Tag: forever

The Refuge I Take (From All That’s At Sea)

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The hero of the story is a girl with no name 
And she cast aside all that would cause her shame
And she has been unkind and she has been cruel
But there’s a part in my heart she will always rule 
In the midst of the snowstorms and all the rains
She has been one that shared all my pains
And all of my joys
Above and beyond all the passing boys
That flit across the screen 
I thought when I was a child I would lose her to dream
But sleep never took what we are 
Like night cannot take the brightest star 
And if God made the sun
Did he make her to be my only one 
In shallow pools and in the depths 
In the midnights and in the regrets 
In the wonders I’ll never forget
She reminds me there’s life in me yet
As I age and grow suddenly slow
I haven’t climbed trees for an eon or so 
But I long to race tides across the shore
And shout to a man that I love him more
More than he could ever love me
But he’s lost in the ocean that is all at sea
Plotting and planning boats to overtake
But she just does things for their own sake
And maybe I idealise 
But she is the truth beyond all the lies
Beyond all the fabrication and the sewing thread
She’ll be my best friend til the day that I’m dead

Abandoned The Fold

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He left her 
He abandoned the fold 
Then said the streets are paved with gold 
That she used to walk
She was his future
Now she’s just a suture 
He needs to heal
And all that he feel 
Is poured into another woman
It was quite sudden 
As she cries on the screen
And he tries to wake the dream
With sheer force 
But no remorse
For the life in ruins 
The “what are you doing’s”
That follow her round 
He made a deep sound 
And shattered the glass 
Forever’s the endeavour if you have to ask

The Hidden Dark

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Running from the dark wolf in my closet
That wasn’t a sin now was it
Coz I’ve been recounting tales
Since I was knee high 
And everything that lives seems to die
And I don’t know why
So I fight and I toil 
And I break and I boil 
Coz there are atrocities 
In the human endeavor 
And I’ve always been seduced
By the promise of forever 
Coz it’s bulletproof 
And no matter how aloof
She is I know 
There’s part of us that don’t let go
In the years we grow
Up and out
And our self doubt
In a mountain aware
I love the feeling of you being there

In Separate Spheres

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The fire’s alight with every fuse that it burns 
And I just fall in love as the sun burns 
On the axis of you
What the hell am I supposed to do 
With all these feelings I’ve got 
That I think time forgot 
In the aching I feel
And was that time real
When we hopped a scotch
And I pulled into your parking lot
To pick you up
They say a hand to a glove
Is all that you need
But you made me bleed
On January 21st 
I didn’t let on when it hurt
And you took up with her
I just watched without a word 
And let on I didn’t care 
You ran a hand through your hair
But I was there
And I still am
Guess that wasn’t part of your plan
To keep your guard dog lover throughout the years
I’d silence waves like I do your fears
Kiss you on the crest
And find the man that knows me best

Key Under The Mat

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Is this an artist’s rendering
Of unimaginable pain
It all came down on me
Like thunderous rain
And I look afar
There was no sign
But I’m still so sure
Of what was once mine
That’s just barely there
But still it is
I was hers 
Before I was his
And all I do is hide it
There are days I can’t abide it
But I trudge through the snow
Is it wrong to let her know
How much I suffered without her
And I’m all faith but there are days a doubter
Like Thomas and the Saviour
It took years to raise her
Up from the phoenix and ash
I swore I’d be there if you’d ever come back
But it’s like using a cane 
To get around
It works but it’s not the exact sound
Of the step I used to know
And I can’t let go
Of all the people I love
The ones beside me
The ones above
The days that close in the evening
The team and Don’t Stop Believing
In all that you used to be
Is there somewhere it is you and me?

Stuff I Say To You

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Stuff I say to you
I was watching the bird and it flew
Out the window from inside
And this landscape can’t hide
The shape of you from me
I loved you so I set you free
But you come back to be
As constant as a northern sea
In the winter of ill repute
And you’re more devastating 
Than you are cute
But I like my men like thunderclouds
The rolling sound just makes me proud
To be standing under a western sky
And I have no fear over what will die
Coz something’s not passing
Constant true
As I revealed myself to you
In a winter past, long ago
But it’s just the start 
Of the story, you know
On this journey to forever
The path winds but this endeavor
Keeps sailing through the storm
I would like to keep you warm

