Tag: purpose

Tiny Tremors

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There are tiny tremors that rock the boat
But all it seems to do is float
As it engages on the rocky sea
As people wonder what the fuck is up with me
And I can’t explain
That I just come down with the rain
And the pain
Is sweet as the music Andrew plays
As he sings away my days
Into a crescendo of perfect purpose 
And the rigmarole seems like a circus
Everybody loves
But those gloves 
Don’t fit me anymore
So I just shut the door 
On them
And some part of me says Amen

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There’s Darker Than That In The Shadows

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There’s darker than that in the shadows
And the girl rebelled on All Hallow’s 
Eve and there were claps of thunder
I saw them taking my number
So I ran and ran
Now no one can 
Reach me
And no matter what they teach me
I cannot unsee the truth
That perforated the wisdom of my youth
They try to placate
Say; find a perfect date
Find a man you can settle down with 
Though it might be hard coz you’re such a bitch
But I don’t care anyway
I just sway
With the leaves in the trees
As everyone believes that down on your knees
Is the way to free
But it just isn’t me
And the man is beautiful, the man is real 
But he just closes down how I feel
And say’s to me on the phone
Goodbye, Laura, now I’m alone
As the bombs go off
And I pay the cost
For the rattling rain 
That hammers my doorstep again
And again and again 
I can’t reasonably blame the weather on men 
But then I do 
I just blame you 
For casting me out
For casting aspersions and self doubt
On who I am 
And if I’ve any choice as to who I can 
Love, it will never be you 
Even if your baby blue
Is enticing 
My soul is advicing 
Me to depart
I do it all with solemn heart 

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The Broken Wall

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Are our memories so short that we could call this history 
And the mystery 
Of the Emerald Isle 
Is how we survived the trial 
Of invasion 
And the abrasion 
Still shows in galactic consciousness 
As we struggle to address 
The appropriate evil to compensate
For why we were in that state
It seemed like there was nothing we could do 
Except rebel, rebel 
But it was a kind of hell 
As they starved the land of its people 
And we replaced futility with a steeple
And prayed to a God we knew not of
Because only Divine Love
Could be our salvation
As we were collateral damage for a nation
Who’s only goal was empire 
And I wonder they never tire 
Of the chains they induce
And they seduce 
The whole world with their lies
And now it tries 
To deceive again 
Because in the realm of men
Killing and war are necessary
But children are not an accessory
To the damage you do 
Yes, I am talking to you
You equivocate
And evaluate
What you do by some measure
But your treasure 
Is not to be found in the blood of the young
Or a people to succumb
To what you want to achieve
I know you believe 
In what you say
But I see another way
To mend the broken wall
Try letting the damn thing fall

The Machinations Of War

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I tried to scream but they stifled the cry
Now I must watch the people die
And it’s game over in the extreme
As people wake up from the dream 
And wonder what it is they have been doing
The empty hands they are pursing 
In the hope that it will bring them gold 
But they forget to look inside their soul 
To find what’s there to share
The loaves and the fish and people care
About each other
A bomb drops and another mother 
Hears her child’s stifled scream 
For the last time as the seam 
Is burst on the dress we sew 
And there may be people in the know 
But they can’t see what we are 
I look over at him in my car
As we drive to the sunset in my sky
But I watched the fading from view lie
In wait for every summer sun
You wake up and you are the one
Who will be the endeavoured in the replete
The woman may have washed Jesus’ feet
With her hair
But were you there 
When he let her be
And for free
Forgave what held her down
Like the men about the town
Who used her for what she could 
Only sell in that type of wood 
And the trees holds whispers still 
Feel the weight of heavy will 
Signal summer in the breeze
The weight is heavy but my knees 
Can finally lift their stone
And if I must I will leave home

Famous Someday

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I'll be famous someday
The girl whispered to the screen
As she watched the mountains
Live their dream 
And she caught every droplet
That fell from the sky as rain
Chalked it up to the cross
When she felt the pain
Of living the life she knows on the ground
You hit me hard and I didn't make a sound
And I just fell like a tree in the forest
Does all of the silence mean that you're honest
And she wrote me a letter
And I know I can do better
Than to live in the suffer
Finally admit that I do love her
In spite of the wolves that came to my door
When she blamed the earth on what I adore
Told me I was perfect, then took a swipe
I walked the floor in the dead of night
And it just awoke 
We haven't spoke
In so many years
And you are the queen of tears 
That set the brigade to run
And pull the thread that makes the fabric undone
And I saw you see me that time that I cried
And I put an embargo on emotions that died
When the glass was cracked
It's like the moment you can't go back 
And forgiveness rules my soul 
But you were the one who fractured the bowl
And I shatter with all the splintered pieces
But there is a moment when the night ceases
And the sun breaks through
And it tells me what I'm supposed to do
In the summer of life
"You will be his wife
In some way, shape or form 
You will repair skies that are torn
And find your true calling here
There is something watching over you, dear"
And I grasp and I cling
But this thing is like a sling
And holds me where it hurts
So that I do not make it worse 
"Let the pain go
Let the rain show
And when you're done
Then, maybe, you'll know"

