Memories Of A Subterfuge

I still remember the laughter of Doireann Fox
Or the way Macken undid all the locks
The way the hills just cascade
With the joy of the girl they’ve saved
And I got full high on the scene
But I was kicking it with a wonder dream
As everything is fluorescent light
The vibrant colours to ignite
What I saw in a storm
And when the air is heavy you get warm
But it’s too close in stifling heat
The crack of lightning at my feet
The year Deirdre broke my heart
Took everything, tore it apart
And left me reeling for an age
So I took refuge on the page
As I transcribed a degree of hell
Like Taylor Swift and All Too Well
In monuments to that time
I collapsed and all was fine
So I woke up to the day
The light within that cannot stay
Coz it can’t go anywhere
The sheet of me that it tear
Until I grow to realise
What is behind each pair of eyes
And Ciara is a steady hand
She looks at me and I am grand
Coz she so deeply understand
The winter that I had not planned
Or Sinéad in rocks and stone
With her I am not alone
As she regaled what was said
It’s all just torment in my head
The firing cinders, the blistering heat
The feeling that I cannot meet
Even one more day of time
Then I blinked out of what was mine
And into a sunshine that will brew
It all reflects the heart of you
Into ever deepening soul
The school of cool as the waves roll