I got lost in the third eye blues And everything called me to pay my dues But I didn’t have any money Though I’m wealthy as fuck, honey I slot the puzzle piece into the jar As I wonder what you are And the nomad in me looks for change But it’s not the kind that rattles when you’re outta range It’s the kind that breaks like the sun Across the sky and over everyone And I play the perfect princess I know to whom I must address That painful moniker And you’ve all already met her Somewhere in my early teens When I was still staring across moonbeams Into the stars I shook against the prison bars And she had the key I didn’t realise that she was locking me In there Or if I did I didn’t care Because she used to make me laugh But when she shattered the glass she didn’t do it by half And I let it go, forgiveness now I’m good at that but some remains somehow Like a grain of sand in the oyster shell I grit my teeth as I wish her well And I’ve lots of secrets I will never tell Well not to her, not now, though she rings the bell That signals me to come But, hun I’m not Pavlov’s dog And in the fire there’s a log Burning more than well enough to keep me warm And though you brought the storm I don’t hate you And fair play to the men who date you They have more steel than me But nothing is more real than eternity And it’s something that will not break So though you shake Everything in sight I still give a shite
Is life just a dream in consciousness That we are all having together Some focal points That personalize the weather And we trudge and we scorn But we don’t realise why we were born As we find our way up the hill But there’s clarity when things get still And I lived a summer when someone die I was so sad I couldn’t cry Like a sky Being too cold to snow I loved him so I let him go But I found something else In the depths of myself That made everything clear And I held him dear But I couldn’t keep him I woke from my sleep and I thought it was all made up For a moment but it was not enough To quiet my shaking hand As realisation made me understand That the man under the sea Behind the boat that he Tried to rescue was simply A way of dealing with what I couldn’t control It was so vast the waves didn’t roll But made an empty silent sound I’m lost for someone I want around And she backed away from me I let her go coz I want to be free And she don’t understand I ignore her fatigue and her underhand That strikes out She is full of doubt But that don’t make more solid stone And we are both alone Coz we can’t trust The moment when the balloon went bust And splattered the paint My mind couldn’t handle it so I faint On the floor in front of Room One No one knows the Sun That shone For a moment it was gone Then it reappear And a friend I hold so dear Told me I should get it checked out But I just want to shout It from the rooftop That there is no bad cop To fear The Lord is ever near And catches everyone like a net It happened to me, now I can’t forget All that has come to pass The time goes by but this last Through the seasons of change And the acting strange And the loss is not what I thought I knew I am always with you
Crafting wishes like dreams in an ancient pocketbook
You’re not sure where to go so you have to look
At the odes you wrote time and again
About reaching that place you can’t quite remember when
But flipping through notes will never reveal
The love adults cannot heal
As you realise in fields of wildflowers
That you have lost most of your powers
And weak is the energy that emenates
From what you used to dominate
As vibrancy hues give up their colour
For the revelation of something other
And you can’t pave the path with stones you can’t lift
And whatever you choose there’s something you missed
As the sharpness of truth bites with fangs
That you never carried out any of your plans
And the goodness you saw in yourself and others
Just further emphasises what you’ll never discover
That you cannot hold death in the palm of your hand
And cannot bring back the oceans they spanned
For for all your anger that prompts defiance
You cannot escape your inherent reliance
On the sun, the clouds, the air you breathe
Its only cause you have life you know how to bleed
And as it is taken by inches, degrees
You want something of substance to see where it leads
So independently consumed as you are
You cannot govern the flight of a falling star
As the laws of gravity pull to the earth
The force of your demands cause you to hurt
As solid resistance meets its counterpart
In the stubbornness of an open heart
And you swore you would rather burn all your days
Than act out the script of someone elses plays
But the grand design just laughs at attempts
And accentuates why you are exempt
From finding a solution by holding on hands
That will momentarily be dust baked by the sands
But somewhere in all this cavalcade
I founder a speaker where my song played
And knotted the twines undone by the seal
Of an authority that doesn’t know how I feel
So captive bound and under duress
I realise the answer I can’t express
That the butchery of modern times
Doesn’t stand up to the light that shines
Unnamably from the source
Of the river that must run its course
And meet again in perfect flow
The end of what it doesn’t know
So plaited in between my lines
Is the home within that defines
Not the abode of mankind
But divinty I thought I’d left behind
And all my trips just emanated
From the desire to have that hunger sated
Calling for an unpayable price
To let go of all the work on site
While I am building castled skies
The liberation lets go and flies
As fluidity of a timeless era
The cobwebs only make it clearer
That I have never exercised my right
To the freedom of wordless goodbyes
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