Tag: faith

The Bullet In My Body

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There is a bullet in my body, some kind of shrapnel 
I got from the war I fought
With a boy who can’t be bought
Not with trinkets polished to gold
Not with promises of growing old 
Only the truth raises his eyes
And lets him see with no disguise
As he looks into me 
Letting part of it go free
As it struggles to get loose
What is the point that you prove
When you seek to impress
Me so you can see me undress 
In your mind 
And I ask what’s left behind 
In the water that we find 
Somewhere on the shore 
And I visit Loch Lomond and adore
The wilderness of mountains frame
When the English played their games
With the lives of their so called subjects
But I reject
Their colonial expanse
That would have killed the dance
Every human heart is party to 
And I see that freedom in you 
As you fight with me 
And you don’t know that your integrity
Is my favourite thing about ya
Did you think I doubt ya 
When you say that no means no 
And I love you but I let it go 
And trust that fate will bring us together
In this sea of highland weather 
The Celt in my bones
Won’t leave it alone 
And I just call you “one more time” 
Would it be a crime 
If I crossed your girlfriends line 
That has been drawn in the sand
And I cannot love someone else’s man 
Though I do
My soul will ever call to you 
Across the ocean between us
I think God might dream us 
When we conceive of a future we own
And do you lose if the game has been thrown? 

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The Poet Of The Pyrenees

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I miss David more than I can explain
I look outside and it’s rain
And it was always sun when he was around
Like he gave meaning and life to sound 
And he burst colour into the scene 
As though I was alive within the dream 
And now all is dull and grey
And what is it that people say
Life is what you make it 
And love is deep so don’t forsake it 
But I don’t know how to utter your name
Without making you take the blame 
For all that we could never be
I saw you down on one knee
Proposing to me
But you laugh in my face and the indignity 
Of the moment have me cracking open 
The shell that was the kernel of hoping 
For more than just words on the page
And the silent rage
Pounds against the walls of my castle 
And I wonder is romance worth the hassle 
If it means I must go up against 
Your past and your present tense 
And maybe you’ll never know what it meant 
When you accepted the letter I sent 

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The Darkness That Ensued

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The darkness that ensued
And all I could do was brood
Over the way things had come to be
Confinement was the only mystery 
I could bear to hold
So I ran from the fields of gold
To the chains in the city
And it was more self pity
Than it was bravery
I couldn’t face the truth
And the pillars of my youth
Are falling around me 
Now I have no grandfather to ground me
So I just grasp at empty air
Because you are no longer there
To catch me when I fall 
And see me play football
Down at the pitch
Making a switch
With Linda on the field 
But the wind blows and I yield 
To it and let you go 
It was harder than you know
To relax my grasp 
On the part of me that was born to last
And I couldn’t cry tears
Despite the years 
We spent together 
And the weather
Turned suddenly snow
And somehow I just know
That it’s time 
And my crime
Is that I couldn’t bear to face
This aspect of the human race
That we must say goodbye
To the people we love as they die
And I’m hearing voices
The people in Pat’s say it’s just noises
But I sense that I can hear
More than just the ones I hold dear
From the other side
I think they are still alive
In some other realm 
And at the helm
Is a spirit greater than we can understand 
He is not ruled over by man 
But free to birth into the world of form 
And just because my body’s warm 
Doesn’t mean that I’m separate 
From the ones my heart equate
With eternal love
And if I no longer have to look above
But within to find you there 
Would you know that I still care?

Awake Inside The Dream

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Did we make it this far
To be awake within the dream 
The firefights and storms
The illusion as it seems 
And the trapping of delusion
Spreads its grasp 
And I wonder how long 
This darkness can last 
But somehow the sun breaks 
And something within me wakes 
To spell the end of the old domination 
And I’ve learned more through my miseducation 
Than I ever could through books
i steal in glances and furtive looks 
All that is needed to contain
Sometimes the solution is in the pain
That seems to encase the human race
Nothing is bad but that it shows another face
To the sky 
And we are all gonna die
Someday 
But when we live do we walk the way
Of the liberated 
And if we do can it be stated
In between lines and in the silence
I watch men do all the violence
That could ever be contained
And in the summer, it rained 
Like it always does on an Irish Sea
Somehow the time has come to me 
To stand up and be counted
And for all that has amounted 
To my demise
It’s only sunset for the morning to rise
And break a new vista across the scene
Can we speak what can never be seen

