It was too late to save him
So I just gave him
A kiss and stuttered goodbye
Why do the people we love have to die
We made him a card
And life gets hard
I found it on top of the press 
A name but no address
And it stabbed me like a knife
Just my grandfather and his wife 
Growing old together
But the weather 
Always changes 
And rearranges
What you think you know
People triumph the letting go
But I hold on
Is he really gone
There’s a video somewhere of you catching my eye
I hold that memory close to the sky
Of my soul
The part of me that will not grow old 
And the devastation hits me like a wave
My futile facade crumbles and cave
As I sink to the floor 
Behind my bedroom door
With my head against the cool
Wall or the floor after school
What would people say
If they knew I was broken this way
But it’s my strength
Because what went
Away, could not be all
I feel it all fall
As I dry away tears
Now it has been twenty two years
And I’m still shattered inside
But the way that I hide
Is untwining the thread
I don’t wake up in bed 
To the sound of doom
It’s just me in the room
Daydreaming about a man
I wonder if I can
Touch the smoke before it fades
Dissipates in waves 
Taken by the sky
I’d love to know him before we die
But something’s forever
And it teaches me that no endeavour 
Is ever 
Wasted
Why did I taste it
If not to live
The reality of the God I forgive