Oceanic life, I can feel the drown Rising up when I’m outta town It’s like a vast submerge Has me on the verge Of saying exactly what I mean And punching a hole in the dream That I built so carefully And I’m sure they don’t see But the forces of unconsciousness move to contain What they suspect might be rain And I’m coming down in a deluge And it’s like my heart is the centrifuge Of the whole storm And I’m both cold and warm As the fronts meet each other And somehow I found a brother Who connected on the level I chose Coz all of them are lined up in little rows And I draw outside the lines I replay it a thousand times
The tree beds down deep in my soul And I’m as icy as the North Pole On a summer evening It’s global warming but are you believing The stories they weave And it’s cotton wool I have up my sleeve No knife to stab you in the back No hatred to make an attack On what is perfect pure You loved me but you weren’t sure That you could trust the branch to bough But I’ll come close if you allow Me near your cistern heart The one that fills before it starts To empty out And the earth quakes with your doubt As you mean it all to me Could you be my long lost sea
Using money as a measurement for success All I get is lost in distress And unconsciousness As I cling to the wall Then the whole thing fall And I look at the rubble at my feet Why did God let us meet If he didn’t intend us to be together I scream in the morning air and the weather Utters no reply As dawn breaks over the seat where I lie And that was back in ten Number one on my list of men That I adore It’s like I found him on the shore I used to seek solace on But after I met you the whole thing was gone It burned up like a candle flame And all I have to hold is your name And I remember your hand so soft and cool That summer we met after school In the park And the field is green but the dark Is just around the corner and I Know what it is to be left out to dry Like washing on the line But don’t worry about it, it’s fine He looks deeply into my eyes And I’m momentarily without disguise Or words to play “I didn’t know you loved me that way” I stutter a response He’s not fooled The evening changed And the heat it cooled Down into a summer balm And all I feel is this unearthly calm Creeping over the edges of my perception The perfect kind of misdirection To make the minute hour long “I didn’t know you were that strong” And the wellspring bubbles to the surface “My God, aren’t you perfect” In the moment we hold each other I could never love another The way I love you I close my eyes and it’s just us two
I run but there’s no race that I win I walk away but I think of him Every single day Was there really no other way To handle things And my heart sings When the memory rises And my surprises To find him there And find he care Surpasses all my man made doubt And a life learned to live without Like holding back the air I need to breathe and I care About what happens to you I would love to reach out to You across the great divide But I fear the rebuff and I hide My secrets away so safe And I used to be a little waif In hunger with what she couldn’t live I hope that you forgive Me for my transgression Why does this feel like a confession When I’m at a loss as to what to say So I make something up by the way And feel all the penance that’s due I just want to be worthy of you But you won’t see me no more I knocked and the door Opened and closed in my face Did you know this used to be my place
Driving through town and I think of Amanda She was into the emo scene And her hair was long Like a fucking queen And I try to emulate what I saw back then Seventeen 2.0 again And I wonder where he is If he has a wife and kids I used to check his deets Before I admitted utter defeat And the family life always seemed empty Like why would you when you’re good looking and twenty But when you’re thirty three and laying waste Everyone seems to say; make haste, make haste And I’m like a rock in the river, it just flows by And it might be a long time before I die And forty looks scary as hell Do you grow up or lose life as well Coz age hasn’t changed the core of peace And forgiveness might be the only release For what she did to me If you wake up are you free Or do you deal with encumbrance still Going through a dark night of the will
It was ‘14 and I was on the run And you kinda looked like a loaded gun And I wondered if you would go off So I paid the cost And let the ship go down Kinda dropped out of that town And they called it a scene But, guess what, they are livin’ the dream In a living room potion I’m equal parts water and emotion As the sea afloats A rising tide that lifts all boats In the midnight blues Would you be just old news If I read the feed But wanting you made me bleed In deeply unconscious states The girl waits For it all to be right Then suddenly ignite With all she is But I am not his In the movement that belies The futile moment that he tries To stem the flow Of realizing I cannot go Any closer to you So, I’ll back off, that’s what I’ll do Into the depth that surrounds And riverbeds quake grounds But they can’t uproot the tree That’s been growing within me So you can keep the label I’ll keep the love, if I’m able!
