Am I condemned to the perpetual misunderstand
There’s something about her phrase that seems so underhand 
And yet in demand
I crave then I crawl 
I hold back, then I call
Because I can’t keep the typewriter from doing its shit 
And I’m just a leaf that she’s folding her paper with 
And it’s not like I’m mad with her or hateful 
And I know I should be so damn grateful 
I get to know her at all
But it’s just that wall
She takes it down, then fires it up 
And I wonder if we have fallen out of love
Into a deep blue sky
And all my asking why
Meets the same response
A thousand different ways in handwritten fonts
But the answer doesn’t change
I make the stars rearrange 
Then get bullied and bruised
Feel malfeased and inappropriately used
By the powers that be
And the status they think they give to me 
And all of my aching since 2005
And wondering if she even knows I’m alive
Anymore
I go knock on her door 
And I hear the rap echo 
What did I wreck though 
With my brilliant sun
And the knowing that I am the one 
The fire, the phoenix, the passionate Aries 
Away with the birds and down with the fairies 
I listen for any pouring of water 
That may come from the halls of the daughter
I used to be
But now I see
I have outgrown that frame
Like I have burst through my name
Into something new
And it was always you
I would go to
At the first sign of sea
Now it’s just the ocean witnessing me 
As you avert your gaze
And the cities you raze
And don’t even notice 
Who said that we have to make up quotas 
Just to get elected 
But Jesus resurrected
Spells a new storm
And if you think you’re hot, you’re not even warm 
In the midnight blues
And all of you that can’t pay its dues 
In form 
The day I was born 
Something spoke to me 
And it said; this is the way it’s going to be
So I cried 
And at fourteen I died
Like I had in a previous life
One where I broke down and agreed to be a wife
But enough of that now, I’m bullet and silver 
And I’ve enough in my quill to write syllable of her 
Though she may see
The descent of grey mystery 
On the plurality 
Of the expanse we are 
How did that star 
Ever come to be 
The landscape that we both seem to see