Immortality

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I hold back what I really want to write
Because I’m scared that it might be shite
Or even worse profanity
Paying testament to insanity 
Held beneath the skin I walk
It’s only trouble that I talk 
As I head to the abyss
Fearing for a night to kiss
And they held me in a healing balm 
The doctor took my shattered arm 
And led me to the door
They drove me there and what’s more
Is I kind a liked it when 
Barry called my name again 
Out like a prophet does Jesus
Lord knows how I need it 
When I’m in the smoking room 
With Aoibhín and the sonic boom 
As we draw rainbows on the wall
In pens my parents brought me from outside
Outside the cavern that keeps me alive
For the time being 
It’s a different way of seeing 
But it’s true enough to say
I couldn’t have had it any other way 
And the doctor mumbles and utters vague treatises under his breath
On what the war with self does to make you forget 
What you have come to be
But I cannot shake the feeling that he cannot see
Just who he is talking to 
“Delusions of grandeur, we’ll add that one to
The long list we made of your faults”
And I kinda get sick of opening vaults
For them to plunder my wealth
In the name of mental health
And I wonder what they’re preserving 
Or what God they are observing 
When they make idol tropes
And then they tell Shauna how to cope
With the fact that she can’t bear
To get out of the clothes that she seems to wear
Each and every single day
But I won’t let her leave that way
So I go and sit by her side
When she’s in the horrors and I abide
I feel it fall away from her grasp
You know that bitch, that poisoned asp
And I crush its head on the floor
You’re not taking aim at someone I adore
Even if it’s by her doing 
It’s not something you should be pursuing 
In any eventuality
Me, St. Pat’s and immortality

New Season

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New season, can you accept it with grace
And it’s been an age since I’ve seen your face
And for all my intuitive understanding 
I can never reply to what you are demanding
In splintered prose
And less travelled roads
It all gets so tiresome and weary
I just want someone to see it clearly
And I had thought that you
Had peered through
The vast abyss or canyon cavern
To something more than a tavern
With spirits and ale
A chalice that is not up for sale
I support the columns because should they fall
There would be an unholy clatter in the hall
Like that time we shattered glass
Or broke the branch of class
With our own brand of free
Now he’s talking to me
And it’s like all my dreams have come true
In the midst of me and you
And absent weight
A moment to forget the hate
And all that weighs us down 
We could be the coolest folks in the town
Your words, not mine
And every crime
Has its resolution
And the solution
Is meeting them where they are
Every person, I don’t care who you are
Has a star
At the core of their being 
Even though they may not be seeing
The light sublime
I wouldn’t trade it in if it were mine

Eternal Clothes

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Marriage and prose
And less travelled roads
Did I find mine
With a stranger who just took a moment of my time
And let me be
He let me go free
When I felt the fear encapsulate
Because he might want to date
Me
And eternity
Is all I know
But I have to let you know
I don’t do boys and girls
I do you are my world 
And you have become
Everything I thought when I was young
As we just talk 
And we just walk
You lift my bag
And I drag
My feet behind me
But do not mind me
I’m just shy
And I’m gonna love you til the day I die
It’s not your choice
But I raise my voice 
To let you know 
That this love won’t let me go
And find another
You’re like a lover 
I never had
And the feeling bad
Does not eclipse
The anticipation of your lips 
On mine
There was a time
I thought we were naught
Til I saw the line you bought 
With the skyline in the air
So I let you know I care
In stuttering vowels
And the wolf of death, he prowls
On the edge of conversation
And education
Can’t save us here
But she just might, my dear
And I do not begrudge 
The way you choose to express your love
And find it reflected 
In the heart you have selected 
To be yours 
And the water pures 
As it pours through the filter
And time will wilt her 
But it will not change 
The way the atoms rearragnge
To form a sphere 
I will always be with you, dear

