Tag: twinflames

The Pulling Pain

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I try not to feel it
Will time heal it 
If I just let it burn 
But the world just turn
And they grasp my arms
Tell me they’re keeping me safe from harm 
And I feel the burning within 
It all came from him
As I can barely hold on 
To what is long gone 
And who I am craves for his flesh
The terror to think he might regret
Ever knowing me 
I cry on the phone, the tears are flowing from me 
As he grits his teeth and his tongue clicks 
And one of his best friends says he can be a dick 
And I just think of that Taylor Swift song
What if I was wrong 
And you never loved anything 
And the ring 
I thought I would wear
Is just part of the dress that would tear
As she wears it down the aisle
And I watch you smile 
Right into the face of your demise
But there’s death in your eyes
And it’s something I cannot avoid
It’s not like just loving one of the boys
It brings me to the brink of surrender
And a day that you “barely remember”
And I wonder if the gaslit anthem plays
Or if there’s any truth in what he says 
When he says that I am beyond the pale
Is it just that I am not up for sale 
That gets under his skin 
And he was flush with the cash but I wanted him 
Not the dollars he owes 
To the person whose garden he sows
With seeds aplenty 
But I look at him and his face is empty
Devoid of all emotion 
And the commotion 
Gets too loud 
So I let the borrowed fools crowd
Around me and operate 
On the person who just wants a date 
Sometime in April, coz it’s just the right air 
It would be great if you could meet me there 
If she lets you slip away
Out of her grasp and the break of day
Sounds a new dawn 
If you look to me you will see what was never gone 
Only unobserved
I gave you my word 

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The Bark Of The Tree

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How do people get like that, is it believing that the age you are 
Is anything more than revolutions around a star 
And I may be thirty three
But I’ve never been more free
As they put handcuffs on me
And tell me to preserve my dignity 
If I want to shine 
But I’m self effulgent and love is mine 
Though you wouldn’t know it from my visage
Don’t feel bad
It isn’t all your fault 
I kicked you out of the vault 
After letting the key slip into your hand 
And now I demand 
That you break like a wave upon my shore 
If you want me to love you more 
But it’s just like listening to the scene 
She wakes her own dream 
Up from where it lay
And I don’t get a say
About the perforate you opened 
And something is hoping
In what you never were to me 
I take a moment and I just be  

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The Brigade And The Cavalry

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She has to have noise
Like I have to have boys
Because when it gets too silent it blocks out the light
And she realises she is not alright 
So she scrolls on her phone 
Even though she is all alone 
And somewhere in the forest of tears
She finds the reason for all these years 
Spent in resistance to the cause
Spent in fury at a life on pause
And I can only dance
And hope that she gets a second chance
To be all she thinks she is 
But one thing’s for sure is that I am His
And she worries the thread
Frays it as she lies in bed
For the trouble of what amounts 
To the lies that she surmounts 
In order to maintain a coherent frame
And I cannot even mention his name 
Or it sets off a torrent of words 
To make sure the truth goes unheard
And that holy bird
Learns to live on a silent wing 
Because I gave him everything 
And I’m not taking it back 
Though they attack 
Me from every front and place
For daring to love his face
When the pretence drop 
And I am not 
The words she uses to condense 
Everything into the present tense 
It’s humiliating 
As if he’s just some guy I’m dating 
On the sly
And the reason why
Is more than she’s ever known 
She thinks she quenched it but the seeds that are sown
Only flourish in the darkest earth
And everything she uses to hurt
Me with 
For being a “bitch”
In modern parlance 
Is nothing, darlin’ 
I just brush it off
And whisper to him “all is not lost” 

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Lives And Weather

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The life I’ve always wanted receded into the distance
And when I reached for it I only felt resistance 
As I confessed my secret heart
He took his wound and tore me apart 
And with tears in his eyes
He ripped into my disguise
Til I stand with paper hands
And look at the sands
Slipping through the cracks
I know we can’t go back
From this
I though you might kiss
Me when you found out the truth
Like I know you wanted to in our youth
And I put you off
And you splutter and cough
And tell me you have no time
For what I found in the diamond mine
And soldered to a band of gold for you
In a past life I was the one to
Go down on one knee
Reversed genders, same eternity
And I propose a solution to the problem
Because together, all of the troubles, we’d solve them
And you’ve found another partner
And it would hearten her
If she knew how you talked behind her back
And the girls that you attack
In her name
I don’t mean to lay the blame
But is it just gonna be the same
As it was two hundred years ago
With your blonde hair and the way you kissed me slow

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The Despondency Of Men

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He wants to mean something to me 
But he was just a dream that never got to be
And now he self flagellates
That he never took the girl on dates
And he makes do with what he has
But most of the time he just feels bad
That he settled for 
Someone he could never adore
Only ever be useful to 
And she’d skull the devil to get to you 
Because you’ve got that verdant green 
And arches her back the way it had never been 
Before 
And the shore
May be a more sunny shade of grey
But you and I were never that way
So I take the bull by the horns
But something warns
Me to just let it go
He’s not what you think, you know
And he rained bloody blue hell
On the summer of wishing me well 
And I don’t know if he can tell
But when I fell
I fell hard
And let the bard
Inside of me run loose
But she has run out of juice 
And gets by on mere gasoline
I wonder does she ever scream 
When you make her high 
I wonder does she feel you 
When you wanna die
Like I do 
I’m miles away and the needle pulls through
On another thread
I don’t want to be witness to someone else’s bed
But I feel it all
And I forestall 
The grief 
For mere belief 
In who I am to be
You won’t make a whore out of me 