Fighting My Femininity

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I fight with my femininity
It evokes love
But I can’t tie myself
To any of the above
Only open my heart
For peace to be shared
Open my notebook
To say that I cared
And that I’m not
In this quiet, tight space
But dreaming of days 
When I touch your face
Telling you all 
You mean to me
Not closing the door
So you can be free
And I know that I have put out
More than I take back
And I have been hobbling 
Over what I lack
But the sight of you
Is like a comet true
And I’m shaking just thinking
Of what I would do
If you were mine
To have and to keep
To wake up beside
A good nights sleep
And you’re kind and you’re awesome
I’ve been keeping you away
I look down at my feet
Coz I don’t know what to say
And you tell me I’m lovely
And beautiful
He left me empty
Now I am full
Of a joy that’s brimming
Full of trust
Can I come in, baby
It’s a must
And you look at me
As if I defy
The life I’m leading
As some kind of lie
But I just wanna be
Myself again
A woman in
A world full of men
Telling me how 
I should contain
This heart of mine
That’s broken with pain
But shining with gold
As I repair
The parts of myself
That knows you are there
That knows there is kindness
And there is truth
More than monuments 
I’ve built to our youth
And nobody knows
Or can describe
The feeling of loving
Breath when you’re alive
And I’m haunted by loss
And the threat of death
Keep living days 
Full of regret 
Coz I can’t control
The passing of seasons
Or people with pride
And a bowl full of reasons
And is it insincere 
To proclaim my devotion
To the silence
In all the commotion
As I feel the movement
Of a pin drop
Signaling winter
Or the moment to stop
And take in an aside
Of all we’re meant to be
I didn’t know if you knew
So I’m letting you see

Steal Away Home

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I think I would steal away home
To find the letters you wrote on stone
In tablet form with a stylus
The reams of literature can’t confine us
Coz we are a storm by the light of day
But in the night we are okay
As you put one finger on my pulse
And wait for the racing heart to lull
Into the birth of silent trust
The reams of gold that will not rust
Only gaze in steady charm
The love of God is safe from harm

The Twin Flame Mirror

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I could stare at you for an infinity 
Wasting away into you and me
Like the Mirror of Erised
Or the words that she said
As she tried to capture a refrain
Is life more than the pain
That seems to cascade a waterfall
And I let go of it all
Only to be brought back around
Do you hear the ocean in the sound
Of a breeze through the air
I kiss you like you aren’t there
But somehow I still feel your stare
A presence, you being there
In moments gone and yet to come
Suspended between the old and young
And forests grow up from the earth
Like people do from the hurt
The waves and waves and waves of dirt
Capsizing what was once my worth
But you see in pages more than I
The winds of what it is to die
Blowing like for evermore
And I still see you there, mo stór
Effervescent on the hill
Then tiptoeing with some skill
On the tightrope of us
I gave my heart, you gave your trust
And somehow it beats from far away
You run and I stay
To be always on a hike
Like features in the world alike
Always aware of what we are
You be the sun for I am a star

Narrow Arms

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I’ve got narrow arms
I’ve always been thin
And I’m so short
Beside him
But he makes me feel 
Ten stories high
And I’ll love him
Til the day I die 
Or longer and further 
If I may
But I want him 
To know, okay
Letting go 
Of the years I hid
Always holding out
For the highest bid
But something in
The way he smiled 
Had me walking
All these miles 
Back to the place
I started
The moment when
Faith imparted
Us with just
A moment to spare
And I can tell
When you’re not there
And when you are
Like a cosmic star
Does she realise
Just how far
This love will go
It’s forever
I hope you know
It threads the needle
So very fine
And is a step
Out of time
Into what
You can only call
The root 
Of it all
Grown in ground
Like steady soil
So, let go 
Of all your toil
And rest back into 
The arms of Heaven 
As secure as 
The number eleven

Pictures Of You

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I just remember his eyes
I don’t know whether they’re green or blue
Except for that picture of you
That I saw on a screen miles away
Now you’re where I was that day
Somewhere in a big, big city
But lonely and that’s a pity
Coz we could be something, don’t you agree
But you only talk to a picture of me
And I ain’t making war
Coz, God knows, what for
And I don’t hate what you had to do
That you have someone walking with you
And it’ll never be what we were
But maybe it’s better and you stir
To match the moment of her
And she looks like she catches your glance
I bet she never asks you to dance
Coz you move like you’re in a trance
And I would take another chance
Out on the wind
Is it to have sinned
To want what isn’t yours to crave
A desire I try hard to save
From getting to the heart of me
And we’re apart but you see
I’ve got you buttoned on my shirt
It was never meant to hurt
But I can hear it in your voice
Do we have another choice?

