I love him 
And I didn’t want to let him in
Coz it means the wound has healed 
And the vacuum sealed 
Where the loss once was a dense pain
He wouldn’t want me to live in the rain
But the clouds in the sky
Mean I remember that you die 
And that when I wake 
It’s for your sake 
So I scream at David down the phone 
Just leave me a-f**kin’-lone
And shatter like glass on the floor
To hold something I adore 
In my hands 
Because the lands 
Always sweep a new dawn
Before you know it the summer’s gone
And a memory of winter is all you hold 
As you stare at empty fields of gold 
Where there once was a hand 
And the tears never understand 
The grief 
When belief 
Fails 
And the ship’s sails 
Lose wind 
Why do I have to love him
He’s temporary, flickering light
And the drought will kill me, alright
I need to find, to find the sea
But it has deserted me 
So, his arms wrap around 
Me sobbing and the sound 
Is music to his ears 
Open after all these years
“But I can’t have him back”
You didn’t leave my attack
As I succumb 
To the dream I had when I was young 
Of a man I could deserve 
Someone with nerve 
And he’s just quiet
As the riot
Silences the din
I lean into him
And let him see
He is eternity to me

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