Tag: love

Someone To Come Along

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I watch you from a million miles away
Coz I could not make you stay
And you’re retro, you’re down with the kids 
And I have no claim to say I’m his
As I hid it from my family and friends 
That I’ve found something that never ends 
It’s in the shadows and it’s in the light
And my dearest, it’s in you, alright
As I envisage our life together
I tell the time, you change the weather
And a storm is coming, I can hear it rumble
But it doesn’t stop our rough and tumble
Through the daisies in the field behind the gate
And you ask me to end the wait
So, I do
And I’m walking to you
Until I break into a run
Throw myself into the arms of the one
Who’s captured my soul
And, baby, you’re so rock and roll
As I hold space and frequency
Of the person you get to be 
When the smoke clears 
And the years
Don’t dim
The magnitude of him
If anything he just gets deeper
I remember when I realised you were a keeper 
In a Quidditch goal
Except the thing you’ve saved is my soul

The Blades Of Grass

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All the people who suffer
And the winter that loves her
I trudged through the snow 
I must go through this coz I cannot let go
And the winds howled, the dark cascaded 
Am I too young to be this jaded 
Create a space, the Lord said
Or is this just a voice I hear in my head
But don’t we all
In the year of the freefall
Into open air 
But there’s no ground to pull your hair
And tell you you’re not good enough
It’s pure unadulterated love
That catches your skin
When you trust in Him
And see 
That the blades of grass hold eternity
In their silky green skin
And how much more are you loved within
In the true home 
You are never alone 
You must come to know
Something holds you and will not let go

Erasing The Distinction

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Erasing the distinction between this and that
It’s not like I came down in the first batch 
Of Commerce students from 2010
But would I live those years again
When the trauma of the classroom
Was simply exhausting 
And I used to hide in the loo
The girls banged doors and put on make up too
And their voices were so loud 
So I learned to drown out the crowd 
With Biffy Clyro in my ears 
They scream of a puzzle littered with tears
But I found a boy with eyes like the ocean
He looked at me with genuine emotion
And I learned to feel the flame 
When I’d hear someone say his name 
And he was red as a ruby, a precious stone 
And I was not alone 
When he used to say; join the gang
And my phone, it rang
With joy instead of pain
Will I ever see him again
I wonder 
And the thunder 
Beckons like a sudden storm
You were nothing but warm
And good to me
Do you remember the time that we
Met each other at the gate 
And entered into another state
As I let you know I had your deets 
And yet you shared your sheets 
With anyone you’d like to choose 
And it was like a life I’d lose 
When I’d see you with lips to match
Burning in another girls thatch
I could feel the envy start
Then you’d tell me I was smart
Because you’d heard the rumour that got out
About the grade I did without
And we just dropped home Sam
You were in my car and I had no plan
To let you go
I still love you, I hope you know
As we brew our own beer
And no mountain is worth the fear
It takes to make it to your side 
It’s the kind of thing that abide 
Somewhere in my ocean deep
You are the love I love to keep
Safe and secure 
Hit me up, any time, I’m sure
You’re welcome here 
I hope you’re well and you’re still cool, my dear



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The Ground And The Sky

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To love you is to jump through hoops
And we are surrounded by suits 
Telling us what to do
But you always walked on your own, didn’t you
And I admire 
Your defiant, blazing fire 
And, the smoke, it plumes 
And fills all the rooms 
With your stardust
I seemed to have just brushed 
It off my shirt
The bathroom and the way it hurt
As I hide in bed 
Back to playing in the shed 
When we were ten years old 
Before the streets were paved with gold 
As I find 
Something time left behind 
I pick up the broach
As, subject to reproach, 
I stand still
And their diamond will
Can’t move me 
Now that I pulse like the sea
In a current deeper due 
And the hue
Of the evening sky
Reflects against my waning lie 
As I learn to be true 
And lean back into You
The one and only that ever is 
There are times I call it His 
Because the language that I’ve learned 
Is to speak of the shrub that burned 
For Moses in the cave 
Or St. Paul and the light that save 
All the Christians from his wrath
It’s a revelation that won’t turn back
From its origin, from its source
And all the remorse 
Washes like waves and the tide 
Pull the heart that keeps me alive
In this body and warm 
As the house is battered by the storm
That I resist
And exist 
As torrential rain
Would I go through it again
Just to see you smile
And all the while 
You endure 
And I pure 
Clash with the waters deep
In the secret that we keep
Enclosed and safe
Entering the holy cave

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Tell You How I Feel

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I wrote a story in the years of twenty two
I was the heroine and I was with you
As your drug of choice 
Never mind that my voice
Was stifled in your angry stare
I woke up to realise you weren’t there 
But with some other chick
I cursed under my breath and called you in the thick
Of it just to confirm 
That the way my heart burn
Was a solo affair
And my only prayer 
Was that you be content
Coz the way things went
Could be enough to dement
The both of us 
And broken trust
Lies like glass on the floor 
As I lie to the one I adore 
For the sake of propriety
Does he know that it ignites me 
When he spills words on a screen
What is the difference between the dream
And the real
Does he feel
Anything akin to love
I watch the dove
Take flight from my heart
And journey to your part
Of town
But I drown
In words and phrases 
And the city the pain razes
As I try to shut it down
Because I see a gown
On the horizon
And it’s all I can keep my eyes on
When everything is going to hell
Did I tell you that I wish you well
A one winged bird and I fly 
In the empty open sky
Full of love for what you are
I watch you from the vantage point of a star
So near but from afar
And dream of you in my car
Where I keep the music box
With cds that undid the locks 
On the both of us 
Just laughter on the bus 
In a place no one can reach
Oh, the vagaries of what they teach
Is right and just
You seem nonplussed 
As I leave it on the line 
I would like to call you mine
I falter, would that be okay
Babe, why didn’t you say?

