Finding the balance between this and that And I don’t have to hate you just to get you back And I am loved and I’m secure I’m wading in water but the current is pure And it’s nothing but noontime in the sky Poised between to live and to die And I know it’s all rolling, this plunging in And it’s over before it really ever begin It’s just that I’m drawn to take a stance Hold out my hand to you to dance And you don’t have to take it but I sense that you will Like drinking in water til you have your fill The sunset, the morning, the consuming night I know in the end we’ll all be alright
Imma bounce Like a cat about to pounce Or the people you denounce Coz I just can’t stay still in chains I look up to the sky and it rains Open air and fresh water blues You know the breeze smells of you Like fresh grass or school in the nineties era Kind of scary and I feared ya When you looked deeply into me What is it that you see Coz your eyes are golden And no one would believe me even if I’d told em But you stay still and silent as the grave I never knew my own power to save With my mere presence alone Now you’re just on the other end of a phone And I followed every line you dropped Til the moment when it just stopped And I couldn’t contain the rush Is it now we get to touch Coz we seem separated by a million miles But I could never pay for one of your smiles It radiates like a frequency to burn I swear you make the world turn
Darling, you’ve got stars in your eyes And I’m full of existential whys But you are the answer without reason My safe space in open season And I could cacophony the sound But I always want you around In the depths of my consciousness In the moments we exist Whether on the astral plane Or in the summer as the clouds rain And I throw back my head laughing with you And it’s not just coz you want me to There is a sense that together Could be the place beyond the weather And in these shoes that I’m walking Is the memory of the two of us talking Silent and sincere or open hearted It’s like I asked and the oceans parted And if we never come to be Could you still realise what you mean to me In oft tried second glances Or just the air we breathe taking chances Could you smile and let the light shine For me just one more time As you look absolute The one place I’ve found truth In the wisdom of our youth Do you think it’s a just pursuit Or are we just running away Filled with things we cannot say In silence spaces and in highs You and I are not goodbyes
How can I be devoted to someone
Looking through a windowpane
It is ardent, it is true
But is it all in vain
Because he doesn't believe
A single word I'm saying
So all my tears come down
Falling like the rain
And he has a girl
So how do I compete
When I'm a mess of hair
Falling at his feet
It's just that he makes me
Feel so damn complete
And I cannot deny
The cuteness when we meet
And is it all a movie scene
Do I play the damsel in distress
And is he the hero
To save me and the rest
And could you call this anything
But a fair request
I was dancing in the storm
In my favourite dress
And where do we go from here
Is it a nothing that we are
Am I Victoria
And not the fallen star
I just know that he has
Every piece of my heart
Held within a frame
Where they once were apart
And is this all nonsense
I'm scribbling on a page
I was close to crying
And he was full of rage
But, oh, the image of you
It could stand for an age
When you're talking to me
I am not afraid
And I cannot find the answer
Nor can I write it out
It seemed you played a song
That is what I'm about
And I cannot not hear
When you veritably shout
And all the words are
Just spilling from my mouth
And does it matter what they all think
Does it matter what they say
Because I really don't think
This feeling's going away
And I wished I had asked you
Years ago to stay
And not degenerate
Into a child's play
So who am I to you now
Am I anything at all
Because I've been calling for you
For eons down the hall
And each and everytime
I meet with a brick wall
Just before I go
Freefalling through it all
And we have friends in common
Is it just a Facebook scene
Am I Katy Perry
And you the teenage dream
And are all the cobwebs
Not what they may seem
You stun me like a laser
Coming through on a moonbeam
And if it all is worthless
And left in the past
Is there any room
For me still to ask
Can we be on friendly terms
In the sun to bask
Because I know within
That this is built to last
And if I'm really crazy
You know I was locked up
Is there space to verbalise
Just what I'm thinking of
Is it against your wishes
That I might call this love
And bless it with the rain
That falls from above
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