All of the burning embers No one really remembers Who you used to be It’s like the fountain that you see In the ocean that grows within They’re obsessed with the notion of sin And I’ve outgrown the domain That only seems to inflict pain On the monster that abides The one your revolution hides Beneath the snow of an avalanche Were you released in the first tranche Of saviours to keep the day Working in its own way And the sudden scar Is a wildebeest to your open heart The one you wear on your sleeve Do you expect me to just believe In the brand you sell I’m in the jungle but I wish you well
The fire’s alight with every fuse that it burns And I just fall in love as the sun burns On the axis of you What the hell am I supposed to do With all these feelings I’ve got That I think time forgot In the aching I feel And was that time real When we hopped a scotch And I pulled into your parking lot To pick you up They say a hand to a glove Is all that you need But you made me bleed On January 21st I didn’t let on when it hurt And you took up with her I just watched without a word And let on I didn’t care You ran a hand through your hair But I was there And I still am Guess that wasn’t part of your plan To keep your guard dog lover throughout the years I’d silence waves like I do your fears Kiss you on the crest And find the man that knows me best
Is everyone trying to escape
That vast, empty space
And I hold her at a distance
Arms length, or resistance
Coz she can't know
How I let you go
And the awning abyss
Is the only man I kiss
In the winter of my life
When I'm trying to survive the strife
Under the cover building turf
Could you tell me which is worse
Indifference or indecision
And I know you were subject of derision
But I shared
In every vessel that cared
How the ship would float
And that boat
Still sails a sea
Somewhere in the multiverse with me
The sun is shining The leaves are green And I thank you for All that you have been In the midnight stars Or ocean blues I see you in Sunset hues And when the dawn Comes for the day I thank you for What's gone away And what has risen In its place I'm home again In open space
I think you are beautiful, I think you're a star You really don't know how lovely you are And I'd love to look at you and see you within Your soul forms a shape and its constellating And your eyes they are diamonds that shine from your core I'd love to love you and then a little bit more And your face draws my gaze but I don't want to stare All I know is that I know you are there And you don't fade away and you do not flinch In the years that have passed you have not moved an inch And we may be old and weary on the bone But I know in your presence I am not alone And I wish I could spend some time by your side Kiss the ground that you walk because you walk alive Shrink the violets to colour the room Thank you for coming not a minute too soon
Siena’s tried cocaine I tried to numb the pain With all the alcohol But I’m just throwing bricks at the wall Hoping that they stick Don’t be a dick About it Wasn’t I right to doubt it Now I see you in her arms And none of your charms Can weasel your way back to me Just take that jack to the wheel and see I’m not for the changing And all the flowers fading Don’t mean that summer’s gone Another year and this song Will be played What you say Don’t mean a thing And another ring To hold my finger tethered to your soul And the waves don’t crash to your rock and roll Anymore You see that door It opens from the inside out And my mouth Is not somewhere you find yourself I am no Christmas elf To deliver parcels to your tree I just want you to be free with me And let it go I followed you just so you know
He got a dial on the rotary blade
And he claimed he knew how to save
But he sent me to some kind of hell
Then forbade me to ever tell
The story of how our love was made
He put the darkness into the shade
Of the sun that just shines on me
Or from within the holy sea
In the forests he was found
And I can't bear to hear the sound
Of what forever whispered that night
He asked me if I was alright
So I proceeded to spill the secret soul
Then he panicked and the whole
Was exiled to the far reaches of the kingdom
So far away he won't even sing them
As a lullaby to his pain
The clouds were too apt to rain
Upon the land
That used to be sand
To hold my feet
As they walked to the place where we meet
In between the intersection
Of my silence and his rejection
Of all that could ever be
What is the meaning of the word free
Th ship is adrift on the ocean Am I cliché if I claim emotion Had me run ragged round the sea And I just long to see you with me Arms intertwined Diamonds mined Like solid gold bands On the ring fingers of both our hands But you broke the circle That held us as one Now I’m the daughter And you are the son Of the God who saves And I stared at the empty seat for days And gaslit myself Like San Diego Never thought that you would play me though As you took your book and ran And I don’t think I can Let you in again I think I’ll go search other men For that spark of soul in self I saw you with somebody else
The sound of him Is everything win In no forest I can grasp And maybe I should’ve But I didn’t ask Now you have her And as far as I can tell Everything is going really well But I can’t watch you for an eon Or an era So I ditched the scales I used to sear ya To forbode You’re carrying a heavy load And relief Should be yours So instead of shutting doors I’ll leave this one ajar And love you long time, from afar
The hate boils like oil in my throat A corrosive on the metal you float When you send it out to sea Don’t count on it if you rely on me Coz man I am no steam train But I swear if you use that phrase again I might just pop my cork The road less travelled and the fork Is driving me half insane Did you just use my name To describe a certain state of mind But it’s the world I leave behind When I step out on the bridge It’s like a Rocky Mountain ridge As I traverse these perilous seas That would have anyone on their knees But I am not designed to please Only be truthful and real Do you know what you tried to steal?