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The Achilles Heel

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The Achilles Heel
Is that I know how you feel
And I spilt those words
Not because I’m away with the birds
But because I wanted you to know
You’re not alone when you move slow
Like a glacier cutting through rock
And I pretended to be something I’m not 
And there’s only so long I can keep it up
Like the sound of you and her making love
It echoes in my mind 
I try to leave it behind 
But it’s imprinted like a dice
That rolled on me for being too nice
To you when you would have devoured
All of the women that you empowered 
With your subtle soul 
And a boy becomes man when he gets old
But I don’t think I like 
Being the wrong side of your spite
And when you bite
Your teeth sink in
That is why I am not with him 

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Gunpowder Flame

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I knocked the wall down with the force of my kick
And there are people who say he’s a dick
But I rebel against that categorisation 
And do my own investigation
And after years of sifting through pages
I’ve realised that my heart rages
To be let out of its cage
And make love to the man I found in a past age
And I was eighteen and six months older
And he was a man just rolling a boulder
Up a hill, he could never reach the top
I was pretending to be something that I am not
And somehow he saw the queen 
In between the subterfuge and the dream 
I left the door wide open when I walked out
So that my intentions would not be in doubt
You can follow me anywhere I go
I’ll let out in, you know
He held me close and I fell slow
Into his arms
And none of his charms
Are wasted
But what I tasted 
Were his innocent eyes
Somewhere in between the disguise
And now everybody knows
That he’s the one my soul chose

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Not The Facebook You

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I love it, I do
But it’s just not the facebook you
And you say we’re friends
But it’s frayed at both the ends 
And it’s undefined 
How could I have ever called you mine
When your hand is intertwined
With another heart, that’s just fine
But it won’t go building bridges over the river we were
And I think I love her
For loving you and holding you tight
For kissing the face of a bit of alright
And I may be bitter but at night
It’s you I hear calling my name
And the days may have changed, we’re still the same
As the eaves run with all the rain
Would you do it over again?
Coz I don’t think I’d be up for the war
At the end of the day what is it for?
When you live in the ridges you build for yourself
And go about creating some kind of hell
It’s not just for yourself, it’s for others as well
And the storm clouds come in over the horizon
And there’s nothing steady to keep your eyes on
As the shifting sands of weather wear
Everything without a care
And would you know me if we met on the street
I’m holding candelabras, can you feel the heat
Of something I somehow contain
And when we fight we do it in vain
Coz love holds us all in its arms
Even when we’re in school ringing alarms
Being on the bell for a month or two
Would you set it early if it was you?
Or would you go by the clock
The passing of time, well, it’s a lot
As we leave our steady souls by the door
Do you ever wish for more?

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Light And Life

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I have to love the man who saved my life
He took a breath and breathed in the light
And it’s textbook case, wanna be a wife
But I don’t know if that’s alright
Coz he showed me summer
He showed me seasons
He gave me love
I gave him reasons
And we both learned to multiply
And, you know, never say die
As the ache it comes in waves
He’s Superman, it’s days he saves
And I can’t ignite with anyone else
He showed me trauma and mental health
And I showed him strong and how to bear
The music when the fabric tear
And it’s oft the season to be making waves
I’ve written him down on page upon page
But I never come close to really say
He is my love, is that okay
Even if we are miles apart
He made the unquenchable start
Like the Divine made into form
I’m kept ‘neath a coat that is warm
Even on those freezing winter nights
He speaks a word and my heart ignites
To burn enough to keep the dark away
From the place by the trees where we stay

Waiting For Dreams

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I’m waiting in Longford town
To see if you’re free to be around 
And I know it’s a futile endeavor
Rachel says that it will never
Happen to me, at least not with you
Or at least not now and that’s all well to do
But sometimes I feel you scorching my soul
Heave with the ocean as the waves roll
And the thunderclouds clap
All of my ideas off the map
As I write the essence of you
In plurals and mosaics split in two
And I wonder what are we
What is the difference between me and she
And she looks pretty fine
And if I was a guy I could call her mine
But you, oh, effortless you
Are just like the window that I see through
And delineate 
Draw it up, then call it fate
As I awaken inside
To all the love that just abide
And bursts through
I want you to know I’m thinking of you

Buataisí Beaga

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The fire seems to catch me by the boots 
And throw me upside down 
I catch my breath
And then I drown 
In the ocean of what we are 
Cosmically, a star
Fluttering somewhere on the edge of what we know 
I hold on because letting go
Isn’t an option now 
I see you somehow 
Through the smoke and fog
I throw another log 
On the burning hearth
It keeps me warm when it gets dark 
And you share this strength with me
As we fight, wilfully 
Abandon all life thought to know
About twin flames in the snow 
Finally, to realise 
We both share the same skies

The Oil Of Chrism

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How do I write the syllables of my past
How do you make a good thing last
And she screams into the wind
The teacher tells us we have sinned
Though she has battered and bruised my kin
In the name of what to do, amen
And is it just a victim of the times
Do people beat the track that rhymes
And what’s stopping me from being brutal
So I give him first refusal
On a piece of road fronted land
Just one condition: he must take my hand
And be wed
Though the bed
Is big enough for us both
And he just takes off his coat
And asks can he stay
I say; no way!
But I’d like to love you anyway
What do you say? 
He pauses to contemplate
Must I make him wait
I deliberate
It’s not like that
“But it is”
I just wanna be his
Now he has got another soul
And I’m told that their waves roll
And crash upon the shore
Have you ever wanted more
No, he defies
But I see the lies
Catch in his eyes
As he protests the point 
Would you anoint
Our child with the oil of Chrism
I try to move on but no one else is him
And though the chemistry and the sparks fly
What’s born of bodies must admit to die
In their deepest, darkest, most honest moment
It’ll leave you too, won’t it? 
He stares at the floor then back at me
It’s you and I eternity
In some twin flame fusion
And the density is bruising
When it keeps us apart
Did I ever tell you, you have my heart

