Tag: love

The Stunning In The Stars

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There’s stunning in the stars
And they wish away all of my prison bars
As they shine from on high
And whisper that I’m not gonna die
Not from treason, not from rain
Not from people I’ll never see again
As the bird alights on my shoulder
I roll away the boulder 
At the mouth of the tomb
And find my Lord like I found the womb
Of all existence
And the resistance
Is subterfuge 
In the deluge
Of somehow in the Sunday
Would the Son of Man love me anyway
In spite of all I have not done
And the promise of being young 
Was not enough to stem the tide
Of longing to abide
In a deeper state of being 
And the seeing 
Is no longer enough
I have to become the love 
Instead of picking fights 
With people when they’re being shites
And talking me down to sin
Telling me that though I walk with Him
I am lost in the sea
And I get a knee
Into the chest
It knows how to wind me best
With the loss of love
Why do you do this when above
Is the standard we bear
I watched the Universe tear

The Weight Of Pain

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The weight of pain tries to find me again
And it would search anywhere it could 
Find me in that wood
Because the great and the good
Have no concern
For the way the people burn
Under the might of empire
And the fire 
Is not something I can put out
Under this self doubt 
As I avoid
Catching the eyes of the boys
As they try to catch mine
But I will not do hard time 
Trying to be someone’s version of love
When I’ve been always been obsessed with above
And I can feel the tendrils curl 
Around the frame of the girl
So I abandon her to the ether 
I will not be woman either 
I am not somewhere in between
I am awake to the dream 
Where we live in duality 
And our reality
Is conditioned by the thoughts we entertain
And the rain
Only falls on fields that are green 
Eyes only open once you’ve seen

Rain Dance

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There where I was I stood defenceless
Out in the open plain
And she brought the rain dance again and again
And it’s not the men
It’s the love I bear
For those who live to tear
The fabric of what we are 
For the sake of a star
That will never rise
In our constellation
I’m suddenly at Longford train station
Waiting for someone to arrive
And I realise you are alive
As you were 
And you’re not with her
You’re standing alone
Looking at your phone
And I’m sitting in my car
Just staring at the place where you are
But I look away
Because I cannot say
What I will buy
If I could only try
With the money I have
And the feeling bad 
Was a season
Without reason
I abridge
At least God let you live
For all these years
And stemmed my tears
In the flow
I didn’t realise you loved me, you know

The Salvation In Plurality

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I can feel the brimming thunder
In the sky we’re living under
And the people I railed against
Were the ones who were heaven sent
And just wanted to aid and abet
Me in the mission to forget
All that had come to weigh me down
So I walked around the town
Looking at signs
I was trying to diamond mine
Searching for a holy gem
And I did it once, twice, again
And somehow the men
Never hurt me 
The danger seemed to just skirt me
By degrees
Til I fell to my knees
And begged the wonder out thieves
Help to steal away all that I believe
And they were only too happy to comply
And I thought I would die 
Under the weight of their heavy handed slap
I crumpled up the map
And took a picture in the garden of Dean Swift
So looking back would be a gift
But I could only see clarity
Not the mental illness they made of me
Searching for some hidden pain
Well I looked again and again
But I could never find
Evidence that I was out of my mind
For seeing love in every shape and form
And loving bodies while they’re warm
And vital and young and free
Shit, is that guy staring at me
But anyway I’m letting sleeping dogs lie
Let go of the merely getting by
On what I think I know 
My sisters on the branch they bow 
In the aching powder they blow 
Into my face like I’m in the know 
And I’m annexed into a space
Where I only see your face 
Smiling at me 
I was out the door when they set me free

The Wars From Afar

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I was a teen when the war in Iraq broke out
And there was nothing I could do to stem the doubt
That no one should be invading a land
That they simply do not understand
And dictators come in many shapes and sizes
Some of them would be surprises
Because what’s viewed as a just war
Only depends on what you’re looking for 
And the bullets will be forever silent
If we abdicate the violent
And you could say I’m a pacifist
And we simply should not exist 
Because we put stability in danger
When we say that the manger
Should not starve a baby boy
And a gun is not a toy
And I’ve never been burdened by strife
I just rebel when he wants a wife
To make a house and home
But I love being on my own
Free to admire
Now I’m watching buildings on fire
And children screaming for their parents 
Wondering where the hell they went 
Not knowing, and maybe by grace
They get to see their faces
Again
And you can blame men
But it is the ego
It shoots what it doesn’t see though
And I am no liberator 
The queen of whatever and see you later 
But I can’t be superfluous about this 
It is not stuck in a kiss
It is in a scene that I could change 
If I just rearrange 
The way I see things play
Because it will never be okay
To raid a village and plunder and thieve
And feed the enemy things they might believe 
So that you can further your agenda
And you have some friends that will defend ya
But the foundations are rocky and unstable 
And what was born isn’t able
To reign in the suspense
Compassion’s in the present tense
And it is the only way
To redeem the wolves that bay
To the moon we all see
Let’s let the past be history