I swore I would always be free But I’m held captive with you It’s closer we’re getting To what pulls us through And the thread is fine And, Lord knows, I walk the line Down another avenue It may be just me and you In our all and sundry And it’s just another Monday Kissing the stars Or your lips behind prison bars But I’ve got a key Would you want to escape with me In fields of gold Or do you prefer your cell so cold And he does a dance with his eyes The perfect perforation in his disguise “Would you love me true?” I will of course, will you love me too And he bats his eyelashes Flips them up and down And he has me already In a white gown But I’ve grown out of marriage Of the dream I once had Coz the more that I wanted it The more I felt bad And it’s silent for a beat And the heat Rises between us two I leave but I come back to you To regale the tale Of the Infinite I don’t know about you But David might Take a second glance Give me love like it’s my last chance To catch a star I don’t think I’ll ever know what you are
The power of my voice I speak and it’s not by choice It’s like God has hold of my tongue And I surrendered to Him when I was young Now he commands more than I can believe I let Him move me and it relieve The pressure that’s been building Up in my soul Does a wave know it’s water When it starts to roll Only to crash back into the sea Never really leaving the vicinity Of ocean all the time I thought I could call the people mine But they turned on me and the desire Burned in me like sulfurous fire Always aching to reach out beyond They lock me up and I abscond Only to be returned to the same place again The bathroom floor and me are great friends And it is cool against my cheek Do you remember that time I got weak And collapsed in front of the class I didn’t know the Revelation last Now I’ve got vines pulling at my hands I’ve got an hourglass and it’s slipping sand But does God just turn it when the time runs out So He can achieve without any doubt And is there a way I can transcend Something about the riverbend And being open to what you don’t know I held on so tight, now I let go And the winter can’t stop me loving the snow His hand connected with the wrong side of a blow And I was felled just like a tree Except it didn’t really happen to me Just some grass in the forest I don’t know what I’m doing, if I’m being honest But the road is paved, the path is beaten And I can’t avoid the moment I meet Him There in the woods of ill repute You wear a dress, I’ll play the flute And music will last for the whole night I look up and grin because I am alright
There's a place for you here
In a heart so warm
Resilient enough
To overcome the storm
And the wind is knocking
On my door every day
But when I meet you
There's nothing to say
Coz you're clever, you're brash
You're the epitome of suave
There's no mountain to climb
When you assuage
My fears with the danger
Of what you'll do today
I know there's nothing in the world
That I can say
That will stop you from heaving
The weight of the sea
But there was a moment
You were just there with me
In the ashes, in the fire
In the brave, in the free
You can call it forever
Or just destiny
But you match my endeavour
Like a hidden ring
And I know if you asked
I'd give up everything
To be the summer
In your glass of wine
Would it be okay
If I called you mine?
