She played on my buttons like they were piano keys
And it wasn’t long until I found myself on my knees
And I tried to fight the rising tide
But all I could do was run and hide
As her onslaught overflowed the bounds
Of the arrangements we had made of the sounds
And she swore me to silence so I swore in verse
In a cacophony I could not rehearse
And a letter lay on my desk til I burned the paper
It seems the only way I could escape her 
And the ties that bind let out
When it became so much more than self doubt
And it almost strung me up
To die a death on the altar of love
Of my compassion and my empathy
I watched her make a fool out of me
And everyone in the room looked away
And I was caught by an NDA
That I promised I would not repeat what I had been told
In secret I kept her but the story gets old
As she blames the little girl for the pain
Like the lightning strike that brings on the rain
And he walked in my door
And I wanted to love him more 
Than I had ever loved anything before
But her memory’s in my mind 
So I left him behind
Because I’m susceptible to narcissistic prose
And maybe this is just the road
I’ve taken time and time again
And I don’t want to be in bed with men
Who wish me ill
And get me there through prodigious skill
And I know his anger could kill
So I do not bend to his will
And watch him take up an avenue
Knowing that it could never be you
And her hair falls in a perfect curl
She looks like a sound girl
And he guards her like a dog with teeth
One that you might meet on the street
And I am lost, aghast
As I try to reconcile our past
The gaslight anthem in his gaze
As he claims he only wants to save
Me from my own hand
I wonder does he understand 
Or is this just a ploy
As I listen to “If I Were A Boy”
And he threatens me with the darkest mask
To try and keep me where the light I cast
Is hidden in shadow and shade
And I’m not the only truth that he evades
Eating his corn flake bowl
In the battle for my soul