Pride

Like a bottle of vitriol 
I keep on call
Like I’m talking to crowds
And then to the wall
Coz I’ve got this pulse
That hammers my veins
And I keep hearing quotes
And magnificent refrains
That call me to be
Something new
And I don’t owe anything
To the memory of you
Coz I fight with the dream
The fabric I’d crafted
I remember the moment
That you felt I laughed at
All you could not be
And you always said
You were jealous of me
And I kept it like a secret
Honor bound
Til you changed your tune
And the sound
Turned to clashing symbols
I’m covering my ears
Waiting for the air to clear
And tell me that I’m
Safe again
And I found dew drops
In the eyes of men
To patch up
What you tore of me
But I love them honest
So I set them free
To keep what I’d taken
In circumstance
But they always
Ask me to dance
And I can’t say no
But where would you go
If you knew the truth
The black mark that became my youth
All because I
Splintered the prose
And you simply
Took another road
That lead you down
An avenue
Don’t say that you miss me
Coz I don’t miss you
And I’m not gonna lie
And say it’s okay
I still remember
The pain of that day
And the weeks and months
And years to follow
When what had been full
Suddenly seemed hollow
And I can’t say that you
Carved out a mark
Coz there are no forms
In the magnificent dark
Only the feeling
That all is well
Is it time
To show and tell
Oxegen was something of a revelation
They always said I was above my station
Staring into stars like that
But I’ve caught the bug and I want you back