Why do I feel this pain It’s like all of summer is making it rain Do I lean into for all that I’m worth Why does everything like this hurt Coz I’m dismissed Do I exist And if I do is it in the mist Or the spring of time Is the answer only to rhyme The moment down Coz a white gown Is less is more And I forsake all I adore And let go all that’s set in store And the quiet hold Everything is solid gold In the meaning truth I try to find my lost youth In the pillars of sin I loved him so I let him in Then knocked him out Pushed him away with all my self doubt Now I’m tormented true Because I can never have you Coz you’re with her And even if you weren’t, we’re not what we were Sitting on a bus Holding the memory like broken trust As I search to find The number 10 I left behind I head into the city Waiting for the trauma to hit me As I run for fear It’s been so long since you were near And my heart felt peace They look at curtains when they cease To pull the scene Were you and I just a dream