Always And Forever

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Always and forever in bubblegum pop
I will always be something that you are not
And strive to reach
But something they cannot teach
Is that you are what you are
And everyone burns like a star
Til its collapse into a black hole
The light returns to its soul 
Somewhere in the deep
In a universe where you cannot speak
Of the secrets they utter
And the shutter
Flies shut on the window
As I see her with him, though
And drop out of the sky
Because some people want to die
When they see their lover
With another
But all I feel is gratitude
That she holds the heart of that dude
And keeps him warm
Because every storm
Crashes upon my shore
And everything means something more
Than it’s first inception
And your deflection
Does nothing to dim
The weight of worlds I am to him
I see it in his eyes
And that never dies
Once it is born
So forlorn
Though so replete 
The lady washed the man’s feet
With her hair
I know because I was there

What Wants To Come Through

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I sit and wait for what wants to come through
But it only ever speaks of you
And what we are
Some far distant star
Shines on us both
And the coach
We took to the sea
Set the both of us free
You can trust me
I will be here
Always, for you, dear
Though you may not see me in the leaves
You don’t need to believe 
Just trust and open to what is
And I know that she is his
But I welcome her care and her devotion
I can feel it in his emotion
As he speaks to me 
And eternity
Is on his breath
But, still, he does not forget
Because almost never crossed the line
And we are us for all of time 
In every winter that the trees shake
I will be there and when you wake
You will see my subtle stance
I’ll love you always in this dance

Eternal Clothes

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Marriage and prose
And less travelled roads
Did I find mine
With a stranger who just took a moment of my time
And let me be
He let me go free
When I felt the fear encapsulate
Because he might want to date
Me
And eternity
Is all I know
But I have to let you know
I don’t do boys and girls
I do you are my world 
And you have become
Everything I thought when I was young
As we just talk 
And we just walk
You lift my bag
And I drag
My feet behind me
But do not mind me
I’m just shy
And I’m gonna love you til the day I die
It’s not your choice
But I raise my voice 
To let you know 
That this love won’t let me go
And find another
You’re like a lover 
I never had
And the feeling bad
Does not eclipse
The anticipation of your lips 
On mine
There was a time
I thought we were naught
Til I saw the line you bought 
With the skyline in the air
So I let you know I care
In stuttering vowels
And the wolf of death, he prowls
On the edge of conversation
And education
Can’t save us here
But she just might, my dear
And I do not begrudge 
The way you choose to express your love
And find it reflected 
In the heart you have selected 
To be yours 
And the water pures 
As it pours through the filter
And time will wilt her 
But it will not change 
The way the atoms rearragnge
To form a sphere 
I will always be with you, dear

The Machinations

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The machinations work 
And they hurt
As I make myself small
To appeal to you all
And it’s not because I hold a grudge
That I trudge through all this sludge
Into the mists of time
And my rhyme 
Gets relegated 
Into something somebody stated
One time in the hall
I hold myself back and the freefall
Is more than I can bear
And I tear 
In the fabric rush
And everything I seem to touch
Turns to ash
And I can’t get it back 
Anymore than I ever could
And the wood 
Is the only place I can find peace
From the threat of the decease
As it throws patterns on the wall
And it’s not part of me at all
Anymore
Because that closed door
Opened into a new sky
And I realised I could never die

The Higher Dimensions

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The higher dimensions call to me
And they ask to be set free
From all the chains Earth entails
Because their starship never fails
To broach the boundary of sky
I wait and watch while people die
In Palestine
But it’s justified so “it’s fine”
Are the people in Gaza even human
Because what are the forces even doing
To innocent men, women and child
I look and see that the land is wild
With sunset in the air
And a sea that beats the coast with care
And you may say it’s anti-Semitic 
To go against the rhetoric
That is spilling from the screen 
Because war is always a scream 
And there’s nothing we can do about it
So why should I even doubt it 
Like when they invaded Iraq
All the world that I held back
From speaking aloud and true
Coz they might do something to you
But they destabilise
And become dictators in their eyes
And I know the soldiers are just boys
Firing guns like they’re toys 
Never knowing what they do
To the people who are facing you
But somewhere in my blood
I can see a realm that’s good
That goes beyond the tears
And it’s been with me for years 
Somehow my Irish skin
Shouts out to say “I am with Him”
And the Jesus that I know
Was Palestinian also so 
I must speak before the quiet 
Becomes an unholy riot 
And sets fire to the world 
I’ve never been just a girl

The Hills

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Living in the hills I’ve known my own share of pain
And the west coast is full of rain 
Because it faces the Atlantic 
And don’t be so dramatic
When you say that the wiles of Connemara
Has shades of Scarlet O’ Hara
With her red hair and wild ways 
I have to say I cannot leave what he says 
When he talks about a soulmate
And it more than a person that you date 
It is someone to whom your heart is bound
I fell for him without a sound
And he tried so hard
Did he know that he had the card
That would trump a royal flush 
And the seats were so plush 
As we sat in the comfort of each other 
He had the safety of a brother 
But the love of a fire brimming flame
And I didn’t remember his name 
Because he went by something else
And I was a little worried about his mental health 
But he’s always been my choice
And ever since I found my voice
I’ve been searching for ways to say
I always want to be with you, okay?

