The noise is deafening but something prevails
And every ship she sets sails
On the ocean of no return
But she fears the burn
Of incandescence
And my luminescence
Is painful to a point
I smile, it knocks her nose out of joint
In her perfect picture contain
She can’t stand the rain
That falls on the valley
And no alley
Is safe with her around
But the sound
Of brutality wipes clean
The darkness of her dream
They’re acting like the Germans in the war
Like they don’t know the reason the peace is for
And they’re bombing out homes and calling out cash
Doing things that they can’t take back
And they call subhuman and subterrain
Because the girls and boys are at it again
In the silent moment of incandescent
They say the Red Cross but it is a Crescent
Shining bright over the sea
It is them but if it was up to me
I would say enough, it’s no time for sin
For we know what you did in the midnight
The reason the people fell and they had to fight
To retain what they could of their soul
Your government is not what makes you whole
I want to be disturbed
By the little things in life
I don’t want to bury
Myself in being a wife
To the stasis I marry
And in the lines they quote
Is a boat
I can find
On the sea of turbulence
But the ocean is deep
And so a dream
Only stirs to wake
And at the epicentre of the earthquake
You’ll find the crack in the lining
Tell me who you are defining
When you procure the rod
That solidifies your hot bod
And I find my lullaby in the presence
Of something beyond the essence
Of what you’ve come to know
I don’t need them to let me go
To be free
I guess the liberation is up to me
That knot in the stomach, the one that you fray
And, you know, since you asked, I’m not doing okay
Coz something comes and separates
The good from the bad and calls it fate
And I’m left writhing in my own admission
Do I need the permission
To wake and then find
All that we left behind
In the summer of almost prose
And that road
Seems to disappear into the undergrowth
And I quote
The people who used to inspire
Me when I was seventeen and on fire
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The lost and found
That I don’t want around
He siphons the air
Out from my lungs like there
Is no reason to breathe
Takes away what I so generously need
And it’s all in the sky
Does his daughter know what it is to die
When it’s sucked from her
The pure genius of what she and I were
An eon ago
When love didn’t tread the path of going slow
Amid the forest and rain
And I would go back and rewrite it again
Just to see the stars
Instead of malfeasance and prison bars
As they gaily exclaim
You are the place we lay all the blame
And she shudders and wilts
Folds like a man in a suit wearing stilts
To the local bar
How did she know I was all heart
In the middle of seasons
And they all have their reasons
But they never amount
To what was proclaimed on the Mount
A sermon or two
Blinded by the Light of seeing You
In manifest form
His body is hot because he is warm
And smiles like the sun
When was it I knew that you were the one
As you shattered shards
Like a deck of playing cards
On the table we kiss
You look at me and I wonder if you miss
My stellar heart
The one that is a work of art
Amid the chains and treason
Something to believe in
Has it lasted long
Are you weathered because you are strong
Or does the weakness show
In the part that will not let me go
As the sun rises
I wonder if it knows what the prize is
Please keep that dog from his door
It visited me, now it is no more
As it crushed the carbon and coal
Into the diamond of my soul
Reborn into something new
Now I pray for each one of you
Who may have to face the dark
But in the night don’t forget the spark
That issues from your core
It clicks like a lighter til a furnace roar
Drowns out the blaze
I pray for the people the sun will save
In the midst of ruin
I think God knows what He’s doing
But that doesn’t stop the doubt from rising
I see the ones who are barely surviving
And those who have crossed
But everything is not lost
Even when you think it’s done
The human heart is precious, each and every one
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The dying of the light
Everything is gonna be alright
Because the night
Only comes so that the dawn