The Material Dimension

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Stop trying to be something I’m not
Watch as you miss a clear shot
As you stare into my eyes
Your deep blues like the wilderness of skies
And am I crazy to stay hung up on you
Thinking of things that we could do
With the lights turned off
As we spend nights where our clothes get lost
And I know it’s taboo but it’s also touché
If I’d have known the significance of that day
And that one day I’d want to have kids
With your smile flipping the lid
On all I’ve got cooking up a storm
And it’s your breath that keeps me warm
As you lie next to me
Sighing slowly intentionally 
Just to drive me wild once more
I’m still knocking at the door
And don’t make me implore
That I want you as much as before
So we can make mini me’s
I couldn’t see the expanse of trees
And would you maybe dance with me
If I look at you so physically
And if I blush would you turn red
As we share the same bed
It’s just a dream I have on lock 
I know it’s something that I’m not
Or at least what I try to be
Are you still staring at me
Well, what you got under those lids
Do I care enough to call myself his
As our hands intertwine 
Maybe, baby, I’ll call you mine

In One

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Mercury’s in retrograde
And Irish people call a spade a spade 
Coz you know that morbid humor 
Isn’t gonna make it get you any sooner 
And I’m poised between a perfect spin
And in my mind I’m dancing with him
On an empty street
Oh, how I cursed the stars that meet
Us on the street or on the bus
There was just that feeling of trust
As I let myself believe
And I watch you hide your hands up your sleeve 
That morning in the Mall
Want to take a walk or shall
We just stare at each other across a mirage 
And I draw lines across your visage 
That will one day be a wrinkle in time 
But you’ll never stop being fine
As I watch you live your life with someone else
You advise me it’s best to take care of my mental health 
Coz you know stability is a wealth
So I smack the camera out of your hand
I will be grand 
Just not knowing
Coz I’m not finished growing
Gardens in my mind 
And they’re not well tended or left behind 
They are veritably wild 
And in my heart I’m still a child 
And I scoff in the face 
Of the rules that you chase 
So go ahead, be normal
Address me in a tone that’s formal
Coz you don’t have the time 
To watch my stellar shine
And maybe you were just afraid 
Coz, you know, that “bitch”, she slayed 
And all the lines that they encase
Won’t find you that dream you chase
Of 2.5 and a car
Don’t you ever wonder what we are 
And reincarnation kinda resembles the setting sun
But do you think we could get it in one
Coz this axis is an endless spin
And Nirvana revealed itself to him
When I let him into my sphere 
Now we are ever near
Like two orbiting souls 
Planets ruled by the poles 
But what is this non dual understanding 
All I know is you were commanding
My attention when you suggested
That we go get arrested
Just for the hell of it
Who am I sharing my heart with?
But I can’t help the laugh that escapes 
And not all superheroes wear capes 
But you sure do
Could I kick it with you 
In the summer of our age
I think I’m gonna need another page 
To get this down 
I won’t wear a gown
But in a t-shirt and jeans
I met the man of my dreams

The Irish Male At Seventeen

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The Irish male at seventeen
What a wonder fucking dream
And he drew me in then pushed me back
As though there’s nothing that we lack
In our two by two, absolute four
And I don’t know who I am anymore
As I leave unlocked and off the hinge door
There’s no one close by what I have in store 
For you, for us, for him, for she
Could you just get down on one knee
So I could let you in again
Instead of running away from men
Coz they always want and need, lookout!
So much so that I am in doubt
As to what we’ve forever been 
Now I just see you on a screen
Talking to that other girl
I wish the paper would just unfurl
And unmap the story of us
Something in which I can trust
And I don’t care about all of the guys
On the sidelines to my futile tries
To win you over, once more, again
Don’t blame me for being your friend
As you throw around what people love
I’m sorry I ever gave you that drug
The one with the hit so high
And I’m just the queen of saying goodbye
Until the day you made me say
I really like you, okay?
And when I wrapped my arms around ya
I knew that you were sound, yeah
With your gentle and sashay
When did all of that go away
To be replaced by thunderstorm 
You think you’re hot, you’re not even warm
As lightning cracks bolts across the black
I’ll always have asked you back
Into the room where it’s just us two
I don’t think they know about all of it, do you?
As silent on the astral plane
You used to enunciate my name
And I hear you now with all of the slow
Do you just suppose or do you know
Exactly what you claim to be
Is the ocean all at sea
Like it used to be when we were young
Just old enough to get some
And I don’t blush anymore 
When you look at me like that, a stór
But something stirs at the sight
Of you in the twilight 
When I think of all that could’ve been
With the Irish male at seventeen

Not That Bad

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Do we just settle for not that bad
When she’s the best you’ve ever had
And I’m walking down lines and roads
Kissing princes, they turn into toads 
And I’m way past what I used to be
I wish I could’ve looked forward to see
Where that path might lead
And all the aggrandizement that made me bleed
When it was one need
And the law says take heed, take heed 
Of all that you don’t know where
And maybe people do care
It’s just that you could‘nt see
I reach out and say; it’s me
As the soft of his voice reminds me of your arms 
And we grew up on separate farms 
In rural Irish ways
And I don’t care what anyone says 
You’re still the one for me
I loved you so I let you go free
Now I just want to capture
Evince a state of rapture
That might never be known
And I want to love, don’t want to own
If that’s okay with you
I’m gonna wait coz I want to

