There’s something in me That doesn’t want to see the light of day I’m surrounded And they ask if I’m okay And they offer pills And they offer potions Coz I can’t handle These emotions And I slap their hands away But I know what they’re gonna say “You’re just not well And we know you’re going through hell So take these, please” And I crave a just release So I take their ardent pleas Like Barry on his knees Professing to that woman And I felt like stunning Them all with a declaration Of a lion school education But they wouldn’t get it anyway So I draw on the wall, okay And they didn’t paint it over til A year later and I will See it out of the corner of my eye And someone I love die So I spiral out of control Let the keening take my soul As I scream and rail Against the part of me that’s not for sale So I bite the bullet they hand to me Shoot me like it’s done for free And I’m paralysed by indecision And I was always good at revision So I study the lines And I try not to touch ‘em a thousand times But I’m always met with the same reflection In the window of my confession In front of a nurse I love He laughs and I look above At the Heavenly Light He emanated and, alright It’s not the done thing But I don’t want a ring Just a way out He smiles what I’m all about
They paved a path and told me to walk I tried to speak up, they said it’s all talk As I contradict The line they’re running with Could you spare a minute doctor dear I wanna make something clear I am moved by the immutable force Like a river by nature just follows the course That sends it from spring to the sea Well, so it is with me As I feel the flow You tell me not to let go But I’m not holding on The thing you look for is long gone And the clambering rock on the cliff that I scale Is not enough to make my courage fail Because I’m brilliant red and Griffindor You’re looking for less but I’ve got more Than you ever could contain Within the concept of rain Must I say it to you again As I slouch around the hall I’m fuckin’ bored, will you pass me the ball So I can shoot it in the net Remind you that I don’t forget The lines you litter with your feet I never spoke about the monumental meet I had with a guy so sweet It’s cooking time and the heat Is too much for me to stand I look at him and he takes my hand And holds it close to his face A beauty that I can’t erase As he’s speaking to my doubt Don’t need to have to do without But within is where I rule domain And I know we’ll meet again Somewhere in between There is a crack in the dream That’s how the light gets in For a moment there it was with him
The Poetry Book 