Tag: you and I

Losing A Friend

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Did I lose a friend when I let you go 
On the edge of UCD and I just want you to know 
Who you are and what you mean to be 
What you were and what you are to me 
And you would drop your gaze and look away
I don't know why I couldn't make the time stay
Coz I wasn't sure I was girlfriend material 
I'm half wild and ethereal 
And I live to drop in and out 
Of my own self doubt 
And you were honest and true
And all heart and I loved you
But I didn't let you see 
In case you would get attached to me 
And I would have to split 
But I was enchanted and that's what you're dealing with 
As I'm leading you back to the club 
Because I don't want anything to happen to you, my love 
And I get Colin to go out and meet you there 
I want you to know I care 
But you stopped talking to me 
At the airport like you just looked straight through me 
As we'd wheel a case or carry a bag 
And the days drag 
Without you in my life 
I know you probably have a wife 
By now 
But the part of me that I allow 
You access to 
Has not been retracted, you
Still hold that same spot 
Somewhere between the dream of what I could be and what I am not 
Because you were fire red and real 
And I would steal 
You away in a minute 
But just don't think tradition is in it 
If you still want to call on me 
Just click hello and there I'll be

The Look You Scarce Can Hide

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There is a look you scarce can hide
Not even when you’re by her side 
And I can see the way she don’t reach
Into the lessons you long to teach
And she may be fine by the beach
But she’s not the one to help you sleep 
By her side 
And you are alive
But you’re in a lot of pain 
I can feel it in the rain 
That pours from your eyes
And if the hero dies
Is the story over 
And I don’t even know her
But I know enough to say
She is not me, okay
And you will never find your truth
In the prism of your youth 
Thinking you’ve won the war
Not realising what it’s for 
And you swore you had one over on me 
But I just set you free
And I know I may not see you again 
Not in this form so I look at other men
And they are wonderous and pure
But I am still fuckin’ sure 
That you’re the one I long to be with 
And I’m not gonna call her a bitch
Just because some theft’s going on 
And I may be gone 
But I still feel you wish 
For my lips to meet your kiss
Like they did on the first day
Our palm to palm and then away
Into the pub where no alcohol is served
And I observed 
That when I swerved 
Away from you
You still pondered what to do
And if you could reach over to me
But thank you for letting me be free
I was too young for sex
Or committing to what you wanted to do next
And I returned several years later
And was enamoured til I realised you date her
All the while I poured my soul 
Into your begging bowl
And you see yourself as pathetic and weak 
Because you did not speak 
Up when you felt the cue
But I’ve always seen the king in you
And he rules the realm of my heart
It only gets stronger since we’ve been apart 

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The Falling And The Flying

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The falling and the flying
And somehow it felt like dying
As I raged against the machine
And swore that I was the queen
Of my own domain
As the rain
Fell upon my head
And I wished myself dead
A thousand times 
But the war crime
Awoke me to be 
Something that I have to see
If I am to realise
That which never dies
In it’s own embodiment 
That hell is heaven sent 
If everything is God created
And some things are simply stated 
In their complexity
There are rivers that run into the sea
And they get the best of me
As an ocean swallows all you’ll be
And the holy light 
Was more than all white 
It was the trancendental
Amid the realms so evidential 
In it’s plurality
The God of One 
Revealed Itself to me
And I was twenty three
When I shared the summer with the free
And it bit back 
For all that it lack 
In the midnight ramblings and stuttered speech
I know he hit me because he was weak 
And scared and suffering 
And, I, the bird with the broken wing
Refused to fly
And something die
In all that war
I don’t know what any of it was for
Because he just tries to say
I want you at a distance, okay
And I belligerent refuse
To be some point you want to prove
Throw the papers in your face
And say that thing is a disgrace
And leave me alone
I block the phone
From ever calling to my door
I shut you out and what’s more
I bar the gate
And time won’t wait 
For a sin like that 
Something was said that can’t be taken back
So I leave 
Like Tristan with a heart upon her sleeve
In her walking boots
And the man may have roots
Or a motorbike 
But what are you like 
When you swim the sea
Just to say sorry to me 
Like Michael and the man 
I’d forgive you but I don’t know if I can
Let it go
I thought I’d write it down so you’d know

