Tag: Intimacy

Intriguing Blues

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I want him so bad that it literally hurts
And as time’s going on it’s only getting worse
As he comes and goes, close then far
Says he’s born from the farthest star
And I hold out
Coz I’ve got that doubt
Is he the man I want to marry
Does he see me as an equal or just someone to carry
His child somewhere in the future 
And I had a wound but he was the suture 
That tied it up and kept it in 
Healed my soul with that irreverent grin 
And his eyes dart to and fro
I wonder where his mind would go 
If he could read mine
I know I shine
And I’m a gem in the dark 
It’s just you sorta hit the mark 
Right on the head
And I know you want me in your bed
As you tell me lies
Think I buy the disguise
You’re selling with the full of your heart
Is it just because you want a part 
Of me for your own 
To impress upon me what could be known 
With your help 
And is there anyone else 
In this whole scene 
That could wake me, then take me from the dream 
And you’re shy in a certain way
Not in the usual bashful sway
But in a kind of sensitivity 
When you tell the truth and then look at me 
As though I would judge and turn you out 
But instead I want to kiss your mouth 
Coz this is more than intimacy 
When I trust in what you’re saying to me
And it didn’t break 
It’s just I wake 
From a slumber that was self induced
Startled by what you produced
In your ardent soul 
Do you think we could make our parts whole
If we just dropped the pretence
I think that my defence
Is the thing that separates
Me from men I’d love to date
And that barrier 
Between what we were 
Fell right on through 
And even though I seem distant from you 
Nothing’s changed
I love guys that are sort of strange

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Intimacy

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Is it futile to spill my words on paper
In the hope I’ll get famous
And you’ll see them later
And reconnect with me 
It’s been an age since I set you free
But you still mean so much and history
Lives in my soul
Somewhere you will not grow old
But I can’t be held by a line
But is it me who’s drawn it all this time
And I’d wink at you and smile
Do you wanna come with me for a while
Just a season or two
We’re making love 
Not making new 
Bodies to fill this earth
And be consumed by the hurt
That seems to issue from the core
But I just love you more 
With all the time that’s passed
Did you doubt this would last?

The Sweetness Of Stephen

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The sweetness of Stephen 
He says my name 
And I know neither of us 
Will ever be the same 
As the softness just pours from you
Michelle calls you a dote
And I feel a pang of jealousy 
I’m afraid I must quote 
And you inflect your verbs 
People say things are just words
But the monumental silence echoes in your tone
And we are together, alone 
Sitting in two chairs facing each other
I feel I must have met my soul brother 
As we discuss the elemental freedom
The people and the ones who see them
And I wonder how many souls you have guided out
I feel you drop your self doubt
As we talk 
You laugh and I walk
To the sound of your music 
And you know I wouldn’t choose it
But it sure would be great
To be in a state 
Just so you could pull me out by my arm
And I thought Jesus was full of charm 
But He looks like you and I wonder why
Such a cool guy
Could be a shade of shy
When he talks to me 
I know you see
Into the beyond 
I wonder would a dumb blonde 
Tempt your eye 
And I show you my shade of sky 
As we just theorise 
I know that half of it is lies 
They have fed to the ones who eat
But it’s different when we meet

So Close It’s Hot

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What is God if not a man
And I can’t seem to understand
The love I feel 
When the mountain kneel
At the foot of you
I want you too
It’s not one sided at all
I’m standing behind the waterfall
As it shields the shimmer
And I think we’re onto a winner
As you laugh and mess my hair 
I remember coz I was there
And I was so much younger then
But so we’re you and again
I play the tune that resonates
Could we call the Ball our dates 
As the Vengaboys play
And Liosa is not okay
So I exit the crowd with her
And I was loving what we were
As you followed us out
And all of my self doubt
Falls at the sight of your grasp
On all that is made to last

Still The Same

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What is it to love men
It’s over and then it plays again
With a different pair of eyes 
It’s God in a holy disguise
And it started 2.0
In 2010 and don’t you know
I gave it my all
He bumped into me in the hall
And said “Sorry Laura” and stared
And I held the moment and cared
About a life with you
You run away but I want to
Follow you down the street
It was fate that made us meet
And I’m in high heels 
And he kneels 
With a ring to propose 
And be the one that my love chose 
He looks into me 
And I wonder what you see
Coz the moment holds
And I’ve been walking in fields of gold
Since 2005
But we’re alive
In a way I can’t explain
And I hate to try to stop the rain
Coz you know it makes us green
I wonder what we could’ve been 
If only I’d let the clasp
Break the moment that you ask
At my car door 
I couldn’t want you more 
Than I do now 
We’re still the same, somehow