Shows you what was never gone
And we are in a cyclical spin
But I am always in love with Him
As, steadfast, He spans the dream
And I only know how to be a queen
Unselfish unto the sky
And not afraid to die
For what I Am
Standing for what you cannot plan
To come to be and sustain
The fields do not refuse rain
She makes a pinprick to draw blood
Just to see if she could
To see if I’m still real
If I’m alive, if I feel
And it’ll heal
But I remember the shark in her eyes
When she met me that day in the car
So far away from where you are
Looking at your ship go out
Before I was submerged in my own self doubt
As it washes to shore
And I couldn’t have loved you more
But it wasn’t enough
Coz when times got tough
All the pencils failed me and broke
And I could feel my breath start to choke
On the words I spit out at you
Coz you don’t love me too
Or so they say or so she says
Coz she’s familiar with your ways
In real life
I’m just the wife
Who is too close to see
In her eyes that all he wants is me
Submerged in the subterranean wildflower bloom
And I’d know if he was in the room
Coz electricity flows from his pulse
I describe it and she revulse
At the thought he could shock me awake
I gave it up for your sake
I don’t wanna be your whore
Like she did in the time before
And she’d buy anything you sell
Plies you with whiskey so you might tell
Her you love her so
But there are places you won’t go
Even for a trinket she’d offer
All you want is to suffer
Wholeheartedly
And rather smartly
You hold your hand out to me
We dance and it is free
And I wonder what it feels like to know she’s only there
Because you’re willing to pay your share
Of the coin
But you can’t solder what you want to join
Together in sweet surrender
I know you remember
Coz how could you forget
And it’s there for you yet
If you want to taste the apple that grows on the tree
You know you shouldn’t but you ask me
What it feels like to be
Still young and free
And I say it’s like sleeping outside your door
Waiting for the one you adore
To realise he loves you more
Than his story on the second floor
He offers me the chain
And I must exchange the key in vain
And tie myself to him
Bow my head and let him win
Always coz he’s a man
And he only ever can
Reign when he has a subject
To command
And underhand
He slides the lock
But I am not
What I appear to be
And you won’t cage the beast
That rages in me
Though she’s very blue
When she’s estranged from you
And your wilderness gaze
There’s nothing in your eyes that faze
Me when you’re true
But you lie so much it’s like it isn’t you
And you postulate
And educate
I nod my head
And I can see the bed
Light dollar signs in your eyes
But the poor guy tries
And tries to gain
What he already has and the rain
Sings its own symphony
Do you think you can change me?
She tells me I’m delusional
To still love the thread that pull
Me from where I stood
And they say it’s in your blood
But the wood
I frequent whispers things to me
And it let me be
Amid the chains a-binding
And there are avenues I’m finding
Back to where we were
And you may still be with her
I just wouldn’t know
But the knot is letting go
Into a landscape open and free
And you are standing there with me
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There was a girl who liked MCR
And I once wished I was her
In the blueprint match the architecture
And I was cool but that’s just conjecture
Of a different suppose
And there are less travelled roads
So I took them to beat them to the punch
And I’m on my own just eating lunch
When Ruth and Christine
Find me and I wake the dream
Up from where it stood
Robert Frost and an autumn wood
I find myself looking at leaves
Colours and you wouldn’t believe
What I did to keep the hue
From turning a deeper shade of blue
But then Ken made his appearance
I look around the clearance
Around us as they all fall asleep
Would you be something I could keep
But he’s sighing into the wind
And one of us must’ve sinned
Coz we’ve been stalked
And the man just talked and talked
Like silence knows no bounds
But my love is in the sounds
Woven through the tapestry
Of all that we could be
In the midnight sky he makes
Does he hear the breath my love takes
As I’m drinking him in
Will I ever see you again?
