Category: New River

The Shock Of It

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I was a teen
And the dream
Seemed to flick out of existence 
And resistance 
Arose 
Who am I to be the one He chose
He gives me a road
And asks me to walk
I said; here now, let’s talk
But it’s a silent stare
And I care
So NYC burns a hole in my pocket
Then I find a man to put in a locket
But I can’t bear to stay
Or tolerate the going away
I scream out to God
Who am I 
And the sky 
Reply
With a magnitude reverberate
And the moon is in on this state
As it pulses like the sea
That is the road underneath me 
The oblivion and the fabric
Pulls away to reveal the tragic
Is a mere play of light
And I am alright
And don’t need to mourn
Or wear a look so forlorn 
Coz we must depart
The body that made our heart start
It’s untimely bliss 
And the First Kiss
Was more than lips 
It was an eclipse 
And Eck gives voice to the state
The time is Now so don’t wait
As the sand pours through
But Here will always hold you
No matter how the hourglass slip
You were born to make this trip
Not a slow trudge to the grave 
Living like you’re routine’s slave 
I set out from the shore
And I wonder what loves me more
The Universe or the sky
Or the space into which I die 
And move as open air
And the person that seemed to be there
Was just an appearance of consciousness 
A manner of being, a state of dress
That I must one day set aside
But something abide
In all notions of truth
Surrendering the things of youth
To sweet dissolution
And the confusion
Gives way to peace
Every moment is release
Into what you ever are
A black hole was once a star

Empress

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I try so hard to be what you need 
But we both bleed 
From sensitivity and wounds life inflicts 
They say time heals but there’s something that sticks 
And it may be that you
Just can’t bear to walk into 
What walked out into the sky
And I wrestle with the fact that we all die
And that everything is empty air
But I know you were there 
In the years and I look
You’re still an open book
And I love to read 
Something in me was freed
To read between the lines
When will be our time 
To triumph like the lion over the sea
It’s a crowd and they’re worshipping me 
And you, the steady stone 
Let me be with you alone 
You’re a monument of time 
And your poetry rhyme 
When you put it into verse 
You can be a little terse 
With me but I see
Cracks of eternity
Shining like light through the clay
And I stay 
Away so you can have your space 
But I love your face 
And the example you set
A love neither one of us forget
As we age
I get another page 
And scribble down my truth
A shared youth 
And trial by fire
But it only burns to take us higher
Or deeper you could say
A soulmate in the play
Of form
And the storm 
Batters the coast
But somehow you still stand for what I love the most
Truth and integrity
A fierce abandon and wilful sincerity
Matched only by your deep stare
How is it to know we both are there
In the eternal zone 
Just call me when you feel alone 
Coz I am here 
Though death may be ever near
As it threatens me 
With the despair and identity
That will never be enough
To barricade against the love 
That shines relentless 
I think you may be Empress

Forgiveness And Its Release

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Forgiveness opens the heart
When you agree to be a part
Of this grand swathe we call life 
Even when it isn’t nice
And the bitterness broke
Like a sea over me 
When someone I thought
Would adore me 
Forever, shattered the glass
Told me that it just wouldn’t last
And I let my hand fall 
Coz I knew a brick wall
Is not for the turning
And my indignancy’s burning 
As she calls me out 
As a princess in an ivory tower
I abdicate and she has all the power
Whispering to ears
That I caused her tears
And am malign
If she wants an ending
Well that’s fine
I let her go 
No more chasing what I don’t know 
Coz I feel for her 
But what we were 
Is toxic through and through
She poured little bullets into
My coffee when I was set on drinking
My friends say that I’m overthinking 
The matter, it’s just jealousy
But she has the will to turn all against me 
I pass Sinéad McCormack in the hall 
She averts her gaze and my heart fall
In her confidence 
I’m all marks and little dents 
From the pillars she pricked 
You wouldn’t have thought the memory sticked 
In my soul for so long
For though I did no wrong
In my own estimation
I flick to her station 
And public enemy number one 
Is me basking in the sun
Of the God of all light
Coz He chose me, alright
When the going was tough
And I had run dry of all my love
As death pierced my balloon 
The rumblings of threat 
And what’s always too soon 
But she didn’t see
What I left in the library
When I closed the door 
I won’t be back here anymore 
And it was soft
I didn’t let her know she inflicted a cost
Coz I wouldn’t please her 
As they say
But would you deceive her 
Come what may
Into thinking she meant the sky
One thing’s for certain
We all die 
And the even fate
Levels it’s gaze at me as I wait
For the gong
And the throng
That follows suit
Do you think I am a flute
To live with your bite
And apologise to you, alright 
For being what I am 
I’m sorry but that’s not my plan
In the effervescent 
Look for true care and you’ll find the essence 
Of what I sought to impart
I’m an Aries and my heart
Will rule the head 
And instead 
Of giving in
I walk out, and that’s my sin 
As she looks on
At what’s gone 
And wonders why
Friends don’t try to make you cry
So, I hope you’re well
But as for admittance 
You can go to hell