The sound of defeat as he chooses another lady And I dunno but I think that she hates me For intruding on their sacred space But he was a drug I loved to taste And the hit was high And it’s so hard to say goodbye Like it’s a final sort of end Or worse maybe we’re still friends And he could call me pal But I’m not a second best sort of gal I’d rather cut my losses and run Find something else that shines the sun And who knows, maybe it’s not a man Maybe there’s no limit to what I can Do It’s just not you And I turn on the radio and it’s a Sony Listening to that guy that’s lonely And maybe I’ll meet him in Blue Note Give him letters that he can quote Like before When he beat a path to my door Only for me to fly And the year the whole world threatened to die In a storming cavalcade Is it a fate we can evade Or is it an absolute rest We get the day before the test
Stuck in ‘08 It was my date with fate As it led me to your door Did you want me more More than I can attest And we’re both fully dressed But I feel your eyes rake over me Like we’re naked with destiny Just us and the come what may And you fill up the gaps in what I cannot say But it’s subterfuge and we’re resting in hiding But there’s something of love that is all abiding Now you’re sharing your soul with someone else With skin so thin you could make a heart melt With the fire that burns off you It seared a part of me too And I can’t change the fact of you I’m not the same and neither are you But we both kinda are Like the atoms forged in a star Or the matter that make time and space Bend the equivalent of the human race To the tune of light refract I never said no but I still want you back Standing outside my window It’s true there were days that I looked at him, though And I cannot deny my feelings were real With the depth of the red that he deal An ace of hearts And mine almost starts To beat double time He was the essence of fine As he’d crack a smile in my direction Like he’s open to cards if I make selection And he lives just across the hall And he kinda caught the ball When I threw it at him Is it a decision I cannot win Coz I love them all The truth in my own freefall
The sound of you Has echoed through these halls And it’s bringing down barriers And cavernous walls Until all is a grand open space With not one instant of my time gone to waste And I hit pause in 2011 All because the sound of Heaven Was just too damn real And you’re not the boy I want to steal Away with into the night But you came close to it, alright And I spill ink on the canvas I draw I’m like the cold witch and my bones start to thaw In the sunlight you bequeath And I guess I’m embarrassed so I stare at my feet But you turn my face upward with your palm You look at me and I am calm I’m the storm that surround You are worth the way it resounds And leaves me feeling like friend is ancient I’m an artist and I try to paint it But it never lives up to what you are A feeble try to condense a star Into matter and fusion But it was just confusion To say I don’t love you so And I just want you to know That you crack the glass with your smile And I dream of you for a little while But it is real as can be I took the biscuit but just dip it in tea
I was something And I could see A new and different version of me And it’s come to pass That I have come to ace the class Of transformation Coz they flick the tv station But the score Is always I want more Than what is But I am His And I found in life A reflection of his beauty In a man and it’s my duty To explain that I See through the body that die Into the effortless supreme I gasped and it woke the dream
You showed me the sky It was your own shade of blue And there is a timelessness That lives in you And everyone you touch Is a resonant hum It took me ten years To see you’re the One The One in All The Jesus who stands The love of my life When I’m holding your hands And they’re soft to the touch And gentle and warm Who’d ever have known We’d have kicked up a storm Like dust under feet When the wind blows a tune Something is echoing Now you’re in the room
Am I about to dive into the rabbithole scene I haven’t felt love like this since it was just a dream And his words are fuckin’ insane But I still remember his name And the way his hair curls around in locks The way he walks a palace that time forgot And shows me in mornings what’s up for the day At least that’s what she said when I asked her, okay? And you know in the quiet what’s left to be said You’re always making your home where you lay your head And find something honest and real and true That was just with them and now it’s with you In the maybes you ache as you shout a refrain I love the hope of you and I walked through the rain To be the storm centre, the very eye Take care of yourself and make sure you don’t die At least for another fifty or so years Make art out of pain when the canvas is tears And look up to the heavens when the sky clears