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There’s something in me
That doesn’t want to see the light of day
I’m surrounded
And they ask if I’m okay
And they offer pills
And they offer potions
Coz I can’t handle
These emotions
And I slap their hands away
But I know what they’re gonna say
“You’re just not well
And we know you’re going through hell
So take these, please”
And I crave a just release
So I take their ardent pleas
Like Barry on his knees
Professing to that woman
And I felt like stunning
Them all with a declaration
Of a lion school education
But they wouldn’t get it anyway
So I draw on the wall, okay
And they didn’t paint it over til
A year later and I will
See it out of the corner of my eye
And someone I love die
So I spiral out of control
Let the keening take my soul
As I scream and rail
Against the part of me that’s not for sale
So I bite the bullet they hand to me
Shoot me like it’s done for free
And I’m paralysed by indecision
And I was always good at revision
So I study the lines
And I try not to touch ‘em a thousand times
But I’m always met with the same reflection
In the window of my confession
In front of a nurse I love
He laughs and I look above
At the Heavenly Light
He emanated and, alright
It’s not the done thing
But I don’t want a ring
Just a way out
He smiles what I’m all about
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Is it futile to spill my words on paper
In the hope I’ll get famous
And you’ll see them later
And reconnect with me
It’s been an age since I set you free
But you still mean so much and history
Lives in my soul
Somewhere you will not grow old
But I can’t be held by a line
But is it me who’s drawn it all this time
And I’d wink at you and smile
Do you wanna come with me for a while
Just a season or two
We’re making love
Not making new
Bodies to fill this earth
And be consumed by the hurt
That seems to issue from the core
But I just love you more
With all the time that’s passed
Did you doubt this would last?
I don’t know if we are what we were
But I know I would die for her
Or live for the heaven’s breath
In the season of no regret
As we give each other space
Or relive what’s gone without a trace
In our summer skin
Do I slip in a word of him
Though I’m sure she already knows
That when it comes to love, anything goes
And it sure sings a pretty song
In all the ways we went wrong
While trying to go right
I still love you, alright?
What can I do?
I ask God
Because these children
Don’t know nothing but the rod
That they’ve been struck with
And you can call me a bitch
But I must stand up for
These people that I adore
And the innocent always suffer the most
Watch love evaporate and the ghost
Of what I was seems to stalk my days
And they’re all ingenious power plays
To strike the match
But she can’t get her back
And I know the pain
Of the rain
That flows from grief
And there’s rivers that run from her disbelief
That all could be taken
I pray that she will waken
Into the eternal
As the infernal
Swirls around the land
And the sand
Won’t remember the love
That once made it soil
Now the youth simply toil
In a land where the 50%
Must live in a place where it all went
How could hell be heaven sent?
If that’s your rationalisation
As the education
Just burns
And somehow the world still turns
Like it’s no big deal
And the saddest illusion is still real
In the minds of those
Whose feet must walk the roads
Now that they’ve been expelled
But we just sigh and wish them well
With the buttons on our screen
I pray the peril isn’t all it may seem
There’s silence on the Western Front
And it’s like the calm before the storm
Because why are they not fighting back
I can feel the heat get warm
As the race that’s never run
Gets closer and closer to the sun
And one day it’s gonna blow us to bits
Supernova before it quits
And I’m watching these scenes
In retribution for their screams
Now the children slaughtered
And the people without water
As they drink the land dry
What must it be like to know you’re gonna die
At the hand of the powers that be
And people watch but do they see
When it’s a screen
And the dream
Stirs and wakes
And the earth quakes
Like rumbling thunder
But all the people who are lying under
The rubble
Are the one suffering from the trouble
That lives in all of our hearts
As the white can’t stain themselves dark
To pretend they know what it’s like in the park
That contains
The pains
Of the oppressed
And they tell me; get up and get dressed
And put yourself together
But somewhere in the heather
Is a hue I can’t feign
Please save the people from the rain
Kissing sweet men
Makes me roll in the clouds
And the bedsheets speak your name
As I place the blame
On you for all you could not be
But maybe the problem was me
As I took aim
When you said it’s just not the same
And I cry out; why
And you say; we’re both gonna die
Someday
And it’s okay
I dry my eyes
And we kiss in the middle of goodbyes
That I can’t bear to countenance
Do you think we could have one last dance
As you hold my hand in the street
And I think that the day we meet
Might be just passé
Who the hell is she anyway?
