In her plasticine Lego land
She makes things I’ll never understand
Bricks and mortar, tins and thread
Sew like crazy until you’re dead
As I pause and reflect
Love the life of the reject
Who owns the whole sea in her brow
I’m not just a measure of what you allow
To permeate your will
I don’t want to live up to be the fill
Of all you take in to drink
I broke, the sign on the wall said think
And I couldn’t get around it
Like a koan, I just sound it
Out til the music is right on the lips
Of something I barely eclipse
With my steady sun and moon
I pray deliverance is coming soon
But it keeps revealing more to me
About what is in store to be
After the sunset of a horizon
I meditate but I can’t keep my eyes on
That focal point
I was baptised and they anoint
My head with the oil of Chrism
I search for answers and every one of them is Him

Only the wise 
Can rise 
And maybe I’m overshooting the mark 
But it feels like I’m firing in the dark
At a target that keeps on moving
When you fight, everyone is losing
Because every time we take aim
We are hitting our own name
In another shape and form
And a body warm
Has a heart that beats
With the same heat
That pumps our own 
It takes the dark for the night you’ve known 
To be thrown into day
And if there was any other way
To appreciate candlelight
He would have told us, right? 
But the brutality ensues
As the people pay their dues
Over and over again
And most of it is men
Straining to find a space to place
The parts of themselves they’ve felt love deface
And I know it’s abhorrent 
And there’s nothing that could warrant
This kind of storm
And everyone who dies was once born
Into their own skin
Even the Word, even Him
And there’s something they cannot take
Because Love does not forsake
All you’ve held in hands 
Whether fairy lights or metal bands 
We all have a place in the sea
And it’s the current moving me
To issue a decree
And if it must begin with me
I’ll let the magnet go
And the volume low
Ushers in a new dawn
One where we’ve lost what’s gone
Only to remain
The valley in the shadow of death and pain
Gives way to a New Earth
You wouldn’t know peace of you hadn’t felt the hurt

I feel decimated from the inside out
I take a first, faltering step, replete with self doubt
That I could turn this tightrope walk
Into something that is more than just talk
And I know the midnight raps the door
But I feel the morning so much more
With every sudden storm 
That seems to keep my body warm
With its lightning crack
Will we be able to take this back
In the years that expand
And this is about so much more than land
As the underhand 
Seems to gain the uppercut
Does the story end when the door shut
On all our hopes and dreams
Is it all over when the screams
Fall silent and is it death
As we look back in regret
About the darkest part of the night
I don’t know if this will be alright
As I grip a calling hand
And the sand 
Just pours 
And all that she adores
Is smashed to rubble
What began the trouble
Was it war or the unease within
And when she looks up can she blame him? 

I used to think the US government was watching me
It had been the English but that’s history
So I submitted myself for assessment
And they surmised that it’s just stressing
In a world you call poetry
I could be wrong so don’t quote me
Now I see the lives ripped to shreds
A community mourning their war dead 
And I know that the sides 
Have the reasons for their lies 
And they justify 
But I cannot just sit in stone silence safety
As humanity tries to erase me
From their memory 
I used to be a symbol of the quest
The one who broke the rules of what was best
As I strove to excel
Now the whole damn thing is going to hell
And I sit warm in my car or bed
While the zombies fight in my head