I drink one to you when I’m having my beers I’ll laugh out loud and simply guffaw When I’m running from stares and the vacancy law That seems to hold court and company I don’t know about you but I’m down on one knee Professing my love to the moon and stars Do you remember the days when it was prison bars And nothing meant anything to anyone you know Now you wave at me as I watch you go With the train that has taken you from the station I guess congrats are in order for the celebration Of all you have earned that is duly yours And I know you could say that this is all words When I never make it out of the snowstorm that snaps Full of whodunnits and who gives a craps And at least if I’m honest I’ll say this to you You gave perfect a spin now the ancient is new Now the midnight is dawn and all the renew You cut fabric in strips out of jeans that are blue So you’ve something to wear when the darkness escapes And teach me the truth that not all heroes wear capes
I spent my youth fearing old age Now I’m finally flipping the page And finding out that the aforementioned Is really not in this dimension Because I extend out Far beyond the realms of doubt To the furnace roar and the circumstance Do you know the electrons dance In perpetual motion And nothing can replace devotion In the furthering of things And a million rings Cannot make me replace The love that I came here to taste And just drink in It wasn’t just with him But everyone Everyone the immaculate Son Of Destiny Do you think he thinks of me With his hand on the trigger A rifle to fire But love’s not down low But somewhere higher To take in the vista And one can only say “I missed ya” If you believe the lie People we love cannot die But fly On immutable wings And everything in creation sings Of its unborn nature My love, I could never hate ya
The myth of myself I rivet the dawn And make preparations For when it is all gone Coz it won’t last forever This person that I’ve made You only know the sun When you’re standing in the shade You only know the midnight Because come the dawn You wake up to the instant That you truly belong
I am the place I’m looking to get And it’s just an illusion to say I’m not there yet Coz I stand in my own pair of boots Anchored like tree who has roots Deep in the soil drawing up Water and nutrients like they are love And lead to me flourishing with leaves of green Nothing isn’t all that it may seem And I’m used like ink in the nib of a pen I’ll just jot down, can I write it again And Now comes to pass as always is The magic is that I am His
It’s a beautiful Saturday evening Crisp and clean Like you’d be playing football On our field of dreams And I couldn’t reconcile The golden green mile I had to walk Through valleys of talk And ideals ripped asunder Days when my number Was up But love Pushed me through the needle eye Coz it’s not my time to die At least not just yet But I don’t forget Our moment out of time And the instant you were mine I held a holy hand And it was like sand Slipping through my fingers Where are the bringers Of the doom I seem to sense And the forest is dense But I’m all good Pine cone bed in the middle of the wood
The life I swore I wouldn’t live in I just crawled back towards the sin And made a stick house out of lollipop sticks Chew gum and hope that something sticks Coz I’m out in the open when I’m with you I shed my clothes coz you asked me to And in my defense I have none I gave it up for God’s Son And I’m humming mobile as I walk Wonder if I’m just all talk Or does the substance of me Have something to give you for free But you’re all tied up with her Denying everything we ever were And I’m the last one in the club (But I say no to the drug) You just offer up But I can’t call this love Not when you bargain a chip Then say I’m the one with it The last one at the table Look at me if you’re able Coz you drop your eyes Like there is no disguise That could ever keep us apart And I must admit I am all heart When it’s beating for you Don’t walk away just coz I asked you to I’m just scared that’s all (And you are really tall) Could you maybe hold my hand For a moment’s change before the sand Runs out of the hourglass Did I ever tell you you are class!
I’ve never spoken of my feelings for you And I don’t know why And I’m always scared You’re gonna die Coz I hold you so dear But you’re never near And I don’t think you understand I never had any of this planned And I know you’ve got a life And its unreasonable to think a wife Is what I could be It’s borderline delusional a history But I’ve gotta speak this longing in my heart The reverberations start When you’re near the scene And the fabric of my dream Starts to shimmer Did you use the dimmer Switch coz the light in here Is gone all moody and I fear That I may be for you over again I’m fascinated by other men But you hold this draw Like you’re the rule and the cosmic law Pulls me to your door Don’t you love me anymore?