You sigh
And I can’t meet your eye
In the winter wilderness snow
I just don’t know how to let you go
Into the arms of wife and child
And it’s so wild
That we came from nothing
To be the stars
And I realise why I was chasing cars
Coz your number plate spelled L-A-Z
And suddenly
You’re talking to me
Like a bolt outta the blue
I didn’t know I would lose my heart to you
Almost ten years later
Why did you date her
Right in front of my face
And, damn, all the time that we waste
Trying to put the jigsaw piece into place
And it’s nobody’s fault and everybody’s business
When you spilt the beans
I was watching when you posted Dreams
I’ve lived my life
By meteor strikes
And the fire burns
Then fades away
As it hits the earth
And I sashay
Down the aisle
Of a two point five
But is the family
Why I’m alive
Or do I decide
To dip in and out of love
As long as it fits like a glove
But when the weather gets warm
You take it off
You ask for fidelity
To pay the cost
You can’t afford
He gave me his heart
I gave him my word
To always remain
As his safety from pain
And when it rain
I show up again
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Who is a writer
The one who picks up the pen
And gets inspired by men
There was a guy called Daz
And I walked through a sea of lads
Just to meet his eye
In a place where love can never die
And they call me goofy and they call me a fool
And Americans call college school
But I met him in the hall
I ran the length of the wall
Just to whisper through the crevice
Do you wanna be an absolute menace
With me
And free
Our blood pulses in our veins
As we talk each others names
Casually, in conversation
And the elation
Is not one sided we
Have made our own version history
Somewhere in the great unfold
You were my field of gold
When I laboured in the dark
And I have memories of Nutgrove park
Right by the church
Loving the way it hurt
Coz it meant that you got in
But you are the colour of him
When he breaks the sun across the sky
Something of us will never die
As red as a shepherd’s morning
I took it as a grave warning
To be on my guard
And when it got hard
I hid my loving part
From the work of art
That is your eye
When it’s locked into my lie
As it’s beating true
The heart in me was made for you
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Chasing poems
Are you on your own
And could this reach out to you
I let me heart go out to the place where you
Stood still in the window
And I pile on the sarcasm but still though
If everything’s in the present moment
Then you are mine and I own it
Like a race car I drive
When I pray that you’re still alive
Coz I’ve stopped staring at a screen
To tell me I could find my dream
In a man many miles away
I should’ve told you I want you to say
With me forevermore
And I only showed you the door
We all must walk through some day
Bodies are born to go away
But love stays true and real
I look at you like it’s no big deal
We could be legends to each other
Did I just sell out my brother
To the wolves that pull
The pain out from where it hid so dull
And you always have that card
You hold over me and it’s so hard
To breathe when you are around
And I love the sound
Of your cracking thunder light
The place where my love ignite
From just an intimate space
And I didn’t waste
Any time in getting close to you
Because you’re lovely, do you
Ever know that when you see your eyes
Flicker over the frame of a disguise
So thin and barely there
It doesn’t hold up in your stare
And we’ve been apart so long
I’ve forgotten what it was to sing that song
With you by my side
Did you need to hide
Your broken arrow true
I loved it just because it came from you
He has a heart vacancy
And there’s a light that goes on
When a car leaves the place
I loved for so long
And she’s not what she seems
As she wields the magic
But somewhere in her eyes
There is something tragic
And I feel it ache my bones
When we are all alone
And I just wanna touch
The place she hurts and heal
What the boy who broke the wave to steal
The water from the gods
Found a woman who was the Lord
Of her own domain
We’re both standing in the rain
But it is good and free
And she means the world to me
With her jet black hair
And stare
As we young and twenty two
The city between me and you
Now all that has faded
As the look, it ages
More than the picture crumbles
He finds her vest and fumbles
With the ties that bind
And he is on my mind
Most mornings in the afternoon
The presence light up the room
As cacophony becomes just another sound
He’s just a buddy I want around
In the melee
I think love could be more than setting you free
They are monsters in the making
And I wonder if they’re faking
The lines they draw in the sand
Because someone somewhere takes a hand
And promises someone love
But the same palm becomes a boxing glove
