The midnight expanse opened up like a dark jewel that just drew me in
And it’s not complicated or as elaborate as him
And everything I say as I try to find ground
Is lost in the escalation of his self serving sound
And he comes to me alone and broken as hell
Wraps his arms around my waist like all too well
And I try to shut him out but the faceless observer 
Does anything he can just to unnerve her
And I’m lying in my bed and it’s mid July
And I can feel him make another try
And I don’t want to see him so I blur his features
He’s just another one of these unknowable creatures
Coz he’s got a wife and a partner at home
So why is he blowing up my phone
He pushes in close and I try to resist 
But escaping him is like running through mist
He’s everywhere and I turn within
Am I afraid of myself or afraid of him
I can hear the homewrecker knock around my brain
Says you know that you would be causing her pain
And I try to come to grips with the moment
But you just own it
And I know you don’t respect my boundary 
You lie to her when you lie with me
And I hate myself, I hide it in screams
My pillow knows all the versions of what I have been
And he promises me forever and that he will leave
And I’m not sure if it’s something I want to believe 
Because there’s something in the hinterland like I ghost of a whisper 
I saw that photo, I watched as you kissed her
And I see you lean over and through
Reach into a part of her that’s not meant for you
And she just let you do it
And you put me through it
Tied out on a string like whiskey and wine
I look away and they tell you I’m fine
And your rage bursts through the tone in your voice
I try to understand, like I have a choice
I try to fix it coz I don’t want bad blood
But you play the victim like it is all good
Spit venomous words down the line
I try to explain for the thousandth time 
Coz I “deserve it” somehow, all this spewing hate
Because I never did agree to that date
And you sat alone with a bottle in your hand 
Drunk the last swallow of your life as a man
And I was nowhere to be seen
Just somewhere in a dream
Watching from afar
As that car
Careened over the hill
Was it one or the both of us you wanted to kill?