The Fields We Know

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The dying of the light
Everything is gonna be alright 
Because the night
Only comes so that the dawn
Shows you what was never gone
And we are in a cyclical spin 
But I am always in love with Him
As, steadfast, He spans the dream
And I only know how to be a queen 
Unselfish unto the sky
And not afraid to die 
For what I Am 
Standing for what you cannot plan 
To come to be and sustain
The fields do not refuse rain

Rhythm Section, Immaterially

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Cause of death, dying
What do you expect, trying 
And I try to reason
With him but it’s just a season 
In the garden he grows
It’s all flowers and God knows
I try not to be the sky
Reflecting blues in his eyes
As they stare up at the sun
But I think he might be the One
As he moves in a sashay
And he can have me any way
He likes to entertain
And his love is not in vain
As he holds a paper heart
Out and it makes my own start
Beating a rhythm I cannot contain
Would the sky take back the rain
It had cried in tears
If it meant it could erase the years
That have gone in between
The midnight of someone else’s dream
In a come what may
What is it that the people say
That there is a wilderness beyond the hedge
And you are more than the pond you dredge
To bring up gold
And that story’s never told
If you’re looking for a quick line
In the bathroom for the thousandth time

All The Burning Embers

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All of the burning embers
No one really remembers
Who you used to be
It’s like the fountain that you see
In the ocean that grows within
They’re obsessed with the notion of sin
And I’ve outgrown the domain 
That only seems to inflict pain 
On the monster that abides
The one your revolution hides
Beneath the snow of an avalanche 
Were you released in the first tranche
Of saviours to keep the day
Working in its own way
And the sudden scar
Is a wildebeest to your open heart
The one you wear on your sleeve 
Do you expect me to just believe 
In the brand you sell
I’m in the jungle but I wish you well

The Power Of My Voice

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The power of my voice
I speak and it’s not by choice
It’s like God has hold of my tongue
And I surrendered to Him when I was young
Now he commands more than I can believe
I let Him move me and it relieve
The pressure that’s been building
Up in my soul
Does a wave know it’s water
When it starts to roll
Only to crash back into the sea
Never really leaving the vicinity 
Of ocean all the time
I thought I could call the people mine
But they turned on me and the desire
Burned in me like sulfurous fire
Always aching to reach out beyond
They lock me up and I abscond
Only to be returned to the same place again
The bathroom floor and me are great friends
And it is cool against my cheek
Do you remember that time I got weak
And collapsed in front of the class
I didn’t know the Revelation last
Now I’ve got vines pulling at my hands
I’ve got an hourglass and it’s slipping sand 
But does God just turn it when the time runs out
So He can achieve without any doubt
And is there a way I can transcend 
Something about the riverbend 
And being open to what you don’t know
I held on so tight, now I let go
And the winter can’t stop me loving the snow 
His hand connected with the wrong side of a blow
And I was felled just like a tree
Except it didn’t really happen to me
Just some grass in the forest
I don’t know what I’m doing, if I’m being honest
But the road is paved, the path is beaten
And I can’t avoid the moment I meet Him
There in the woods of ill repute 
You wear a dress, I’ll play the flute
And music will last for the whole night
I look up and grin because I am alright

The Vines That Pull

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So I got locked up
For a crime I didn’t commit
And the doctors are in league
With the demons I’m dancing with
And they’ve got names 
For my affliction 
Like love and lust
Passion and addiction 
And I can’t exist 
Between the two poles 
Do anything other
Than be completely whole
And I thought I could trust
In a fall away floor
So I stood still
And the trapdoor
Vanished 
From under my feet
Now me and the darkness 
Finally meet
In movements that reach
Across my bedroom floor
It’s not really
Less is more
More like a mystery
Than a conundrum 
The wonder is that I 
Can’t discover Him
Where he always was
Like light was put on pause
And the Saint I love
She talks about the distance 
Between the God of peace
And the rest of existence
So I know I’m not really
On my own
Then it bursts to life
In true colours shown
Like the whole world was pulsing
With this desire
And the heart of the matter
Was a burning fire
That gives rise to lit in the tree
Like Moses says God is talking to me
And the Divine has its own language
It speaks in tongues 
And I could translate them 
When I was young
Now all of the words 
Turn to a silent tone
Like the crackle of static 
On the other end of the phone

