Tag: terror

Blocking It Out

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I was the queen of blocking it out 
Back in 2020
And the streets were empty 
Are we all suffering from the trauma 
Of a year and a half of flora and fauna 
Growing up through the pavements that we don’t walk 
And it’s only electronically that we talk 
But somehow I found some kind of telepathy 
Some community 
That are united around the pain 
And it all falls as rain 
And I was terrified 
Of the people who have already died 
In case a list of names might be added 
To the families already saddened
By the might of a hand that swipes across 
And we count the ones we’ve lost
And I remember the first one that was fallen as I stood by her bed 
And she said 
That’s just the way it’s gonna be for a while 
And some people could find a way to smile 
But I was buried under the timber 
And now I’m listening to a singer
Articulate it so much better than me 
The weather got wetter but now I see 
That I was tapped into the collective fear 
And I quenched it in a place that was not near 
To home 
Because I couldn’t be alone
I could sense it coming 
Now everyone is running 
Away from something smaller than a cell
Capable of unleashing hell
Now I”m watching Israel bombing Gaza
Like we haven’t been through it all together 
And they’re using Covid suits to protect them from the weather 
And make nappies for the babies
While we’re told that the dragons have rabies
And it’s catching kind 
Some humanity that’s left behind 
As what divides us conquers 
And it’s as if those who run the place want us
To devour our tail 
And the part of me that is not up for sale
Rails against the storm in the sea 
I thought I was alone but it was just me 






					

	




					
						


		

		

			
Life Is A Tremulous Thing
		

		
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Life is a tremulous thing 
And a bird with only one wing 
Flies in a circle if she flies at all
I just remember running into the hall
And screaming bloody blue murder 
As I woke up from a sleep 
I had been held in the bed
By a weight I could not keep
And they all held like snooker balls
Atoms of air until they all fall
And weigh on me like turf
But I am released and I surf
The wave out of the room 
Imagine arms catching me with the sound of doom 
And my parents come to me in a flash
And I’m crying, trembling and I can’t put the genie back
In the bottle now that he’s been set free
Every time the phone rings my heart beats against the tree
I use to hold myself together 
Because the weather
Was unpredictable and strange
And no matter how stable it would always change 
As I lose a grandmother to the going away
And I must not cry because she could not stay 
But my ears are pulsing with the noise 
And the din rattles bones like they are play toys
As I always expect the next mute surrender
I gave in to always remember
The torture of losing love to the emptiness
Now the darkness starts to dress
Me in its own clothes and cloak 
Everything around me in the bespoke 
Am I just reading the dial 
When people look at me I fake a smile
So they don’t look to hard
And see the facade behind the business card
I hand out to everyone who wants to get in touch
And you’d never know I love you so much 
When I just stare into your soul 
Every wave is beautiful but they all roll
Into the one 
And every man is somebody’s son 
And deserves respect and compassion
Even when he sings about an assassin 
That lives in his heart
She aimed true though and took the part
He had been protecting out of the dark 
And I bet he was the better mark
In the end
I’d like to think she knows I’m a friend 
But all bullets find their way home
I guess that’s why she’s complete and I am alone 
With my own front facing tremor 
I don’t think I’d want to be on the good ship Endeavour 
Even if I was to stake a claim
And somehow make a name
For myself in the western based media 
But its not all what they feed to ya
As babies cry for mother they’ll never see 
I just don’t want that to ever be me





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The Free Men
		

		
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I can’t beat someone I don’t know how to master

And when I get in too deep I just go down faster

You spindle me quiet, needle and thread

Til I pull out the stitches so that I am dead

And all of the while you have the world on a string

Pulling the puppets who do everything

But all that is nothing to one who sees

And there will come a day I have you on your knees

As you pray for forgiveness for all of your crimes

How you pulled me apart a million times

But times like these cannot be undone

And you lose the battle you think you have won

And what you desire is all in flames

I am the dragon that nobody tames

All of your witchcraft has done naught to me

Than teach the tricks of the trade to who I’m meant to be

					