With The Guy Next Door

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I’m in love with the guy next door 
I dunno why but I’ve always wanted more 
Than just the come what may
And I don’t care what people say
The light cannot be put out
And all that is is in doubt
As everything shatters and cascades 
But I’m with you in the spirit everglades 
As your soul speaks to me 
And reminds me that I am free
Of all that seeks to contain
As clear and pure as rain
That falls after a storm
And you were just so warm 
When you stood by my side 
And your peace is still alive 
As it speaks to me 
From the realms of eternity
As a red haired girl with curls 
Keeps you company while the world 
Just turns a deeper shade of blue 
I am not without you
Now that you seem to have been gone
For so very long 
But still here in the realm
That exists without any pain 

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Safe Space

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You could cut the sexual tension
Like butter and a knife 
I’m myself, but melt with you, alright
And your name is Stephen
And I’m on the edge of believing 
In everything that you say
Don’t worry, it’s okay
You’re not breaking my law
You just make my frozen heart thaw
As we recommence
Our sojourn in the present tense 
Examining what is before us
I couldn’t imagine there would be more trust
But there is
In the gravity that is his 
Do I trespass 
When I address that
With a smirk and you smile back
And the demons can’t attack
Our safe little space
And that look on your face 
In your room
While I relay the birds of doom
You all but hold my hand 
And the moment’s grand 
And secure 
Demure 
But pure 
And open to the sky
It’s not the truth that will die 
When we depart this realm
The ship with God at the helm
Captains both of us 
What is it that we discuss
When I explain 
You can’t have sky without a little rain

Always A Friend

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It was like someone had vomited Christmas 
All over Dean Swift
Did you know for me you were the greatest gift 
As you accompanied me in special care
We had the chats 
You were always there 
Like a big sister, nine years my senior
You gave me your sparkly shoes
And I threw them in the bin
I should’ve just let the love win
But everything was suspect
I made you a picture
A portrait you hung on your wall
I sat on the floor 
In your room down the hall
And you said I made you feel normal
You made me feel less formal 
And after a spate of the horrors
I asked you were we still friends 
You said “Always”
And no matter what the doctor says
I know there’s a reason I’m here 
And, love, I will always hold you dear
And I wonder where you are now 
I hope you’re good 
I got the sense you were lost in the wood
You said I had a broken wing
But, my God, that bird can sing
And you can make any forest look free
You were the definition of friend to me
As Barry looks in the window 
In the smoking room, I nod at him, though
And we vibe up a storm
I love how you make a room warm
With your subtle stare 
Can’t control me but I know you care 
In your finest hue
I’m so glad that I met you
Like a godsend in that place
It didn’t all go to waste
As you wave from through the glass 
I’m still here, if you need to ask
So, somewhere on the internet I throw you a smile
And hope your Bonny’s kept you company all this while 
And I guess what I mean is thanks for the love and acceptance 
You made hell feel like a lesson
That I just have to master
(Though it didn’t get us out any faster)
Here’s my drink, cheers to you
I hear the glass clink as you raise yours too
Just a message of love 
And knowing our friendship fit like a glove 
In our coloured ink
Just trust in love to let the heart sink
Into where it’s always been 
The waking was the best part of the dream

Buataisí Beaga

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The fire seems to catch me by the boots 
And throw me upside down 
I catch my breath
And then I drown 
In the ocean of what we are 
Cosmically, a star
Fluttering somewhere on the edge of what we know 
I hold on because letting go
Isn’t an option now 
I see you somehow 
Through the smoke and fog
I throw another log 
On the burning hearth
It keeps me warm when it gets dark 
And you share this strength with me
As we fight, wilfully 
Abandon all life thought to know
About twin flames in the snow 
Finally, to realise 
We both share the same skies

The Aura Of Death

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Does all of humanity live within the sphere 
Of a death close enough that it’s ever near
And we may get a hundred years or so 
Or we might not, you just never know 
And I walk within the fear
Just so it becomes clear 
That the immortal in the form
Is that which was never born 
And is out of reach
Of the end that they teach
Is the conclusion of life on earth
And it might hurt
To fall but get back up
I am holding you, love 
And there’s nowhere a cloud can’t go
It wouldn’t be fair if I didn’t share what I know 
Coz I was fourteen and I writhe 
The cumulation of being alive 
Came crashing down 
And I felt I would drown 
In the ocean of it all
When suddenly the brick wall
Just fell to the floor
And I adore 
What got back up
You could call it love 
The living breathing apparition 
Of what happens when fission 
Pulls itself back together 
And heals the wound 
The room
Faded from view 
But you 
Never did 
And it’s worth a couple quid 
Just to say
That I am okay 
Come what may
In the fray
Of the life we know
I held on then It let go

The Sunshine On The Street

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The sunshine on the street caught my eye 
And I am not afraid to die 
To the lie 
That has everyone following a string
He asks and I give him everything 
But it is no use 
I feel the pulse confuse
Us both with its throbbing might
I’m sorry but are you alright
And we both stare 
Into the space love left
Is it theft 
If your heart has stolen away 
To another pair of hands 
And we’re standing on holy sands 
As the water beats the shore
And I confess all that I adore 
To an empty blank page 
Do you think the sage 
Could mean me 
When He says Eternity

Benjamin’s Blues

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The mountain sure seemed high til I climbed it
They’d tell you why but I wouldn’t mind it
And I just kick out from the shore 
I couldn’t tell you which I loved more 
The going away or the coming back
Do you really know something til you’ve felt it’s lack
And I was wandering in a cavalcade 
When I just happened upon your shade 
And it let me in 
I was warm when I was with him
As we both pause at the same time 
And he questions my rhyme 
I say it’s funny and he laughs 
I let him in because he asks 
So genially and off the cuff
Five minutes in and I know love 
Has me by the lapel 
But I think it’s too soon to tell
Him what I have on sheets 
Under cover and the streets 
Reminded me of the time I was tripping 
I hold the frame but the picture’s slipping 
And the more I try to steady the ship
The more I can sense an eclipse 
Coming on 
Now the reference is gone 
And I’m trying to even keel 
But the way I feel 
Just tells me to be honest
But I wouldn’t count on it 
And Benjamin is a sure shade of blue
I let it go and I trusted you

