Throwing boundaries to the wind
You know I’ve sinned
Letting you in that way
Because you would just walk away
When things would get hard
I can feel it in you, the glass shard
And I know I should have pity
But I would rather just run to the city 
And build a new life there
You’ve got a wife and I don’t care 
Because you are less to me now than you were before
And it is only the memory I adore
As I run my hands through your hair
I really think you were there 
And I can’t understand 
Why even half the man
You are would leave
You say it’s just something I believe
You proclaimate that it was I 
Who left you to die
In the infertile and arid
It’s like the apple soured 
In our mouths
And I know I have my doubts
But your eyes are so sincere
And I just want you to come near
And this is no ambivalence, it’s paradox
I heard you outside and I undid the locks
You know, the chain that’s on my door
But it doesn’t rain for you, mo stór
And I can hear you knock
I walk halfway across the room and I stop
Is Jeremy with ya? I wonder silent prose
And of all of the less travelled roads
Did you have to walk down mine 
I don’t love things that sparkle and shine
I am into rocks
To reflect the diamond I am not

The knife in my back burned a hole in me 
And he was blamed for my history
Because a girl, one time, long ago
Decided that she didn’t want to know
Me, anymore
So I slammed the door
With the full force of broken weather
But times changed and I woke up in the heather
The fragrance had put me to sleep
And the trance had been deep
And when I saw her again
I wanted to make amends
Understand her point of view
But I sin and turn away from you
And when I meet the dearest soul 
When I am eighteen years old
I do the same thing to him
Hammer him with my broken wing
Til he’s all tears and blood
Asking why someone so good
Would batter and bruise
Something that they just couldn’t use 
And I just wanted to say
I’m sorry for that day
I’m glad that you moved on
Though I’m sorry that you’re gone 
And I know there’s two sides to the story
And you were worried you would bore me
With your effervescent heart 
But I couldn’t start
Couldn’t begin to say
The terror in the going away
That I foresaw
And the law
Won’t break if I run
So I say I met someone 
And look you in the eyes
And tell you lies 
Til the subterfuge
Turned deluge
And all the rain
Flooded me again
So I ran to the door and screamed out your name
You came to my side without shame
And now you will not let go
Til its the truth that you know 
And I guess it’s this 
I dream, everyday, of our first kiss
Somewhere in the stars 
Or in one of my cars 
Silver and blue 
I still keep trinkets of you
Like the CD’s 
You used to listen to when you were on your knees
I got them second hand
For the boy that loved the band 

It was the winter I lost it all 
Caught in my own freefall
And somewhere in my summer heart
I could see the pain was art
And it made the best of me
Come to the fore and set free
All that had been hidden under
The weight and the sound of thunder
And the clouds seemed to announce
The weight of worlds that life denounce
And now the road is running wild
With all the love in me and the inner child
Has finally been liberated
It’s in the words you haven’t stated
The might and sunshine in the lines
We’ve been over this a thousand times
But it never seems to make a difference
In the weight of heavy air
I know because I was there 

The self same shame comes to haunt my days 
And it is the same in oh, so many ways 
As I feel the pull of the energy
Lower down and it’s defeating me 
As I become what I’d never be
Obsessed with image and eternity
Seems to recede
Into something which I just believe 
In on a day like this 
Jesus was betrayed by a Judas kiss
Upon his cheek 
And I am weak 
When I come to say
That is not okay
And I hold it against her for years 
And it is the reflection in my own tears
That prompts me to change
And the atoms rearrange 
In their own way and form 
And while the heat is warm 
I keep my hands by the fire 
But I tire 
Of being something that never ends
And I’ve lost my share of friends 
In the fight I’ve had with the wind
When I was seven they told me I’d sinned
And I needed to tell
Parts of myself that belonged to hell
So I began to think
And wonder where it was I sink
I fight with my sisters, I tell a lie
Then four years later my grandfather die
And I pummel the walls
That keep us separated down the halls 
And somehow in that great expanse
Something was born that made my heart dance
And showed me that there is a light
That never goes out and that they are alright
The ones that have crossed the bridge 
Of something that always Is
And evermore 
Becomes the heart of me, mo stór 
As it whispers to me 
That death is merely being set free
Into the great forever
And no endeavour 
Is ever lost 
I was a child and I paid the cost
In believing what I was told
And so I seem to grow old 
And into a skin that is miles long 
But maybe that belief is wrong 
As something ever pure 
Is more than diamonds and demure 
It is deep and it is real
And it is not just what I feel 
But everlasting in it’s sight
I feel the burn and let it light
Up into the chaff that resides
In the depths of who I am, derides
And finds the fuselage to learn 
That the world will continue to turn 
Long after the wheel has subsided 
I look at you and the peace abided 

There is a darkness that threatens the sky
And no one really ever wants to die
But sometimes in the subterfuge
The rain pours down in a deluge
And water leaves the clouds 
Like you leave your home, are you proud
As people age and they grow grey
But sometimes you do it anyway
And I was twenty two 
And planning a future with you
But New York called
And in the midst of it all
I followed the line 
Now I think about it all the time
And the burn to return
Is with all the lessons that I learned
Locked up in St. Pat’s 
And it was fine and all and they had welcome mats
But it was nothing like the scene 
That opened itself unto my dream
Of freedom to ponder the meaning
Of the thought I’m only dreaming 
My reality
And who I thought I’d be
Falls far short of what I am 
I philosophised but I can
Never drink the water I muse
To know an orange you must use
The taste buds to drink the sigh
And must I always lie
About what scares me the most
And it is not meeting a ghost
It is that I’ll never get to see
The ones who have moved on from me 
Into another realm 
And the overwhelm
Threatens to suffocate
So I go on a couple dates 
Just to measure the spirit 
Into alcohol that can deliver it 
Into the hands of those who know
I meant it when I swore I’d never let you go
In 2001
And now that all these years are done
I wonder where I’ve been 
And if this scene 
Will pass like flickering light
If I’ll be eighty and the night
Will close around my skin
Will I be glad to see you again
Or will I just miss the years gone by
And mourn the passing of all that die
Of body warm and blood that pumps 
Not Diagon Alley’s and 3 AM slumps 
So I take a breath
And live in the moment that is not regret
To bring it back to Now
I open my eyes and it’s okay somehow