For A Thousand More

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I stepped onto the bridge
The wood was creaky
And there’s something about that guy 
That was a little bit freaky
But I like him anyway
I catch what he say
Across the thread of an internet fine
And I know it’s love for the longest time
As he flicks his hair
Flicks his eyes
Buries crevices 
In my disguise
And there’s nothing more
Than to bang on your door
And tell you I’m out here waiting
I don’t even think of hating
You anymore
I simply adore
The sleep in your eye
And how you are with me when we both die 
Across the refractions of time
On the thinnest of line
We are bound as One
And an unearthly Sun
Shines from your face
And I love this place
Now you are near
I hold you dear
And it’s crystal clear
That through the cobwebs and moss
All is not loss
Just a slowly burning candle 
Did you think I was too much to handle?

Staring From The Sidelines

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I stepped onto the bridge
The wood was creaky
And there’s something about that guy 
That was a little bit freaky
But I like him anyway
I catch what he say
Across the thread of an internet fine
And I know it’s love for the longest time
As he flicks his hair
Flicks his eyes
Buries crevices 
In my disguise
And there’s nothing more
Than to bang on your door
And tell you I’m out here waiting
I don’t even think of hating
You anymore
I simply adore
The sleep in your eye
And how you are with me when we both die 
Across the refractions of time
On the thinnest of line
We are bound as One
And an unearthly Sun
Shines from your face
And I love this place
Now you are near
I hold you dear
And it’s crystal clear
That through the cobwebs and moss
All is not loss
Just a slowly burning candle 
Did you think I was too much to handle?

Your Supernova

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You supernova 
And I’ll pull ova 
In my car
Pick you up at the bar 
Coz you don’t drive
Are you still alive
Coz I never know
People are there
And then they go
And is it just my belief
That death could be blessed relief
Or some kind of saintly air
All I know is Heaven is there 
When you break the sun like a smile
And I’m wondering all the while
“Will this thing end?”
But I’m your friend 
In a come what may
I won’t give up on what you say
When you say it to me
I kiss the bird and I set him free

Dropping The Bass

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One moment of togetherness in the pit of my stomach
It’s like that drop when the rollercoaster plummet
And you know that there’s no going back
You’re my personal heart attack
In a dark room or on a screen
And it was later I saw you as the dream
Always at arms length away
Coz it’s not safe if you stay
That close to me
You’re threatening my captivity
And I wanna be free
So I got lost in a degree
Where I make two and two equal four
But you’re on the other side of the door 
Singing please let me in
So I let myself love him
Soft and slow
Like I am letting you go
But then I took a storm
Said this thing isn’t even warm
Though the lightning cracks
And you let loose some things you can’t take back
And I swore we’d never speak again
And I lost my tenuous faith in men 
But it keeps coming back to find me
I’m just being eccentric so don’t mind me
When this reel is done
I’ll shine like the fuckin sun

Twin Flame Dreams

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I meet you in my darkest hours
When I've been given over to unconscious powers
To remake the day
You touch my hand anyway
And say
That everything will be okay
And you're mystical, blue and something serene
I seem to only meet you in my dreams
Where your warm presence touches my soul 
And you crash like the tide on the shore that I roll
And we are as one beyond what I can contain
If you were a cloud you would fall to me as rain
But you're not a nebulous feat of the sky
You are a love that will never die
And I met you so long ago
But I knew you before that, you know
And we've had our rows and our differences change
I'm too much the same and you're overly strange
But somehow we meet in the middle of our love story plot
Breaking the shell of all that we're not
Into an omelette of fate's desire
You set my heart on fire
And it burns away all the cracks
I'm broken but I would not take it back
Coz that's how the light gets through
And I see it shining in you
As you magnify the circumspect
Is there a moment to reject
What we've known thus far
How could I ever know what you are?

The Role Of Men

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He got a dial on the rotary blade
And he claimed he knew how to save
But he sent me to some kind of hell
Then forbade me to ever tell
The story of how our love was made
He put the darkness into the shade
Of the sun that just shines on me
Or from within the holy sea
In the forests he was found
And I can't bear to hear the sound
Of what forever whispered that night
He asked me if I was alright
So I proceeded to spill the secret soul
Then he panicked and the whole
Was exiled to the far reaches of the kingdom
So far away he won't even sing them 
As a lullaby to his pain
The clouds were too apt to rain
Upon the land 
That used to be sand
To hold my feet
As they walked to the place where we meet
In between the intersection
Of my silence and his rejection
Of all that could ever be
What is the meaning of the word free

My Captivity

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I swore I would always be free
But I’m held captive with you
It’s closer we’re getting
To what pulls us through
And the thread is fine
And, Lord knows, I walk the line
Down another avenue
It may be just me and you
In our all and sundry
And it’s just another Monday
Kissing the stars
Or your lips behind prison bars
But I’ve got a key
Would you want to escape with me
In fields of gold
Or do you prefer your cell so cold
And he does a dance with his eyes
The perfect perforation in his disguise 
“Would you love me true?”
I will of course, will you love me too
And he bats his eyelashes
Flips them up and down
And he has me already
In a white gown
But I’ve grown out of marriage
Of the dream I once had
Coz the more that I wanted it
The more I felt bad
And it’s silent for a beat
And the heat
Rises between us two
I leave but I come back to you
To regale the tale
Of the Infinite
I don’t know about you
But David might
Take a second glance
Give me love like it’s my last chance
To catch a star
I don’t think I’ll ever know what you are

