The Disease Of Dissatisfaction

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You sit in silence, you hear the sound
Of doom now that it’s all around
And I swear I’m a first class citizen
So don’t pity them 
Those who ask to see you cry
Because they know everyone die
And they’re trying to put off the date
But why let it lie in wait
I stood up in my two boots
And issued a challenge to my roots
And I grow into a tree
Stuck in the same spot, you see 
And the vibration gives off waves
Are you the hero who always saves
Like Superman but in his Smallville years
Don’t think I didn’t see the tears
You cried in secret
I made a promise and I keep it 
Every day, I said I won’t forget
And you challenge me but I haven’t yet
I was hiding in the bush
When I said there was no rush
And you were in the long grass
When you worked up the nerve to ask
Me out on a date
You call it logistics, I call it fate
Coz what was held between us both
That evening on the coast
Of the shore that we both know
I love him so I let it flow

Sunday Matinee

People seem to want to carve out their little islands
Forget about the principles of non violence
And childhood dsys
We have grown up in so many ways
But have we matured
Is life just something to be endured
Or is it a joy
In the story of girl meets boy
And cacophony resound
Do you wake up when you hear the sound
Of tomorrow’s bells
And who tells
The sun to rise
Or a baby to open their eyes
In stormy skies
What lives on when the body dies
Is it the soul
And if it is what is the role
Of ego, identification with form
Do you feel the fire warm
The cockles of your heart
Is it trouble just to take part
In this kind of din
And when I walk alone is it with Him

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As Far As We Go

The year I took myself to task
Was the year that I thought to ask
You if you would be my friend
And the year of twenty one will never end
But it’s filled with ennui
Coz I lost what I gave for free
And all the time you were with her
I didn’t know that it stir
As you wake up to believe
More than wiping your eyes with your sleeve
And I got committed to a mental equation
Adding up how I might hate him
But I can’t make it last or real
As they try to make me not feel
Anything at all, a deadening tome
I thought you stood alone
But there was wind in your hair
I didn’t realise she was your air
As I breathed in all I could take
Til I’m the diamond you forsake
Hidden in the rough and tumble
But my facade starts to crumble
As I let the truth sneak in
Would I settle for just part of him?

Sweetness

I just wanted to know if you left me a message
It’s nothing insincere
But I’ve been tripping the wire
Of in love with you, dear
And I know it’s a fallacy
And I know there’s nothing wrong
It’s just you gave me that rush
Like you thought I was strong
And I’m smiling to myself
As I’m sitting on the couch
Threw normal out the window
Of sanity to vouch
For me in the days
When the water is less clear
I had a dream of you
When your words made you seem near
But anyway and anyhow
I’ve got to let it go
I just wanted to uncover
These reams and reams of snow
So you’d know that in the winter
The sun burns just as true
You said that you liked me
Well, hey man, back at you!

Question Marks

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How does he forgive me, each and every time?
How, I wonder silently, how is he still mine?
And inclines his head just so against the sill
Of my shoulder bone that I would hold until
Eternity all vanished back into that state
And the heavens disappeared to illuminate
That the Now that we own, the Now that we have
Is all we ever need and now I am sad
To think that all this time I could have been afloat
Instead of plugging holes in a lonely boat
Fighting to stay up when sinking’s what I am
He doesn’t look away, he just holds my hand
And meets me by the eye and breaks it in a smile
Why, says he to me, am I worth the while?

Crystal Eyes

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When they decide that love is outlawed
I hide in the shadows so I amn’t caught
Spreading affection like butter on toast
I love them all but you the most
Because you have eyes that sparkle the sun
And when they meet mine I am undone
In the purity of a perfect night
The crystals reflecting the sunlight
And now I wonder to myself all the time
If it was a sin to call you mine
For a bird on the wing was born to be free
And you owe nothing to me
Except in being your own sweet self
I noticed the Lord and I knelt
To the beauty in your refrain
I just wish it wasn’t caused by pain