The Sweetness Of Stephen

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The sweetness of Stephen 
He says my name 
And I know neither of us 
Will ever be the same 
As the softness just pours from you
Michelle calls you a dote
And I feel a pang of jealousy 
I’m afraid I must quote 
And you inflect your verbs 
People say things are just words
But the monumental silence echoes in your tone
And we are together, alone 
Sitting in two chairs facing each other
I feel I must have met my soul brother 
As we discuss the elemental freedom
The people and the ones who see them
And I wonder how many souls you have guided out
I feel you drop your self doubt
As we talk 
You laugh and I walk
To the sound of your music 
And you know I wouldn’t choose it
But it sure would be great
To be in a state 
Just so you could pull me out by my arm
And I thought Jesus was full of charm 
But He looks like you and I wonder why
Such a cool guy
Could be a shade of shy
When he talks to me 
I know you see
Into the beyond 
I wonder would a dumb blonde 
Tempt your eye 
And I show you my shade of sky 
As we just theorise 
I know that half of it is lies 
They have fed to the ones who eat
But it’s different when we meet

Youth And It’s Evasion

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I feel the age of youth slip away
You know the one when every day
Is the break of sunrise
And you’re inoculated from the lies
But the burden crushed the butterfly
Crouched in a corner and the fever die
Creeps in on me, I was fourteen 
And the scene 
Threatened to overwhelm 
The captain at the helm
Of this great ship I own
Now the game is thrown 
Fast forward to twenty three
And everything has deserted to me
In search of a grip on the ledge
But there’s just a neighbour looking over the hedge
Wondering if I’ll let go
The sweat is pumping and you know
There’s only so long I can hang on 
My fingers fail and doing wrong
Falls into the dark
I know I said it don’t leave a mark
But it do
I struggle to get over you
Now ten years later, I’m a thirties blue
And I must give time it’s due
It soothes the welts with healing balm
Replaces death with unearthly calm
That seems to settle in my bones
You are never alone 
And iPhones
Only serve to annunciate
A deeper connection in another state
We have yet to learn
I trust in fate and it burn

Eternal Soulmate

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Did I leave Daz behind
Because he’s still on my mind
And it’s so 2003
To think he’s still into me
Blink-182 poster behind his head
As he’s sitting on the bed
With that smile that begets the name
The world rocked and I was not the same
In our bond
And I abscond
But I take something of his air
With me as a prayer
I say into the sky
Please let him love the way I lie
And he looks at me, I look back
Does he know I’m having a heart attack
When he pulls a funny face
And his love gives me a place
To reside
Do I need to hide
The heartbeat
That simply fell at his feet
As we walk out of the bar
Or when I picked him up in my car
Or when he ran from me
I chased him down so he might see
I mean what I say when I say Eternity

The Oil Of Chrism

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How do I write the syllables of my past
How do you make a good thing last
And she screams into the wind
The teacher tells us we have sinned
Though she has battered and bruised my kin
In the name of what to do, amen
And is it just a victim of the times
Do people beat the track that rhymes
And what’s stopping me from being brutal
So I give him first refusal
On a piece of road fronted land
Just one condition: he must take my hand
And be wed
Though the bed
Is big enough for us both
And he just takes off his coat
And asks can he stay
I say; no way!
But I’d like to love you anyway
What do you say? 
He pauses to contemplate
Must I make him wait
I deliberate
It’s not like that
“But it is”
I just wanna be his
Now he has got another soul
And I’m told that their waves roll
And crash upon the shore
Have you ever wanted more
No, he defies
But I see the lies
Catch in his eyes
As he protests the point 
Would you anoint
Our child with the oil of Chrism
I try to move on but no one else is him
And though the chemistry and the sparks fly
What’s born of bodies must admit to die
In their deepest, darkest, most honest moment
It’ll leave you too, won’t it? 
He stares at the floor then back at me
It’s you and I eternity
In some twin flame fusion
And the density is bruising
When it keeps us apart
Did I ever tell you, you have my heart

The Feathered Oasis

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The feathered oasis of calm in my mind
When I think of the trouble I’ve left behind
Like a minute fibre in the distance
Let’s take a minute to remember resistance
As it barricades the doors and fortifies the walls 
Falls deaf to years of desperate calls 
To just be the way I am
And chasing Sam
Like a dream in the sky
Is nothing to the blue of his eye
When he smiles at me
Do I get to call free
The newfangled word
Or will I forever remain unheard

Caves And Close Shaves

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I’m burning down the house I made in my mind
Leave that old cave behind
The one I used to spit and moan
And mainly just feel all alone
Coz they inoculate shame
And call you by your first name
When they want you to back down
Or go ahead and drown
In the ocean that submerge
Don’t you know it’s just a word
They used to categorise 
You so that you’re something in their eyes
And maybe they steal
But they can’t take what is real
No matter how hard they try
And I know that we all die
But I can’t stay under this roof
Where’s your evidence, where’s your proof
That I was ever anything other
Than a cloud that would smother
You with a hot heat
Thick and heavy as defeat