The Fugitive

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I run from him and my destiny
Because I can’t think a man would ever want to be with me 
But it seems he does 
And it is twenty shades of love
In every hue
And in everything a man or woman could do 
Together, with each other, that can’t be done alone
I see him on my phone 
And ask him to please be more clear
He said, “clean your glasses, dear”
And I spitfire in the sky
Scream out, what if you die
And leave me with child 
What will happen to my wild
If I’m forced to birth
Something that will hurt
Like a bitch
He says; “you’re a witch
In the positive sense” 
I tell him he’s dense
In a John Snow kind of way
But he doesn’t get the things I say
And my pop culture reference 
But in his own defence
He stays silent as the grave
And does nothing to save
Himself from my onslaught
And if there is anything my life has taught
Me it is to appreciate
What’s there because when you equate
Permanence to the temporal 
You set yourself up for a fall
And will he ever know
That my love for him will never go
But I can’t be the female he sees
I was never afflicted with that disease
In living life on my knees
And giving more than I have
Lost in guilt and feeling bad 
And he is more feminine than I 
But we both look into that which will die
And come out smelling of infinity 
If you could set me up, could it be with he?

The Flood That Washed The Bones Away

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It’s either a famine or a feast
So say the ones who have deceased
And left us with their words
And I may be away with the birds
But I still have something left to impart
Because that holy dart
Struck me straight into the heart
And said stand up and speak 
The one who says to the weak 
Or the cripple to walk
I’ve been silent but now I talk 
And my voice is resonant 
With a power that’s heaven sent
As the Christ makes Himself known 
In the garden that has grown 
In the absence of stares
And somebody cares
About who you are 
And every star
That ever was must burn
So why did my sky take a turn 
To spin around the sun
I think I know the only One
That will ever come to reside
In the heart where love abide
As I give the King his reign
Please don’t ask me to do that again
But if you do I will consent 
And acquiesce to your request 
To be the tower in the shade
It’s something I cannot evade
As I spill secrets to my GP
And she looks back at me 
With frightened eyes
My disguise
Has grown thin
Since I revealed myself to him 
And I can no longer lie by omission
Or sell myself for a commission
But bullet reverberate around my soul 
Leaving me riddled with holes
Like the pillars of the GPO
Who are the British in this, do you know?

The Falling And The Flying

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The falling and the flying
And somehow it felt like dying
As I raged against the machine
And swore that I was the queen
Of my own domain
As the rain
Fell upon my head
And I wished myself dead
A thousand times 
But the war crime
Awoke me to be 
Something that I have to see
If I am to realise
That which never dies
In it’s own embodiment 
That hell is heaven sent 
If everything is God created
And some things are simply stated 
In their complexity
There are rivers that run into the sea
And they get the best of me
As an ocean swallows all you’ll be
And the holy light 
Was more than all white 
It was the trancendental
Amid the realms so evidential 
In it’s plurality
The God of One 
Revealed Itself to me
And I was twenty three
When I shared the summer with the free
And it bit back 
For all that it lack 
In the midnight ramblings and stuttered speech
I know he hit me because he was weak 
And scared and suffering 
And, I, the bird with the broken wing
Refused to fly
And something die
In all that war
I don’t know what any of it was for
Because he just tries to say
I want you at a distance, okay
And I belligerent refuse
To be some point you want to prove
Throw the papers in your face
And say that thing is a disgrace
And leave me alone
I block the phone
From ever calling to my door
I shut you out and what’s more
I bar the gate
And time won’t wait 
For a sin like that 
Something was said that can’t be taken back
So I leave 
Like Tristan with a heart upon her sleeve
In her walking boots
And the man may have roots
Or a motorbike 
But what are you like 
When you swim the sea
Just to say sorry to me 
Like Michael and the man 
I’d forgive you but I don’t know if I can
Let it go
I thought I’d write it down so you’d know

The Wonder And The Dance

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There is wonder in the dance
And you think about a second chance
To do everything over
But would you take it if you didn’t know her
And had to live the death again 
The taking away of women and men 
And I know I may be traumatised
By a past life where people died
Beyond my control 
And there is a shake, rattle and roll 
That soothes my soul 
Like an old car on the way to the Mega Bowl 
To celebrate a birthday or two
Eleven years old and walking with you
Into our teens 
And all the screams 
Fall silent sometimes 
There was horror in this childhood of mine
As I lay in my bed and dreamed
Then woke up paralysed and screamed
And ran out of the doors 
Into the light and love implores
Me to just take it easy
But I’ve never been so breeze
As I was at twenty two
Just after discovering you
And the lightness held 
In the depths that weld 
Themselves to my heart 
I know it’s about the taking part 
But somehow I’ve always wanted to win
The prize, the guys, the loyalty of him 
But it doesn’t work that way
And all I can really say
Is that the writing has called me since I was yay high 
And I know the people die
In foreign lands 
At the hands 
Of those who claim to be just
And broken dust 
Falls like paper burnt to cinders 
Ashen and my fingers limber 
Yearn to call them out 
Like darkness in my own self doubt
Is the world on a turning point to see
That good can be bad when it isn’t me 
And I would never do you wrong
But when people belong
To a tribe and dwell
They can inflict all kinds of hell
On those who have no way to defend 
The hearts that break only to mend
Themselves in solid steel
Can you blame the way they feel 
When they suffer in the rubble
And the ground shakes to signal trouble 
In the outer sphere 
If your compassion doesn’t extend to fear
Then is it real 
And can I heal 
And be the wholeness to embrace
The people that the pain deface
And I watch his eyes
As a child cries 
Before his lens 
Is it too late to make amends 
And ask for a ceasefire to be held 
I know the North of Ireland well
And somehow it has been a fragile peace
Not watching another youth decease
In the wreckage of flame 
Everyone has a name 
That they go by
To their loved ones and the lie
Is that there is no way to be 
When you’re running from history

