One avenue I remember you had a sly eye And I toyed with the idea Of you being my guy And you were sweet And gave me strength I don’t remember Where the self consciousness went As you look at me I can see the stars Cave Like all my prison bars And I wonder where you be And how you are Remember the night I picked you up in my car And you looked so jazzed And I felt so fly I’m in love And I don’t know why And you stared in my eyes When I dropped you off I hope we’re still friends And all is not lost And I wonder if I could Kick back with you I dunno if you Still want me to That I could be your Jess Is this too cringey You bought me a drink Was I too stingy With my affection As we open our hearts There was no ending So the magic starts And the years roll by Like a filofax And you told me To relax As I worried A frayed line of thread Leave me thinking Of you instead And I wonder what You would say if you Knew all That I’ve been through Would it mar the image You seem to have of me You always seem to Just give it to me free As we laugh The bursting joy Saw you turn Man from a boy And I always clicked So you would know that I Hold you close Somewhere that can never die And I wonder if you Have a woman now And if there’s still Space for me somehow Coz I want you to know It’s more than a crush And I know it’s been a decade But we don’t have to rush Just find our way What do you say Could we vibe Like back in the day And if I look to you Would you look away Coz I really Want you to stay And make a fortress That can’t be stormed Keep a place So the bed is warmed As I hold your arm And we kiss I should be glad You gave me something to miss In your forest pure And your deep brown eyes You kind of know my heart And it’s no surprise That you had it all Planned out in your mind And I didn’t mean To leave you behind It’s just days were dark And I scared myself With the storms in A teacup I spilt as I knelt And you were so casual And so on fire You took my hand And lifted me higher And I haven’t forgotten The good you do I just don’t know What to say to you Coz I love you with The full of my heart And I want to close The gap that keeps us apart And I’d call your name Across the expanse If I thought that you Would be down to dance And kiss like you Are still in the club You have all I am In your arms, love And I’d love To be your equal If I’ve written a history Would you be the sequel To a place Where all is calm Is our distance Just a false alarm That can be quieted By your soothing breath You’ve gotta know It’s not over yet And I hold you In a place so dear No matter the clouds The sky is clear
I know people are saying I’m highly strung And there’s all these celebrities dying young And there was a time 27 seemed old Now it’s with the story that’s already been told And I’ve got to pull myself up by my bootstraps There’s no telling what’s running off these maps And it was in a moment I just collapse Like the fire of a synapse As it blazes down an avenue Into the room it just walks through And strikes me like a light from above It’s is a kind of redemptive love And it burned away what I couldn’t see So I could live the destiny Right there on the classroom floor As green as the grass I adore And they say it might have just been a fit An epileptic, nothing to do with The glory of the sky Just the taste of what it is to die As I wake up a new girl in the air It was as though He had answered prayer And finally it was there A wisp of wind that told me to care And when I’m stuck behind walls I feel are lies I remember how this always tries To remind me of just what I am And that everything is part of the plan As we grow up into adult moves Bodies that say what they need to prove What they are at the shore But I couldn’t have loved you more And you look at me as though you suspect That there might be trouble coming next Because, God knows, your head is wrecked And it’s everything that it affects But I just bring the smoothest balm To wait in the wings and stay calm And show you what you mean to me Now that the pain is history And you are just a love I teach I’m doing cartwheels on the beach Now that I have your rapt attention But there are days I dare not mention When the tide went out and the water receded It was as though you were all I needed But I saw something in the sky To reflect the blue of your eye And how I know I’m not alone When I hear your voice on the phone And everything you mean to me Comes flooding back like history That you could mean the words you say And that everything might be okay As I finally give in to let the bay Take care of me, come what may
The Poetry Book 