Top Of The Rock

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Am I gonna die if I feel this feeling
Coz I hear a voice screaming in my head
And one day I’m scared I’m gonna wake up dead
Travelling through a vortex through open space 
Why do I keep seeing his face 
And that window in my apartment on floor five
How the hell am I still alive
When all around me has withered 
And the demons veritably slithered 
Down the garden path on the way to Eden
When Eve steps on their heads is it just that she doesn’t see them
And where is Adam in all of this
Is he just lost in his first kiss
With the bride of his dreams 
Is nothing as it may seem
Coz is God the overlord
Or is he simply the spoken Word
That turns Spirit into flesh
Made the sexes and all the rest
All the animals and all the birds
All the potential in the unheard 
And in the night do you hear the call
It was a freefall 
That year I committed myself to you
It’s 2012 and I’m walking through
The doors of my mind back to you then
In all of this did I lose a friend 
Somewhere in the aftermath
And I’m not scared of wrath
By some deity
Telling me that it hates me 
In the world of the hologram 
If there is a plan 
It must be Love
Coz without It what is the above
But a sanctity we fear
I’m running with wolves and near
To the free wind
To love versus to have sinned 
Coz you’re about as bad as they get
But I can bring myself to regret 
Our cataclysm 
Is it time to heal the Great Schism

The Long Forgiveness

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I don’t want to let go of the feeling
Because it means I must let go of you
And I don’t want to
They all teased us about each other
But sometimes you were like the brother
I never had
And it makes me sad
To think that I
Must wait until I die 
To see your visage again
I should’ve told you I could talk with pen
And write a sonnet for you
Is moving on the same as pulling through
Coz he threw those words at me
But he simply doesn’t see
That life takes care of life
And somebody’s wife
Or somebody’s son
Is warm with the waves that come from the sun
Pure photon light
Balancing between here and alright
And must I escape
A hero in a red cape
Comes to save the day
But he can’t bring back what’s gone away
And what would you say
About things like that
Love is not something that you lack
But something that pours through
Right now I’m starring in a role and you
Have dissipated 
Have I ever hated 
Life so much
To vanish what was warm to the touch
And sincere and honest
They talk about Heaven but I wouldn’t count on it
To save the day
We are born to go away
And must make hay
In the sun we know
Tell me what to do, a stór, the show
Must go on
But how do I love with you gone
How do I let a man into my heart
When it’s been broken and the part
I crave the most
Is with the Father, Son and Holy Ghost

Powerlessness

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Powerlessness
You’re gone, you’re gone
And I didn’t even get to say so long
With your spiky hair
And the way you have of always being there
Are you Spirit now, do you wander through walls
Touching hearts, leave us all enthralled 
With your vagabond
And I abscond 
To elope 
Coz it’s at least a way that I can cope
With the gaping hole, the void, the void 
You were never just one of the boys
And no one has the answer
Life is the movement and you’re just the dancer
On the stage of life
I wonder if I would’ve been your wife
In the years that passed
I thought about it but I never asked 
You to my grad
Now I sit alone and I feel bad
For what we never got to be
And she
Crushes me with a glance
Another spiral, another lance
On the boil of truth
Oh, what is youth
But the sudden celebration and the demise
But it disappears when I look in your eyes
And all I can see is the expanse
I watched you and Linda dance
And felt a pang of jealousy 
Or something akin to it because we
Have a moment by the bar
And that star
Still shines for you
I survive because you want me to

Issues

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The pain reverberates around the inner wall of my sanctum
All is lost and I never thanked him
For who he was to me
They say that death is to be set free
But chains encircle and the vice, it grips
Some people escape by going on head trips
I sit in the suffer 
Coz I know you loved her
In your short time here
Your golden hair and fiery heart, my dear
Will never go to waste 
I stay chaste
And good and clean
But I only meet you in a dream
Til he walks on the scene 
And everything I love is in full colour 
The Now is here and the past is duller
But the car crash of us mimics the cry
Of the moment I learned that you die
Grasping, clawing, trying to hold on
But you are already gone
And memory
Seems to be 
The only thing you have left me 
As the vultures circle looking for some chew 
While I’m on the grass just talking to you
And he was a symbol of salvation, I held him tight
But he’s emptiness in the night
Always a little too far away
With a little too much to say
About me and you, he and I
And I’m not gonna lie
I tried to make that plaster fit
He just thinks I am a little bitch
Affection and playful but it’s not enough
I’m looking for Eternal Love
To bridge the gap
Because Death leaves behind no map
And the scrap of what I can remember 
Of the years of knowing you
Is scrawled in a diary I put pen to
But it doesn’t bring you back, I chew the cap
What if I have another relapse
And end up in the psych ward again
Because reality is not my friend
So I take refuge in fables
Keep up if you’re able
It’s a litany
Of all the liars I never got to be 
And somewhere in the sunshine I see you again
You set the gold standard of men
And you were there that year in 2007
In the blue camp and I, eleven,
In love with with your name
Life will never, ever be the same
With you gone, now there’s no one to squeeze my hand 
And smile like everything is grand 
And fun and neat
Next door neighbours, next time we meet
Will be an eon hence
My Love is never in the past tense

Fear To The Touch

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You could be dead and I wouldn’t know
Does the pain start to show
As I mourn your form
So cold where it used to be warm
And I remember kissing the forehead
Of my Grandad in the coffin
It was like ice
And the shock 
Made my soul splice
Into multiple parts
How do you move with a broken heart
And the beat tries to keep you steady
But it stutters and I wasn’t ready
To commit my life to a mortal thing
Coz this bird with broken wing
Can’t fly
And you could die 
And I would shatter like a pane of glass
But somehow in the mists something last
And keeps me walking to your door 
Leaving notes for someone I adore
So he might know 
That, though it doesn’t show
I hold him close to my breast
Calamity and the rest
Can’t shake the ground I know
I watched you change and grow 
From a boy to a man
Through facebook coz I can
And it may track my every move
But I’ve nothing left to prove
Except to leave my open hands
There for the slipping sands
That are the years of us
I shake but I trust