Nobel Prize Winning Barbie

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I used to dream of winning the Nobel Prize
For peace and then for literature 
Coz I wanted to be recognised 
And mean something in somebody’s life
I grew older then I saw
Humanity is going through the great thaw
Where we are frozen in place 
Slowly expanding as a human race
Out of our beliefs and systems 
Our fear and our resistance 
And as the calamity grows 
The collective ego in its death throes 
Makes some noise 
While someone says boys will be boys 
But to make war
Is futile because what’s it all for 
And if Ken faces Ken
Do we just sacrifice all our men 
So our constitution 
Can go through a revolution 
To say we are free
If it were up to me 
I would point out the flaw
That has us all labouring under the law
Of the material dimension
Like the gig is rigged with poor suspension
And all the adults fight
As the children ask “Will it be alright?”
And wonder if they will grow into
The terrible things that people do
To each other under duress
And you can say it’s just stress
To question existentially 
They had me put away for profanity
When I called it out
But all my self doubt
Snaps the thread 
And I wake up out of my head
Where the mind controls 
Women, men and their respective roles 
Yes, if you haven’t guessed 
I am far from impressed 
With the status quo
But how do I change it, I just don’t know
Live the hermit life
Opt out of work and being a wife
Stand tall and true
Only to have people talk down to you
Like you’re delusional too
This is the way it is or haven’t you
Realised 
But my skies 
Are open and free
Something in the clouds came down and blessed me 
Now I write and write 
About the sunlight
And how it triumphs over night
As we walk through
The valley in the shadow of the death that I knew
Watched it take away
My childhood like I didn’t have a say
But innocence returned 
As the threads were burned 
Like vines that entrap 
Eventually they fell off the map
That told me where to go
It’s been years but the diamond show

