They caved in on me and I’m so aloof
I almost blindly demanded proof 
That you loved me when I can feel 
That somewhere you are real 
That you exist and are true 
That I am missed and that you 
Meant every word you said to me 
When you let me go free 
And he clasps me like a dying grip
Coz he can’t bear to let it slip 
That iron weight he seeks to bear 
The ones he longs to tear 
In two with his burning heat 
And I will never fall at his feet 
Because I was made for loving you 
You were like a saint coming through 
Til you left like a reckless abandon 
And now I’m nothing but a fandom 
Clicking like on a page 
Like it is all the rage 
And I’m not safe where I am 
I know he would do what he can 
To burn and bake and desecrate 
I know his love is founded on hate 
As it cakes at the edges and flakes 
I’m told that it’s for our sakes 
But isn’t everything these days 
That how the movie plays 
And how they convince you that they
Would do anything to keep the waves at bay 
And I”m years carrying the burden they pass
Like something that is made to last 
But it’s a net, it’s a web
And I decide to abandon it instead 
Like some matrix binary fucked 
You walked over the hill and I looked 
And saw the reason for my existence 
Please excuse my resistance 
To being happier than I could contemplate 
I would have liked to go on that date