	




					
						


		

		

			
Hunger
		

		
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I eat monsters for breakfast

And they reside inside me

Itching and screaming to get out

And express themselves

Amid the peace of an elemental world

That takes no fools and harbours no criminals

And I like a precious owner

Of the jewel that hides within

Jealously guard my own domain

Lest anyone make it past the barriers

I have so carefully constructed

Yet somehow, something got inside

And now for all my trying

I cannot put it out

And you,

With those piercing eyes

Possessed not only of the body

But of the soul

Tear me apart as though I am paper thin

With a violence not of this world

Simultaneously holy and full of treachery

As I, realise

We are not two

But one

					

	




					
						


		

		

			
War and Ignorance
		

		
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War

Fights with itself

Until

It’s is a scrambling mess of bodies

And guns

Discharged

And fully functional

And the mangled wreaths

Of blood and flesh scatter around

As a reminder

Of the wilful ignorance

Of the human condition

To drive itself to the depths of hell

And then say

It is necessary

To survive, to kill

To eradicate the enemy

So that we can fulfil

That which is every empty

And dying

And death will be not our master

But we its king

As we greet it like an old friend

And coming running into its arms

Triumph

We will triumph

					

	




					
						


		

		

			
The Monumental Fire
		

		
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I guess I just got caught in a monumental fire

One that burns me up and never seems to tire

Of eroding me right down to my core

I look to you for help and you tell me I need more

And I guess that you were scared of what I had to offer

Cause it threatened all you had and you needed something softer

But sorry I am made of magnetic steel

And there is no tempering how I feel

Like an ocean, like the sea, like an iceberg standing lone

I always seem to be missing my quintessential home

And I just thought you had it cause when I fell into your arms

You quieted my thoughts and silenced my alarms

And I felt a strange sort of peace descend on my soul

Like I had found the one thing I depend on to be whole

And how you matched my heart with your delicately so

I would have given all I had if you didn’t have to go

And leave me to depart on some far flung trek

I would have walked out on a wire and risked my neck

But to hear you deny me like I never even existed

Took more strength than I owned to have resisted

Crying out for the other half of who I am

And praying that you would understand

But your gaze turned icy cold

And I could see my entitlement in the way I started to fold

And break like that and come apart at the seams

I had always believed in the reality of dreams

And that what was foretold would come to pass

And that one time only love could do nothing but last

But the chains encroached and wrapped around like vines

And I couldn’t speak when you declared you were not mine

But belonged to another and were bonded at the core

When you know it is impossible you only want it more

But I let the full weight of it break my wooden frame

As I conceded to myself I was in love with a name

That stood for a symbol that I was longing to be

What I loved about you is you accepted me

With no conditions and no rules, no, just as I am

So when I shattered the stone I thought you would understand

But it seems there’s only so much you can take

And I will never speak to you again for your own sake

So go live your own life full of happiness and wonder

And I’ll remember how you moved my earth with your rolling thunder

How you cascaded rain down the panes of my vision

And how you hit me in the heart ruthlessly and with precision

And how you struck me on the spot and made me to be

The living embodiment of my own destiny

					

	




					
						


		

		

			
Reborn
		

		
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I can turn off the lights and pretend I don’t care

Like the pain of loss isn’t really there

Like I don’t feel in every movement I make

The power of what you chose to take

From me, off me when you left for the woods

And you told me softly it was for my own good

But how can I believe a liars clothes

When you once promised lines in acres of prose

And I never could really detach myself from you, hard as I might try

I’ll be betrothed eternal to you til I die

And when the after comes as I know for sure it will

The sun will be reborn and I will take my fill

And drink from the cup so pleasant on my lips

As you block out the moon in your beautiful eclipse

And if ever I had a wish it would be just for you

And I’m sorry I have to say, you aren’t wishing for me too