Heaney’s Shovel

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Here is my pen like the blade of a knife
As it furrows through earth already turned twice 
And there is treasure within, I can hear it call
And all of the problems are not there at all
As I open air in the core of my being
I know there is something here worth seeing
And they tell me lies but they believe
In all of the strings that hang from my sleeve
And I’m just untwining a tapestry
So the threads might be able to run free
And make themselves a masterpiece
Not somebody else’s picture to learn to crease

My Melancholia

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The streets are awash with my well worn fame
But just coz you know my name 
Doesn’t mean you know what I am
And I have a plan
To be the best thing since sliced pan 
But I get interrupted 
And things must be adjusted 
To fit my frame 
I used to love the game
There was that time my vision narrowed
Watching films and the haunting harrowed
As everyone just moved on
The place where I stood was long gone
And images rose up like a screen
Popping bubbles in the dream
And I lay in bed
Trying to quench the firestorm in my head
At eighteen
In Roebuck Hall stifling a scream
Into my pillow
Now she’s released Willow
Into the world
And I’ve grown up a girl
Into a fortress strong
Resilient that could never be wrong
And I spilt ink all over the page
Used my pen to rage and rage
Instead of caging the beast
I let the paper become the feast
And devour the pain inside
I don’t think I need to hide
Coz I know there’s a whole plethora
Of people who wish they didn’t know that 
That which I’m talking about
And the words that came out of my mouth
Were confused and afraid 
Like the sun had just put me in the shade
But it’s all in the past
Though the strength will last
Some kind of quantum leap
In consciousness that doesn’t sleep
Even when my eyes close
Are there reasons for everything, only God knows

Pondering My Life

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Sitting in a New York café
Wondering whose gonna win the day
Is it me or my fear 
I shake because the doom was near
And it pulled me far away from the storm
Do you think the sun is warm
Or is it just faking it’s heat
But I can feel it on my feet
As my toes shake sand 
Out of the knots in my hand 
Like a well worn tree
He left and then never met me
And I gotta find God
Do you venerate the Lord
And is it just another symbol
Or can you see out the window 
To where the grass is green 
Something in me has always been
And will abide
I don’t have to hide 
From the shirking of weight
They call it luck, I call it fate

FOMO

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The fear of missing out
Haunts my sideboard
Coz nothing’s enough
I swear on the word
That I utter
Under my breath
I’m on my way
But I’m not there yet
And everything glistens
Like sunny snow
Out of my reach
But don’t you know
It’s closer than it was
And I didn’t break any laws
When I wished you down
I tore the tatters on my gown
Into the shape of a badass queen
What if this is just a dream
That is happening in consciousness
Do you trust
In the powers that be
Is it ok or will we see
What is coming down the line
There was that moment you stopped time
And I was taken by an intake of breath
It’s sharp and I cannot forget
It’s impact on my soul
I keep catching glimpses of being whole

The World As We Know It

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The world as we know it
Is in rapid decline
I'd love to say something
Like it's all just fine
And it would be true
To a degree
But there's something that's calling
Of the ocean to me
And we're building cities 
Up from the ground
But there are people crying 
Because of the sound
Of war drums that beat
To the rhythm of people's feet
As they march across the sand 
While economists talk of 
The invisible hand 
But we gotta make a move
To make a change
As the atoms stratify 
And rearrange
Into a new form
And is the sun warm
What a question to ask!
Are we able
Or up to the task? 
And we've got this spirit
Running our veins
And I can't tolerate
All the pain 
That the interpretation creates 
I see us all in better states
Where we make a duty more than law
But the reason why the ice thaw
As my compassion heats the storm
Is there a world that could be too warm?

My Pain

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Rolling in the river like it’s a storm
It’s ice cold but it keeps me warm 
As I sigh at the advances of every guy
I’m solitary, lonely and I don’t know why
Coz everything seems like it’s out to get me
At least since the day that he met me
And I fired the summer with a new fuse
Lost love like I had the power to choose
And his breath comes in gasps as he’s staring at me
My love is true so I set him free
But he’s just in the wilderness I let him touch
Doesn’t know the depths of what I love so much
And the ocean is water but so is a tear
I count the time like trees do a year
It’s okay with me all of the time
But in secret silence I call you mine
As you stay away and I respect
What you haven’t come to terms with as of yet
The guilt, the hatred, the violent pain
You look up and it’s raining again
It’s all it can do til the cloud has passed
But the sky is still blue and it will always last

The Glorious

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I want to be inspiring
Or beautiful
Or both
I don’t want to write the night
Anymore

Though I have written it well
As well as can be written
When darkness is your subject matter
As it turns to a golden sheen
In the morning light

But there is another way
Another turn of phrase
That lifts you up
To higher consciousness it seems
And rewards are your delight