As it curls into a fist
And I missed the memo to the place where I exist
As something other than old defeat
I washed my hair at his feet
And he just sighed his heart
And I could hear him fall apart
In my peace
And I know what he wants to cease
But the trouble can’t sustain
Itself in this rain
And if I had to I would do it again
Just to catch the tear from his eye
My love, there’s a Love that will never die
And I move out of the place obscure
I know it’s pure
And precious and bold
But you have a heart of gold
Hidden beneath the fray
My dear, are you okay
Under that weight
I want you to know that the hate
Isn’t all it seems to be
Trust in Him and trust in me
There’s a mountain in my teacup
It tries to teach the law
But then the golden age
Undergoes the great thaw
And all the halting numbers
Can’t fake the storm I see
There’s a reverberation
That says it’s up to me
To unfold and remake
What they mean when they say
They do it for your sake
But I just swish the warmth
Around as it leaves the dregs
Of my hit of high
And I let go the one who weds
The prince on the white horse
The one who bit back words
And spit them out with no remorse
In the quaking of a silver sea
He’s grown to become a memory to me
As I stave myself off the ripeness in my blood
And how I talked to him in the wood
With the trees surround
And nothing but their kissing sound
Leaf to leaf and toe to toe
She’s a monster coz she tells me to let you go
The monster in my dashboard
Tries to gain control
He links up with strangers
To roll and roll and roll
And he designated me queen
If he can be the king
But he’s looking for more
Than just a diamond ring
To bequeath the forest
That’s growing in the night
But I will never be slave
To what his lust ignite
As it tries to eat up
All that ever was
But I stay the same
I am myself because
I will always be the tree top
In whose mighty power
The sight of benumbed men
Fall aside and cower
And somewhere in the morning
I can be the sun
I’m sorry you were wrong
When you thought you were the One
The fightstar shines above the land
But I can’t make the people understand
What makes this clock tick
And I’m sick of putting up with
Less than stellar behaviour
They teach you that the saviour
Is mangled and broken
But risen from the dead
But what they don’t say
Is Now is eternal instead
And the body is witnessed
And the body is watched
And there is something that knows
The ticking of the clock
That is not governed
By the movement of hands
I still love indie rock bands
As they belt out a refrain
But it’s the same story again
And I will not let him in
Coz I know he just wants to win
And have me be something to conquer
But I am all childlike and wonder
And don’t sway in the wind that he blows
Though he’s out of breath from trying, God knows
Is being free more important than being with you
Because I’ve tried harder than I’ve wanted to
To make the pieces match
But it just chews up another batch
Of forested children
Fleeing from the villain
That stalks their dreams
And if I could’ve met you on moonbeams
I would’ve found what I wanted to
My love, it was only ever you
All the doors I close
And the people I lose behind them, God knows
And the first time I committed that crime
Was when a girl was way outta line
She stepped on my toes
And got in my way, God knows
And the harder I fought my corner
The more visceral the way she would forlorn ya
So I let the rope go slack
When she said “I don’t know want you back”
And instead of pleading my case
I set the dial to erase
And burned up the photo and memory
Of everything we used to be
All the laughter and the wit
For the sake of the pain and how she hit
It hard with sudden force
And justifications and no remorse
And I, so mild and meek
Would be the highlight of her week
Until I crossed her temper
And the onslaught, I remember
How she turned friends to foes
Whispers of things only she knows
Til that girl blanks me in the hall
And another puts up a wall
Where there used to be open hands
And I’m a stranger in these lands
Because I’ve only ever known friends
But we will not make amends
In this calamitous affair
You wonder do I care
And I do, more than you know
That’s why I’m letting you go
Because your pincers snap
And my map
Had not known this terrain
As I fight the worst of you in vain
And sometimes still
The picture of us never will
Live up to Reality
I’m better off without you and me
Oh Elaine whose words of wisdom
Would you use them to forgive them
For me
You were always so eternity
As you encourage the best of me
To keep on with the fight
Like you’re the match and I ignite
With every spark that fuse
Uses the road to confuse
Me with the skin I know
And I did not let you go
I just had to gain some ground
So I could hear the sound
Of alone together
And the weather
Brings me back to your door