Echoed Through These Halls

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The sound of you
Has echoed through these halls
And it’s bringing down barriers
And cavernous walls 
Until all is a grand open space
With not one instant of my time gone to waste
And I hit pause in 2011
All because the sound of Heaven 
Was just too damn real
And you’re not the boy I want to steal
Away with into the night
But you came close to it, alright
And I spill ink on the canvas I draw
I’m like the cold witch and my bones start to thaw
In the sunlight you bequeath
And I guess I’m embarrassed so I stare at my feet
But you turn my face upward with your palm
You look at me and I am calm
I’m the storm that surround
You are worth the way it resounds
And leaves me feeling like friend is ancient
I’m an artist and I try to paint it
But it never lives up to what you are
A feeble try to condense a star
Into matter and fusion
But it was just confusion
To say I don’t love you so
And I just want you to know
That you crack the glass with your smile
And I dream of you for a little while
But it is real as can be
I took the biscuit but just dip it in tea

Rockets

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I was just walking home with Daz
Wondering about that shine he has
And I would’ve asked him up
If I thought he’d’ve wanted a cup
Of tea to warm our bones
Coz we are so far from home
Here in this big city
And it’s a bit shitty
I never told you how I felt
Never let on the cards were dealt
The first time you smiled at me
You know you made me feel pretty
And I feel so aged and old
But it’s not too late for our story to be told
And I wonder how you are
Did you find a star
To shine as bright as you do
And do I still mean something to you?

Sunday Matinee

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People seem to want to carve out their little islands
Forget about the principles of non violence
And childhood dsys
We have grown up in so many ways
But have we matured
Is life just something to be endured 
Or is it a joy
In the story of girl meets boy
And cacophony resound
Do you wake up when you hear the sound
Of tomorrow’s bells
And who tells
The sun to rise
Or a baby to open their eyes
In stormy skies
What lives on when the body dies
Is it the soul
And if it is what is the role
Of ego, identification with form
Do you feel the fire warm
The cockles of your heart
Is it trouble just to take part
In this kind of din
And when I walk alone is it with Him 

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Sewing My Thread

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I looked out the window
I watched for the tide
With news from the sea
That you might be alive
And I can't preempt destiny
Or run with the wolves
I've just got this awesome 
And hot damn it pulls
Me like a thread
Through a needle eye
I just wait for news
And hope you don't die
Somewhere afar
Where I can't reach you
Life said, love, listen
And let the truth teach you
Coz I can't be a summer
When winter has dawned
I can't be the clock face
That someone has pawned
For gold or money
Or just getting by
I know life is hard
But I've gotta try
To find the flow
That runs a river
I know I've been gone
But could you forgive her
For the fear in her blood
It runs in her veins
And it's not easy 
To erase the stains
That come from a life
Of denying truth
It's almost too much
The paragon of youth
As I finally come round
The smelling salts
Wake me and take me 
As my nose assaults
My senses with something 
That's meant to rouse
I don't mean to disappoint
I want to make you proud

The Movement Forward

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Do I speak what I have to say
Does the shaking in my hand give away
The sword that I cannot steady
But the worst is happening already
On land I see on a screen
And this is not the people's dream 
To have machine gun hands facing them 
Is it gonna happen again
Or can we realise
That you can't undo what dies
Once it is gone
And we've been fighting for so long
Not just with each other but within oursleves
One earns a million, another's stacking shelves
And you can say that's capitalism
Or that there's a split in the great schism
As we find what we have in common rooms
Is there a way to waylay the doom
That seems to advance from all sides
But, hey man, we're still alive
And we can still tell the tale
Of something that's not up for sale 
In this thing that we've built
There's scaffolding over milk that's spilt
But as I clean up the glass
I think of something I'd never taught to ask 
Are we all as one
And if we are then could the sun
Shine in every human heart
As the most expansive part
Generating compassion to a degree
I know it's not just me 
That feels that something's in the mix
Fusing bonds that science splits 
To generate something new for us
I believe in Love and I trust
In the human heart once more
The truth that something adore

