Is marriage the line I cannot traverse And I can only watch them rehearse And get ready for the big day Pretend I don’t care anyway When all I love is walking down the aisle And seeing you turn and spill a smile Into my eyes eternally But you’re looking at her, not me And I shouldn’t be jealous Or covet what’s hers It’s just you were mine Amongst the firs As we make Heaven Come down to Earth And I wash away The pain that you hurt With, to you and many Now I see her in your gaze And there isn’t any Anything I can do to change The way the molecules rearrange To the sound of sulfur on your breath Tinged with my greatest regret
All my family agree that you’re bad news
And have me paired up with a different pair of shoes
That never seem to walk the line surmised
Or pass the test when he’s been breathalysed
But he’s better and healthier from the outside
And all they want is a decent compromise
That’s so tempting just to fulfil
Even if it is against my will
Because your cocaine blues somehow conspire
To set my traitor’s heart afire
Send my pulse hammering in my veins
As I spit into your face and you leave tear stains
So wrong, so inconceivably wrong
That you make me feel as though I belong
With your violent aggression cloaked so shy
Into a look that only I can spy
And smile at because I know it means
That I’m the only one to burst your seams
And send you reeling universal
Into a cosmic hole of dispersal
As the midnight claims both our souls
I’d rather die by the number your dice rolls
Than live with the certainty that exists
When I survive on what my love resists
A truth and unfailingness to see
That though I hate it, you’re it for me.