I don’t want to let it go
The pain I have come to know
The grief and the surrender
Reminds me that I remember
But how could I ever forget
People that are with me yet 
I felt you touch the bridge of my nose
And it shows me that though there are many roads
They all lead to the top of the mountain
And the fountain 
Pours water into the sea 
I watch you leave me 
Behind 
And out of my mind
As I try to catch the air
As it is leaving there
And scream “no” like I watch the fathers do
When their children are lost to
A war that no one can win
And sin 
Is a fucking lie
Because when we die
Our slate is wiped clean
And the dream
Is woken up from where it stood
God is great only if he is good
And no devil can touch what is at my core
It cannot shatter what was there before
Coz I would travel to hell
Just to get the chance to wish you well
And the arrows all fly
At me when I cry
Like shattered glass, the scream 
Is not enough to shine a beam 
Into my darkened room
Because I love the doom 
And it makes me shake 
And I know that I will not break 
As the weight 
Is piled upon my frame
I’m in a locked ward and the feeling’s the same
They haven’t wrought it from my hand
With their claims they understand
As they prescribe
Something to keep alive
The closed in your eyes
So I hide my cries 
From the watching souls
Who play roles
To keep themselves from the dark 
But I have wandered in Nutgrove Park 
For a century or more
And I will never close that door
No matter what you do to me 
I called God and he set it free
To be more than I ever thought
There was no lie that is bought
That can trump the holy white light 
I just don’t know why I fight
To keep the obscuration dense
Like my love is in the past tense