Overestimating My Appeal

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I could be overestimating my appeal
Like the man is gorgeous, he’s a steal
It’s just I’ve got this gut intuition
That I could be gunpowder to his ammunition 
And is it all attraction or is it something more
I could see myself calling to his door
And answering him when I pick up the phone
Not have to spend every minute alone
But he clasps my words like it’s my hands 
He’s spaciousness and he understands
Though he may have made a blunder or two
He’s got my number and I’m replying to you

Of Transparency

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I’m as see through as a pane of glass
And I can see through you, you don’t have to ask
What exactly is on your mind
I left the world I left behind 
And grew up into walking shoes
To hold my own and pay my dues
In seasonal or in holiday stance
And I’ve got to say I’ve enjoyed the dance
As you tic tac toe in front of me
Mr. Awesome or so I see
As you lean in close to meet my word
And I wonder what it is you heard
Coz it echoes against these cavern walls
In holidays and free for all’s
You knock on my door with your suit and tie
Stand up for what can never die
And I take your arm as we walk to the dance
Is loving you a sort of chance
Or risk I’m taking out on the pier
Letting a man come near
Close enough to break my heart
By giving him a share or part
Of what I’ve held in from the sky
I’m not playing games, I don’t lie
But I hold back because the fear
Is great enough to kill me, dear
And my heart It pounds in my chest
As I forsake the rest
To say I will and I do
When I’m looking straight at you
In eyes held tight at the altar
The time is now though it gets shorter
To see the mist advance with age
Though I can’t run from a blank page
That bids me just to tell the truth
And it’s not so bad giving way to youth
That is passing like a sea of storm
You’re more to me than a bed that’s warm
You are an immortal being
Though these images that I’m seeing
May make you want to run a mile
Or, I dunno, maybe just smile
And laugh and say isn’t that the way
You look at me and I’m okay

Flash Flood

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You’re running in my blood
You’re running in my veins
And it’s like the man said
That I am strange
Coz I just can’t be awful to make a point
I’m only messing, don’t knock yourself out of joint 
In trying to be normal and to fit in
I come and go but it’s always him
I return back to in the midnight
Where there’s no need to ask if you’re alright
Coz you are and the stars shine from your sky
We’re together forever so there’s no goodbye
Waiting in the wings of a terrible dawn
When you wake up and realise that it’s all gone
Like the boy I loved when I was seventeen
But the wind escaped from a terrible dream
The one I roll in like the sea
When the current is demolishing me
Til all and sundry is broken and beaten
Like you have you’re cake but it will remain uneaten
And I never got to hold his hand
But the sight of him sure was grand
Til the brutal tide that won’t be surpassed
Came at me til I was harassed
Trying to get on with half an act
It’s like it was fucking awful and I can’t go back
To where I was before it began
And you become an also ran
Til I’m knocking my head against the wall
Coz I can find no silence in it all
But the peace it came and kissed my face
When I was an abject disgrace
When nothing could save me from defeat
I was run down and knocked off my feet
And I try to get back up and walk
It’s like telling the wind it has to talk
When it can only whisper nothings on the breeze
Do you know the feeling when your heart starts to seize
And you’ve got nothing but ragged breath
Saying to yourself there’s no regret
But just one that I ever let you go
And another that I never let him know
The true depths of feeling that pumps a course
My circuitry and the remorse

Gleaming Diamond

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Do I really want you to come a little closer
You’re just like a ghost
With the flavors of nothing 
And what I love the most
I see you shy away and I avoid
Being one of the girls
You’re not one of the boys
But you dance 
Like Heaven has given you another chance
To be all you are
The wonderful bridge
Constellatory star 
That just shines
Like gleaming diamonds in gold mines
I pick one up
But it just reflects the look of you, love
And we’re one again
Outside the realm of women and men
Just to be what is
He holds my hand and I am his
To recalculate 
All that has me in a lowly state
Where do I walk
And is all my effulgence just mere talk
Do I live up to
The brigand that I saw in you
As you caught my hand
I catch my breath as you reprimand 
Me for my trauma of being too much
I back away but I also clutch
You to me
Can you love the whole sea
When it’s not yours or mine
I felt crushed watching About Time
And I could feel a lion roar 
Deep within me
Death the moment life begins me
As I sit up off the floor
What was that and what’s more
Who am I
How am I not to die
When this body walks I seem to move
But it’s just patterning on the groove
Of the effervescent 
I hate to be described as pleasant
Coz it’s so lukewarm
And I am nothing if not a storm
Brewing over the hill
Do you know the moment if you’re not still?