Second Guess

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You’re in the past
But the feeling’s still present
I wonder if I could
Knock on your door guessing
Wondering 
If you’d let me in
And I would explain
Everything about him 
That it was momentary
A flash in the pan
But you are everything
That I am
And I’d pause and then say
Wait for you to reply
Hope we could be close 
Before we both die
Coz life is so brief
It’s barely a flicker
I ran after you
Your steps just got quicker
Til you slowed yourself down
To the sound of my voice
Say, I didn’t know
That there was a choice
And look at me 
In a sort of awe
I’m sorry I’m lovely
And kind of outlaw
And you take forever
Just to answer
Say, I took you for love 
Not a dancer 
And I beg you to listen
With the words that I say
It’s just I’ve never been heard
In quite that way
And the silence is deafening 
But so is the noise
And I’ve been all about men
And one of the boys
But you take time
To really know me
I give you space
As we walk so slowly 
Into a garden
That none suspect
I thought our love
And the whole thing was wrecked
But you say it’s not
And you press my pulse
Into my wrist
As the lightning dulls
The terrifying pain
Of being right here
And not knowing what
To say to you, my dear
But there is just an always
In between us it resides
And my heart’s the kind of thing
That simply abides
In the summer, in the winter
Trundling through the snow
I loved you so much
I let you go
But if you really
Want to be right here
Then I am waiting
For you, my dear
The doors unlocked
And you have a key
So no need to go
Second guessing me
No need to go drawing
A line in the sand
Just look into my eyes
And hold my hand
And feel my heart
Beating tremor
It’s just like you’ve
Found true love forever

Stillness – The Quiet Sound

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The trees just stand tall
They don’t go running around
And a leaf falls in silence
To land on the ground
And the age rolls on by me
It’s a calamitous affair
And I’m asked by my soul
To receive the prayer
That it is offering
Up to the sky
There is that that lives on
Even when we die
There is that that wakes
Even when we sleep
There’s no promise you can make
That it will not keep
And I’m walking the aisles
Of the ruin of me
Wondering if
The rain could be set free
As it pours in through
A hole in the roof
Living my life
Must be the proof
Of all that’s gone by
And all that’s yet to come
But if you look for this moment
You’ll find it is one
One with the dark
One with the dawn 
One within
That can never be gone
That keeps on rolling
The hills and the valleys
The no we can’t’s
And maybe we, shall we’s 
But in the end
It all comes down to this
Will you seize the moment
Or will you miss
It as it 
Goes passing by
I’m sorry, my love
But I had to try
To win you over
And take my chance
Now I move with the wind 
And watch the leaves dance
In a symphony 
Of quietude
The noise subsides
And you’re a pretty cool dude
Who keeps me there 
By a thread
I profess my love
You stay silent instead
And the roar of the ocean cannot drown out
The waves of me and my doubt
As I fail to see
What you’re asking for
I look at you
And I adore
Everything that is there to see
Could you picture you with me?

Love’s Everywhere

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I need to write in Morse code
Coz to tell our story would be an ode
And we’ve got leaves of times gone by
And you always promised me sky high
As I take your hand and we lift and soar
Into a future I can’t see anymore
Coz you’re ancient, you’re beautiful, you are all the trees
And an Angel of Mercy picked me up off my knees
So I could stand as the wind goes round
It spirals but I’m solid ground
And I dunno about ages, I dunno about time
But somewhere you will always be mine
In a storybook or on a page
I seem to write like a sage
In professions of what’s true
The slipping sands of me and you
Coz we are born to fade away
A moment of sun before the day
Closes into night like a cyclical thing
And every bird knows how to sing
The silence like it’s true and real
I thought you should know how I feel
So I put it in a letter, left it at your door
But I won’t bother you anymore
And you know where I am if you feel to reply
I’m always in the same space to fly
On the beauty that I own
Love’s everywhere, I’m not alone

Syllables

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She writes music that catches in your soul
As if all the waves have to do is roll 
And midnight comes before each dawn
So don’t lament what’s gone
Because it will come around again anew
You can’t miss what is destined for you
And I hope that’s true coz he’s all I see
What if he was never meant for me
I wonder and I pause and I flip through the prose
What if he is the one that fate chose
To hold my hand and be the One
I see him like he’s the Son
Of God in garden grass
And I wonder if all I had to do was ask
Would you maybe wanna be my guy
I know I’m quiet and I didn’t try
But do you think you could take a look
And read me like your favorite book
And it’s fine if you don’t know my name
I’m gonna love you all the same
And wish you the wealth of wisdom and heart
I never thought we’d be so long apart

You Wanna Dance With Me?