The Light In His Eyes

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I’m emo cool
Well I was in school
Though I was in the closet
Coz it wasn’t the norm was it
Til I met that guy
And, man, I could fly
With the joy of knowing such a soul
It will stay with me as I grow old
And the body will wither and die
But it can never take the blue of his eye
That catches the light from mine
In ‘00’s parlance, he was fine
Though he doesn’t know it
And, man, I throw it 
Like a wine or match
And my roof of thatch
Is burning up a storm
And we could keep each other warm
Not in a sex kind of way
But in the profundity that’s in what he say
And I count lucky stars
That prison bars 
Buckled and fell
And I wish him well
With the girl that he knows
But with me it’s anything goes 
And this love will last a life
Metaphorical man and wife
Even if we never get to be
The ocean is just the sea
By another name and form
I met you and I was born

The First Kiss

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The love pulses in my veins
And I can’t get enough of refrains
Even as it causes me pain
I do it again and again and again
I love too much to be let go
I love you and I hope you know
Coz it burns like a holy fire
It hurts but it takes me higher
Could this be the Spirit nothing can contain
Like clouds fail to hold the rain
When they are too full and heavy
And I was born ready
Ready for this
Could forever be my first kiss

Paddy’s Eyes

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Paddy’s eyes were like stone opals 
And I wonder how he is
Did he get his woman
Did he get his wish
Coz for a while he was mine
And I can see the sparkles shine 
As they encase his face 
Not one hair was out of place 
And he had that devilish grin
And a personality that would win
You over with a smile 
I keep it on file
But the memories fade
And the bodies age 
Do you still have facial hair
And a presence that is just there
And we crossed paths in Spiral Tree
I caught you stare at me
As I wait by the bar
Oh, if I could only know what you are 
Coz you escape definition
And the early edition
Of the Longford Leader
(If you took time to read her)
Announces our notice true
What would my life look like with you
By my side, coz you’re in my heart
I watch the comet turn an arc
And come back to flame
Is it okay I used your name?

So Close It’s Hot

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What is God if not a man
And I can’t seem to understand
The love I feel 
When the mountain kneel
At the foot of you
I want you too
It’s not one sided at all
I’m standing behind the waterfall
As it shields the shimmer
And I think we’re onto a winner
As you laugh and mess my hair 
I remember coz I was there
And I was so much younger then
But so we’re you and again
I play the tune that resonates
Could we call the Ball our dates 
As the Vengaboys play
And Liosa is not okay
So I exit the crowd with her
And I was loving what we were
As you followed us out
And all of my self doubt
Falls at the sight of your grasp
On all that is made to last

Still The Same

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What is it to love men
It’s over and then it plays again
With a different pair of eyes 
It’s God in a holy disguise
And it started 2.0
In 2010 and don’t you know
I gave it my all
He bumped into me in the hall
And said “Sorry Laura” and stared
And I held the moment and cared
About a life with you
You run away but I want to
Follow you down the street
It was fate that made us meet
And I’m in high heels 
And he kneels 
With a ring to propose 
And be the one that my love chose 
He looks into me 
And I wonder what you see
Coz the moment holds
And I’ve been walking in fields of gold
Since 2005
But we’re alive
In a way I can’t explain
And I hate to try to stop the rain
Coz you know it makes us green
I wonder what we could’ve been 
If only I’d let the clasp
Break the moment that you ask
At my car door 
I couldn’t want you more 
Than I do now 
We’re still the same, somehow

Love The Sun

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The diary of me
Is something you’ll never see
Cos you scribbled on the page
And hit me with your rage
Fed me slowly piece by piece
To the war I cannot make cease
And she strides in with her tide
Tells me I’m alive
And what she would do to make it more so
But I just want her to let it go
Coz it’s brutality 
Though she never see
Exactly what she does to me 
In the name of love
Or at least the kind she’s thinking of 
Obedient to a fault
And I got locked inside the vault
With only T for company
And they expect me to abandon at a flaw
The heat that made the ice thaw
In the winter of my life
I love the sun, I hope that’s alright

A Sea That Is Whole

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There’s a heavy weight that hangs between us
Like the bow of a ship about to turn
And we’re living in a world
That burn and burn and burn
As we’re watching with our candlelight
Hoping everything will be alright 
But the torrent is air
And we don’t have a prayer
Against these heavy winds
Let him throw the first stone
He who has not sinned
Coz in this Paradise
It’s not enough to merely be nice
You have to be true
That’s why I’m talking to all of you
And singing my soul
The dream to be
A sea that is whole

Rattlesnake

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There is a rattlesnake at my door
It whispers eclipse and a little bit more 
As I run for my life
But the rope is of being a wife
And I could have that scene I wanted to
Today's the first time I thought about you
In that way
And I say
It always comes with some sort of dread
But somehow I'm not thinking of your bed
Just your sullen eyes
And the way they barely disguise 
The heart within
Could I touch your sin
And heal you of your pain
If I make the water fall like the softest rain
Come to touch your skin
You don't remind me of him
Yet something's the same 
And your name 
Plays on repeat
I'm still on my feet
When I'm talking to you
Not knocked to the side like the thread's pulling through
To stitch a whole scene
It's just this moment and it's not a dream 
To say you're a really nice dude 
And you kinda exude
A warmth and a heart
And I would love to be a part
Of your friendship zone
I just want you to know you're not alone

Her Due Is Worth

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How do I pay her her due
Coz she was there when I needed you
In the young years of being misunderstood
She was like an atlas in this wood
Like a compass, like a dial
The queen of making someone smile
And hard times hit her and I tried to defend
But what can you say to your best friend
When you see the cascade at the mouth
Of the ocean you have come to doubt
In your seafaring ways
They were the worst of days
But they were also the best
Because we were like none of the rest
In our individual stance
And I just wanna dance
And know that she does too
I wish she knew how I felt about you 
Coz I feel sure she'd take action
And I speak your name like an infraction
Coz you're tied to another extreme
And wanting you would realise every dream 
I've ever had 
And I know I made you mad 
With my defiant stare
But I am there 
Or should I say here
The earth quakes when you are near
But she taught me of the eternal rock 
The one that's steady when you are not 
And I know we're just a ship that's sailed
But something within us has never failed
To meet the tide at it's best
I love her, and I forget the rest