Something Superb

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There’s something superb on my window pane
And all of my fighting I have done in vain
Coz he’s waiting for me when I get home
And there’s nothing I ever have to do alone
And he’s sweet and innocent
Pausing and true
I let him fall into open arms and you
Are always there when I get back
There’s nothing in me that you lack
As you fail to find refuge in foreign seas
And get diagnosed with the dreamer’s disease 
But it’s not make believe that he was there
And I found a diamond in true care

Where To Start

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He writes songs about the chad
And the Irish way of feeling bad
About it
But you couldn’t doubt it
When it’s falling from his lips
And it is an eclipse
From the depths of blue rivers run
There’s no way of seeing the sun
Not when he’s got a song
And I’ve gotta say there’s nothing wrong 
With all I’ve grown up to be
It’s only now I’m starting to see
The landscape hidden from view
Thanks for sharing your vista
And I know I could’ve missed ya
But I just saw the sea
Rising up from the wintery
Snow that you’ve been freezing in
Abjectly shivering
But put your hands to the blaze
It’s a fire that’s learned to save

Central Park

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Is it too long left unspoken
I say, man, I’m only joking
But I’m serious as death can be
I loved you so I set you free
But I spend every moment wishing you were here 
I love you so much, my dear 
And I every time I fail to catch
I leave the door on the latch
Just in case you’ll walk in
And I make up stories of me and him
To keep me warm in the grey dark
And I just walked around Central Park
Wondering what was there to give
If there’s a life I can let live
But somehow moments in the stunning
And I’m just running, running
Away from this pain that caved inside
Is there a reason why I hide
From all I thought I knew
It all revolves around you

Greatest Regret

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Is marriage the line I cannot traverse
And I can only watch them rehearse
And get ready for the big day
Pretend I don’t care anyway 
When all I love is walking down the aisle
And seeing you turn and spill a smile
Into my eyes eternally
But you’re looking at her, not me
And I shouldn’t be jealous
Or covet what’s hers
It’s just you were mine
Amongst the firs
As we make Heaven
Come down to Earth
And I wash away 
The pain that you hurt
With, to you and many
Now I see her in your gaze 
And there isn’t any
Anything I can do to change
The way the molecules rearrange
To the sound of sulfur on your breath
Tinged with my greatest regret

Is This Goodbye

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Is this goodbye
Now I’m letting go
Of the pain that had me
Wedded to you, you know
And every tale
I keep in a locket 
Is a symbol of 
How they forgot it
Coz the season changes
And time renews
And what’s bad in the morning
Becomes old news
I click my heels together
When I hear your name
It’s been an ocean
And I won’t be the same
But loving you slightly 
Will always be
Taking a dram
Of straight destiny

Dancing With

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I’ve got the fear of missing out on stuff
And most of that is love
Coz they’ve all got stars in their eyes
And I’m full of existential why’s 
As Peter dances with me in the club
I may have kept the ticket stub 
As he laughs when I say hi
And I begin to think he’s superfly 
But it could never work coz it’s not the dream
And I’m holding out for what could’ve been
Don’t you think you’d know at first sight
And your smile is kryptonite 
And there’s nothing more to say
Did I adore the way
Your reflection keeps the style
And I’m down for a long while
And I don’t understand why you’re still on my mind
When I thought that had left nothing in kind
And is it wrong to profess my dues
When I’m walking my own shoes
And have the rhythm of soul
And a heart of fire that’s burning with coal
Do you think we could be something still?
Even if you forget I never will