Is she battered and bruised Or just slightly used Coz I can’t clamber back up Into the heights of our love It’s like something has been locked out And it smacks of my doubt In a crescent moon And is the end coming soon Or do we have time Is it a holy crime To count the days of tomorrow as now Coz life won’t let me somehow It gives me clear directions and tells me write I look up and you’re alright So I dip my quill Let the ink spill And though I never will I paint pictures with the upmost skill Until The bell chimes And we’re full of “I’m fine”s But how are you really And do you feel me Or is it just refraction I’m stifled by my own inaction In the face of war Could you tell me what it’s for Coz I hear the gun ring out And my self doubt Spirals a song Could you tell me what I’m doing wrong? And I feel our humanity But it’s just not up to me As I swim in the stream Against the current and it’s a dream Can I wake up now I’ll hold your hand if you allow So that we both might stir My reflection in the still of her
The fire’s brimming full And I can’t bear the cotton wool They wrap me in Can I begin To become a star Like the way I feel afar When the rain is thundering down And I’m just driving around the town I used to call home And am I all alone Or does she care And do I dare To spill the words Like liquid ink Is it okay to think Whatever I like But, Lord, don’t give her a mic
I was just walking home with Daz Wondering about that shine he has And I would’ve asked him up If I thought he’d’ve wanted a cup Of tea to warm our bones Coz we are so far from home Here in this big city And it’s a bit shitty I never told you how I felt Never let on the cards were dealt The first time you smiled at me You know you made me feel pretty And I feel so aged and old But it’s not too late for our story to be told And I wonder how you are Did you find a star To shine as bright as you do And do I still mean something to you?
It’s okay You’re safe with me I don’t need to know Your history Just stay in the space Where it is you and I The tornado spins But we’re safe in the eye Of the storm All around You can trust me To hold the sound Of a tuning fork What is that that you retort That I’m not really down But I pause just outside your town To see if you’re in there for real And I would like to steal Away into the night But I’ll settle for knowing you Alright?
Hopping the lines she draws in the sand I look at her and love is grand And it’s all a spectrum really I wonder if she’d ever steal me Away into the night Because she made me feel alright As we talk unto the dawn But it’s been ten years that I’m gone And she laughed out loud at stuff I said Like the man next door might want us dead Or how I had the hots for a young Blair And she had the coolest fuckin’ hair But she’s got a partner now And some beautiful children that life allows To have a mother dear And one thing is crystal clear I had a girl crush on you And I dunno, maybe I still do Though it goes against the grain I turn my face up unto the rain Just to feel the feel of it I sign my name and I quit This effortless game She said happy with her name And she deserves everything she has Showed me I don’t have to be one of the lads I can just be the quiet me A warm jumper and the tea
Is this an artist’s rendering Of unimaginable pain It all came down on me Like thunderous rain And I look afar There was no sign But I’m still so sure Of what was once mine That’s just barely there But still it is I was hers Before I was his And all I do is hide it There are days I can’t abide it But I trudge through the snow Is it wrong to let her know How much I suffered without her And I’m all faith but there are days a doubter Like Thomas and the Saviour It took years to raise her Up from the phoenix and ash I swore I’d be there if you’d ever come back But it’s like using a cane To get around It works but it’s not the exact sound Of the step I used to know And I can’t let go Of all the people I love The ones beside me The ones above The days that close in the evening The team and Don’t Stop Believing In all that you used to be Is there somewhere it is you and me?