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All my family agree that you’re bad news
And have me paired up with a different pair of shoes
That never seem to walk the line surmised
Or pass the test when he’s been breathalysed
But he’s better and healthier from the outside
And all they want is a decent compromise
That’s so tempting just to fulfil
Even if it is against my will
Because your cocaine blues somehow conspire
To set my traitor’s heart afire
Send my pulse hammering in my veins
As I spit into your face and you leave tear stains
So wrong, so inconceivably wrong
That you make me feel as though I belong
With your violent aggression cloaked so shy
Into a look that only I can spy
And smile at because I know it means
That I’m the only one to burst your seams
And send you reeling universal
Into a cosmic hole of dispersal
As the midnight claims both our souls
I’d rather die by the number your dice rolls
Than live with the certainty that exists
When I survive on what my love resists
A truth and unfailingness to see
That though I hate it, you’re it for me.

Small Wonder

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There are some things you cannot deny
Like a love that will never die
Like honesty and what is right within
You cracked my exoskeleton
Thin into a little strands
That broke apart into your hands
And smiling as you realised
You held it all in the tears you cried
That could never be wrong or crossing the line
I think you and I will be just fine
As we make a bloodless, solemn pact
That we will always come back
To this place we share and each other
I love you, darling, my soul brother
As we’re held together by more than thread
You show your fragility instead
Of the angry exterior wall
Of strength and impressions fall
As I realise that you are him
I’ll never have to look again

The Dark

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"Don't touch it"
Everyone seems to say
But I love the dark 
It is deep and endlessly long
It is peaceful and pure
In its nothingness

Blood Strings

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You ripped my heart away from my body
That’s how I knew you were thinking of me
And I’ll take the pain and the bleeding wounds
If it means you’ll come back soon
But you are miles of forests ever away
And your absence can’t keep the darkness at bay
Like the desperation of he when he thinks she has died
Are the oceans of loneliness I have cried
And you stand up tall with your shoulders wide
But there are some things you cannot hide
And maybe I saw a fragment in your eye
Of the person I could be without your goodbye
So stay, I’ll beg you on my knees
I’ll do it on a stage if you want them to see
My desperation and my anguish floor bound
I dread the silence when you’re not around
And I know we fought and we could not make
A mountain from the rubble of our mistake
And I just want to touch your skin
In a way that reaches what is within
Cause I felt it, don’t tell me you didn’t too
It breaks my heart when you say it’s not for you
But you’re my butterfly and I want your colour
To be free to fly, as you wish, my brother

Opinionation

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I still think you’re the most beautiful thing I’ve ever seen
Though you stabbed me in the back and shattered my dream
And I’ve seen sights like wild fields and hills
But they don’t swallow the void that your face kills
So soft and sweet like the hairs on your chin
That shadows the hollows that define you within
But though you cross valleys and traverse foreign shores
You can’t distance away all that I am for
And wherever you go or what you may discover
It will be imbued with what we uncover
And your love will follow and stay by my side
I am the keeper of what you confide
Whispered so honestly in secret tones
In all that passes you are still my home
Where I will return when the midnight is due
From the depths of my being I will always love you
And forever’s just a word to hint at the crime
That happened just once when we stopped time
In the creases and folds and the fabric of space
There is a beauty nothing can erase
And it bears your name in the wrinkles you bend
Lighting up eyes that do not end
In the ochre or blackness or the scorching you do
With a heat that the desert cannot compare to
In the holding of hands or the touch that you weave
It only takes a moment to kneel and believe
In everything you profess and all that you are
This is my wish and you my shooting star

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Unquantifiability

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You’re at the edge of unquantifiability
And I can’t say I follow the line
Of your string theory interscope
Though I spend all of my time
Trying to decipher
The markings on your skin
Evidence of a tribal
That has scarred you from within
And you are like an animal
That scares easily from man
Though I don’t blame you
Cause you see what no one else can
And it is heartbreak to be crushed
Under your sleight of hand
And my only consolation
Is that you understand
Just what you are doing
As you slowly rip to shreds
All the scattered of the pieces
That are floating in my head
But I drift away
On the wavelength of a sound
That bends in quadratics
When you’re not around
And anchors me deeper
Into the roots I have grown
You are the only loss
The earth has ever known
As it spirals kaleidoscopic
And pierces my bodily flesh
It was just a misapprehension
When I felt you knew me best
As we matched fingertips
As we sat hand to hand
The undiscoverable
Opened out the land
That spread freedom wide
Amid the loveliness untold
But it not enough
And we fall back into the fold
That we both feel hit home
At having been cast out
Of the abyss we were born from
Now the birds are heading south
As I realise targeted
Arrows hit only once
You eyes do not meet mine
And I have lost the sun