Sister Soul

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Ijust wanna protect her
And I’m so mad that he’d reject her
And ruin her starlit shine
It’s kind of like the light that used to be mine
And now she sings of a defeat, years ago
I close my eyes because I should not know
But I do
I still feel you
In the cobwebs of my mind
Kind of like a secret I’ve left behind 
And we tangled up our avenues 
I sing of heaven without you
And innocence lost
She paid the price but at what cost

Unparliamentary Language

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I withdraw my accusation 
Since I’ve lived my realisation 
And see that the fault is not with you
It’s with the pain you put me through
As I resist and you agree
That everything troubled comes over the sea
In washes and waves at the Cliffs of Moher
And you swore you did not know her
Til I saw your hands interlocked 
On a screen in between where the birds had flocked
To get their share
Of bread and water, now I’m in your stare
As you love her more than you loved me
Why did I not let myself just see
As I hid on paper
And you promised them that you hate her
Well, that her is me
And I’m not gonna try to make you see
Infinity
Unless you already do
And I felt the ocean move
When you touched my hand
And met eyes that understand
To leave you free
I’m glad you picked her over me

One Times One

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Listening to Midnights in the dark in Natchez
I thought she said she buried the hatchet
But she’s wearing it like a new dress
Not even trying to impress
And I wonder what sky
She lies under like a guy
And I’m high on frappechino
But isn’t it like a dream though
To know someone knows you well
Throughout the secrets you never tell
Just fly solo 
But it’s cooler than ice, you know
As I think of that book we bought
Queuing up in the cold we caught 
And it just reminds me of all the times
I trusted the way the sun shines
On the gap between us both
I smile still and you know it
But I say
I’m not gonna explain it away
As I do
A one times one is never two

Destiny

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I've got a destiny
I can feel it in my bones
And it has something to do 
With saving people's homes
With finding a diagram
That will fit the screen
I have to make reality
Out of the thing I dream 
And the stories I tell 
Myself quietly at night
There has to be a way
To make the world alright
To cause and effect
And point out the tune
And I am not alone
When I'm sitting in my room
When I'm sitting by myself
To ponder life as real 
There has to be more
Than the way we cut the deal

Small Wonder

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There are some things you cannot deny
Like a love that will never die
Like honesty and what is right within
You cracked my exoskeleton
Thin into a little strands
That broke apart into your hands
And smiling as you realised
You held it all in the tears you cried
That could never be wrong or crossing the line
I think you and I will be just fine
As we make a bloodless, solemn pact
That we will always come back
To this place we share and each other
I love you, darling, my soul brother
As we’re held together by more than thread
You show your fragility instead
Of the angry exterior wall
Of strength and impressions fall
As I realise that you are him
I’ll never have to look again

Some Kind Of Solitude

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The silence in between the sounds expels the disaster life has pending
And though there are new beginnings I always feel like something’s ending
Imperceptible and finite and not subject to reprieve
This is not a man made illness and not just something I believe
Because there is a conquerer beyond the you or I
And its only what’s born of flesh that ever has to die
But that substantial underneath that powers the whole
Is not just a clockwork rig but the essence of my soul
The permanent, the unchanging, the unfalteringly there
There is a silence deep within where you don’t have to care
And all the travails that I sustain and the storms that I fight through
Are nothing when it comes to the inevitability of You
As I see it in the stars, or the way the planets move
That we are part of a concoction I cannot disprove
And our very consciousness, the sight behind our eyes
Looks through the infintesimal as I say my last goodbyes
To the life that I have known and steady grown up in
But effortless the letting go of what I cannot win
And the crying in the night, the tears unto the dawn
I want to realise what’s there when I am gone
And please don’t misunderstand me, no towers to the spire
Its just to walk in my own shoes expands into something higher
As what’s divine manifests in perplexity on my face
I have to know the Truth, now that I’ve had a taste
And weed out all the roots, though there is really only one
What is there left to do when all your work is done
And you lay down all the arms to protect what you have not
It doesn’t seem like much to ask but it is a lot
As I pass through the eye of what I found in the haystack
That girl is long gone and she’s never coming back
As consciously I choose to just be laid down
Awarenessing the sincerity in which I will drown
An ever pliant material that you don’t have to break
Just lead me to the precipce so that I can wake
As I leap of faith back into my home
I realise the solitude of peacefully alone