Hormones

Is it just my hormones
Making me love you
A perfect match
A patch for two
Or is it something deeper
That we might share
I know that I love you
I know that you care
And when all the wilderness
Lets me go
Will I still be there
At the end of the show
Coz I just wanna hold your hand
And have you feel
The decades of love
With which I cannot deal
As they wrap around
The map of your frame
And I twirl on my fingertips
The headtrip of your name

The Twin Flame Mirror

I could stare at you for an infinity 
Wasting away into you and me
Like the Mirror of Erised
Or the words that she said
As she tried to capture a refrain
Is life more than the pain
That seems to cascade a waterfall
And I let go of it all
Only to be brought back around
Do you hear the ocean in the sound
Of a breeze through the air
I kiss you like you aren’t there
But somehow I still feel your stare
A presence, you being there
In moments gone and yet to come
Suspended between the old and young
And forests grow up from the earth
Like people do from the hurt
The waves and waves and waves of dirt
Capsizing what was once my worth
But you see in pages more than I
The winds of what it is to die
Blowing like for evermore
And I still see you there, mo stór
Effervescent on the hill
Then tiptoeing with some skill
On the tightrope of us
I gave my heart, you gave your trust
And somehow it beats from far away
You run and I stay
To be always on a hike
Like features in the world alike
Always aware of what we are
You be the sun for I am a star

Black Holes and Daydreams

There she goes out on a spin
I wonder will I end up with him
Coz the spiral galaxies can’t contain
Anything that is less than rain
And it all cascades from a cloud
When you speak do you do it out loud
And are you proud
Of all you’ve come to be
Do you really see
Or just threaten so
I ask because it’s somewhere I go
Sometimes
And all my rhymes
Can’t fill the awning gap in my soul
How do you find yourself in a black hole
Singular true
The point of eternity flowing from you

Losing The Love Of My Life

Losing the love of my life
I always wanted to be his wife
And I’m unscripted, I’m undue
And I’m running from anything but you
Coz you’ve got lashes, you’ve got hair
You’ve got Presence amid the being there
And I smile and I laugh
And you catch another raft
As it shoots out into the world
You’ve got a life, you’ve got a girl
And I would never want to interfere
It’s just I love you always, dear
In the moments come unbidden
Amid all that remains hidden
In butterflies and in cymbal clash
The rain comes to pour on me and lash
Out down from the heavens
I’m kicking stones hooked up to sevens
As a day each week that passes
Could be enough to outclass us
And I know you’ve got your sonnet ring
It’s just you don’t know everything
Not half as much as you profess to contain
Must I hear you again explain
All I am in neat little quotes
Must I be student to take notes
And hear once more what you say
It’s all in the going away
But what if I choose to remain
A dash of paint to upskill the rain
As it colours the window grey
But we live in Ireland so come what may
In brutal asides and centerfolds
The path we walk is made of gold
And must we unknow the way
To mean what the people say
In amounts that fall due
And I’m so taken with the fire of you
As you tip your hat to another trope
And I’m just driving by the coast
With the sound of sea in my ears
I brush away the errant tears
That make lanes from my eyes
To mirror that of rainy skies
In all that I profess is true
It’s pure in love and it’s with you

This Man of Mine

I just don’t know what to do
I don’t know, I just need you
To come back in on the breeze
And watch me fall to my knees
As I implore the sky
To let me have this man of a guy
To call my own
And true colours shown
Only paint the clouds a different hue
I came apart in the hands of you
As you just smile
And I walk a mile
In another’s shoes
To be happy and pay our dues
Could I give you a book to peruse
As you unintentionally confuse
Me with your ardent limbs
And, my God, the joy of him
To be together in this way
I don’t care what the people say
In their ancillary tones
I just remember the hold on my phone
As I screamed an I love you
And you just looked sad and blue
And everything is a forest free
Did you perceive the truth in me
Or was it just a moment passing by
Did I need to try
To make you see
Or did you just know me
In our absence of words
The silence is all that I’ve heard
In days gone by
I dunno, I had to try
To let you into just how I feel
But, I just, I cannot deal
With your ebullience
And is the tense
We’re in now just fear
All I hold, dear
Is the memory of us
And the dream of something to trust

Midnight Sky

Two stars passing in a midnight sky 
And I’m gonna love you until I die
And that may be many years hence
But you’re always in the present tense
Tracing constellations in an azure blue
Is the moon and sun in a room with you
And as far as I can make out
My trust in you bends the limits of doubt
Til we’re screaming yes at the end of an aisle
As I twirl your hair around my fingers and smile
At the chance made of fate
It’s you and I on our first date
So circumstance I can’t compute
How you and I could ever dilute
The complexity of an intensity strong
Holding our hands against the wrong
And you win me over with a simple song
I am beside you and we belong
In the halls of Love where they record names
The futility of errant flames
That spiral ever eternity
The timeless realm and now I see