Famous Someday

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I'll be famous someday
The girl whispered to the screen
As she watched the mountains
Live their dream 
And she caught every droplet
That fell from the sky as rain
Chalked it up to the cross
When she felt the pain
Of living the life she knows on the ground
You hit me hard and I didn't make a sound
And I just fell like a tree in the forest
Does all of the silence mean that you're honest
And she wrote me a letter
And I know I can do better
Than to live in the suffer
Finally admit that I do love her
In spite of the wolves that came to my door
When she blamed the earth on what I adore
Told me I was perfect, then took a swipe
I walked the floor in the dead of night
And it just awoke 
We haven't spoke
In so many years
And you are the queen of tears 
That set the brigade to run
And pull the thread that makes the fabric undone
And I saw you see me that time that I cried
And I put an embargo on emotions that died
When the glass was cracked
It's like the moment you can't go back 
And forgiveness rules my soul 
But you were the one who fractured the bowl
And I shatter with all the splintered pieces
But there is a moment when the night ceases
And the sun breaks through
And it tells me what I'm supposed to do
In the summer of life
"You will be his wife
In some way, shape or form 
You will repair skies that are torn
And find your true calling here
There is something watching over you, dear"
And I grasp and I cling
But this thing is like a sling
And holds me where it hurts
So that I do not make it worse 
"Let the pain go
Let the rain show
And when you're done
Then, maybe, you'll know"

The Secret Storm

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"I've been keeping the secret storm
In a place where my heart is warm 
And I spilled the story on your page
And you are afraid of female rage
As I shout down the line
Why do I have to say this a thousand times
"I just want you to understand 
Why won't you just be my man"
But you check out and run
Close the door like the whole thing is done
Drop the phone like it's a hot potato
And I still remember what you said about Tayto
And it wasn't funny but I laughed
And I was ready to do what you asked
And it scared me that all I valued fell
When you asked me if I was well
I just want to live up to your measure
You are something that I treasure
And the memory is enough to keep the wheel going
But is it a cog, there's no way of knowing
Coz the clock is running down 
Only so much time in life on the ground
As we try to make the most of what we're given 
And you look at me like you're the unforgiven 
But I love you more than I can contain
You are pure and undecided as rain
That just pours from the sky
You leaned into my shoulder and I can't tell you why
I let you rest there
Then turn around like I don't care
Except to say I was scared as hell
And I still am though I wish you well
And you've made a whole world away from me 
And I should be glad that you are free
But I just sit in bitter repose
And wonder why I chose
To let you slip through the cracks
The long and the short of it is I want you back

Coz You Loved Taylor Swift

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You said hello
Then okay bye
And there's something about your soul 
That makes me want to cry
Coz you're perfect, you're sincere
But you falter the web when I come near
And you're soft to the touch
And you're easy, then strong
And you look at me like I
Could do no wrong
But I snuck a peak
Into the deepest part of you
And I let you in 
Coz you wanted me to
And all of the fabrications can't make this a lie
That we both wake up when the life tries to die
On us in this subterfuge
Do you take refuge
In her sudden storm
Does she do more than keep the bed warm 
And I ain't jealous, I'm just missing out
And you kind of hit the nail on the head of my doubt
When you said "tell your folks"
This couldn't be one of your jokes
That you just play on me
You're withering and it takes time to see
That the cavalcade is just there to test
And I am not bigger and brighter than the rest
I'm just the puzzle piece to your thaw
And you run the scene like you're an outlaw
As we both find solace in what can't be contained
A sky full of clouds and then it rained

Composition

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Staying up all night writing rhymes
Just get a damn job
But I’ve got inspired
And I would only rob
Future generations of all their freedom
I know this is good but will anyone see them
To be Amadeus out on the line
I’ve got to get it down like the thousandth time
As it rattles in my head like an old guitar
I scribble my life down at the bar
As the summer is storming and the winter is cold
And I’ve got global warming to face as I grow old 
And we’re all just sheets of paper from the end
But we’ve got our lives left to pretend
That we’re not these vessels and we can’t contain 
An ocean’s worth of indefatigable pain
As I see in you what I feel in me
We’ve both got our roots in Eternity

A Race I Can’t Pursue

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Trying to keep up to a race I can’t pursue 
It’s like trying to win the attention of you
And you just turn away, a shoulder to glance
And I am there begging for another chance
To be who I am in your company
But you know we’re just friends, it’s not eternity
And I promised you silver and I promised you gold
Promised together in the growing old
But now it’s as though a chasm has opened
Do you hear me at all or am I just hoping
As I see you though the gaps in my hands
Fingers clasped over eyes that understand 
The motion of trees
That we wouldn’t work, would you believe
In all that turns out to be true
If you rely on the weather, it just changes you
And I can’t cut the grass on the field that you own
Can’t win me over once the game is thrown
Into the midnight and out with the day
I’m kind of conflicted about us, okay?