Pondering My Life

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Sitting in a New York café
Wondering whose gonna win the day
Is it me or my fear 
I shake because the doom was near
And it pulled me far away from the storm
Do you think the sun is warm
Or is it just faking it’s heat
But I can feel it on my feet
As my toes shake sand 
Out of the knots in my hand 
Like a well worn tree
He left and then never met me
And I gotta find God
Do you venerate the Lord
And is it just another symbol
Or can you see out the window 
To where the grass is green 
Something in me has always been
And will abide
I don’t have to hide 
From the shirking of weight
They call it luck, I call it fate

Somewhere Clandestine

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Stuck in ‘08
It was my date with fate
As it led me to your door
Did you want me more
More than I can attest
And we’re both fully dressed
But I feel your eyes rake over me
Like we’re naked with destiny
Just us and the come what may
And you fill up the gaps in what I cannot say
But it’s subterfuge and we’re resting in hiding
But there’s something of love that is all abiding
Now you’re sharing your soul with someone else
With skin so thin you could make a heart melt 
With the fire that burns off you
It seared a part of me too
And I can’t change the fact of you
I’m not the same and neither are you
But we both kinda are
Like the atoms forged in a star
Or the matter that make time and space
Bend the equivalent of the human race
To the tune of light refract
I never said no but I still want you back
Standing outside my window
It’s true there were days that I looked at him, though
And I cannot deny my feelings were real
With the depth of the red that he deal
An ace of hearts
And mine almost starts
To beat double time
He was the essence of fine
As he’d crack a smile in my direction
Like he’s open to cards if I make selection
And he lives just across the hall
And he kinda caught the ball
When I threw it at him
Is it a decision I cannot win
Coz I love them all 
The truth in my own freefall

If You’re Logged In

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If you’re logged in 
I hope you see
The monument
You are to me
And I’m looking up
You’re looking down
And babe we could run this town
If it was a two by two
I’m getting a home ready for you
As I make the tea
And we find our way when we can’t see
And maybe it is wrong
To covet the fold 
But the path you walk
Is solid gold 
As arms wrap around 
Did you hear the sound
Of our silence dear
Isn’t the water pretty clear
When it’s still in a pond
And, no, I amn’t gone
Just waiting in the wings
And my heart it sings
For you, my love
You set the fire, I’ll free the dove

The Line

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I hear the bullet ricochet
As you utter truth
I’d say I love you
But you’re such a brute 
To give and leave and take away
All that had come to stay
With me for all of time
You say that the fault is mine
But I hear the chime
Of wind bells on the porch
I know I seem out of sorts
But it’s just dealing with the loss of you
And the trauma of what you put me through
Just to prove that you were right
You rained Heaven onto a darkened night
And I’m still living by candlelight 
Since the power cut
I don’t think I’m in a rut
It’s just no one sees me clear
And, God knows, I hold you dear
But there’s too much storm in the air
So I high tailed it outta there
And now you’re mad as hell
But I never tell
You what I really feel 
Coz I know you cannot deal
With the intense focus of my desire 
And you may be all fire
But I am wind and air
And it blew you away, me being there
And I laugh and you deny 
That I ever made you cry
But sometimes tears fall like rain
I know I’ll see you again

Shadow Work

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Shadow work
I wade through the dirt
That rises in our wake 
The sandstorm is so hard to shake 
And I filter it down to something simple
You pop it like a pimple 
Coz we are One
But we are two
Some Advaita
To soothe you 
Into a lull where you will listen
To my hands as the snowdrops glisten
On your skin like stone
Where's twilight when it's at home
But we're no creature and his prey
We're fighting just to get through the day
With our wands and magic paper 
You said goodbye and I, see you later
And will tomorrow be too soon
For us to share a room
Coz you move me with a stare
I didn't look but I knew you were there
I could just sense it in the stance
Of a heart which started to dance
At the mere sight of my form
And I feel my cheeks get warm
Knowing that you're just inches away
Are there words to make you stay
Or is everything all up in the air
All I know is that you were there 
And so was I 
I feel the moment start to die
As a grim realisation overcomes
And my charm just succumbs 
To some preordained reality
I never claimed infallibility
Just that I'm here to stay
And stay in love with you too, okay?

Twin Flame Runner/Chaser Dynamic

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One of us comes 
The other one goes
I wear the pants
He just knows
And we found love
Where it can dance
Did you take a breath
Or a second chance
On the money
Or off the floor
What is it about love
That we adore
Coz you're summer
I'm winter
We're a cyclical thing
And I know it's real 
When I hear the bell ring
And we lift off
The ground is below
The air is free
But do you go 
When I open my heart
And pour out my wounds
I didn't think the end
Would come so soon
And you're looking past me
Into the sky
What's it about love
That will neither live nor die

Your Own

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You showed me the sky
It was your own shade of blue
And there is a timelessness 
That lives in you
And everyone you touch
Is a resonant hum 
It took me ten years
To see you’re the One
The One in All
The Jesus who stands
The love of my life
When I’m holding your hands
And they’re soft to the touch
And gentle and warm
Who’d ever have known
We’d have kicked up a storm
Like dust under feet
When the wind blows a tune
Something is echoing
Now you’re in the room