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The Halls Of Quinn

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I was watching the clock
Til it hit four 
Then I would walk back to Roebuck hall
And Rob would come to call
On his lady
Til she turned a little bit shady
And I could see his solemn heart
Turn to ice 
And start to beckon the snow
But something of love did not let go
Then fast forward a year or so
And his friend and I go toe to toe 
He ignores me and I wonder 
Why the sound of my thunder 
Does not reach his ears
Is it the tears
That echo through my years
Coz the secret that I keep
Is that I shattered in my sleep
Somewhere in February of 2009
I saw death and the crime 
Followed me round 
Til the sound 
Of calamity was all I could hear
I all but screamed when what I hold dear
Threatened to disappear
So I burst out of the door 
And ran and ran 
Til I found a space that can
Be the room to contain 
That mountain of forest pain
That seems to empty the sky of its rain
And I was at Snow Patrol with Caroline 
As the etching started to rhyme
Itself against the inside of my soul
My last memory of being whole 
In Gary’s company
I degenerated and my dignity
Was all I could hold onto
That and the memory of you
But suddenly it’s him and I
He’s blazing and my 
Soul seems to be warmed 
Should I tell him how the seasons stormed 
But he just smiles 
And though I’ve been going for miles and miles 
The tiredness fades
Does he know what he saves 
When he grabs me in my dress
And I no longer have to guess 
Where his feelings lie
Is it wrong to lean and I 
Am swept up in his soul so warm
It’s almost as if I am born
Back into who I used to be
I hid it then but I hope you see
What you did for me 
I wander into the zone 
And I’m studying all alone 
When I notice the gang of lads 
Across the room and the best I’ve never had
Is somewhere in the fold 
And the light shone like gold 
So I sat by the other Rob
And looked up to your guy like it was my job
Just to confirm the state 
That was on my dinner plate
What did I stumble into
Am I meaningful in the heart of you
And what does he advise
That all of my love is lies 
Or that it is an artful disguise
I can tell you none of the above 
It is a shelter and a white dove
Meets your eyes and I see
You’ve all been discussing me
Mortified I rise
And mutter something about french fries 
And an empty stomach calling
I could be cool, I could be balling
But I’m just outta here 
What’s the verdict on me, dear
I stride through the halls of Quinn
But why don’t I just open up to him? 
Now it’s ten years later and the dice 
Seems to utter that it’s right
To spill the beans 
You were cool and my dreams 
Always seemed to hinge on you
I picked myself up coz you needed me to
And chased you down just to say
You and I will be okay
And if you’d like 
We could be part of each other’s life 
I don’t know if you
Will ever hear these words but I wanted to 
Utter them just to say
I’m not the bulletproof, I’m just here to stay
And you’re more dreamboat than you know 
Something of this will not let go
So whether in the snow 
That hemmed us in
Or in the games we’ll never win
The strength of soul 
Is still young when we get old 
As you are in I
My love, my love will never die

Erasing The Distinction

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Erasing the distinction between this and that
It’s not like I came down in the first batch 
Of Commerce students from 2010
But would I live those years again
When the trauma of the classroom
Was simply exhausting 
And I used to hide in the loo
The girls banged doors and put on make up too
And their voices were so loud 
So I learned to drown out the crowd 
With Biffy Clyro in my ears 
They scream of a puzzle littered with tears
But I found a boy with eyes like the ocean
He looked at me with genuine emotion
And I learned to feel the flame 
When I’d hear someone say his name 
And he was red as a ruby, a precious stone 
And I was not alone 
When he used to say; join the gang
And my phone, it rang
With joy instead of pain
Will I ever see him again
I wonder 
And the thunder 
Beckons like a sudden storm
You were nothing but warm
And good to me
Do you remember the time that we
Met each other at the gate 
And entered into another state
As I let you know I had your deets 
And yet you shared your sheets 
With anyone you’d like to choose 
And it was like a life I’d lose 
When I’d see you with lips to match
Burning in another girls thatch
I could feel the envy start
Then you’d tell me I was smart
Because you’d heard the rumour that got out
About the grade I did without
And we just dropped home Sam
You were in my car and I had no plan
To let you go
I still love you, I hope you know
As we brew our own beer
And no mountain is worth the fear
It takes to make it to your side 
It’s the kind of thing that abide 
Somewhere in my ocean deep
You are the love I love to keep
Safe and secure 
Hit me up, any time, I’m sure
You’re welcome here 
I hope you’re well and you’re still cool, my dear



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The Ground And The Sky

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To love you is to jump through hoops
And we are surrounded by suits 
Telling us what to do
But you always walked on your own, didn’t you
And I admire 
Your defiant, blazing fire 
And, the smoke, it plumes 
And fills all the rooms 
With your stardust
I seemed to have just brushed 
It off my shirt
The bathroom and the way it hurt
As I hide in bed 
Back to playing in the shed 
When we were ten years old 
Before the streets were paved with gold 
As I find 
Something time left behind 
I pick up the broach
As, subject to reproach, 
I stand still
And their diamond will
Can’t move me 
Now that I pulse like the sea
In a current deeper due 
And the hue
Of the evening sky
Reflects against my waning lie 
As I learn to be true 
And lean back into You
The one and only that ever is 
There are times I call it His 
Because the language that I’ve learned 
Is to speak of the shrub that burned 
For Moses in the cave 
Or St. Paul and the light that save 
All the Christians from his wrath
It’s a revelation that won’t turn back
From its origin, from its source
And all the remorse 
Washes like waves and the tide 
Pull the heart that keeps me alive
In this body and warm 
As the house is battered by the storm
That I resist
And exist 
As torrential rain
Would I go through it again
Just to see you smile
And all the while 
You endure 
And I pure 
Clash with the waters deep
In the secret that we keep
Enclosed and safe
Entering the holy cave