I knock and ask if you love me more
For the absence that held
There was something that weld
You to me
In those years infinity
As we traversed the town
And there was no trace of a gown
As we blue jean the scene
Like a Jane Eye and Lizzie dream
I have the blind hero and you
Are heir to a love most true
That beats in both our hearts
What is it that it imparts
I hope that equanimity
Still holds the best of me
In the soul of you
It means so much to me that us two
Were what we are
I still drive the car
With the memory of you knocking on the window
To show me left from right though
And you do not let go
I love you always and I hope you know
Messy little snowflake having your child
I used to be impetuous, I used to be wild
Now I just come to dock at the bay
And learn to say I love you anyway
And the youth of my generation
Are estimated to spend less time at the station
Getting on trains
Or making bodies with bloodstains
And there’s a hidden kind of invisible trauma
When they encourage you but don’t inform ya
Of the onset of pain
Flowing from you like cyclical rain
To prepare the ground for the seed
And half of us will bleed
Out what we’ve come to make
You say you do it for my sake
But do you know what you plant
When you call my words a rant
That aim to please
Til I’m screaming on my knees
As I fulfil my function
But we’ve come to a sort of junction
And you make a hard right
In the car and the night
Comes to envelop us both
And I know that you live to hope
In what I offer but I
Am not willing to die
To bring another soul on the scene
That was somebody else’s dream
Since I was eighteen
I would rather reign as the queen
Of my own domain
But I hear you ask again
For a match to spark a light
And you ask someone else, am I right
To be your two point five caretaker
And I know you didn’t make her
But it still feels like force
And you living without remorse
For your bullet pen
But if I had a choice, I’d let you in again
In her plasticine Lego land
She makes things I’ll never understand
Bricks and mortar, tins and thread
Sew like crazy until you’re dead
As I pause and reflect
Love the life of the reject
Who owns the whole sea in her brow
I’m not just a measure of what you allow
To permeate your will
I don’t want to live up to be the fill
Of all you take in to drink
I broke, the sign on the wall said think
And I couldn’t get around it
Like a koan, I just sound it
Out til the music is right on the lips
Of something I barely eclipse
With my steady sun and moon
I pray deliverance is coming soon
But it keeps revealing more to me
About what is in store to be
After the sunset of a horizon
I meditate but I can’t keep my eyes on
That focal point
I was baptised and they anoint
My head with the oil of Chrism
I search for answers and every one of them is Him
I feel your pulsing strength
As I wonder where you went
And you told me the truth
You were the agenda, I was the proof
Of a summer as yet unseen
I met you as though in a dream
And you spilled words
It’s as though they went unheard
In the melee
I’m alone with him and he’s facing me
Across a table
Keep up with him, if you’re able
And he stuns my defence
With his beauty in the present tense
And his hair so bleach
And I know he think to teach
And mansplain
But could you say you love me again
As you gloss over the facts
Offer me some openness you can’t take back
In the headway we make
In the cake I refuse to bake
Just for the sake of it
And you are all wit
As we explore
And I defy what you don’t want no more
In the winter time
Did you see me shine
When I called you in
And you remind me of him
That old love that soothes my soul
And you are a little old
But still very fine
And I would call you mine
In the last dance
You gave me love, I gave you a chance
To be all that you already are
Somebody somewhere named me after a star
And it burns for you
But do I know what I’m getting into
When I let you in
And I know you’re all about the win
As you tell me you studied law
And the great thaw
That’s been setting in
Can’t help but do away with sin
And war
Do you know what this is for
If not to ignite
You be the dark, I’ll be the light
That shines relentless
I am the saviour, I am no temptress
To lead you astray
Anyway, you just get in your own way
As you try to claim
The meaning behind my name
That is effortless serene
I came here to wake the dream
Only the wise
Can rise
And maybe I’m overshooting the mark
But it feels like I’m firing in the dark
At a target that keeps on moving
When you fight, everyone is losing
Because every time we take aim
We are hitting our own name
In another shape and form
And a body warm
Has a heart that beats
With the same heat
That pumps our own
It takes the dark for the night you’ve known
To be thrown into day
And if there was any other way
To appreciate candlelight
He would have told us, right?