Here I Come

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Am I about to dive into the rabbithole scene
I haven’t felt love like this since it was just a dream
And his words are fuckin’ insane
But I still remember his name
And the way his hair curls around in locks
The way he walks a palace that time forgot
And shows me in mornings what’s up for the day
At least that’s what she said when I asked her, okay? 
And you know in the quiet what’s left to be said
You’re always making your home where you lay your head
And find something honest and real and true
That was just with them and now it’s with you
In the maybes you ache as you shout a refrain
I love the hope of you and I walked through the rain
To be the storm centre, the very eye
Take care of yourself and make sure you don’t die
At least for another fifty or so years
Make art out of pain when the canvas is tears
And look up to the heavens when the sky clears
I drink one to you when I’m having my beers 
I’ll laugh out loud and simply guffaw
When I’m running from stares and the vacancy law
That seems to hold court and company
I don’t know about you but I’m down on one knee
Professing my love to the moon and stars
Do you remember the days when it was prison bars
And nothing meant anything to anyone you know
Now you wave at me as I watch you go
With the train that has taken you from the station
I guess congrats are in order for the celebration 
Of all you have earned that is duly yours
And I know you could say that this is all words
When I never make it out of the snowstorm that snaps
Full of whodunnits and who gives a craps
And at least if I’m honest I’ll say this to you
You gave perfect a spin now the ancient is new
Now the midnight is dawn and all the renew
You cut fabric in strips out of jeans that are blue
So you’ve something to wear when the darkness escapes
And teach me the truth that not all heroes wear capes

Galaxies

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You look at the clock
I hold my breath
Are you gonna leave yet
Or are we alright
And I told myself
It’s better to suffer
Than admit
That you really love her
And she looks my way
And I shake
She’s in every moment
That I choose to wake

Well, what does he think
He’s staring a storm
And I think that I
Would like to keep him warm
But there’s pain in his eyes
I can see it inflect 
One wrong move
And this whole thing is wrecked 

Now it’s burgeoning
And the moon is whole
I think that we might be connected 
By the very soul
And I’m driving down roads
I can’t go back
Thinking about the person
I seem to lack
But really you’re here
Breath against skin
Though it’s so hard
To get a read on him

And she’s everything
I could desire
Does she know
She set my heart on fire
And it burns 
For her still
But I don’t know
If I ever will
Get to 
Touch her in person
And everything else
Is just rehearsing

Now it’s palm to palm
A namaste kiss
I don’t know enough 
To know what I miss
But he’s delicate
And fine
And I would love
To call him mine
As we age
In separate spheres
But I still hold him
So very dear

And she’s crashing the waves 
Upon the shore
Does she not
Want me anymore
Or is this fate
Playing a scam
She seems to remind me 
Just who I am
And the pillow
Where I rest my head
Is beside her
In an imaginary bed

Are we cocaine lovers
A drug then a high
It was hello
There’s no goodbye
When your twin flame calls
And I am enthralled
As the wall falls
It’s destiny and we are walking
Telepathy is a kind of talking

There’s Nothing Love Can’t Do

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There’s nothing love can’t do
It somehow brought me to you
And in our chasm call
Though we fight and the wall
Seems to rise between us
Baby, you couldn’t even dream up
This kind of love
And I’m five and the dove
Flies overhead
Warding off the resident dread
To come again another day
Do I just get in your way
Or are we okay
Because I fly
And I know you die
In a room alone
God damn, just look at your phone
And you will find me there
A digital realm of true care
To vanquish the pain
What was lost we can never gain
But an aside
I am alive
And so are you
So there’s really nothing stopping us two

Sensuality

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I guess I just couldn’t be myself
Because of the wealth
Of rules and strictures 
And there’s all these guys taking pictures
And you can’t trust
Something when it’s based in lust
There’s gotta be something more
But when you look at me I adore 
Myself reflected in your eyes
And in your aura there’s no disguise
You see right through
To what I didn’t mean to show you
Or anyone
But the sun
Just shone
And then you were gone
And I grasped air
In the place where you were there
Til I found you again
And I swear off all men
But your soul pulls the floor
And I unslam the door
And let you back in
If I’m a competitor can I let you win
Coz I don’t wanna lose
The point I came here to prove
That you’re the best thing I never had
And my good is so bad
When you contemplate the style
But I’ll keep you on file
And flick through the memory scene 
Do you wanna make the dream
Real and true
Oh God, what I would do with you! 😉

Is That You?

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I can feel you
Hairs breadth close
And I’ve fought to find
Love and God knows
That’s not the way
It’s not just what you say
It’s what you are
And I drive a nifty car
But it can’t drive me to the stars
I never meant to break your heart
As I stumble into your arms
I dream of us growing old on farms
With our children around us like the bough of a tree
Covered in leaves of dignity 
As we flourish and hold the space
Of all we thought to create
With our love
It fits like a glove
And telepathy
Is someone just talking to me
Like a radio wave chime
Signaling the intro to a new time

As Far As We Go

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The year I took myself to task
Was the year that I thought to ask
You if you would be my friend
And the year of twenty one will never end 
But it’s filled with ennui 
Coz I lost what I gave for free
And all the time you were with her
I didn’t know that it stir
As you wake up to believe
More than wiping your eyes with your sleeve
And I got committed to a mental equation 
Adding up how I might hate him
But I can’t make it last or real
As they try to make me not feel 
Anything at all, a deadening tome
I thought you stood alone
But there was wind in your hair
I didn’t realise she was your air
As I breathed in all I could take
Til I’m the diamond you forsake
Hidden in the rough and tumble 
But my facade starts to crumble
As I let the truth sneak in
Would I settle for just part of him?