Everest

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Her pain is a mountain
That I can’t scale 
Like many on Everest
I’m born to fail
But I keep coming back
To her heavenly light
Whispers in the morning
You’ll be alright
And we grow up
Dust ourselves off
But we’ve still got 
That persistent cough
That hints at something
Underneath
She lowers a blow
Knocks me off my feet
And I know 
She don’t mean it
But did I 
Dream it
That we once were something true
Until I disappointed you
By being myself 
In a garden of verdant wealth
All to blossom and free
Sorry but, babe, you’re gnawing at me

Midwifery

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I’ve done the math, like, a thousand times 
And it told me I can’t find it in any of my rhymes 
But it’s still pushes me to let the words go
Some kind of childbirth I’ll never know 
As we go into the throws of labour
Could you do me a favor 
And stop throwing empty words
Against the wall of already been heard
And it’s a tired tale
Told by those who are up for sale 
But I’m not one to barter a trade
Throwing light in the shade 
That protects your skin
Do you think I should let him in?

The Golden Hearse

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The axe chopped down the tree
And, the wood, it was me
As I fell from on high
Hard, for some guy
And he brushes me off
But I sense a depth
I get the feeling
He regrets
Letting us go
But, then again, what do I know
And I used to blaze a trail
Til I found his and without fail
I used to follow, breadcrumb sweet
The pebbles led me to where we meet
But there is no way back
And I didn’t mean to attack
I was just vociferously 
Defending the best of me
As you tried to tear me down
But you didn’t see the crown
On the king
The bird can fly with a broken wing
But it’s stuttered and weak
You kind of leave me speechless and meek
As you gently assume the worst
The best dress to the golden hearse

My Longing For Dublin

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Is my longing for Dublin just coz you’re in it
I’m on the decks and it’s the way that you spin it
And there are buildings scraping the sky
And a civilization threatening to die 
And I walked the yards into the green
I was ashamed of what I had been 
In midnights and the dawn
I searched for something but it was gone
A pyramid scheme 
Til the suffering woke the dream
Up from where it had been sleeping
Now it’s just the promise I’m keeping 
As I pray to a God without belief
And the moment of relief
When all and sundry falls away
Some have called it the break of day
But it’s the dark
The dead of night in the park
Just staring at walls
Hoping for a free for all
But I got a cell and a bed to lay
Could I have had it any other way?

Epiphany

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I don’t know if it’s the meds or the enlightenment 
But I’m feeling detached
And it’s the kinda road there’s no way back
And I’m just standing in the queue
And the one I’m waiting for is you
And he’s singing his soul and I wish he was mine
Why do I do this all of the time 
Coz it’s impossible, he’s on the stage
And the girls are screaming like he’s all the rage 
And his hair is long and his locks are pretty
And I would love to rule this city
But he’s a triad long past going
I remember UCD when it was snowing
And the boy I loved back then
The fittest male on repeat again
As my heart tells me to be who I am
Like Kilglass chasing Sam 
For the thousandth time
I make my own pain rhyme
And it is longing and it is desire 
He sets my soul on fire 
With his softly so
There are deserts that I would go
Just to meet him at the gate
I dunno why I wait
For the perfect scene 
Like it could be in a dream
Like I made of you
But the urge is pulling the needle through 
And it’s sewing a seam
Threading a quilt with what’s spilt, it seems 
And the love’s in the wanting
But there’s something in me that’s haunting 
Every step I take 
It’s what happens when the demon wake

One Kiss Love

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He’s not up for one kiss love
And I am ocean but there’s a dove
Come to bring news of nourishment 
It’s not many who need encouragement 
To sail that way across the sea
When they find dry land they’ll forget about me
But something in his smiles’s forever
Not changeable as the weather
And he may not be right for me
But right now is all I see
And he’s got emotions that shiver me timbers
He could spin the whole world on the tips of his fingers 
And I hope he remembers our moment so still
And the light catch his eyes, oh I always will
And hope and pray your life has been good
It’s like living in forests, surrounded I stood
But he gave me ways to breathe afresh
And find solemn ways out of this mess
As we crush a penny into a shape
It’s red that we find in our softest escape 

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Her Own Shore

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She’s low in her boots
I can feel the roots
Intertwine with mine
As we both proclaim we’re fine
And try to be what we were
I used to be empty without her
And crave to find her company
Now I just let her be
As she navigates her own shore
Thinking we don’t love each other anymore 
But she’ll always have a place inside my heart
Even though we may be apart
Or unable to communicate in a way that’s true
You’re a mountain to me, darling, do you
Know that, my dear
I wipe the glass so it’s crystal clear
And we drive all over town 
Do you still hear the sound
Of the steady chasm call
I just want you to know, that’s all
That we
Forever be
Eternal and true
I was looking for the One
All the while I had you
And appreciate
When I was in that state
To be guided, steady hand
As you play a rock band
I’m not really into
But it’s important to you
So I listen
Teardrops glisten
As he riffs a guitar
Oh, in the wonder of what you are
I don’t know
The places you go
When you’re tired and alone
I call but you don’t answer the phone
Would you understand
If I said I had planned 
A season or two
Where the autumn leaves fly just for you
As the colours change
Atoms and molecules rearrange
Like they will for us too
A plurality of weaving things through
Don’t go
There’s so much I haven’t said, you know
And there are ages
To pay testament to
The depth that I
Witness in you
You’re a star
And by the bar
You raise it high
I exclaim; I’m not afraid to die
As I shake in my soul
You are the weather that cannot be told 
And a storm
Are a galaxy swirl
You have to be the scene of the girl
As she rides off alone unto the horizon
I would say I called it but it’s still surprising
Would you stay
If I asked you just for me, okay?
Coz it’s midnight without your dawn
And I can’t abide the thought of you gone
Don’t worry
I’m not in a hurry
To go picking up leaves
And everyone just believes 
In the story they’re told
I will be brave, I will be bold
And ask
You to drop the mask
And just share
In the depths of the ocean know that I care 
And will open the door
If you still want me, I implore
Don’t let the time go by
The ways and means, the way I cry
Is it just an incomplete 
Coz I’m always begging at your feet
For you to change the tune
The earth quakes when you’re in the room
And I didn’t forget
I just thought that room was to let
In the forest where I ran
And you found something I don’t know if I can
In the cycle role
What is the meaning of the soul
Coz you exclaim
Could you just call me by my name
And not let go
Every breath that I breathe is for you, you know
And the wind howls and knocks on the shutters
I catch every word she barely utters
Could peace come to last
In a gentle warmth, not a furnace blast
As everything precarious, tips on the scale
I know that I’m bought but it’s not for sale
To anyone else
And mental health
Is a slogan or two
Do you see the needle as it’s pulling through
Or just the tapestry sewn
Do you know how we have grown
To be side by side 
I thank the Lord you are alive
And shining from skies 
In the place where we’re free there are no goodbyes
Or futile tries
I’ll see you soon to look in your eyes
And know
That it’s mutual, this feeling we show
In the years and time
In for a nickel, a penny, a dime
In all the ages
And the ripped pages
Of the story we write
I dust myself off, say I’ll be alright
As the leaves blow
I’ll be up to the challenge, you know