But the brutality ensues
As the people pay their dues
Over and over again
And most of it is men
Straining to find a space to place
The parts of themselves they’ve felt love deface
And I know it’s abhorrent
And there’s nothing that could warrant
This kind of storm
And everyone who dies was once born
Into their own skin
Even the Word, even Him
And there’s something they cannot take
Because Love does not forsake
All you’ve held in hands
Whether fairy lights or metal bands
We all have a place in the sea
And it’s the current moving me
To issue a decree
And if it must begin with me
I’ll let the magnet go
And the volume low
Ushers in a new dawn
One where we’ve lost what’s gone
Only to remain
The valley in the shadow of death and pain
Gives way to a New Earth
You wouldn’t know peace of you hadn’t felt the hurt
I feel decimated from the inside out
I take a first, faltering step, replete with self doubt
That I could turn this tightrope walk
Into something that is more than just talk
And I know the midnight raps the door
But I feel the morning so much more
With every sudden storm
That seems to keep my body warm
With its lightning crack
Will we be able to take this back
In the years that expand
And this is about so much more than land
As the underhand
Seems to gain the uppercut
Does the story end when the door shut
On all our hopes and dreams
Is it all over when the screams
Fall silent and is it death
As we look back in regret
About the darkest part of the night
I don’t know if this will be alright
As I grip a calling hand
And the sand
Just pours
And all that she adores
Is smashed to rubble
What began the trouble
Was it war or the unease within
And when she looks up can she blame him?
I used to think the US government was watching me
It had been the English but that’s history
So I submitted myself for assessment
And they surmised that it’s just stressing
In a world you call poetry
I could be wrong so don’t quote me
Now I see the lives ripped to shreds
A community mourning their war dead
And I know that the sides
Have the reasons for their lies
And they justify
But I cannot just sit in stone silence safety
As humanity tries to erase me
From their memory
I used to be a symbol of the quest
The one who broke the rules of what was best
As I strove to excel
Now the whole damn thing is going to hell
And I sit warm in my car or bed
While the zombies fight in my head
Do I just go back to my personal pain
So I don’t feel the acid rain
That pours on bodies in the east
Do something, my heart screams, at least
And it’s my mind numbing to fold the page
And it’s emptiness, not rage
As I watch a mother cradle her child
Gone somewhere that the wild
Can’t touch her now
Can you see the blessings, somehow
In the trauma of voices on silent
And another side that only knows how to be violent
As they justify so placidly
The crimes of war, effortlessly
As sliding a bill into a hand
Who can lay claim to the land
When the people dispute
And no UN resolute
Seems to stem the tide of blood
And if I could I would
Lift what I could of the weight
Can we forgive the hate
In the name of something that we build
The desperate ask; why do you let us be killed
And do I just force my eyes shut with tears to escape the lines
Is it a sign or just a sign of the times
I used to trust in them
As the deliverer
They visited shores of my people
And together with the diaspora
Worked for peace on the island
No to terrorism
And no to state sponsored violence
A table
Where the people gathered around
To talk
And to fight
Over differences
Points of view
Collective wounds
I was only eight
When they agreed
We will hold it together
It’s been twenty five years
And somehow the faith still keeps
Enough to bridge the gap
Now my eyes are drawn to the map
Of hostile states
Independent actors
And hate
But the mighty take sides
Where is their peace agreement
And how can they broker calm
If they are the ones ringing the alarm
I call for everyone
Everyone, everywhere
To say
I see you
To not flinch or turn away
When the burning gets too strong
Or when you’re pulled by where you belong
There is peace
Just beyond the field that you can see
I know because it was there for me
When I sank in despair
Amid my own cries of “it’s not fair”
And it may not be
But there’s still a God who see
Everything that you do
And the crimes you commit visit you
In the dark of a subterranean night
How do you tell your children it will be alright
While you starve the 40%
And I was not sent
Here to stand by
The millions, the millions that will die
If we do nothing now
I’ve got to claim something, somehow
And if it will end then let me know
Coz from where I stand it is blow for blow
As we hit the decks
Will we only wake up when the world is wrecked
I’m afraid to go to sleep
Because I don’t know what I will wake up to in the morning
And I lie in my warm bed
With silence outside my window
I keep thinking of the ones
Who cannot dive any deeper
The ocean just won’t hold them
In this sea of despair