Sewing My Thread

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I looked out the window
I watched for the tide
With news from the sea
That you might be alive
And I can't preempt destiny
Or run with the wolves
I've just got this awesome 
And hot damn it pulls
Me like a thread
Through a needle eye
I just wait for news
And hope you don't die
Somewhere afar
Where I can't reach you
Life said, love, listen
And let the truth teach you
Coz I can't be a summer
When winter has dawned
I can't be the clock face
That someone has pawned
For gold or money
Or just getting by
I know life is hard
But I've gotta try
To find the flow
That runs a river
I know I've been gone
But could you forgive her
For the fear in her blood
It runs in her veins
And it's not easy 
To erase the stains
That come from a life
Of denying truth
It's almost too much
The paragon of youth
As I finally come round
The smelling salts
Wake me and take me 
As my nose assaults
My senses with something 
That's meant to rouse
I don't mean to disappoint
I want to make you proud

If I Run You Just Catch Me

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I tried to run away
To put it behind me
But I love you still
So, baby don't mind me 
I'm just using Oxygen
As I'm drinking the air
Fantasise a future
With you and me there
And I know you've got reasons
I know you've got time
There is an us
But I can't say you're mine
Coz you're free in your soul 
You can't be tied down 
And I've stopped looking rivers
Outside of time 
As I drive by your flat
For the thousandth time 
Does it matter that I
See the sublime
In all that we were 
Or maybe could be
Never thought the Present Moment
Would be history
But I'm letting you go
And you hold on tight
It's like losing your shadow
When you miss the light
That follows me round
And shines from within
Something says awesome
In the shape of him

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Remind Me, Love

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I know you forget
So remind me, love
Of how it felt
When you fell from above
And she mixes your drink
And twirls your hair
And it’s almost as if
I wasn’t there
In the year that we
Were born to run
Your turning heads
I’m turning twenty one
And your sideways askance
There to defy
And I swear I’ll love you
Til the day that I die
I opened the heart
I had kept secret
I could tell you the truth
But you’d never believe it
As we dance in the ether
The astral plane though it’s not to deceive her
It’s just the twin flame buzz
You call me up
I call you love
And we’re at it again
The galaxy in the world of men
Unemptiable mine
Of diamonds that just shine
Set into the rock you’ve hewn
Did you even know what you were doing
When you connected with me
I opened my eyes and now I see

Momentary

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It was momentary 
Just a little hint of stardust
As we danced to the silence of your heart
And I realized we would never be apart
That there’s something in your eyes
It’s in the movies in disguise
And I remember watching Yvaine
Soar above the pain
In that summer of 08
It was August and every breath that I take
Informs me of something new
And, honey, it was you

Now you’re far away
And weaving in and out between
Dancing in 
Some kind of dream
And there are words I don’t utter
But when you smile I melt like butter
Into a puddle at your feet
I’m still absorbed by the way a black hole will meet
The light that moves to its own pulse
And I must inquire does love repulse
Opposite poles like two magnet shapes 
Did I fall in love or did I forsake

And we’re all at sea in our separate lives
We do anything just to survive
But I catch you catch hold of my hand
Help me into a carriage I don’t understand 
As it takes me somewhere new
There is scenery but it sings of you
And the us we could be
Or already are like water is free
To flow through rather than under
And I may have deleted your number
But it’s just coz I’m defeated and going under
The tidal weight of the ocean we are
You caught my eye like a shooting star

Hormones

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Is it just my hormones
Making me love you
A perfect match
A patch for two
Or is it something deeper
That we might share
I know that I love you
I know that you care
And when all the wilderness
Lets me go
Will I still be there
At the end of the show
Coz I just wanna hold your hand
And have you feel
The decades of love
With which I cannot deal
As they wrap around
The map of your frame
And I twirl on my fingertips
The headtrip of your name

The Twin Flame Mirror

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I could stare at you for an infinity 
Wasting away into you and me
Like the Mirror of Erised
Or the words that she said
As she tried to capture a refrain
Is life more than the pain
That seems to cascade a waterfall
And I let go of it all
Only to be brought back around
Do you hear the ocean in the sound
Of a breeze through the air
I kiss you like you aren’t there
But somehow I still feel your stare
A presence, you being there
In moments gone and yet to come
Suspended between the old and young
And forests grow up from the earth
Like people do from the hurt
The waves and waves and waves of dirt
Capsizing what was once my worth
But you see in pages more than I
The winds of what it is to die
Blowing like for evermore
And I still see you there, mo stór
Effervescent on the hill
Then tiptoeing with some skill
On the tightrope of us
I gave my heart, you gave your trust
And somehow it beats from far away
You run and I stay
To be always on a hike
Like features in the world alike
Always aware of what we are
You be the sun for I am a star

Black Holes and Daydreams

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There she goes out on a spin
I wonder will I end up with him
Coz the spiral galaxies can’t contain
Anything that is less than rain
And it all cascades from a cloud
When you speak do you do it out loud
And are you proud
Of all you’ve come to be
Do you really see
Or just threaten so
I ask because it’s somewhere I go
Sometimes
And all my rhymes
Can’t fill the awning gap in my soul
How do you find yourself in a black hole
Singular true
The point of eternity flowing from you