The Way We Burn

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The flame is burning me red
I’m ashes in the skins I’ve shed 
As I grow out of another domain
Does everybody live with this much pain
Or am I marching to my own beat
They say if you can’t stand the heat
You should get out of the fire
But it just takes me higher 
As I let go of all that’s frayed 
I kinda wished that I had stayed
To feel the feel of you move in me
You kinda set me free
With a single gaze
Did you know that I save
People with my soul
And I’ll love you til I grow old
And die a death
In the land of no regret
That builds a pyre
Dark black smoke as though a tyre
Was set to plume
Suddenly you’re in the room
And I feel all the fear depart
As you simply command my heart
To flutter and still
Some things change but this never will

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Remember Me, Love

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Remember me, love
As I lie in wait
I sit on the bed
And think of a date 
I once had with you
I was one of the few
To walk in that open door
Would you like to see the shore
That laps the waves
And all the lost boys it saves
And Barry made a joke of me
But he was hella cute
Even if he did play the flute
And I’m looking at Hozier
On a magazine
Thinking he might just be the dream
Some Andrew Byrne with height
I bet we’d never fight
Only do things 
He dare not speak
Lest I see where he’s weak
And now I have the freedom
To be encased
Do you remember 
The first time our hearts raced
As we sat side by side
Just bristling with the feeling
Of being alive
And you zing with magic
Some electric touch
And I know I’m someone 
You’d like to rush
Into something unseen
I’m just part of the dream
On your screen
No solipsis, just the Queen
To put a crown on your head
And there are mornings
We could wake up dead
But, so far, we’re good
No Snow White in the wood
Just a single dancing elf
That asks you to just be yourself
When you move with me
It’s priceless, baby, but its free

The Age Of Him

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Cruising at 35,000 feet
I’m on the ground, I can’t stand the heat
As it’s burning through my clothes and skin
The rage, the page, the age of him
As he’s darkly circumspect
And I’m the weakness you know best
As you ruminate your heel
I know the ways you cannot deal
In singing songs and infidelities 
In formation like a flock of geese
And I’m weary at the knees
Trying my best to please
But you just turn your head
No empty space in your bed
But someone else instead
I think the trauma’s going to my head
As you ashen faced tell me the truth
I drop the pillars of our youth
And they fall asunder
Did you know death had your number
When he rang your phone
Now I am all alone
And won’t come to your door
Because I couldn’t want you more
But you left me like a sleep
Like I’m a problem you can’t keep
Close to your chest 
Does your lover know you best
And is it her or me
I don’t know, I’ve got to see

The Age of the Airbender

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Do you see yourself in my refractions
And are these words more than transactions
Coz I can’t spell out what we seem to be
And it’s been years that you’ve blamed me
For something that is not my fault
Like pulling tracks from the vault 
Like you’re a songstress with a pen
And I land at your door once again
With a bouquet of apologies
If you want I’ll ask from my knees
Coz you are age old and awesome
You’re a kaleidoscope 
And it’s a slippery slope
Back into what we always were
It’s always my name next to her
And it’s not all roses in this flower bed
But I’m still a place you can rest your head
And lean on if you need strength
And I return the books you rent
Coz you loaned them to me
And you are my degree set free
In moderation, that is key
As we peer through our history
The faint light we used to be
Is now a river running free
Cause there are oceans calling us
And you’re a love that I trust
To always come back around
You be silence in the sound

See Me Through

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Poetry prompt - see me through
The window is anything but you
As we stare across the plain
And I won’t play this again
Like a solo on a guitar
I’m not gonna know what you are
By staring at a screen 
It’s just pulling me deeper into the dream
That ineffable maya
And God loves a trya’ 
But I can’t keep banging my head against a wall 
When you just share it all
With friends 
And this love never ends 
Like the story and the flight 
That we take to be alright

L.A. Anymore

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I don’t go to L.A. anymore
Not since the person locked the door
And I begged outside the window
I never did catch sight of him though
And I can be cutting in my remarks
And we were nothing if not all sparks
But I had to leave my coat on the grass
To climb up to the height of what you ask
As you kneel to kiss me slowly
And I could’ve sworn you didn’t know me
Except the moment I looked away
And you bow your head, I don’t know what to say
Except that maybe if I profess
And throw away my little black dress
That maybe you might relent
You’re an angel, heaven sent
But I have my own pair of wings
They shelter me whatever the weather brings
And I feel I have to hold back from you
Coz I don’t know what to do
And maybe is it okay
If I touch you that way
Run my hands down your arms
The length of you between my palms
And you are tall to be sure
And my love is deep and pure
Or so I’ve been told
Is it alright if I put your name in bold
While I write it next to mine
I think about it all the time
That maybe you might meet me by the shore
Or the rivers I adore
Not always hanging out in the city
See an equal not self pity
And fly out from the X 
The wilderness what’s coming next