His name is Fin and he is flying He gets my mind off thoughts of dying As everything is in decay And I’m always wondering who made it that way Coz if there’s a good God Surely he wouldn’t lead with the rod And I’m biting my nails and looking away But I’m waiting to see what he’ll say As the embodiment of Adiyogi I hope he’ll like me if he knows me And I’ve got this barrier, this cocaine wall But it doesn’t help me to stand tall So I show him where there’s a gap Give him out a detailed map So he can find his way to me And hopefully I’ll someday see What life is like to hold a hand To believe in truth and love a man
There was a winter in summertime As I laid claim to all that’s mine The showers awash with rain Holding myself together amongst the pain As she clicked her lips to all my flaws But when the sun burns all the ice thaws In the mystery of a silent barricade The house I live in, the home I’ve made Was all but naught to the blowing wind When you grow up, do you know you’ve sinned Or do you just grow out of that sort of thing Dreaming of a sky or a diamond ring To annunciate what’s inside The Eternal to abide
Making it up
The word of a woman is not worth a fuck
And the word of a man to devastate
Is there any way out of this place?
Coz I was not born to surrender
But no one seems to remember
It was not this way when we were young
Or it was, it just hadn’t begun
The period to oscillate
And a puberty born in hate
Because something men don’t seem to get
Is that women do not just forget
And what’s momentary for you
Is a life sentence that she will do
So hear ye and think before you act
Because once its gone you can’t take it back
Bulletproof like nothing breaks through your armour
I know you didn’t mean to harm her
But you look away like no eyes ever meet yours
And dismiss the tape that replays her words
As she left back the shreds of her dignity
And you tore open her vulnerability
Cause I guess she was just an easy target
So defenceless you didn’t even have to arm it
Now all that’s left is a desert wasteland
And backalley laughs at what’s underhand
Cause the summit of her spirit is what you can never reach
So you have to degrade the things that she speaks
And she won’t play the victim, just let you go
It may only be in hindsight that you know
Just what her trust placed at your feet
But you treated her like an oasis in the heat
A stillness you used as refuge
A desperation you didn’t think you could lose
Though once the wind calls for what it sent
You took what you wanted and retract what you meant
As explainations fail and blank faces ensue
You let her know what someone else will do
To leave the black hole, the vacuum that crushes
And now fear stalks her days leonine in the rushes
Just a smattering of what she used to call herself
Left over from days that her body knelt
And maybe it took Posidean to know the ocean
But you won’t do it twice or that’s what hoping
So night dawns the chasm of resident evil
Just ask yourself what you’re believing
That would have you trespass where you don’t belong
But you will never kill her song
As lily white resting on the breeze
Takes her to where you could never lead
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