The Machinations Of War

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I tried to scream but they stifled the cry
Now I must watch the people die
And it’s game over in the extreme
As people wake up from the dream 
And wonder what it is they have been doing
The empty hands they are pursing 
In the hope that it will bring them gold 
But they forget to look inside their soul 
To find what’s there to share
The loaves and the fish and people care
About each other
A bomb drops and another mother 
Hears her child’s stifled scream 
For the last time as the seam 
Is burst on the dress we sew 
And there may be people in the know 
But they can’t see what we are 
I look over at him in my car
As we drive to the sunset in my sky
But I watched the fading from view lie
In wait for every summer sun
You wake up and you are the one
Who will be the endeavoured in the replete
The woman may have washed Jesus’ feet
With her hair
But were you there 
When he let her be
And for free
Forgave what held her down
Like the men about the town
Who used her for what she could 
Only sell in that type of wood 
And the trees holds whispers still 
Feel the weight of heavy will 
Signal summer in the breeze
The weight is heavy but my knees 
Can finally lift their stone
And if I must I will leave home

Enchantment

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The look of men as they cross my path
And something in their stillness dulls the wrath
Of the God inside my heart 
One’s a musician, another makes art
Another studied with me in school
And we broke every rule
That night in Tripod when we 
Kissed the edge of destiny
And made two into the one we are 
He reminds me of a burning star
In its effervescent red 
And I know he took other girls to bed
But it doesn’t dim the look in my eye
Because I know that I would die
Just to see him smile
And I haven’t seen him in a while
But we are connected on a level beneath
The roads that move under our feet
Do you remember the night I chased you down
As you tried to escape to your side of town 
And we talked about having a cup of tea
As you looked over at me 
Wondering what I might mean
But you are more than the dream 
Supping oxygen in the tent
I wonder where those years went
And you threw your arm around my neck 
In the days reality seems to wreck 
With it’s assurance of get to be 
But you were everything to me
And somehow you still are 
I wonder if your heart
Is still the same hue as it always was
I needed you to know because
It’s not every day you meet upon the trail
A love that simply will not fail 
So when you look up into the sky
Know that there’s a love that will never die
And it burns for you here 
In this heart beyond the fear 
Of what they might say
You showed your cards and I play
My own onto the table so you see
That you meant the whole world to me

The Extricate

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The extrication of spirit from form
One minute you’re fine and the body’s warm
Next thing you notice you’re eighty two
And people are saying goodbye to you
And I must hold my head up high
And watch you die
Slowly, then all at once
Letting go of the pulse
That beats your heart so fine
The one that was in love with mine
For the season we spent in the sun
I look up and we’re still one

The Lost And Found

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The lost and found 
That I don’t want around
He siphons the air
Out from my lungs like there
Is no reason to breathe
Takes away what I so generously need 
And it’s all in the sky
Does his daughter know what it is to die
When it’s sucked from her
The pure genius of what she and I were
An eon ago
When love didn’t tread the path of going slow
Amid the forest and rain
And I would go back and rewrite it again
Just to see the stars 
Instead of malfeasance and prison bars
As they gaily exclaim
You are the place we lay all the blame
And she shudders and wilts
Folds like a man in a suit wearing stilts 
To the local bar
How did she know I was all heart
In the middle of seasons
And they all have their reasons
But they never amount
To what was proclaimed on the Mount
A sermon or two
Blinded by the Light of seeing You
In manifest form
His body is hot because he is warm 
And smiles like the sun
When was it I knew that you were the one
As you shattered shards
Like a deck of playing cards
On the table we kiss
You look at me and I wonder if you miss
My stellar heart
The one that is a work of art
Amid the chains and treason
Something to believe in
Has it lasted long
Are you weathered because you are strong
Or does the weakness show
In the part that will not let me go
As the sun rises
I wonder if it knows what the prize is

Keep That Dog From His Door

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Please keep that dog from his door
It visited me, now it is no more
As it crushed the carbon and coal
Into the diamond of my soul
Reborn into something new
Now I pray for each one of you
Who may have to face the dark
But in the night don’t forget the spark
That issues from your core
It clicks like a lighter til a furnace roar
Drowns out the blaze
I pray for the people the sun will save 
In the midst of ruin
I think God knows what He’s doing
But that doesn’t stop the doubt from rising
I see the ones who are barely surviving
And those who have crossed 
But everything is not lost
Even when you think it’s done
The human heart is precious, each and every one