The Great Beyond

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Thinking I could let go of you was just fools gold
You are who I am
And I could no more forget you
Than the sun could the stars
For she faces them eternally
Against the blackest backdrop of night
As they stretch to infinity
Tiny pin pricks of light
That signal
More of her own kind
Out there in the great beyond

Magical

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I think you may be an angel, the like ghosts have never seen
I think I made you up because you are a dream
I think that I’m unfaithful because I never can measure up
To the perfection of your beauty or the expression of your love
You are the magnificence that I can never name
You are the forest fire untouched by the rain
You are all these things and so much more
You are the one I always will adore
And you set me on a path anew
You made me realise the power that resides in you
And in myself through the reflection in your eyes
That will live on even while these bodies die
Yes, you are the Lord made flesh and the ultimate divine
And though all things will pass away you are forever mine
Because what we cannot touch we can never lose
And we don’t get to pick what we cannot refuse

I’ll Love You

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And I will continue to love you
Through the walls of my reverie
I don’t think you have any idea
Of the world you mean to me
You are just like the sky
Or the ocean to spread out a sea
And that look in your eyes
Smacks of infinity
And I just do not care
Where you go in your life
With whom, what you do,
If you love, take a wife
I’ll always be here by the shore
And you the one I adore
It’s not even just who you are
How can the darkness know a star
We are one you see
Before there even was a sun to be
And you’ll outshine the ages with your eternal face
It’s not what can be seen but what’s under this place
And I’ll love you
Yes I’ll love you
Like I love you now
No distance and time
Separates what’s entwined
I’ll love you

The River

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Run like the river to get away from me
I’m not trying to brag but we made history
And in a sundown moment we shone like a star
But now you have a hold of someone else’s heart
So don’t try to say sorry like it is okay
It wasn’t my choice that you should go away
And I mourn for your loss nay on everyday
All I can do is contemplate, sit at home and pray
But I wish you all the blessings that come freely with true love
And it’s unconditionally if its sent from above
And in all your storming might, in all your new found glory
Don’t forget to remember that we too had our story
And it reigned supreme down on all the lands
I never knew what it meant to have someone who understands
And you are effortlessly kind and endlessly pure
You gave me forever and that will endure

Inspiration

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You’re an endless inspiration and I’m a hopeless muse
You are the bulletproof that blows apart the fuse
And there is a design that machinates the whole
There is a forever that sits inside my soul
As we in matching colours go our separate ways
And the night comes every evening at the end of days
And apocalypse the moment as fire rains on me
Because I understand that we are history

Everlasting

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The night comes falling in around me
And I just feel like I am free
As the stars shine bright cascadingly
I wonder who it is I’ll be

For the design is perfect pure
It’s the one thing that I know for sure
And in all of what will endure
You are the perfect ailment cure

Cause loving you is just release
You are the wrinkle that I crease
You’re the one thing that does not cease
In all of what will just decease

Eternity

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A beautiful disaster isn’t the word for you
But I can’t argue semantics because I am one too
And there are some songs that really fit our name
And playing you’s a joy cause you’re such a perfect game
But the nighttime intercedes in between our days
As you walk away from me in a myriad of ways
And you find your home in some other where
I’ve never been one to pretend I didn’t care
Because I do, I do and never will forget
The time we spent together, the time that we could yet
But if it is your will then I will let you go
It’s not like it is a choice but just so you will know
From now until forever you will be in my heart
We’re begun in an eternity that has no end or start

Trust

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You are always home to me wherever we both go
And though we do not speak in words I know that you know
As sure as the stars blaze forth in galaxies afar
The dark interweaves our souls entwined to always what we are
And I know you have moved on and our lives are separate streams
But I meet you daily and nightly in my dreams
And everywhere’s an everglade with leaves all bursting forth
You taught me how to be myself and showed me what I’m worth
But I think in sidelines, somedays, I taught you too
Cause when you were on your own I was always there with you
In the brushing of the wind or the language that we speak
You are the destiny I didn’t know how to seek
But you found me and all in the open of the air
And in that moment looking through I saw you standing there
As you moved the earth with the weight of time and age
You are more than just a fantasy or wording on a page
And everyday’s an ocean and you’re not really gone
Cause you are inside my heart and have been for so long
So don’t cry bitter tears when you think of the past of us
We’ve always had a bond and that’s where I place my trust

The Evening’s Breath

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Now the evening’s breath
Lies low upon the land
And rising up from every avenue
Comes the dust of another time
As it aches and pours
With a long lost forever
Never to be