Tag: philosophising

The Sneaking Suspicion

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I get this feeling, it’s like an irritation 
And it has me running to his station 
To see what I can’t download 
But the road 
Turns and I can’t see 
What he ever meant for me 
When he changed his tune
Turned his head with me in the room 
And I know I can’t be mad
Should let him off with the feeling bad 
Because I feel the spiral 
That has somehow gone viral 
On YouTube
And even the coolest dude
Is susceptible to 
The weakness of being open to 
A failing of words 
And following the herds 
Like a basket case 
That some demon somewhere wants to erase
I stepped into the stream 
And the nightmare of a dream 
Came to show its face
Did I really need to embrace
The lowest of form 
So that I could be warm 
When he’d look at me 
I can’t hide the gaze that just see
Into mystery 
And he thinks he so complex and he is so proud
Of all that he does not say out loud 
But its echoing from you 
Like a ripple as I dip my toe into 
The river we were 
Before you met the ocean of her 
When you plunged into its frigid storm 
Did you remember the moment we were born 
In some distant haze 
Not I look as your gaze 
Tries to rest on me on the sand 
But I could never be that land 
Not when it’s arid and dry
And I never did mean to make you cry
It’s just I’m plush and green 
And I take the one seat ahead of the scream 
That violates lines 
And you’ve said it before, like a thousand times 
How you love it when 
She whispers prayers like an amen 
And I’m sure you do 
Pull needles though 
The jumper you embroider 
And I hope you enjoy her 
But don’t blame me for the why 
The resolve you never had to die 
In a fiery fuse 
I look at you two and I just bruise 
In the place where the picture meets my skin 
And then I walk into a room and meet him 
And he’s just like you 
But a bit more dangerous and outspoken too
If that could be real 
Possible that I could feel 
That way again 
In a hall of willing men 
Who open their palms 
To me like they are giving alms
To the girl I was for what I’ve become 
I was beautiful when I was young

The Quantum Version

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You go be a realistic adult
Just leave me as I am
I don’t need your adequate prose
Or my life to plan
Just let the shards fall softly
Like snow from the sky
The wages of sin is death
So excuse me while I don’t reply
To all your locked boxes
Checked like they would
Did you really find your refuge
In an abandoned wood
Coz it’s been so long since twenty one
And longer since twenty two
And now I find I’m covetous
Of all that belongs to you
In the winter that breaks the snow
And the places I would not go
For love nor money
I’m an author now, honey
And your smash and grab won’t win
Oh, what I did to him
To prove our love was real 
Was I really out to steal
Or just to interrupt
With that hat that I adjust
Like so on my head
And now the man is wed
But inner dimensionally
And guess what it’s to me
And my hands shake as I write the letter
Said I know I love you better
And the ink is splotched and tear stained
You can tell the places the clouds rained
Down from my eye
As blue as an azure sky 
In the coast that we frequent 
Don’t know where the trouble went 

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Looking Back And Looking In

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I felt the shards glisten inside of me 
And it was winter witheringly
As I watched the tide recede
With everything that I believe
In and as heretofore
Why is it that the ones we adore
Are the ones who punish us
In lines we cross and broken trust
They try to reign me in
But it’s like a corset and I cannot win
Then I happened upon him
After our meeting on the sly
Far past the place where we both die
By a strike on our homes
And we are both alone
In the darkness and the grass
Moonlight that doesn’t seem to pass
Into the sun
And he is the one
That I know
But he doesn’t like me so
I let it go
And shut him out of my sky
But we both know it is a lie 
Because he is all of my stars
I see them through my prison bars
And the walls may be bricks and mortar
And if I had a quarter
For every time you said you’d be there
I could have found someone who’d really care
But anyway
Leave that with the hay
They raked in the summer weather
And the heather
May induce sleep
But you’re a promise I want to keep 
Deep within my heart and soul
So let the waves roll
And crash upon grains of sand
You will forever hold my hand
In my heart of hearts
It’s in the end the beginning starts