Ultramarine

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Saving orcas down by the pond
And you didn't know but I waited there til you were gone
And you'll never see
But I wanted to ask if you would marry me
With your poetic stare
You captivate people who aren't even there
And I missed the day you filmed with your latest band
And laughed out loud and said it'll be grand
Cause you've got that mysticism 
Carving a river with the blades of a prism 
And bending lines of truth like light through the water
I was afraid to be such a daughter
Because you are like no one else
And your hand magnetises atoms the molecules felt 
As you hold me close
Not with arms but a holy ghost
And you be company
In the darkest night when guns ignite you sat next to me
In midnight blues
That turn into mornings that can't handle you
Cause you are so delicately fine
And I'm afraid I will crush in the vice of my love what I want to be mine
But you are not for the taking
You've got your own soul mixed with the rock and roll of the path you are making
You beat your own track
And I fear I will never cross your piercing endeavour on my way back
Now you've got a success life
And I'm just a drifter who wonders if you missed her cause you said I was nice
I guess I never felt enough
To fill the chasm or the hole in the depths of your soul with a glass bottle love 
You are magic beams
When I wonder if this earth is all that I'm worth you speak to my dreams
I wish I was like you
So fearlessly true
And unafraid
Yes I confess, you marked the spot
Where the Last Airbender won't fail to remember what you thought she forgot 
I hold a star for you
And I plot the chart of my constellation heart every night that comes through
Stay forestry amid the plain
I cracked the stone and I let the rain

Better Than I Ever Was

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I hide myself away
Coz you know I cannot stay 
But the water pours on through
And I find myself back with you
As you shyly meet my eye
Oh, my darling, what a guy 
As you rivet me with your storm
And I sit back just studying form
And I’d really like to know what she think
Maybe I’ll ask her over a drink
As we both regale the days
Before sudden sorrow and power plays
And I wish I could confess
The joy of a mini dress
I’m the summer and the swish
Grants the guys a hidden wish
But your hand holds more than my heart
It’s the soft that makes my soul start
And trouble echoes across the plain
Has my pain been vain
Or does it mean something that I
Won’t give in to lie
About who I am
Can I be part of your plan?

Coastline

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Find your way back to me
Make future history 
And stories we can tell the grandchildren 
That gather round the hearth
And what you save for me in the dark
And you can tell her she’s welcome too
Or I am with her and you
It’s just I can’t write this off
And it’s not a sunk cost
But something I’d invest in
Even if it didn’t win
And there have been trees in the forest of me
Falling onto pine needle dignity
As they hold me against my will
And all of my senselessness spill
Into hilarity
I’m laughing at the thought of you and me 
On my bed in a chasm
And I love that she still has him
Coz they look so perfect together
And d’ya know it’s lovely weather
For a sky to break
And I’m counting every breath I take
Coz they’re numbered 
And have you ever wondered
Just what’s fueling your love affair
Don’t you feel me there
In lashes and guilt and opening doors
Are men too quick to call women whores 
For being connected to another dimension 
And this is just a logical extension
Of the need to be
Quintessentially free
Did I learn from my degree
That she
In effervescent tones
Sparkles when you’re all alone 
And diamonds can’t buy what’s given
Some people survive and call it living
And I gotta say
I can’t save this for another day
But anyway
Hit me up, if that’s okay?

Is That You?

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I can feel you
Hairs breadth close
And I’ve fought to find
Love and God knows
That’s not the way
It’s not just what you say
It’s what you are
And I drive a nifty car
But it can’t drive me to the stars
I never meant to break your heart
As I stumble into your arms
I dream of us growing old on farms
With our children around us like the bough of a tree
Covered in leaves of dignity 
As we flourish and hold the space
Of all we thought to create
With our love
It fits like a glove
And telepathy
Is someone just talking to me
Like a radio wave chime
Signaling the intro to a new time

Sweet Guy

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The guy in the line was really sweet
And I wonder about fate and how we meet
Under the sky of a new sun
And anybody could be the one
With your jet black hair and stolen eyes
The way you say there are no lies
And I’ve always been one of the guys
But love takes my hand to my own surprise
As I revel in misery and the grief
Of losing all that I invest belief
In now the times are dual
But Advaita is beyond the rule
Of anything that dare contain
Can you learn to love the pain

Kissing the Sky

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Funny feeling that though he may not want me I am still okay
And that I can survive on the love of every day
From the plants, from the trees and nonetheless from him
For though he may deny it I know it beats within
In blood and in veins that are solid gold
But so are mine I see, though I have not been told
To look and revolutionise the vision of my palms
I am the lake, the ocean and these are my calms
No enforced stability, no discipline held high
Just the truth of a being that knows something that can’t die
And sees it in the rushing movement of the leaves
All the world is heaven to one who needs nothing to believe
And smile to myself, in a secret, silver fold
I never knew the universe was there for me to hold
In its peril and its fantasy, it’s motion and the tide
I am the evidence of the thing you’ve never tried
So sincerely honest in the feelings that maintain
That there lies beneath a sunlight that will overcome the pain