She told me it was jealousy
And I couldn’t let anyone see
But I’m on tenderhooks 
And I find my refuge in books 
That take me away from the land of death
Into pride, bravery and no regret
As magicians cast a spell 
Of wilderness on human will
And she would cut away at me by degree
Is it wrong to let the pain go free
As I sit by her side in mathematics 
But her words are jagged 
And designed to hurt
I don’t know which is worse
That she tries or that I let her
Take me down from where I confer 
My ancient soul to the riverbed 
But it’s nine o’ clock and a loved one is dead
And I have no time for your shit
In room nineteen
I remember it as clearly as a dream
Sunk in the mists of time
What was my crime 
Shining my truth
Like a shield that makes me bulletproof 
And I try to hide that light
Coz it makes you insecure, alright
But the pain of suppression
Elicits a confession
To the one I love the most
She haunts these halls like she’s a ghost 
And I can’t seem to convey
The growing fear, the dismay
Til it hits me like a steam train rolling
Which part of my virtue are you trolling
Til I’ve nothing left to rely upon
Except the memory of that which is gone
As, black eyed, I walk across my room
Falling into an abyss of doom
But don’t let her see
Don’t let anyone into me
Til I’m at breaking point and the final straw
Comes when the Great Thaw
Reaches the perimeter of my field 
And something in me just yield 
To this great power
As the girl in the ivory tower
Lets you go 
I’m a Child Of Christ, in case you didn’t know