I feel oceans of waves in the place where I lie
I wonder what it is to die
And go back home to all of your folks 
Where everyone’s laughing and cracking jokes
And here I am at thirty two
With a lifetime to go til I see you
And you passed just like a breeze, gentle and true
But I still feel like I’m here with you
Like your arm caresses the hold of me
And you’re so full of truth, I’m bold to see
Everything that could be in magnificent dance
I think God gave me a second chance
To be true and real, heartfelt and honest
And if you’re looking for steady then you can count on it
Coz why don’t I cry when I stand by your grave
And you were someone I couldn’t save
But I only felt joy abound
As if you were listening to the resident sound
The peace of that moment there with you
I loved you strong like you wanted me to
Yet all I’m told is it’s not my time
But one day it will be and relief will be mine
Coz I go on laboring in this crazy world
I’m the awareness that sees there is a girl
Or a young woman how do you say
I don’t want the pain to go away
Coz it reminds me of all the times we shared
The look in your eyes, the way that you cared 
And it’s as though a hole has been torn
Into the fabric that keeps me warm
And I just wish for Heaven like they say
Not scared of everything that goes away
But open and fresh with two eyes for seeing
I don’t think they know what it is they are freeing 
As they monitor me for any solution
As if they can tell what’s my convolution
But I just see the universe in them
Every time they ask me a question again
But they can trust in what I’m built with
You won’t find me lying in a ditch
But offering it up for all to see
To be born again is my destiny