I don’t know what to make of it 
So I just watch as I sit 
The canvas play across his eyes 
It’s just the sky in disguise 
And I wonder what he might see in me 
That makes him so inclined to be 
Inadequately disposed 
To my less travelled roads 
And I’m half the woman I used to be 
And I hate that word and I want to set it free
But it’s clear I am girl no more 
It’s like I’ve been cracked from the roof to the floor 
Like the kernel of an egg 
It’s in the words that she said 
When she sought to deny 
The part of me she cannot buy 
With her recompense 
And there were years living in tents 
Getting by on the music we own 
Just green and half grown 
And if I could have known 
What was in front of me then 
I’m not sure I would want to live it again 
As I run to the nearest fount
But the water did not amount
To what I thought it would 
It only ever seemed to draw blood 
In the place that I was weak 
And before I get to speak 
They have a label slapped on my head 
Says reconciled to be dead 
And I just feel like Jesus on the cross
Crying out that all is lost
To a Father that does not answer 
He just takes his last breath and the dancer
In me can’t move the way she used to 
Because something weighs on me and you 
And it is not my fault 
But I must say I loved the vault 
It was just the narcotics that did not suit me down to the ground 
I think I would have rather drowned 
Than go through the hell they rained 
All so that I could be mediocre again 
But I was born to be the best 
So I’ll take up my burden and fuck the rest