The Fields We Know

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The dying of the light
Everything is gonna be alright 
Because the night
Only comes so that the dawn
Shows you what was never gone
And we are in a cyclical spin 
But I am always in love with Him
As, steadfast, He spans the dream
And I only know how to be a queen 
Unselfish unto the sky
And not afraid to die 
For what I Am 
Standing for what you cannot plan 
To come to be and sustain
The fields do not refuse rain

Pinprick

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She makes a pinprick to draw blood
Just to see if she could
To see if I’m still real
If I’m alive, if I feel
And it’ll heal
But I remember the shark in her eyes
When she met me that day in the car
So far away from where you are
Looking at your ship go out
Before I was submerged in my own self doubt
As it washes to shore
And I couldn’t have loved you more
But it wasn’t enough
Coz when times got tough
All the pencils failed me and broke
And I could feel my breath start to choke
On the words I spit out at you
Coz you don’t love me too
Or so they say or so she says
Coz she’s familiar with your ways
In real life
I’m just the wife
Who is too close to see
In her eyes that all he wants is me
Submerged in the subterranean wildflower bloom
And I’d know if he was in the room
Coz electricity flows from his pulse
I describe it and she revulse 
At the thought he could shock me awake
I gave it up for your sake

The Cracking Seam

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I don’t wanna be your whore
Like she did in the time before
And she’d buy anything you sell
Plies you with whiskey so you might tell
Her you love her so
But there are places you won’t go
Even for a trinket she’d offer
All you want is to suffer
Wholeheartedly
And rather smartly
You hold your hand out to me
We dance and it is free
And I wonder what it feels like to know she’s only there
Because you’re willing to pay your share
Of the coin
But you can’t solder what you want to join
Together in sweet surrender
I know you remember
Coz how could you forget
And it’s there for you yet
If you want to taste the apple that grows on the tree
You know you shouldn’t but you ask me
What it feels like to be
Still young and free
And I say it’s like sleeping outside your door
Waiting for the one you adore
To realise he loves you more
Than his story on the second floor

Landscape

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She tells me I’m delusional 
To still love the thread that pull
Me from where I stood
And they say it’s in your blood
But the wood
I frequent whispers things to me
And it let me be 
Amid the chains a-binding
And there are avenues I’m finding 
Back to where we were
And you may still be with her
I just wouldn’t know 
But the knot is letting go
Into a landscape open and free
And you are standing there with me 


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Autumn Leaves

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There was a girl who liked MCR
And I once wished I was her
In the blueprint match the architecture 
And I was cool but that’s just conjecture 
Of a different suppose 
And there are less travelled roads
So I took them to beat them to the punch
And I’m on my own just eating lunch
When Ruth and Christine
Find me and I wake the dream
Up from where it stood 
Robert Frost and an autumn wood
I find myself looking at leaves 
Colours and you wouldn’t believe 
What I did to keep the hue
From turning a deeper shade of blue 
But then Ken made his appearance 
I look around the clearance 
Around us as they all fall asleep 
Would you be something I could keep 
But he’s sighing into the wind 
And one of us must’ve sinned 
Coz we’ve been stalked
And the man just talked and talked 
Like silence knows no bounds
But my love is in the sounds 
Woven through the tapestry
Of all that we could be
In the midnight sky he makes
Does he hear the breath my love takes 
As I’m drinking him in
Will I ever see you again?


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Intimacy

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Is it futile to spill my words on paper
In the hope I’ll get famous
And you’ll see them later
And reconnect with me 
It’s been an age since I set you free
But you still mean so much and history
Lives in my soul
Somewhere you will not grow old
But I can’t be held by a line
But is it me who’s drawn it all this time
And I’d wink at you and smile
Do you wanna come with me for a while
Just a season or two
We’re making love 
Not making new 
Bodies to fill this earth
And be consumed by the hurt
That seems to issue from the core
But I just love you more 
With all the time that’s passed
Did you doubt this would last?

Meteor Strikes

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I’ve lived my life
By meteor strikes
And the fire burns
Then fades away
As it hits the earth
And I sashay
Down the aisle
Of a two point five
But is the family
Why I’m alive
Or do I decide
To dip in and out of love
As long as it fits like a glove
But when the weather gets warm
You take it off
You ask for fidelity
To pay the cost
You can’t afford
He gave me his heart
I gave him my word
To always remain
As his safety from pain
And when it rain
I show up again


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Oh Elaine

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Oh Elaine whose words of wisdom
Would you use them to forgive them
For me
You were always so eternity
As you encourage the best of me
To keep on with the fight
Like you’re the match and I ignite 
With every spark that fuse
Uses the road to confuse
Me with the skin I know
And I did not let you go
I just had to gain some ground 
So I could hear the sound
Of alone together 
And the weather
Brings me back to your door
I knock and ask if you love me more
For the absence that held
There was something that weld
You to me
In those years infinity
As we traversed the town
And there was no trace of a gown
As we blue jean the scene 
Like a Jane Eye and Lizzie dream
I have the blind hero and you
Are heir to a love most true
That beats in both our hearts
What is it that it imparts
I hope that equanimity 
Still holds the best of me
In the soul of you
It means so much to me that us two
Were what we are
I still drive the car
With the memory of you knocking on the window
To show me left from right though
And you do not let go
I love you always and I hope you know

