Tag: memory

Blocking It Out

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I was the queen of blocking it out 
Back in 2020
And the streets were empty 
Are we all suffering from the trauma 
Of a year and a half of flora and fauna 
Growing up through the pavements that we don’t walk 
And it’s only electronically that we talk 
But somehow I found some kind of telepathy 
Some community 
That are united around the pain 
And it all falls as rain 
And I was terrified 
Of the people who have already died 
In case a list of names might be added 
To the families already saddened
By the might of a hand that swipes across 
And we count the ones we’ve lost
And I remember the first one that was fallen as I stood by her bed 
And she said 
That’s just the way it’s gonna be for a while 
And some people could find a way to smile 
But I was buried under the timber 
And now I’m listening to a singer
Articulate it so much better than me 
The weather got wetter but now I see 
That I was tapped into the collective fear 
And I quenched it in a place that was not near 
To home 
Because I couldn’t be alone
I could sense it coming 
Now everyone is running 
Away from something smaller than a cell
Capable of unleashing hell
Now I”m watching Israel bombing Gaza
Like we haven’t been through it all together 
And they’re using Covid suits to protect them from the weather 
And make nappies for the babies
While we’re told that the dragons have rabies
And it’s catching kind 
Some humanity that’s left behind 
As what divides us conquers 
And it’s as if those who run the place want us
To devour our tail 
And the part of me that is not up for sale
Rails against the storm in the sea 
I thought I was alone but it was just me 






					

	




					
						


		

		

			
Missing You
		

		
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Watching as the train pulls in
And I can’t help but think of him
How he’d be there every Friday evening 
Gave me something to believe him
And I left him to go walkabout
In dreams of dread and self doubt
When no one could ever see me there
And I felt like no one care
And then he died, just like that
Take in a breath he can’t give back
And I’m not even letting go
Because it’s not the same as it used to be so
I wear my armor strong and tight
Chainmail you can’t set alight
To let the stone sink down deep
There’s something of his love I keep

					

	




					
						


		

		

			
Paper Trails
		

		
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Leaving a paper trail of tears behind me
I’m overwrought so never mind me 
As I build a new monument to all that’s fallen
I’m in the Deep South and they are drawling
As they curb all anticipation 
Can I watch your tv station
Just for a little while
I made you see, you made me smile
And all I can think of is torment
The indigenous people and where they went
Forced across rock and stone
Broken in their skin and bone
But with their Spirit true
I can still have faith in You
As all comes crashing like a wave
Is it sin to abdicate to save
And hold a hand
Is the shore more than sand
And if a rock is hewn to bits
Do you have space to sit with it
Or does its impermanent tone
Remind you what it’s like to be alone
Moving weight like old stone
I’d hold back but I’ve already shown
All of my stars to you
I’ll love you if you want me to