Are you Deezie in disguise
I hate the thought when I look in your eyes
Coz she ripped my flesh from the bone
And she set fire to my home
And as I watched it all burn down
I was actually glad to exit that town
And I look at her in the rearview sky
How a former friend could let you die
On a bed of nails she crafted herself
But I was born into wealth
And it starts to shine from my skin
It was then I ran into him
And the fear caught in my throat
What if this one is the GOAT?

But the archives retain some of their strength
As I wonder what you meant
When you said you would never let me down
But I’m Beyoncé and I start to drown
In a room made of water
Just someone’s girl, just someone’s daughter
And women never turn into men
So could we just play this again
Coz I hate the thought of being mother
Until I see you in the arms of another
And John sings of a lover but I cannot be
What the world wants of me
Just another shade of next to no one
Now I wonder who it was holding the gun

And it’s her birthday and she hits the diff
Lost in a spiralling staircase of what if
As the layers are peeled back like a sticker
And my heart starts to beat quicker
When I let him meet my eyes
Because I know there are no lies
In whatever is held between us
No half truths, you can’t imagine trust
And I brought him home in my car
And as I wonder what you are
I know I can’t do this to him
Watch the end begin
In the moment of the sunset days
I just wish he knew how many ways
I had him painted in my head
Now I just turn off the light when I go to bed

Will I ever see you again
Because I made poetry out of what I saw in men
Because on a hill there lies
The part of me that dies
Every time I see somebody tougher
And if you asked me if I still love her
I would have to say yes
Will we speak again, it’s anyone’s guess
All I know is I see you down on one knee
Promising it all to me
So that I can spill the beans
On how nightmares can turn into dreams
But I can’t play the tape on repeat
Just so I can fall at your feet
It was not a relationship that broke me
It was the lie long believed that woke me
Up to exactly what I am
So don’t mourn over the loss of Sam
Because that cup is in the bag
I remember the day I lost the rag
With you on the phone
Please, just don’t leave me alone