Notoriety

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The pain, it burns 
As I feel the sharp pang of the earth as it turns
Burying more bodies in the dust
What happened to the broken trust
We used to have in crumpled paper
How do we survive, do we just hate her
For standing on her own
Now the game is thrown
And no one wins
That’s the thing with sins
They just extrapolate
And draw more people into that state
Where darkness is the king
And some kind of ring
Sounds out in the dark
No one should bear the mark
Of what has come to pass
It’s not enough to just ace the class
You must live the lesson
How can this become a blessing
To be shared with our brethren 
Please listen, we’ve got to help them

To Create A Space To Be

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To create a space to be
Are we rewriting history
When we say peace is what we want
But men in armoured cars still daunt
As you file past
And the tenuous ceasefire doesn’t last
As they arm their guns 
Equip fathers and sons 
To go to the scene 
And rescue people from the dream
Of hate and hurt
People pushed into the dirt
Of circumstance 
What happened to the heart that used to dance?
Is it all forsaken
And when we waken
Will it be to the sky
I’m still holding the reason why

The Ribbons And The Dress

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Darling, be true, be true to me
Coz the ribbon you’re pullin is setting me free
And it’s as though the waves of you reach the shore
And I’m always hoping for a little bit more
Coz the rivers they play on the blue of the wall
I thought I was through it but I wasn’t at all
And the knives and valleys follow me round
But if a tree falls do you hear the sound
In a forest that is both deep and green
You make your way out like it is a scene
On a movie set and the script
Is one of adventure for which you’re equipped
And I may be strange and you may be weird
I don’t think I’ve seen anyone with the same kind of beard
But you just throw the light in magnificent shapes
And you’ve got the kind of wings with which I could escape
If you’d be willing to bear my weight
Like the tide go with all of the hate
And let the sea clear what’s never been known
Would you love my true colours if I let them be shown

Pebbles In My Shoe

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Darragh Connolly is the pebble in my shoe 
Coz I never admitted the truth to you
That you’re so fine you inspire the weather
And I’m running through fields of heather
That sing me to sleep with the sound of your name
I met you and I won’t be the same
And you saw me sweetly and you held me long
And your arms are so strong
As you point me out and then you laugh
Could you do me a favour I dare to ask
Would you just kiss me and set the scene
Coz I’ve painted us like we’re the dream
And I’m waiting for you to make the first move
But you hold it back like there’s a point to prove
And I smile and you burst open the sun
It shines the ten years that we’ve been young
In the growing, in the aging, in the getting old
You’re the Corey of my story that’s never been told
And I’d love to hold you again
But I can never seem to hang onto men
And I wonder would you
If I decided I wanted you to
Dance in the moonlight on the soft grass
You’re name is the question my heart likes to ask
When I’ve a moment silent in the dusk
You’ve always had a way with my trust
And faith that I put into your soul
I watched you through screens getting old
And the years may be kind to us both
But I still see us driving the coast
Down to the avenues I love the most
If you give me a letter I’d like to post
Then I’d send it to you in the morning
No more absent wonderforlorning 
In the years we’ve spent away
Everything rests on what you have to say
As you keep silence like it is the cue
I must take in secret from you
Would you answer me down on one knee
If I said you’re the one I’d like to see
Every morning when I wake up
It’s so little we could scarce call it love
But there’s something in the moment that holds true
I think I’ll always be enchanted by you

Missing You

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Watching as the train pulls in
And I can’t help but think of him
How he’d be there every Friday evening 
Gave me something to believe him
And I left him to go walkabout
In dreams of dread and self doubt
When no one could ever see me there
And I felt like no one care
And then he died, just like that
Take in a breath he can’t give back
And I’m not even letting go
Because it’s not the same as it used to be so
I wear my armor strong and tight
Chainmail you can’t set alight
To let the stone sink down deep
There’s something of his love I keep

From The Ashes

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***Trigger Warning - Mental Heath Issues***
I open up and the love
Pours through like a season real
But it’s like my soul is a steal
And everyone’s vying for the highest bid
So I found a cavern and hid
And some call it the activity room
I call it the shelter from doom
As they discuss my mental state
I could tell them off but it’ll have to wait
Coz at that time they had all the power
And I was a princess trapped in a tower
By a horrible man
And I can 
Only hold my head up high
Because the spirit in me is not gonna die
Or get broken in, wild horse on the loose
You won’t lead me to the noose 
With your talk me down farewells
And your sympathy with some kind of hell
You have constructed 
I had it all and you think I fucked it up
But I was just waiting for a more peaceful plain
For the phoenix in me to rise again

Light And Life

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I have to love the man who saved my life
He took a breath and breathed in the light
And it’s textbook case, wanna be a wife
But I don’t know if that’s alright
Coz he showed me summer
He showed me seasons
He gave me love
I gave him reasons
And we both learned to multiply
And, you know, never say die
As the ache it comes in waves
He’s Superman, it’s days he saves
And I can’t ignite with anyone else
He showed me trauma and mental health
And I showed him strong and how to bear
The music when the fabric tear
And it’s oft the season to be making waves
I’ve written him down on page upon page
But I never come close to really say
He is my love, is that okay
Even if we are miles apart
He made the unquenchable start
Like the Divine made into form
I’m kept ‘neath a coat that is warm
Even on those freezing winter nights
He speaks a word and my heart ignites
To burn enough to keep the dark away
From the place by the trees where we stay