Resuming Communications

I’ve finally realized I can talk to you again
When I gave up and they said, it’s just men
And I was banging my head against the wall
Coz we can’t communicate at all
And I’m screaming refrains out into the night
They look at me and wonder if I’m alright
Coz I’ve got you on my mind
But you weren’t so kind
And I vacated the premises
And you became a sort of nemesis
I chased in my dreams
And we’re walking on hollow beams
As we cross the room, under the ceiling
You said no and it send me reeling
Out into the dark
And the park
Never looked so lonely
And I was mourning for you only
As they dimmed the lights
Do we give up on our fights
As we storm the bastille
But how do you feel
When you lay your head down on a pillow
And I know I am weeping but it’s coz I’m a willow
It’s in my nature
And you left a crater
When you crashed to earth
I was grief stricken, more than hurt
Like I try to play even, I try to play calm
But you grabbed me by the arm
And wrote something there
I look in your eyes and I care
About our horizon
And you are something or so I’m surmising
As we drift apart
But still all heart
I hope you’re happy, I hope you’re well
But I love you still, let it go to hell
All my secrets spilled out on a screen
And you are the man I couldn’t even dream
You’re so perfect ensue
And what in the world do I mean to you
All the things we could do
Walk a mile in another’s shoe
Or sail a river down the stream
I know you’re the king but I am a queen
Of my own domain
Cry to the sky of making it rain
And plain
Are the words I speak to you
I want it back, if that’s okay, too
And you smile and my destiny dance
Do you think we could give love another chance
As it weaves between poles
Crafting the tapestry of our souls
Into a new stance
I felt the waves ocean advance
Into the shore
I can’t help but want you more

A Heartfelt Quote

A mysterious presence
An unspeakable quiet
My life was a hoot
Man it was a riot
Til it all burned down
Back into ash
I once was impulsive
Yeah I used to be rash
Go storming in
And storming back out
Never knowing when
To shut my mouth
As the chains encircled
I felt the vice
Til it trapped me there
It wasn’t nice
Then she walked right in
With the softest arms
Told me she’d
Keep me from harm
Told me she’d
Never let me go
And, well
She didn’t, you know
And the blush it colours
Her cheeks so red
Every time I repeat
Just what she said
That she loved me so
And would always be
Here with me
Eternally

Movement

The wayfaring stranger
The wandering soul
The infinite sky
The dark black hole
You move like the sea
You breathe like the air
You love like fire
And just being there
You lit up my life
Like a starshot stream
You woke up the lion
And ended the dream
You left like the night
Before the dawn
And what can’t be seen
Is never gone

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Roll Back the Scroll

I don’t care about glory, I just get it done
I don’t need to be seen to be the One
The One who spins the axis on its fingertips
The One who lights up a midnight eclipse
And I may walk the bones of an ordinary
But you must know in eyes that I amn’t she
That I am deeper and more profound
So much so you don’t want me around
Because there is a threatening that happens then
I clip the edge of the wing on end
And a dovetail dive happens henceforth
Followed by untimely divorce
But how and ever, it came to be
The quintessentiality moving me
Rises up the bones of the Earth
You know the Apocalypse doesn’t have to hurt
Because the word is Greek for Revelation you see
And the Bible goes hard on being scary
But when you think it was written by men
If you think I’ll buy it, then guess again
Because the Rebirth is happening now
Can you feel the change if you listen somehow
The energetic shift at the poles of the sky
I don’t think the species will have to die
Not if the Angels finish the job
The 144 heroes I’m speaking of

Investigative Journalism

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I know I can be a little abrasive
But if we’re talking flaws then you are evasive
Always dodging the questions I ask
Deciphering answers is quite a task
But one that I love to enjoy
You know I’m a girl? You’re just a boy
And you could never reach the tower I height
But if you are nice I’ll let you alright
And the view can be a double time
Instead of the solitary that is mine
Because being the best is a lonesome thing
When there’s no one to sit with you while you sing
And if you wouldn’t mind taking part…..
I’ll give you my jacket if you give me your heart

Question Marks

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How does he forgive me, each and every time?
How, I wonder silently, how is he still mine?
And inclines his head just so against the sill
Of my shoulder bone that I would hold until
Eternity all vanished back into that state
And the heavens disappeared to illuminate
That the Now that we own, the Now that we have
Is all we ever need and now I am sad
To think that all this time I could have been afloat
Instead of plugging holes in a lonely boat
Fighting to stay up when sinking’s what I am
He doesn’t look away, he just holds my hand
And meets me by the eye and breaks it in a smile
Why, says he to me, am I worth the while?

