Why do I feel the ultimate pain
When the girl is making it rain
And it comes down in a sea of screams
Waking people from their dreams
And could it be grace that I
Was willing to die
For what I believe
It’s an ocean that I leave
Behind when I set out on my way
And you can’t trust what people say
You watch what they do
And I am staring at you
For an eon forever
As if you could be a hopeful endeavor
What did I forget
Is it the way your bulletproof tinges my regret
As we walk to home
Sometimes forever is better alone
As when the tide goes out
And it’s like a drought
On my lips
Or a midnight eclipse
One you can’t see
I dunno about you but that’s about me
In the wonder years
When I bottled all my tears
And sold them for cash
Brilliant but just a bit rash
As steam on a sunny day
It rises then it goes away
To be replaced
By the sunset the storm effaced
So mad I’m taking all these pills
As I fight the doctor in a display of wills
But he always seems to win the day
And make the point I’m not okay
And sometimes I agree
As I picture a man down on one knee
That might pick me up
But I’m heavier than the weight of love
Can carry when it all boils down
I spilt the beans, you went to town
Aghast at all the mess is made
You’re throwing the game, I’m throwing shade
And we’re just resting in the silence deep
I don’t want to be less than the promise you keep
As the wings of love glide
I’m coming out of where I hide
To know the sunshine as my true nature
And where you landed left a crater
In the ground of me
Mother Earth or destiny
Shaken to my core
I try not to love you anymore
But it just pulls me back
Don’t see me as just a hack
That has to get her stories down
I hum as I drive out of town
Past a scene I know so well
If I shared a secret would you never tell?
I don’t want the traditional life
Not hand to shoulder then be a wife
I want to soar with my wings full open
Not getting by or how you coping
I want to see the stars with my own eyes
I want to shed my leaves like a disguise
And stand solid like a tree
Are you making fun of me
Coz I know you are all motion
And I am still, I’m just supposing
You think I’ve missed out on stuff
But there’s more than one way to love
There’s more than one way to be
But it’s rare the one who really see
With their own eyes deliberately
Don’t think you’ve made a fool of me
Cause I dive in loving the water
Priceless doesn’t mean you’ve bought her
Only that you’ve reserved a space
In the corner of her face
When she smiles up at you
I love it coz I would too
It seems like a strange dream to come true
That some get written while others never do
That you could wish upon a Star
To point you back to what you are
But if you’re looking the skies aren’t telling
So I’m standing in a field and upwards I’m yelling
Why did you strand me on this godforsaken rock
Hurtling through space like something starshot
And time isn’t real or that’s how it seems
The fabric of faith is lit by sunbeams
And you can only measure in line with the dial
The passage of that which has you on trial
But the wrench of separation
Could I switch to a different station
Coz the feeling of this pulverized my spirit
I think I am called but the ears cannot hear it
As it goes in fables
And willing wishes to be able
To be the one
Who shouts to have the pain undone
Oh, the ripping of paper
And all the things that seem to escape her
Do I believe in the girl?
You may as well tell tornados to twirl
Coz it’s their design
And I must accept the part that is mine
To play on the great stage
I rip another strip off of the page
The puzzle strikes complete as it hits me in the heart
It’s like I am the target and you are the dart
As you soar through the sky that is infinitely air
But you know just where you’re going and you meet me there
And all the sideways wanderpaths that interrupt the course
Are just like the river and move without remorse
As everything finds its way and its balance, spirit level
I am the wild and free and there just is no telling
Where I will go next or if it will be true
I just know I’m home when I’m near to you
You walked into the room like a storm inside the sky
And I thought that in that moment my life was completely fly
And you looked just like an angel all white light and hair
I praised God the good that I could just be there
But then the night rained down and the world was full of thunder
I could feel the water rise and I was going under
And was it all worth it, just to know your name
Cause after that experience I could never be the same
And you still shine on in a crazy rebel hue
And I am still in awe of the mightyness of you
But you don’t seem to be quite the same with me
I guess I lost my glory but you kept your mystery
Love is the power that fuels all my doing
And you are the beautiful that I am pursuing
Cause there really is no end to what is eternal real
And there are hearts that you just cannot steal
As you thread the vine once more with rope that is so sweet
And I stay by your side because I just can’t stand the heat
Of moving once inch away from your skin
You are the power that I am within
And we will never be anything but what we are
We are born from the ocean and our soul sits in a star
She’s a star shining in your atmosphere
And I guess I really have nothing to fear
Cause that kind of love is never going to drop
You’ve sown a good harvest, now you reap the crop
But I guess sometimes in my wishful thinking
I wish it was my boat that you were sinking
As we wade out into the oceans deep
But you made a promise that you’re gonna keep
Once, long ago, to a heart that was true
What I want to say is I admire you
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