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Tell You How I Feel

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I wrote a story in the years of twenty two
I was the heroine and I was with you
As your drug of choice 
Never mind that my voice
Was stifled in your angry stare
I woke up to realise you weren’t there 
But with some other chick
I cursed under my breath and called you in the thick
Of it just to confirm 
That the way my heart burn
Was a solo affair
And my only prayer 
Was that you be content
Coz the way things went
Could be enough to dement
The both of us 
And broken trust
Lies like glass on the floor 
As I lie to the one I adore 
For the sake of propriety
Does he know that it ignites me 
When he spills words on a screen
What is the difference between the dream
And the real
Does he feel
Anything akin to love
I watch the dove
Take flight from my heart
And journey to your part
Of town
But I drown
In words and phrases 
And the city the pain razes
As I try to shut it down
Because I see a gown
On the horizon
And it’s all I can keep my eyes on
When everything is going to hell
Did I tell you that I wish you well
A one winged bird and I fly 
In the empty open sky
Full of love for what you are
I watch you from the vantage point of a star
So near but from afar
And dream of you in my car
Where I keep the music box
With cds that undid the locks 
On the both of us 
Just laughter on the bus 
In a place no one can reach
Oh, the vagaries of what they teach
Is right and just
You seem nonplussed 
As I leave it on the line 
I would like to call you mine
I falter, would that be okay
Babe, why didn’t you say?

With The Guy Next Door

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I’m in love with the guy next door 
I dunno why but I’ve always wanted more 
Than just the come what may
And I don’t care what people say
The light cannot be put out
And all that is is in doubt
As everything shatters and cascades 
But I’m with you in the spirit everglades 
As your soul speaks to me 
And reminds me that I am free
Of all that seeks to contain
As clear and pure as rain
That falls after a storm
And you were just so warm 
When you stood by my side 
And your peace is still alive 
As it speaks to me 
From the realms of eternity
As a red haired girl with curls 
Keeps you company while the world 
Just turns a deeper shade of blue 
I am not without you
Now that you seem to have been gone
For so very long 
But still here in the realm
That exists without any pain 

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Safe Space

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You could cut the sexual tension
Like butter and a knife 
I’m myself, but melt with you, alright
And your name is Stephen
And I’m on the edge of believing 
In everything that you say
Don’t worry, it’s okay
You’re not breaking my law
You just make my frozen heart thaw
As we recommence
Our sojourn in the present tense 
Examining what is before us
I couldn’t imagine there would be more trust
But there is
In the gravity that is his 
Do I trespass 
When I address that
With a smirk and you smile back
And the demons can’t attack
Our safe little space
And that look on your face 
In your room
While I relay the birds of doom
You all but hold my hand 
And the moment’s grand 
And secure 
Demure 
But pure 
And open to the sky
It’s not the truth that will die 
When we depart this realm
The ship with God at the helm
Captains both of us 
What is it that we discuss
When I explain 
You can’t have sky without a little rain

Abandoned The Fold

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He left her 
He abandoned the fold 
Then said the streets are paved with gold 
That she used to walk
She was his future
Now she’s just a suture 
He needs to heal
And all that he feel 
Is poured into another woman
It was quite sudden 
As she cries on the screen
And he tries to wake the dream
With sheer force 
But no remorse
For the life in ruins 
The “what are you doing’s”
That follow her round 
He made a deep sound 
And shattered the glass 
Forever’s the endeavour if you have to ask

