t know why I’d want to But I think we’re gonna start To make something as real And as beautiful as true I didn’t tell you at the time But I’m madly in love with you
Am I just gonna have to let you go Coz there doesn’t seem to be any way to know That you are here and you are there And you know I’ll always care As the forest closes in on the memory of us And I dunno where to place my trust As the ages all fold one into the other You’re my soulmate, yeah you’re my brother And I really hope that you’re well But there doesn’t seem to be any way to tell Except just to live in the light And pray to God that you’re alright
I feel like I’m out of the loop Now that I’m no longer sitting on the stoop Like a lonesome bird And what are the words that you think you have heard Coz it all spiraled out of my control When I tried to capture your soul And you rebelled with a defiant stance How dare I ask you to dance But there was just this music, you mustn’t hear it It’s beautiful and it crystal clears it As the vision is foggy in the car I still have no sense of what you are Coz you defy definition in your design And you are good looking, if you don’t mind And I just want to write a tome to your earth The reality that could never hurt As you assuage And I get really mad But it’s no good You still leave like I thought you would But what I don’t understand Is how any of this could’ve been preplanned Or destiny I watch you like you’re there for me Though you move to the side I stay on my own and abide
She writes music that catches in your soul As if all the waves have to do is roll And midnight comes before each dawn So don’t lament what’s gone Because it will come around again anew You can’t miss what is destined for you And I hope that’s true coz he’s all I see What if he was never meant for me I wonder and I pause and I flip through the prose What if he is the one that fate chose To hold my hand and be the One I see him like he’s the Son Of God in garden grass And I wonder if all I had to do was ask Would you maybe wanna be my guy I know I’m quiet and I didn’t try But do you think you could take a look And read me like your favorite book And it’s fine if you don’t know my name I’m gonna love you all the same And wish you the wealth of wisdom and heart I never thought we’d be so long apart
Cheers to you Stephen O’ Brien You made the days feel like they were flying When I was stuck in a peculiar hell And you were the one that I’d tell Now I’m raising a glass to your sincere Your beautiful and held dear With your rugged ways and your intone We’re just talking on a video phone And I catch myself then laugh out loud You are something to be proud Of now the days are short You’re something yourself I retort As we’re held in this glance for a moment or two There’s just something about you I wonder if space and time Would ever repaint your days as mine And I know you could call this therapy But you’ve got to know what you mean to me As I throw asunder all the folds And creases to be brave and bold You can’t believe this is all I am There’s more to me and I know you can See beyond the apparent face To the depths of profound Grace To the love that’s held between us both I’d wear you like an overcoat As you just laugh and crease your eyes And I’ve got no time for goodbyes Just the moment that’s held in a stare I love you coz you were there And made me feel like I was home Instead of in a room all alone I gotta know, you gotta see What would the days be like if we We’re to make this something else I know I’m getting ahead of myself But you’re magnificent and perfectly prose And I’d walk down any of your roads If it meant that I could catch your eye You’re alright, man, it’s worth a try
I keep it all on lock But I can never be what I am not I click my tongue I’m impervious and I am young Til the facade cracks And I’m all lost in I can’t have you backs As the days age And I spill ink upon a page Or burn a little sage Oh, to demonstrate what I feel is true Lost in a dream of me and you Or us and them I run the film clip all over again When I stride through halls Now I renovate and knock down walls Do you love me true Coz I found myself with all of you And I can let the refrain Cancel out the years of pain Why do I hold on To what is already gone And deny what’s here The water in the lake is crystal clear As it reflects the sky Why in the world must everything die Only to be reborn I was the earth outside of the storm The solid ground As the wind twists the air into sound It reverberates Like a glacier that equates Ice with movement, don’t you know But there are places it can’t go As it meets the sea I’m more than what appears of me