Oh Elaine

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Oh Elaine whose words of wisdom
Would you use them to forgive them
For me
You were always so eternity
As you encourage the best of me
To keep on with the fight
Like you’re the match and I ignite 
With every spark that fuse
Uses the road to confuse
Me with the skin I know
And I did not let you go
I just had to gain some ground 
So I could hear the sound
Of alone together 
And the weather
Brings me back to your door
I knock and ask if you love me more
For the absence that held
There was something that weld
You to me
In those years infinity
As we traversed the town
And there was no trace of a gown
As we blue jean the scene 
Like a Jane Eye and Lizzie dream
I have the blind hero and you
Are heir to a love most true
That beats in both our hearts
What is it that it imparts
I hope that equanimity 
Still holds the best of me
In the soul of you
It means so much to me that us two
Were what we are
I still drive the car
With the memory of you knocking on the window
To show me left from right though
And you do not let go
I love you always and I hope you know

Twin Flame Dreams

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I meet you in my darkest hours
When I've been given over to unconscious powers
To remake the day
You touch my hand anyway
And say
That everything will be okay
And you're mystical, blue and something serene
I seem to only meet you in my dreams
Where your warm presence touches my soul 
And you crash like the tide on the shore that I roll
And we are as one beyond what I can contain
If you were a cloud you would fall to me as rain
But you're not a nebulous feat of the sky
You are a love that will never die
And I met you so long ago
But I knew you before that, you know
And we've had our rows and our differences change
I'm too much the same and you're overly strange
But somehow we meet in the middle of our love story plot
Breaking the shell of all that we're not
Into an omelette of fate's desire
You set my heart on fire
And it burns away all the cracks
I'm broken but I would not take it back
Coz that's how the light gets through
And I see it shining in you
As you magnify the circumspect
Is there a moment to reject
What we've known thus far
How could I ever know what you are?

Echoed Through These Halls

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The sound of you
Has echoed through these halls
And it’s bringing down barriers
And cavernous walls 
Until all is a grand open space
With not one instant of my time gone to waste
And I hit pause in 2011
All because the sound of Heaven 
Was just too damn real
And you’re not the boy I want to steal
Away with into the night
But you came close to it, alright
And I spill ink on the canvas I draw
I’m like the cold witch and my bones start to thaw
In the sunlight you bequeath
And I guess I’m embarrassed so I stare at my feet
But you turn my face upward with your palm
You look at me and I am calm
I’m the storm that surround
You are worth the way it resounds
And leaves me feeling like friend is ancient
I’m an artist and I try to paint it
But it never lives up to what you are
A feeble try to condense a star
Into matter and fusion
But it was just confusion
To say I don’t love you so
And I just want you to know
That you crack the glass with your smile
And I dream of you for a little while
But it is real as can be
I took the biscuit but just dip it in tea

A Decade Old Dream

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Living in a decade old dream
One where you’re the king and I’m the queen
And we live somewhere outside of town 
Somewhere no one is around
So we can do what we like in the night
Or in the morning when the daytime gets bright
And I’ve bought a house with a little land
You’re in a band and d’ya know we’re grand
Living a little off the earth
Gone past the realm of hurt 
And my belly’s swelling with something in store
Something you put there and what’s more
Is that I’m a writer and sing of our song
And you can do no wrong
But the axis turned when I spelled it out
I could feel the hinges of your doubt
Rock the door side to side
And I’m breathing or I wouldn’t know I’m alive
In that sudden pause
The hidden clause
And we haven’t spoken since
The thought of it makes me wince
But you speak to me in dreams
And nothing is as ever ever what it seems
And is it telepathy or psychosis
Do I round the corner of a diagnosis
To say I’m ESP as a person can be
But still the masses do not see
Except for that look in your eye
Like you had found something that will not die
In this world of intemperance and fear
There was a moment the monument clear
The clouds that rise like storms around
But where we are is solid ground