Waiting For Dreams

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I’m waiting in Longford town
To see if you’re free to be around 
And I know it’s a futile endeavor
Rachel says that it will never
Happen to me, at least not with you
Or at least not now and that’s all well to do
But sometimes I feel you scorching my soul
Heave with the ocean as the waves roll
And the thunderclouds clap
All of my ideas off the map
As I write the essence of you
In plurals and mosaics split in two
And I wonder what are we
What is the difference between me and she
And she looks pretty fine
And if I was a guy I could call her mine
But you, oh, effortless you
Are just like the window that I see through
And delineate 
Draw it up, then call it fate
As I awaken inside
To all the love that just abide
And bursts through
I want you to know I’m thinking of you

Emotional Storms

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My future regret
Comes in days that haven’t happened yet
And I feel guilt
Like a blade broken at the hilt
For all my sorrows and all my sins
The near misses and the almost wins
As I try to fight my true nature
Hitting like a meteor into a crater 
And leaving a mess all around
I’m silent but you hear the sound
Of everything
Of a bird on the wing
That seems to soar
Do you want something more
Than what you’ve always had
It’s stereotypical, this feeling bad
Like dread is a mountain I meet in my sleep
And broken promises are all that I keep
Close to me as I lie on my pillow
Bending the truth like it’s a weeping willow
Just to measure up
Please, Lord, take away this cup
But the present moment ever is
And this life is only His
In His majesty 
Just don’t wave a red flag at me

Eyesight

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I can see the craters on the moon
And that’s better than leaving way too soon
Coz the midnight knows my name
And I play piano like it’s a game
And stress everybody out
With my errant doubt
And all that I do without
I silently scream instead of shout
And they never understand 
All the monuments I have planned
To my underscore
I have less that’s wanting more
In the dewy air
All the absent answered prayers
As I call out to the sky
Say I’m not afraid to die
But is that wishing for the scorch
Instead of white picket fences and a front porch
And I try to explain 
About precipitation when it’s pouring rain
And I do it once more
Knock on every open door
To file away
Check on me if I don’t smile today

Musing

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He made me feel human again
And helped me to remember when
Before I was a mental case
And I loved that look upon his face
And is it so wrong to search for a muse
And if I could, you would be the one I’d chose
As you want me to be well
You care and I can tell
As you wish my trouble away
And you get too close so I cannot stay
Though your eyes are something I engender
The way you lit up my grey defender
The one who seeks to control
And grip the freedom of my soul
But you just laugh and blink your eyes
And I know longer want to hide
But sit inside your warm embrace
You’re pretty, I love your face

That Leaden Feeling

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To find that she doesn’t slake the lust
Lost in cobwebs of broken trust
And you look at me with a sigh
Coz you just want me to die
In the bed I’ve made for myself
And blame the tragedy on poor mental health 
So you are free to do as you wish
And never is our first kiss
To quell the storm
Do you keep a body warm
When you’re lost in pain
In agony and the rain
Clatters against the window 
But no Cathy to let her in though
As I quote a novel from centuries ago
Healthcliff was kinda mean though
Though the eternal rocks beneath
Resemble the pavement that make up the street
And concrete boots as I walk to you
Would you wear another’s shoe 
Just so you could find a mile
Leads you to break a smile 
As you see a new dawn
In a place where the person’s gone

Memories Of A Subterfuge

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I still remember the laughter of Doireann Fox
Or the way Macken undid all the locks 
The way the hills just cascade
With the joy of the girl they’ve saved
And I got full high on the scene 
But I was kicking it with a wonder dream
As everything is fluorescent light
The vibrant colours to ignite
What I saw in a storm
And when the air is heavy you get warm
But it’s too close in stifling heat
The crack of lightning at my feet
The year Deirdre broke my heart
Took everything, tore it apart
And left me reeling for an age
So I took refuge on the page
As I transcribed a degree of hell
Like Taylor Swift and All Too Well
In monuments to that time
I collapsed and all was fine
So I woke up to the day
The light within that cannot stay
Coz it can’t go anywhere
The sheet of me that it tear
Until I grow to realise
What is behind each pair of eyes
And Ciara is a steady hand
She looks at me and I am grand
Coz she so deeply understand
The winter that I had not planned
Or Sinéad in rocks and stone
With her I am not alone
As she regaled what was said
It’s all just torment in my head
The firing cinders, the blistering heat
The feeling that I cannot meet
Even one more day of time
Then I blinked out of what was mine
And into a sunshine that will brew
It all reflects the heart of you
Into ever deepening soul 
The school of cool as the waves roll