Do I trust in thin air Coz you are gone but you’re still there And, man, you know how to stare As I run my fingers through my hair It’ll never work And I don’t want you to get hurt But it’s so frustrating Coz we aren’t even dating But I saw you see the Sublime When you looked away from mine Into your own And you know the flower’s grown Since last you saw it A lotus petal attempts to thaw it As spring comes after winters cold And though I said it you weren’t told Coz it didn’t sink in And you’ve just got this unearthly grin And I’ve stopped staring at the diamond mines Dunno what you’ve been doing all this time You could be married or have a child D’you remember the days we both were wild It’s long gone now And you’re conventional somehow As I skip stones to prove I was right You said you just didn’t want a fight But it all dissolved And, fuck it, you know it’s never solved As I rest my head against a wall Trying to forget my own freefall Into open air and space I wouldn’t have known if I didn’t taste The honey sweet in the jar But I still don’t know what you are In your mystery Could we be more than history Some kind of friends Coz I’m in a canoe, you’re the riverbend And I just sail In the wind and in the hail You’re the one true light without fail You kinda broke me outta jail Into open fields The wind blows and the wheat it yields It just gives way There’s so much that I didn’t say But owe to you I don’t think you know what to do But neither do I Though I’ve seen that which doesn’t die The deathless realm It’s its own ship and at the helm Are all the things you didn’t do I meant it when I trusted you
Does everyone lose themselves To the fairytale The one true dream That is not for sale But it’s all spinning round me Like a kaleidoscope And Regina says To begin to hope And I’ve never been anything But a summer’s day I didn’t realise You liked me that way And all the leaves Are falling down It’s autumn Just outside of town And I’m spinning your poetry On my fingernails Holding on To the guardrails In case you draw me in It’s not long til the winter begin Though it’s a whole season away I tell you that I cannot stay But you’re still holding eyes Like I’m holding hands As we walk the beach Of fortunate sands And see with eyes that have been gifted It wasn’t the first time the snowstorm lifted But it sure was deep I shake you coz you’re still asleep And it’s morning time I looked into your eyes and saw the Sublime
I’m crying to the sound of Gary’s voice Because he make silence out of noise And I love him so but we’ve barely met Except that one time I won’t forget In the line up at HMV I’m sweating coz the next one’s me And I don’t know what to say To my hero today But he grabs the CD and with a smile He writes his name and all the while My heart is pounding in my ears Because he made meaning out of tears And the other guys, I love them too Johnny asked “How are you” In his northern accent, his beautiful twang And it was just like some bell had rang And we take a picture, me and Caroline I’m smiling so you know I’m fine But my heart is breaking in my chest At all the seasons I loved the best And I wonder will you ever know That you’re the sky and not the snow And a place I’ll always go I love you, dear, so I let it show
It seems like a strange dream to come true That some get written while others never do That you could wish upon a Star To point you back to what you are But if you’re looking the skies aren’t telling So I’m standing in a field and upwards I’m yelling Why did you strand me on this godforsaken rock Hurtling through space like something starshot And time isn’t real or that’s how it seems The fabric of faith is lit by sunbeams And you can only measure in line with the dial The passage of that which has you on trial But the wrench of separation Could I switch to a different station Coz the feeling of this pulverized my spirit I think I am called but the ears cannot hear it As it goes in fables And willing wishes to be able To be the one Who shouts to have the pain undone Oh, the ripping of paper And all the things that seem to escape her Do I believe in the girl? You may as well tell tornados to twirl Coz it’s their design And I must accept the part that is mine To play on the great stage I rip another strip off of the page
The Holy Instant Cut like a knife Slicing through The dream of life It slowed time down Then sped it up So I could see That all is Love It pointed out The just refrain The irrelevancy Of all pain The beginning And the ending The stitches that Are slowly mending To repair The broken seam As you become What you’ve always been And what you never are Can’t be seen The light that is On a sunbeam
