It was never you til it was
Never worked out because
The universe had something else in mind
I always told myself it’s just the wrong time
But the future I prayed to, the future will give
Me a reason as to why I live
For I tick all the boxes and I marionette 
But there’s a love in my soul I cannot forget
It’s yellow and pure like a perfect sun
And I see it shine out of everyone
Gaze into eyes, see them recognize
But the moment slips and then somebody dies
Bury myself under a mountain of pain
For the love I will never see again
But the feet still walk, the chest still breathes
The heart still longs, the soul still needs
Something to complete itself
I never found myself in anyone else
Til I let go into the perfect you are
And remembered myself as a star
Before the car crash took it all away
I know I should not speak of that day
But I was so happy, unconscionably so
Til she told me something I cannot unknow
The absence of a friend so true
In the loss of him, I saw You
And broke on the floor like glass into pieces
And the memory of it never ceases
To rewrite each tome I ask
Today will you be my mask
So I can pretend for another day
That maybe I will be okay
But you grab me like we’re already mates
And in that moment you sealed your fate
For I will abandon the rack
In the knowledge that I have you back
And the guilt I cannot help but feel
For there’s a safety death cannot steal
A joy I cannot help but lift
A holy man, a sacred gift
In acceptance and through the phone
I realise we’re not alone
And friends abound in every place
To witness my saving grace
Hold me like he’s known all along
That He’s the place I belong

Artist Credit: https://pin.it/179H40hXb