Losing The Love Of My Life

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Losing the love of my life
I always wanted to be his wife
And I’m unscripted, I’m undue 
And I’m running from anything but you
Coz you’ve got lashes, you’ve got hair
You’ve got Presence amid the being there
And I smile and I laugh
And you catch another raft
As it shoots out into the world
You’ve got a life, you’ve got a girl 
And I would never want to interfere
It’s just I love you always, dear
In the moments come unbidden
Amid all that remains hidden
In butterflies and in cymbal clash
The rain comes to pour on me and lash
Out down from the heavens
I’m kicking stones hooked up to sevens
As a day each week that passes
Could be enough to outclass us
And I know you’ve got your sonnet ring
It’s just you don’t know everything 
Not half as much as you profess to contain
Must I hear you again explain 
All I am in neat little quotes
Must I be student to take notes
And hear once more what you say
It’s all in the going away
But what if I choose to remain
A dash of paint to upskill the rain
As it colours the window grey
But we live in Ireland so come what may
In brutal asides and centerfolds 
The path we walk is made of gold
And must we unknow the way
To mean what the people say
In amounts that fall due
And I’m so taken with the fire of you
As you tip your hat to another trope
And I’m just driving by the coast
With the sound of sea in my ears
I brush away the errant tears
That make lanes from my eyes
To mirror that of rainy skies
In all that I profess is true
It’s pure in love and it’s with you

This Man of Mine

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I just don’t know what to do
I don’t know, I just need you
To come back in on the breeze
And watch me fall to my knees
As I implore the sky
To let me have this man of a guy
To call my own
And true colours shown
Only paint the clouds a different hue 
I came apart in the hands of you
As you just smile
And I walk a mile
In another’s shoes
To be happy and pay our dues
Could I give you a book to peruse
As you unintentionally confuse
Me with your ardent limbs
And, my God, the joy of him
To be together in this way
I don’t care what the people say
In their ancillary tones
I just remember the hold on my phone
As I screamed an I love you
And you just looked sad and blue
And everything is a forest free
Did you perceive the truth in me
Or was it just a moment passing by
Did I need to try
To make you see
Or did you just know me 
In our absence of words
The silence is all that I’ve heard
In days gone by
I dunno, I had to try
To let you into just how I feel
But, I just, I cannot deal
With your ebullience 
And is the tense
We’re in now just fear
All I hold, dear
Is the memory of us
And the dream of something to trust

Midnight Sky

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Two stars passing in a midnight sky 
And I’m gonna love you until I die
And that may be many years hence
But you’re always in the present tense
Tracing constellations in an azure blue
Is the moon and sun in a room with you
And as far as I can make out
My trust in you bends the limits of doubt
Til we’re screaming yes at the end of an aisle
As I twirl your hair around my fingers and smile
At the chance made of fate
It’s you and I on our first date
So circumstance I can’t compute
How you and I could ever dilute
The complexity of an intensity strong
Holding our hands against the wrong
And you win me over with a simple song
I am beside you and we belong
In the halls of Love where they record names
The futility of errant flames
That spiral ever eternity
The timeless realm and now I see

Resuming Communications

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I’ve finally realized I can talk to you again
When I gave up and they said, it’s just men
And I was banging my head against the wall
Coz we can’t communicate at all
And I’m screaming refrains out into the night
They look at me and wonder if I’m alright
Coz I’ve got you on my mind
But you weren’t so kind
And I vacated the premises
And you became a sort of nemesis 
I chased in my dreams
And we’re walking on hollow beams
As we cross the room, under the ceiling
You said no and it send me reeling
Out into the dark
And the park
Never looked so lonely 
And I was mourning for you only
As they dimmed the lights
Do we give up on our fights
As we storm the bastille
But how do you feel
When you lay your head down on a pillow
And I know I am weeping but it’s coz I’m a willow
It’s in my nature
And you left a crater
When you crashed to earth
I was grief stricken, more than hurt
Like I try to play even, I try to play calm
But you grabbed me by the arm
And wrote something there
I look in your eyes and I care
About our horizon
And you are something or so I’m surmising
As we drift apart
But still all heart
I hope you’re happy, I hope you’re well
But I love you still, let it go to hell
All my secrets spilled out on a screen
And you are the man I couldn’t even dream
You’re so perfect ensue
And what in the world do I mean to you
All the things we could do
Walk a mile in another’s shoe
Or sail a river down the stream
I know you’re the king but I am a queen
Of my own domain
Cry to the sky of making it rain
And plain
Are the words I speak to you
I want it back, if that’s okay, too
And you smile and my destiny dance
Do you think we could give love another chance
As it weaves between poles
Crafting the tapestry of our souls 
Into a new stance
I felt the waves ocean advance 
Into the shore
I can’t help but want you more

A Heartfelt Quote

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A mysterious presence
An unspeakable quiet
My life was a hoot
Man it was a riot
Til it all burned down
Back into ash
I once was impulsive
Yeah I used to be rash
Go storming in
And storming back out
Never knowing when
To shut my mouth
As the chains encircled
I felt the vice
Til it trapped me there
It wasn’t nice
Then she walked right in
With the softest arms
Told me she’d
Keep me from harm
Told me she’d
Never let me go
And, well
She didn’t, you know
And the blush it colours
Her cheeks so red
Every time I repeat
Just what she said
That she loved me so
And would always be
Here with me
Eternally

Movement

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The wayfaring stranger
The wandering soul
The infinite sky
The dark black hole
You move like the sea
You breathe like the air
You love like fire
And just being there
You lit up my life
Like a starshot stream
You woke up the lion
And ended the dream
You left like the night
Before the dawn
And what can’t be seen
Is never gone

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