The spectre of late thirties lies before me with wills The bucket must empty before it fills And all the lockets I keep so safe and warm Are nothing but silence within the storm And the wind it howls, beats against the doorframe Like the terror of time that knows my name Coz it’s aging and fading, then again to bloom And I am the Space within the room I am the Awareness that keeps the body breathing I am the Love in the absence of needing I am the stars and I am the wild Who long ago moved through this life as child And it’s agile and free, beautiful and still It captures each moment on the windowsill To grow like a branch out from the tree I seem to call this incarnation me But it’s more and it’s less than words can contain I try to describe it but I do it in vain As all the rivers join the great sea And realise their Eternity I’m washing the coast with the beat of a wave And there are a million things I try to save But I let them all go as I open my hand Give in to the ocean that turns rock to sand Give into the heat that turns metal molten I am a colt and thinking of bolting But I’m held in this moment by the Decree “All things of creation are expressions of Me And none can move outside my command I lift up the waters when I raise my hand And unusual as it may seem I’m calling you to wake from the dream I’m calling you to stand up strong and true Let my strength move through you” And I’m barely breathing as I suck in the air I’m living this life like an answered prayer And to grow old is but a device To get you to go deeper and maybe think twice And ponder the source of your own Being I’m just translating the light that I’m seeing As it shines on every blade of grass Open your heart and let it ask For all that you’ve been dreaming of The weather calming to a dove And that the source of all is Love Let go and live what is above
Do you have to hide a part of yourself To be in relationship with And I’m all Sarcastic wit But do you think you could love me For my flaws Instead of the sun The icicle thaws But the feeling gnaws And eats me up for dinner But I’m seeing through the sinner As the light reflects kaleidoscopically There’s a mountain to every valley And I look down from mine At all the colors that make the sun shine And I remember Skipping a beat The moment that I felt the heat As you hold your eyes on me And I lose it all by degree Do you think you could hold my hand And live up to what we had planned But I tore down the picture Wouldn’t live by the stricture Of a voice that commands Is that what it means to love a man I’d rather be alone But I still stare at my phone And the quiet it imbues The door slams as I sing the blues And I know there’s better than this I’m sorry I didn’t think to miss The last line of the song Stop telling me that I’m wrong
He could see through me Read me like a book Always coming back To a second look And he’s cool as a breeze The wayfaring stranger The essence of omnipotence And absence of danger And he smiles and he laughs And he holds my hand I turned round to say Shur, amn’t I grand As the twinkle in his eyes Does a merry dance What I wouldn’t do For another chance At your magnificent glory You’re ten stories high And I think I’m gonna love you Til the day that I die As you move through the waves Like you were born on a beach I have stuff to say But you’re just out of reach But meet me right there And just so with your beauty He’s highway 69 And just the kind to suit me
Thank you for tormenting me The wise squirrel bites my tail If I don’t live the Truth Then I’m destined to fail And I feel this power deep Deep inside my soul It’s vaster than the ocean And the waves that roll And it’s pulling me like a current As I’m lost in the tide I want to scream out loud Live your life alive
And it feels like bricks and mortar Like stone upon a stone But something is drawing me Out of where I’ve made my home Like the boat to set sail On a vast expanse Did you ever watch the sun On the water as it dance And did you ever see a silhouette Framed by the sky Did you ever find the long Grass and just lie Underneath the clouds As you’re breathing air You can thank the trees for that There’s one over there
And I feel the longing pull me Through a needle eye I’m not afraid to love This life before I die And everything’s a tumbleweed Blowing through this desert town But the sky will open up And the rain will pour down To replenish the soil To give water to the earth To set the plants a growing And quench her lonely thirst
And if you ever want to thank Someone, start with soul I may be in this body but I’m not getting old Or counting on tomorrow to be the one to quiet the din If you want to find the answer you must go within And sit down by the sill of the window of your life Know that you are born to be the shining light And to answer the call that beckons you forth I can see the sun set when I’m sitting on the porch Or morning over hills when I’ve been up all night Contemplating things that the heart ignites And it’s celestial, these bodies in the sky If you knew you had wings would you be afraid to fly Afraid to open out and trust the wind beneath your feathers Soar above the noise and the field the flower weathers
