The mists that cover the corners of the page
And I’ve been party to his rage 
As he unleashed it on me 
For what I couldn’t help but see 
And say 
He must be used to getting his own way
Because when I challenge the dust 
He breaks all I thought I could trust 
And is humanity a lost cause 
Am I just a girl on pause 
Or is there a button I can play 
Because I don’t want to be what they say 
I should be by now 
But I don’t know how 
To be thirty for and a woman grown 
If I would have known 
What it would mean to let that dark encroach 
I would have decried the folks 
He told me to lean into 
But instead I trusted you 
And they crucified what I left into their hands 
Broke me down like heavy metal bands
Shred guitar 
And I still wonder what you are 
But I don’t know what would happen if you decided to do what you did then 
Again 
It was ashes and phoenix rise 
And I’m not dependent on your eyes 
To be true to what I am 
I hope you had another plan