I’ve a darkness in my soul in which I’d love to roll
But all of the cadences take a toll
And why can I not reach the other side
I never wanted to be a white bride
Just a jeans and t shirt kind of girl
That you could someday make your world
And you let me come close enough just so
To other men, then they must let me go
And I am not trying to subvert your authority
But why do you dangle this chain in front of me
And let me lock eyes with him
If I never get to speak those words again
To anyone but you
It’s unfair what you put me through
That is not to say I let you go
But why must you torture someone who will never get to know
The fire of my cocaine soul
If you are the only dragon with which I roll
Do not let me fall for them
If I don’t get to utter Amen
At the end of the prayer
I only loved him because you were not there
And it’s a siphon to my soul to admit
That I will have to quit
The drug that I am on
But it’s only when I know that you’re not gone
And I sit on the floor with these pieces of broken glass
A guy by my side or a break in the class
And the guilt is overwhelming because you
Let someone else fall for you too
Coz I emanate the love you gave
And I’m not the only soul you save
With that heavenly light
Don’t worry ‘bout me, I am alright
Spare a thought for the ones I’ve caught
They are people I’ve loved, not caught
For all the commerce in a trade
I never made a bargain I could not braid
Into the confines of my hair
Why did you not love me when I was there?