And the marks that have been made
Filter away,
Pourously, as though they were never there
To the pure calm space within
That always holds its peace

I don’t want to write the world in vain
I want to write the glorious
Of undying rain
As it pours heavy from the sky
On me

Miscommunication

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I know you feel you have to keep quiet
Cause you’re the entertainer most complete
And all of those eyes are trained on you
Like a performer in the street
But those are your loneliest moments
Where you break and the splint cracks
And try as you might to hold up the weight
You can’t get what you had back
And I want you to know, though you don’t like me at all
(Sometimes I’m the bane of your life)
That I see through the lies of your preeminent disguise
And I have you in my sight
And if you want to be fragile, come apart at the seams
You can do so in my arms
Or far away, an ocean apart
I’ll hold you when it all is dark
For though you have a life you profess wonderful
And I’m not denying it’s true
I see the gaps in between the lines
That’s hiding a part of you
Though you swam away to a foreign shore
And swore me off for good
I love you as much as the day that you left
And a million times more than I should
So if you feel alight on a cloud that is stormy
I’ll blow a breath that will bring you here
And just for a moment in the depths of the silence
You will be okay my dear
And I know that your chains are not man made
Are no shackles I can undo
But I thought you should know, though I never said
That I feel something akin to you
That sometimes in the midnight of my reprieve
I quietly surrender
To all of the fears that hang round the edges
Of the past that I can remember
And I do a double take or take a second hop
At the nostalgia in my bones
And what you cannot fix as the feeling sticks
Is that you are never alone
So quietly softly with mercenary zeal
I pave my way back into your life
If only to be, though you cannot see
Doing what I did before twice
And palm off the shrugs of everyone else
Of the crowd that surrounds
Though you don’t believe in all that I grieve
Things are better when you’re around
And monsters may come to fight your soul
On the back of your very own strength
But wherever you go and whatever you do
Just know that I said what I meant
And do not retract ne’er a line
About all that is made to stay
Though bodies may fade like a will of the wisp
My love is not going away
But born to be here as an expression
Of resident divinity
And the chasm was calling deep within
On the day that you met me
It was not mere coincidence
Or a chance encounter
It was the confluence of a million points
Of reference and order
Plotted out by galaxies
Long before our skin made blood
So don’t look away when I’m taking to you
I still stand the ground I stood
Cause held inside what you cannot see
And perceive only as black
Is the inner peace you’ve been looking for
Where you can sit back
Deep into the armchair
Of an emptiness most profound
Am I the one who sings the song
Or the one who hears the sound
Or even more imperceptible
The awareness whereby
All of life consents to grow
And in which it will die
So everglading honestly
Deep into your eyes
I know that you were made for me
And there are no goodbyes
Ever to be spoken
Between the two of us
Because we are one soul made flesh
And the heart of life is love
And all that you suffer
Is shadowed in my gait
We are but two sides of a coin
In its material state
Seemingly opposite
But of the one design
Though I could not save you from yourself
It wasn’t for lack of trying
Because I’m ever as you are
The one conscious sentience
I thought I had lost you
There was nothing when you went
And understandingly
Ungainly clambering
I sought to reach a sky
By climbing a shoestring
But celestial heights
Are not meant to be obtained
Just because I see the stars
Doesn’t mean they are contained
But inversely are embedded
In a fabric that extends
Though there is an irretrievable edge
Where even space ends
And the continuum is revealed
As no more than illusion
Perpetrated innocently
In the midst of our confusion
Like the way a light cannot
Cease to be itself
Or shine it’s radiance
Into the void I felt
So I can communicate
Or somehow convey
The breath and the depth
Of the things I do not say
And what was bequeathed
In the forests of reserve
Is that we were chosen
To burn the fires we serve
And be consumed
By all our misery
It takes pressure to make pearls
Out of rocks in the sea
And to forge diamonds
In mountainous shrouds
I pledged my life to you
Though I never said the words aloud
But river beds will tell
The story the sky forgets
An oak is standing over
The acorn that you set

The Soul

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The universe is trying to get through to you
So don’t wipe away the innocence and give pain its due
Cause there is a reason for everything under the sun
And there really is no telling where anything is begun
Cause it is all cause and effect, an experimental design
And the fabric of the cosmos is neither yours nor mine
So live your life in truth, in alignment with the whole
Cause there is nothing else that satisfies the soul

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Born to Be

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Could I stand up and be an example for the world
Could I just let my power be unfurled
And could all my secrets be thrown to the wind
As I stand in the light and say that I have sinned
Could I stand for the darkness as well as the light
And say I know you’re sad but it is alright
And say I’ve been there too and walked a fine line
But it isn’t terrible to say that you need time
And however and whensoever you choose to break the seal
I didn’t know it at the time but I think I cut a deal
To be one and one with God and honesty complete
I only seem to be happy when I’m kneeling at His feet
And ever that he asks me is thus to be carried out
I relearn every day just what I am about
And why is it so hard just to let it all fly free
I think this earth is waiting for what I was born to be