There is a boy somewhere far away And I know that no matter what he may say He can’t escape me Or erase me From his grasp And the asp Bit me on the neck Of the dream I thought to wreck And I wonder when we both might die Me by accident and you because you want to try To see what’s beyond the pale And I know what is not up for sale But I have no cash to buy Just the lashes I use to lie About who I am I look away and that’s part of the plan Because I cannot let you see That you have found your home in me Because I know that someday we’ll be separated Whether by force or because we’ve been education To believe in the divide And I abide Somewhere between God and Mass Between being a good girl and getting an A in class And it’s something growing up in an Ireland in transition Where people still use ammunition To fire at you While tolerance is preached to you in the pew And it’s not okay to be gay Then it is (or at least that’s what they say) And I think of Stephen Gately And the people who cannot find a home lately As the rows erupt And people on the news say that we’re fucked But I see another scene And it resides in all that we’ve been In all these centuries And the millennia before they told us who we could be If we just believed But the dragon falls and I’m relieved Of the burden I bear And I watch the fabric tear On all that I thought I knew This land always meant more to me than you And I know you’re somewhere in the city And I tried it for a while but it’s a pity But I missed the hills of Kilglass And the soul that pours through the grass In the fields so green The college was a concrete jungle of all I’d never been And I found some kind of refuge in Darragh But my heart is like a sparrow That sits on a lonely branch and sings For the boys that gives air to its wings And the girls fight over what handbag is on brand And I just stare and watch the sand Slipping out of our hands And wonder why they don’t understand That they’re gripping something that is made of leather And won’t make them feel any better And I know I’ve got to get out of there Then I find Tessa and Jennie and I know that they care As we find some kind of peace in Nutgrove Avenue And I drove my own car down the roads of you As I stay up til five Exuberant in the knowledge that you’re alive Somewhere over there on the west coast And I don’t mean to boast But I think my man is the best Because he’s deeper than all the rest And I cannot contemplate A series of x’s and y’s that do not equate To you and I forever So I sail this endeavour To it’s logical conclusion My confession and your confusion
I watch it fly into the sky And, you know, everyone cry But not everyone wakes while they live It happens when you forgive That girl who took a lightning strike And aimed it at me but, like, I turn it into some kind of illumination And now every tv station Plays my tune Like I’m the only one in the room And I meet someone I would like To meet in the dead in the night Sneaking out into the grass I didn’t think our love would last But it’s been fifteen years And we’ve weathered rain clouds emptied of tears As they fall on us And I trust Him to do just what he craves But he’s the Superman who saves Me from the boring grey He is like a sun ray That sets all the colours a throb And I give him what he wants to rob From me And dignity Won’t keep this secret quiet It’s always been a riot In that avenue And his blue Offsets my red Til we’re white light in bed Making one with the serene This is beyond the dream And they say twin flames reside In the place where duality hides Its face from something so pure He’s what I bank on and I know for sure That we’ll always be eternal prose And he might be the one who chose Me, but on my side I’m just glad he’s alive In this incarnation And my education Taught me to always say no But with him I’m like, let’s go And get on with the show You claim to make But I’ll be no oven to bake Some buns for the eating I gotta be the one you’re keeping For forever in a sigh Our love will never die
Is love pain? It’s a desire to be together again And the separate Kind of makes my hands shake As we’re torn asunder And all that you have of someone is their number And years drag you apart I am all heart With a thin veneer To protect me when danger comes near And the cracks on my shell Sure as hell wish me well And I grow older And bolder With confidence And the first defense Is the war you make The splinters in each breath you take As you draw some inspiration From the oxygen of your own creation To live anew I guess what I’m saying is I miss you
I don’t know if it’s the meds or the enlightenment But I’m feeling detached And it’s the kinda road there’s no way back And I’m just standing in the queue And the one I’m waiting for is you And he’s singing his soul and I wish he was mine Why do I do this all of the time Coz it’s impossible, he’s on the stage And the girls are screaming like he’s all the rage And his hair is long and his locks are pretty And I would love to rule this city But he’s a triad long past going I remember UCD when it was snowing And the boy I loved back then The fittest male on repeat again As my heart tells me to be who I am Like Kilglass chasing Sam For the thousandth time I make my own pain rhyme And it is longing and it is desire He sets my soul on fire With his softly so There are deserts that I would go Just to meet him at the gate I dunno why I wait For the perfect scene Like it could be in a dream Like I made of you But the urge is pulling the needle through And it’s sewing a seam Threading a quilt with what’s spilt, it seems And the love’s in the wanting But there’s something in me that’s haunting Every step I take It’s what happens when the demon wake
Stuff I say to you I was watching the bird and it flew Out the window from inside And this landscape can’t hide The shape of you from me I loved you so I set you free But you come back to be As constant as a northern sea In the winter of ill repute And you’re more devastating Than you are cute But I like my men like thunderclouds The rolling sound just makes me proud To be standing under a western sky And I have no fear over what will die Coz something’s not passing Constant true As I revealed myself to you In a winter past, long ago But it’s just the start Of the story, you know On this journey to forever The path winds but this endeavor Keeps sailing through the storm I would like to keep you warm
He writes songs about the chad And the Irish way of feeling bad About it But you couldn’t doubt it When it’s falling from his lips And it is an eclipse From the depths of blue rivers run There’s no way of seeing the sun Not when he’s got a song And I’ve gotta say there’s nothing wrong With all I’ve grown up to be It’s only now I’m starting to see The landscape hidden from view Thanks for sharing your vista And I know I could’ve missed ya But I just saw the sea Rising up from the wintery Snow that you’ve been freezing in Abjectly shivering But put your hands to the blaze It’s a fire that’s learned to save
Its like trying to focus on a star that’s too far away
I just get more faded when you try to read what I say
For meaning and purpose, for strength and due
I was just trying on the skin of you
But there you go again making me so confused
I’m like a galaxy that has finally fused
Itself with another light years apart
And now there’re two souls linked by the heart
And it may look easy to be icy and cold
But I can’t sustain as my cards start to fold
And collapse in a heap, back at square one
As I wonder what in the hell I have done
And I’ve been reprimanded many a time
For leaving my love out to dry on the washing line
And attracting strangers to come to my door
And point out in detail what they adore
But they all look crestfallen when I refuse
Reciprocality doesn’t light my fuse
As I am earthed by the dynamite
Of being alone after midnight
Where there in the secret unbound hours
I revel in all the universe powers
Whether by the moon or in the dark
I don’t need directions to fall apart
Though it may look like a collasal mistake
It’s fueled to perpetualize the state
Of freedom from the earth’s samsara
It’s more than just a word, Nirvana
I eat monsters for breakfast
And they reside inside me
Itching and screaming to get out
And express themselves
Amid the peace of an elemental world
That takes no fools and harbours no criminals
And I like a precious owner
Of the jewel that hides within
Jealously guard my own domain
Lest anyone make it past the barriers
I have so carefully constructed
Yet somehow, something got inside
And now for all my trying
I cannot put it out
And you,
With those piercing eyes
Possessed not only of the body
But of the soul
Tear me apart as though I am paper thin
With a violence not of this world
Simultaneously holy and full of treachery
As I, realise
We are not two
But one
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