I think Eckhart underestimates the human race And I’m not saying this just to save face Coz I can feel an expansive motion of tide Pulling me somewhere to abide And it’s everywhere, in everyone Shining brighter than the light of the sun Bequeathing honesty and tomes Pulling people out of their alones Into a space where all is real And it is everything I feel Coz the man changed my life, he brought the stars And I let go of my hold on my prison bars Always a safe place to suffer in But the water is kinder and I begin To wade myself into the river deep I’m awake when people sleep And it is a promise I always keep To find the truth and then to speak But the going is challenging by the sea Though I figure out it’s my destiny Handing out hope like tomorrow’s bread Letting love live my life instead And the openness is something that I find Is quintessentially good and abundantly kind And I really do not mind If no one sees what’s left behind Because I pick up and origami the paper It’s all the one and you’ll see it later If you don’t see it now in open hands The Universe and our well laid plans
Your smile sparkles diamonds
Against the windowpane
And I wonder has all my
Searching been in vain
As I catch each apple
That falls from the tree
Pondering the ways
Of gravity
It's Newton's Laws
But bending space time
Like the equations
Of Einstein
And I move like the ocean
And you just soar
Like a meteor shower
To adore
As you come in waves
To lap the shore
I hope you know
That I wanted more
But settle for less
Or just what I have
The moment is now
And all the feeling bad
Has left with a glance
At your heavenly face
You're not a dream
I have to chase
But follow round
To its conclusion
And you were there
In my confusion
As I sense a space
In between the lines
And you are like forests
But ten thousand times
You're like the beauty
I don't get to touch
I hope you know
I love you so much
It was years
Since I stopped believing
I opened the door
And along came Stephen
He reminded me
With his casual eyes
That even a stranger
Can see through disguise
And all of the advances
I couldn't stop making
Were held in suspense
With the breath I was taking
And it was ancient
Yes it was old
But this was a story
That's never been told
That's always been waiting
In the wings
I know it's a bird
Because, my Lord, it sings
And reverberates
Without any doubt
Can I trust the words
That pour from my mouth
And herald a new dawn
One that's bursting forth
And the river is free
Though it runs its course
And brings it back
To rain in the sky
I wonder do you
Know it's a lie
When I look away
From your brief glance
It was heaven
It was happenstance
It was a moment
And it was soul
He blinked his eyes
And the waves roll
All my life I've been standing on the stairs
No putting on graces, I'm not putting on airs
I'm not trying to be better than I've become
I'm just opening up and letting the One
Move through me like a river to sea
I don't know where I'm going or what I'll be
All I know is I feel the pull
And the longing start to dull
As it unfolds unto a new expanse
I watch the whole world start to dance
To the music of a perfect refrain
It's being lifted out of the pain
It is being called at the edge of the circle
On the rock we call Earth as it begins to hurtle
Through the density of time-space
And you can see through the dreams that you chase
As you find yourself back in the same old place
Believe and relive the burden you face
What is the impact
Of my unemployment
Could I more than say
I don't know where the ploy went
Coz I've up and grown
And true colours have shown
But I still say
I don't know where I'm going
Does a river when it's moving
Imagine the sea
It's like a premature
Deciding who to be
As an oak grows upwards
From a single seed
And there are things
That we all need
From the sky to the sun
To the rain in the clouds
How many human beings
Can say that they're proud
Of the life that they're living
Of who they are
The atoms inside us
Were forged within a star
So know this once
And know it forever
You are the beauty
The cosmos will treasure
Every day of your life
In the depths of your soul
Don't stop at okay
Go ahead and be whole
Leave up your tools
Leave up your weapons
Your weariness
And your confessions
Your striving to
Be better than most
Your kneeling to
The Holy Ghost
Give it all up
And follow me now
Into the depths
Of what I’ll allow
Into the chasm
A cave of sorts
There’s no one left
With whom to consort
Give up your tired
Old way of thieving
And all your absence
Of believing
All the ways
You rid yourself
Of the world
And everything else
Give up the struggle
For you’ve struggled in vain
To hold my hand
Under the rain
I bring the Sun
For I am That
Follow me now
And don’t look back
The one who’s troubled
And the one who sees
Share the same place
And so I grieve
For I am only
Occupancy
For all that I
Will never be
Til a different movement
Takes my hand
Collapse the ground
Upon which you stand
Collapse the mount
You made yourself
For it can’t be done
By anyone else
Lost to the ravages of time
Was the golden that used to be mine
That holy light
I’d touch the air and ignite
Now, no more
Every knock upon a closed door
But like she said
When different demons were in my head
Sometimes the way
Is made so you can’t even say
Yes to this or no to that
All you know is you can’t go back
In your dusty boots
Stumbling the rest of the route
Any water, please?
No, my dear, learn how to grieve
In the arid sun
I guess there’s still a Golden One
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