I remember the chats I used to have With a certain Shane And maybe I shouldn’t mention his name But he made me feel awesome socks I ran away when the door knocks And it’s him asking to be let in And I just shout over the din Of the silence that resounds Sometimes the quiet is the only sound And he’s too quick to doubt belief I stand listening like a thief That would steal away a word Like it’s the best thing I’ve ever heard And we lost the Americans that day on the bus And our friend is where I place my trust As I lean on her arm for support We’ve always had a kind of rapport Ever since that day in Delphi Where we saw the sheep like an elf we Had a vision of the whole land Washing over the waves like sand And she’s taller than I can believe And cooler than I can thieve Away from the sky Something binds us until we die And I hung out with the engineers And found some moments that life endears Me to all and sundry Just don’t look for sunny on a Monday And she’s the one who told me to scrawl My thoughts on the internet like a graffitied wall And I’ve gotta be grateful to her and all As I jumped up to catch the ball And land with running feet To the place where destiny meet It’s tv on the radio and all I see Is you throwing shapes at me
Love, he reaches out to you And, God, I don’t know what to do But I move my feet To the tune of his beat And it’s not quite a dance Coz it’s woken from the trance And music don’t sound the same But I vibrate to the holy name Of the one who saved my life Not once but more than I’d like And I’ve been relegated in the extreme But it’s only within the dream
I guess I just couldn’t be myself Because of the wealth Of rules and strictures And there’s all these guys taking pictures And you can’t trust Something when it’s based in lust There’s gotta be something more But when you look at me I adore Myself reflected in your eyes And in your aura there’s no disguise You see right through To what I didn’t mean to show you Or anyone But the sun Just shone And then you were gone And I grasped air In the place where you were there Til I found you again And I swear off all men But your soul pulls the floor And I unslam the door And let you back in If I’m a competitor can I let you win Coz I don’t wanna lose The point I came here to prove That you’re the best thing I never had And my good is so bad When you contemplate the style But I’ll keep you on file And flick through the memory scene Do you wanna make the dream Real and true Oh God, what I would do with you! 😉
I can feel you Hairs breadth close And I’ve fought to find Love and God knows That’s not the way It’s not just what you say It’s what you are And I drive a nifty car But it can’t drive me to the stars I never meant to break your heart As I stumble into your arms I dream of us growing old on farms With our children around us like the bough of a tree Covered in leaves of dignity As we flourish and hold the space Of all we thought to create With our love It fits like a glove And telepathy Is someone just talking to me Like a radio wave chime Signaling the intro to a new time
Do I believe in the holy sisterhood Has me doing things for the good Of others not myself Because the way the cards are dealt Seem to aim for our division As we fight each other like some kind of Britain And if we’re not to fuel empire Must we attenuate desire Or could we grow and speak The power that makes us weak And I smile at the good Of your heart and the wood Is dense and thick And you’re kinda driving stick Around the road in front of me As I’m lying, automatically
Among the flying knives that shatter the glass I’ve found something that could last And everywhere I look’s the same I’m seventeen in everything but name And she’s as awesome as she always was And I love him just because He’s different and nice And didn’t expect me to look twice But I’ve been looking in the mirror For as many years as I fear To add to in the relentless pursuit Of time that is consuming our youth And I noticed my skin looks dragged Did I ever appreciate what I had When it was there for real Does he care what I feel And would he care to know The places that my daydreams go When they are resting on solid ground Does he know I love the sound Of forever in his intonation I fuck it up then I go on vacation For a decade or so But I love how we take it slow
I looked out the window
I watched for the tide
With news from the sea
That you might be alive
And I can't preempt destiny
Or run with the wolves
I've just got this awesome
And hot damn it pulls
Me like a thread
Through a needle eye
I just wait for news
And hope you don't die
Somewhere afar
Where I can't reach you
Life said, love, listen
And let the truth teach you
Coz I can't be a summer
When winter has dawned
I can't be the clock face
That someone has pawned
For gold or money
Or just getting by
I know life is hard
But I've gotta try
To find the flow
That runs a river
I know I've been gone
But could you forgive her
For the fear in her blood
It runs in her veins
And it's not easy
To erase the stains
That come from a life
Of denying truth
It's almost too much
The paragon of youth
As I finally come round
The smelling salts
Wake me and take me
As my nose assaults
My senses with something
That's meant to rouse
I don't mean to disappoint
I want to make you proud
I tried to run away
To put it behind me
But I love you still
So, baby don't mind me
I'm just using Oxygen
As I'm drinking the air
Fantasise a future
With you and me there
And I know you've got reasons