Do people care
Enough to say no
No, I will not let this go
Into the night
As though it’s alright
Is the call of our times
To lay down the fight
That used to burn in us
And trust
Appears to be shattered
As a community remains to be battered
By tanks and guns
While somewhere, somebody loses their sons
To the war machine
Wake up to the lie that holds the dream
Together while I fall apart
But dare I not close my heart
To the sigh of pain
I never thought this would happen again
They urge restraint
But it’s in blood that they paint
Their picture of the world
And I am just a girl
Screaming into the wind
Who is to say who has sinned
In violent despair
I know it happened because I was there
The dice that they roll
What has happened to the power of soul
To resolve the pain
I look up at the rain
As it’s pouring from sky
And wonder why anyone has to die
But it’s the children, the children, I hear their cry
And I could stay silent, I could just lie
And say it’s “both sides”
But nobody hides
When the guns are in town
Everyone knows that you can drown
I’m an ocean of fear
And it is ever near
To catch a grasp
I just want you to know that I ask
The God of good to please break the spell
That has the people living in hell
As they doom a race
Of people put out of place
As the rockets fire
The situation is dire
And it can only stem the fire
To take it higher
And let the pain go
I’ve a responsibility to speak, so
As a writer the flame
Will issue from my name
In poetry
Please, let the people, let them go free
I keep waiting for someone to speak up
Then I remember I am someone
And my words have meaning
In the great seeming
I may have stolen the first two lines
From a meme somewhere in the back of my mind
It is not all dark relief
Somewhere beyond the belief
There is a realm of calm
And there is no alarm
That can sound the bell of war
You are safe within and I adore
The foot of the mountain I’ve been led to
I will follow Arunachala and you
Can find me there
It’s silent here but I still care
And reverberate
My inner state
So that pain
And rain
May fall like leaves
Adjacent to the one who sees
The submergence of all form
And fire is warm
But it can’t burn the soul
And as we grow old
We seek the storm
What is the reason you were born?
There’s no point reasoning with them
Because they cannot see sense
And the world is living in the present tense
Of rules and order
What is in a border
When you can’t cross it
And you can’t imagine the loss, it
Steals away the very heart
Of living, the breathing’s the taking part
As I beg to stem the flow of tears
A heart breaking as we count the years
Like speckled eggs
I drain the cup and the dregs
Sit in my throat
Beware of who you choose to quote
Following their trail
What is left when all words fail
As I sit in the comfort of my chair
Picture all the people that are not there
And what can I do
In my peace to transmit it to you
As the bombs drop
Am I the one who can say stop
Look what you do
And that other you kill, that other is you
In militant prose
I have walked many a road
But they all lead to self doubt
And a tendency to do without
When the chips were down
I keep seeing fire burning my town
As the rabble spreads
If you want to stay calm, listen to yourself
As the noise drowns out
The lip service paid to token mouths
Who have their say
There is something of us they cannot take away
Though they try
And brothers and sisters are sentenced to die
By their own kin
Don’t you know that you are him
In another’s clothes
And God knows
We’ve seen it before
As it visits many a shore
We decry
Leaving it til it’s too late to try
And reason with them
History is cycling and it’s happening again
Another round of the wheel
The likes of which you should never deal
With at all
If it’s only me I’ll still answer the call
I have written an article about what I feel concerning the current situation in the Middle East. It is strongly worded and contains views which may not be amenable to everyone. I felt compelled to commit my words to paper in the hope that it will play some small part in bringing peace to those who come into contact with it. We are all Love and it passes my comprehension how we can continue to make war and terror in each others lives. I write this post with a heavy heart and a solemn conviction that we can do better. I hope this finds you at peace. Please send loving kindness to all embroiled in this devastation.
With love, Laura X
I see the face of the innocent child
Burned into my heart so wild
And they both take sides
Take love and take lives
From our hands
And the sands
Bear no trace of the sea
But if it was up to me
I’d reach over and grasp a hand
Though there’s no way I can understand
What you’re going through
But you’re not alone, you
Have to hear my voice
Retribution is not a choice
That anyone should have to make
But the glass breaks as the ground shake
Can the turmoil be stemmed
Like the flow of blood from wounds again
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