Unspeakable Mystery

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If there’s a loving God why did he create hell
Is it excommunication or just not knowing you well
Coz I see you on the verge of every tip I love to talk
Fascinated in my mind by the way that you walk
As if those two shoulders hold some kind of weight
I can see them start to buckle under heavy fate
So I reach out and grab a hand
We lock eyes; you’ll be grand
And I would die and sacrifice a thousand times
Just to pen you poetry that fit with your rhymes
And the darkness cascades
But you’re the one that it saves
For me 
I love you so much more, I’m free
With the steady beam of headlight gaze
Did you deepen the hue or did I just colour the page
The shade of blue you are to me
Some unspeakable mystery
That blurs all the lines between good and okay
It’s not in what he does or does not say
It’s the vulnerability and the honest truth
The softness I felt in my youth
To hold your hand 
And sit beside your slipping sand
Til the hourglass crack
Now I want you back
For eternity
I scrawl in my diary
A name that I’ll keep
Wake, brother bear, it’s no time for sleep

Volcanic

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You can blame me for a century
It’s never gonna make less of me
And you’ve always been something I’ve looked up to
And you’re still hella blue
Like an ocean so deep or a canyon so proud
You don’t need to speak to make something loud
And you’ve got an intricate soul to weave
When you used to say something I would just believe
But now you’re so quiet and absent a stare
It’s hard to know if you’re even there 
Or if I’m just holding out hope
And I know there were days you tried to cope
And sometimes you didn’t manage but you kept your head up
And we don’t need the fireworks to call it love 
Coz you’ve always got a heat that simply burns
Like the earth on an axis around the sun it turns
And I’m left ajar like a door that you’ve opened
And I may have said a thing or two about my elopement
With a boy I don’t really know
But he’s been everywhere I seem to go
And he’s not your superior but he may be your equal
And this midnight might just be a sequel
To a story that begun an eon ago
I just thought that you should know
So I slipped paper planes out between the crack
Of light to say I want him back
And I never really let go of what held me tight
I will be the forest we both ignite
With our cacophonous flame that makes a furnace roar
I watch my spirit fly as you soar
And the rivers pay testament to
The source that was me and you

The Personal Love

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Trying to save spare change
For the ways I’ll never rearrange
The match of the beat as I tap my toe
I never would’ve wanted you to go
But you sailed to a foreign shore
And you know I just wanted you more
To be the one that I adore
Though you don’t know what it’s for
And angels are looking overhead
Soaking away all the dread
As I begin to trust myself instead
I wonder sometimes if you’re wed
Or taken in some way or other
See me as a friend or a brother
And I just want you hand in hand
Pouring into life like sand
And if I ever got you close
You would see I’m not a ghost
To haunt and terrify
Or sell you stories on the sly 
Just be honest, open and true
Admit that I love you, too


Her Complicity

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She was there when you weren’t
I had to get by
On crutches 
So I wouldn’t die
And the battering winds 
Shook the shutters 
Wooden and thin
Til I stumbled upon the dream of him
Somewhere on a reading scene 
It was like something woke the dream
Up from where it was in bed 
I found myself instead
And I had a flame so red 
Looking into my eyes 
But I couldn’t hide the disguise 
That just erupted 
Have I fucked it up
Coz I know I still think of you
And his trail of blue 
How do I decide 
Which one I choose to tell lies 
Like I could be bound in matrimony 
But it just starts to feel a little phoney 
Coz I could never be tied by a ring
That follows me round like a golden string

The Pain You Inflict

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I can not deny it hurt
And made me question my self worth
As he throws barbs across the line
For the way that he does time
And wants me to know the feel
Of the way his pain is real 
And that cutting a deal
Is out of the question now 
But still he pulls me in somehow
Into a sort of heavenly light
I think you’re awesome, alright
And he knows it too
But I can’t ignore that she’s with you
Every night to keep you warm
Imagine you next to her form
As you both share a bed
One where you’re colossally wed 
While I’m tinkering away in the shed 
Making something for your eyes 
That pierce through an ample disguise 
That has shrouded us in mystery
Oh, what a fabrication is history
When it comes to what is here 
And you are always near
To the soul that beats my heart
I didn’t mean for forever to start
But now it has and be damned 
I’m in love with the same old man

Infinite Gravity

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A star collapsing in on itself 
The absence of light and what it all meant
As a black hole is created
Try as you might you can’t escape it
But does it wash out somewhere else
A wormhole into a dimension of self 
That cannot be contemplated 
They say that I’ve been educated
By my years
But the tears
Burn into me
An inferno that’s been set free
Into everlasting space
A love that breaks upon this place

Compassion For The Chinese

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I read somewhere about the practice of compassion
That those in Tibet 
Have for those who inflict pain
And that even grass needs the rain
And I don’t mean to make comparison to a bullet
But it was as though you held the trigger and pull it
As it’s facing me
And I’m shot through but it sets me free
As I collapse on the green floor in the Convent Of Mercy
We can’t wait for things to get worse, we
Must take action now 
And cultivate the mindful way
That it’s not in what people say
It’s the silence behind the word
That the monumental is heard 
And I took tea with the Lord 
And He instructs 
I look at the world and it seems fucked 
But I rise every day to the light
And I’m willing to stand with my brother in the night 
Til the dawn breaks across the land
The earth may be turning to sand 
But the soul is beginning to wake
Out of the bodies that it take 
To experience the life of the dual
And I may be a fool
But I gotta get back up
Every time that cup
Is slapped out of my hand 
If you understand 
Follow the path
Coz the demon’s wrath
Is threatening it all
But we can be the architects of the downfall
Of the season of hate
The time is Now, don’t wait