Tag: roles

Ancient Structures

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Is it possible I’ve internalized the misogyny
Is that why I tend toward androgyny 
Because the idea of being woman is too much to take
I call them out, then they call me fake
And I tried to build tall castles to the sky
But they said don’t hassle a reason why
So I took a back seat
Took the weight off my feet
And kicked back and went slack
Coz when I say something’s wrong, they think it’s an attack
When I’m just relaying how I see it
And if you want a change then you’ve got to be it
So I absconded away from the fort
The queen was in waiting for the lines that blurred
And she grew tired and drained
Longed to be running in fields where it rained
And she laughs out loud and turns her hands up
Let her skin soak in a pure drug
As the open air blew her flaws
Away from the ice where the glacier thaws
And someday she’ll see
She already is what she tries to be
As she struggles in vain
Makes the same mistake all over again
And blames it on them or on herself
She trades in things that she’s never felt
But strives just to be
I thought ambition was at the heart of me
But something new
Made its way to the sea so blue
And I’m so grateful for seeing through
The empire I craved to put my hand to
Now I’m all organic and essential oils
They say the world spins for the one who toils
But I’ve found my own soliloquy in something quiet
Love’s not a drug and you cannot buy it
Only feel true
Into the depths and hollows of you
Into the peace
I took a breath and the storm cease

After The Fact

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After the fact they remember the flaw
In the heat the ice thaw
But they can’t go back to the previous page
And all the blood spilled like ink on the page
Writes a story of pain
It’s falling from the sky like acid rain
To peel the paint
It’s overwhelming and I faint
Coz I just can’t carry the weight of sin
But it happened again when I met him
Like everything obliterate
Except love in a holy state
To hold you like a balm
How the hell am I so calm
When Heaven beckons with its lure
And you say that I am pure 
But these past few years
Have torn me asunder with the weight of tears
As I give in to a darkened world
That attempts to kill the girl
In me and make the woman role
Replace the sacredness of my soul
But my heart will never beat in that direction
Go find someone else to be the reflection
Of all you need in female eyes
I am the master of my own disguise