I know you've got time
There is an us
But I can't say you're mine
Coz you're free in your soul
You can't be tied down
And I've stopped looking rivers
Outside of time
As I drive by your flat
For the thousandth time
Does it matter that I
See the sublime
In all that we were
Or maybe could be
Never thought the Present Moment
Would be history
But I'm letting you go
And you hold on tight
It's like losing your shadow
When you miss the light
That follows me round
And shines from within
Something says awesome
In the shape of him
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Do I speak what I have to say
Does the shaking in my hand give away
The sword that I cannot steady
But the worst is happening already
On land I see on a screen
And this is not the people's dream
To have machine gun hands facing them
Is it gonna happen again
Or can we realise
That you can't undo what dies
Once it is gone
And we've been fighting for so long
Not just with each other but within oursleves
One earns a million, another's stacking shelves
And you can say that's capitalism
Or that there's a split in the great schism
As we find what we have in common rooms
Is there a way to waylay the doom
That seems to advance from all sides
But, hey man, we're still alive
And we can still tell the tale
Of something that's not up for sale
In this thing that we've built
There's scaffolding over milk that's spilt
But as I clean up the glass
I think of something I'd never taught to ask
Are we all as one
And if we are then could the sun
Shine in every human heart
As the most expansive part
Generating compassion to a degree
I know it's not just me
That feels that something's in the mix
Fusing bonds that science splits
To generate something new for us
I believe in Love and I trust
In the human heart once more
The truth that something adore
I know you forget So remind me, love Of how it felt When you fell from above And she mixes your drink And twirls your hair And it’s almost as if I wasn’t there In the year that we Were born to run Your turning heads I’m turning twenty one And your sideways askance There to defy And I swear I’ll love you Til the day that I die I opened the heart I had kept secret I could tell you the truth But you’d never believe it As we dance in the ether The astral plane though it’s not to deceive her It’s just the twin flame buzz You call me up I call you love And we’re at it again The galaxy in the world of men Unemptiable mine Of diamonds that just shine Set into the rock you’ve hewn Did you even know what you were doing When you connected with me I opened my eyes and now I see
I spend all of my time talking to the voice in my head Is it telepathy or resident dread And I don’t expect you to believe That to stare at the mirror is to grieve Looking at the reflection of something temporal Is it empty or I would venture full Of wit and wisdom and midnight tomes Clicking away from the habit of homes That seem to populate my tv screen Was it real or just a dream A nightmare I can wake up from The leaving of loss of everything’s gone In a moment I’m real and see inside Give up the venture capital to hide Within this little hut I’ve built Giving advice but the talking has stilled Into an ever present calm Do you read lines or just hold my palm Against yours for a moment or so A secret handshake you thought to show Me in our intimate endeavor I know I’m innocent but this is forever And I won’t paint another colour blue Over the one that came from you As the sky holds the memory of us And there’s something I implicitly trust That is between us two I had faith and it brought me you Maybe not in the way I had thought But like a soldier that’s been caught In a single glance you stare The Earth quaked as you stood there Looking past the facade It’s a moment and I want you bad To be what you’ve always been If you’re the King and I’m the Queen Can we give up the reign Coz it only brings us pain In attempting to be what we never were I wish you well for What it’s worth at any rate You looked at me And there was another state That just seemed to embrace And I find that the sight of your face Inspires prose This is me And the less travelled road
Stuff I say to you I was watching the bird and it flew Out the window from inside And this landscape can’t hide The shape of you from me I loved you so I set you free But you come back to be As constant as a northern sea In the winter of ill repute And you’re more devastating Than you are cute But I like my men like thunderclouds The rolling sound just makes me proud To be standing under a western sky And I have no fear over what will die Coz something’s not passing Constant true As I revealed myself to you In a winter past, long ago But it’s just the start Of the story, you know On this journey to forever The path winds but this endeavor Keeps sailing through the storm I would like to keep you warm
There are so many things In life that pass away Made me ask Does anything stay And I found in the dark An unbeatable light It’s shines through the veil Til everyone’s alright And it’s taking to task The body I walk Makes me speak Not merely talk And it loves and it cares But it is detached Unlocks the door Even when it’s latched It goes up and over Here and beyond Answers questions Like a dumb blonde With the smarts I looked it’s way And suddenly it starts To shine For the whole world to see Don’t you know It’s not about me But about the fabric Becoming paper thin He saw the real So I let him in
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