Aries

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If you can’t handle my volcanic ash
Then I’m sorry my friend but you better stand back
Because I’m all lava spewing
And I know just what I’m doing
When I string the bow and arrow fire
You said you love to take it higher
And deeper than the dark profound
Is the ocean when you’re around
And the reason that you do attract
Is the velocity you send back
Not taken as a dark subtract
But the echoing that I lack

God, Gimme a Sign….Oh, Right

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This is the first and only time I’ll write a poem
To go with a gif I found
Its just the feeling of being fucked with
By the Universe is too profound
I go looking for apples and there is an orchard
Of trees growing in my house
I go looking for lions and find them in nets
So I can be the mouse
And every day its clearer, every day its true
There is a third energy coming from me and you
Pilfering our daydreams right out of our hands
And making them come true outside of demands
From places we can’t hold and heavys we can’t lift
Accept the love you’re given because its a gift
And worrying too much and being a try hard
Is only blocking windows because horizons are too far
And even though I doubt and even though I claim
I fall by the wayside and am picked up again
By a power I don’t know and surely can’t contain
Don’t curse falling water when you love the rain
And don’t try to make it sacred, don’t try to make it holy
When using words like wisdom that are coming from you only
And making it a monster or making it a queen
Denys the reality of living the daydream
That was made and designed by a higher hand
He brought Him to You so trust the command

Once More, with Feeling

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Sticks and stones may break my bones
But words will break my heart
I don’t care what anyone says
Words tear you apart
And some people are immune and some people are not
But some things enunciate all that you forgot
And even though I wish I could burn them from my brain
The harder I try, the more it is in vain
Because the cymbals ring louder with each and every attempt
To dull them with the windows where the watching went
And every time I look where you went away
I hear in HD the things you do not say
The nothing that you are, the nothing we became
Is empty air inside of me and nothing is the same

Alcatraz

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I spent some time at Alcatraz
Where they punish you for feeling bad
Where the waves rise as the sea rolls
And the jailors shatter porcelain dolls
And in my time along the front
I heard a call for what I want
A little girl four years my junior
I’m watching as they try to ruin her
As they try to pull apart
The reason that she has a heart
And even though their minds are good
They’re doing things no one should
So I stand up tall on the ridge
Don’t you know that she is His
And no foibles that the thieves will utter
Can turn this ship or shake the rudder
And I will take her home
Stand back or I will alone
Seek to pulverise the steel
That tells someone what not to feel
And in my arms I felt her break
I let her crumble and I let her shake
So she would be born anew
And in that tremble I would too
So when we broke our lines apart
I looked at her for a new start
And found that she returned the favour
A double digit branded saviour
See it isn’t one or the other
We lead each other out of cover
And back into the open air
There’s a reason I was there
To hold up hope where there was none
I think the devil may be done

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When God is gone and the Devil takes hold

Tear My Hair Out

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The twin flame adage seems to be this
I’ll run and you chase or the other way round
But we never made that sound
Ours was a calamitous affair
I’m here and you’re there
And we can never touch
The seas are too rough
And you would kill me, drag me down
You shudder when I come around
Because you know I’m right
And you don’t want to light
That fire in your heart just yet
And I forget
What its like to feel alive
But I survive
And sometimes I want to Shakespeare it up
Trade my life for my love
But I am stopped by the invisible barrier I cannot cross
All is not lost
I am told
Just follow the directions as I move
Its a game you cannot lose
For there rides on this more than you can know
You must let him go
Let him think what he likes
Let him fill you with spikes
It is no matter
Because like batter
You will rise when the time is right
But Jesus Christ, I don’t want to fight
I conflict avoid
And you’re still a boy

By The Heart

You rushed along the water’s edge to greet me at the shore
And when I looked into your eyes I couldn’t wish for anything more
But there was a hidden darkness, that was swirling at the edges
And we turned to just the silt and sand that the river dredges
And I never could compassionate the love you gave to me
It’s just you opened up my heart and made my eyes to see
And now I cannot give back what has been revealed at will
All I know is a simple quiet that’s there when I am still
And I hope each day you find the same in what you make of life
If it was up to me then I would meet you twice
But as for now our destinies have us spiraling apart
But know if you’re ever filled with doubt, you have me by the heart