Letting the family go
I love the detachment because when you know
You just know 
And I row
My boat up the stream
It’s not enough just to say its a dream 
You have to live what you’ve learned 
And if it really is all maya
Then why am I crying 
As I watch my grandmother die
I can’t find the lie
In it all 
When I’m facing that brick wall
And I try to clamber up
Scratch and claw against the loss of love 
And I know she’s with me for forever
Because whatever the weather 
She would always be with me 
And it may be an open sea
But the water is still good to swim 
And she must have called him
Because he just let go
He just let me know
That the fight was over 
And I drove my Range Rover 
To the brink of the hill 
Because my love was born to kill 
Or so it seems and I need to neutralise the threat
I cannot forget 
The power of intention
And somehow I cannot mention
That I know, I just know
That the holding on is becoming a flow
And suddenly 98 seems young 
And Renefarna far flung 
From here 
I hold her dear
But there are no words I can say
That will stem the going away
I’ve dreaded this day for years and years 
The complete absence of tears 
Coz the bullet hits you in the gut
Like a baseball bat in a bad rut
And you’re winded and out of air
And I am slow to remember the power of prayer 
To find you back from whence you came 
You are more than just a name 
To me now 
You are what propels me on somehow
As I follow my dream 
I was not made to sew the seam
On the dress this world will wear
I watched the fabric tear
Many times
And crimes 
Are committed in plain sight
No, I am not alright 
But there’s no point in saying that 
You’ll just his me with another attack
And commit me to the ward once more
I cannot abide a closed door
And I blow that thing to bits
I open my wings and the integrity hits
Them right where they lie
I do not want to die
I transcend time and space
And no love is a waste
Even my time spent under your roof
But if you ask I won’t give you proof