In The Mists

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I took the exit door
And the fallaway floor 
Met me with open arms 
Does it ring any alarms
Or bells within you
Does it resound 
And do you know the sound 
Of home when the wind chimes 
Whisper silver on the rhymes 
That just come to you
And it’s not because I wanted to
That I write 
Put pen to paper and, alright,
There is an acquiescence
But it’s not the essence 
Of what I need to know 
It asks me so I let it flow 
Into words and ink
A digital way to think
Of who you are 
And every star
Burns with the same fusion
We call it light but the delusion 
Is that we know what exists 
But it’s all just time and space in the mists

MCR

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The dark side of myself likes MCR
And I’ve tried to keep control of her 
But she keeps bursting at the seams 
And waking up in all my dreams 
To tell me how to live 
And to just forgive 
The slights made
The flights you were afraid 
To take 
Now the wake 
Is full of people drinking beer
They don’t seem to notice death is near
As I sit beside the coffin
And remember our time on Inisbofin
When I fell and bumped my head
Against a rock and now you’re dead
But are you really? I sense you’re free
And not constrained to lines like me 
Your soul expands 
And all these slipping sands 
Are just the flow of time 
I try to capture as I rhyme 
To still the torrent 
But it doesn’t warrant 
The armed brigade 
The bodies you can’t save 
As they march off to war
I look back at her
And she seems to know 
All that I cannot let go
I shake at the edge of the fray
She whispers that it’s all okay
But I can’t trust, can I
In that which will never die

The Constraint Of Death

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The constraint of death pulls at my threads
Is it not running in everyone’s heads 
That this body will burn out
Seems to be beyond all doubt
I sense a flaw
And the ice thaw 
To make me feel the snow 
The frostbite of not letting go
When it’s time 
And every rhyme 
Holds an unbidden note
Oh, the gurus that I quote 
Fearless stand 
Impervious to any man 
Who might set a flag
On a mountain so they can brag
That they’ve conquered it
But do you know who you’re talking with 
The virgin land 
And the people who understand 
As it pulses through
I seem to be talking to you
But it’s just empty air 
The presence of something that’s ever there

Always A Friend

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It was like someone had vomited Christmas 
All over Dean Swift
Did you know for me you were the greatest gift 
As you accompanied me in special care
We had the chats 
You were always there 
Like a big sister, nine years my senior
You gave me your sparkly shoes
And I threw them in the bin
I should’ve just let the love win
But everything was suspect
I made you a picture
A portrait you hung on your wall
I sat on the floor 
In your room down the hall
And you said I made you feel normal
You made me feel less formal 
And after a spate of the horrors
I asked you were we still friends 
You said “Always”
And no matter what the doctor says
I know there’s a reason I’m here 
And, love, I will always hold you dear
And I wonder where you are now 
I hope you’re good 
I got the sense you were lost in the wood
You said I had a broken wing
But, my God, that bird can sing
And you can make any forest look free
You were the definition of friend to me
As Barry looks in the window 
In the smoking room, I nod at him, though
And we vibe up a storm
I love how you make a room warm
With your subtle stare 
Can’t control me but I know you care 
In your finest hue
I’m so glad that I met you
Like a godsend in that place
It didn’t all go to waste
As you wave from through the glass 
I’m still here, if you need to ask
So, somewhere on the internet I throw you a smile
And hope your Bonny’s kept you company all this while 
And I guess what I mean is thanks for the love and acceptance 
You made hell feel like a lesson
That I just have to master
(Though it didn’t get us out any faster)
Here’s my drink, cheers to you
I hear the glass clink as you raise yours too
Just a message of love 
And knowing our friendship fit like a glove 
In our coloured ink
Just trust in love to let the heart sink
Into where it’s always been 
The waking was the best part of the dream

Running In The Forest

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Running in the forest like a scared little girl
What would happen if the world 
Just stopped spinning where it is 
And why am I His 
For so long
Without any rotary blade 
To put the sun in the shade 
Of all that you know so well
Is the earth going to hell 
In a hand basket 
And if it is does it wonder why we don’t ask it
What it needs 
And the people bleed 
In a foreign land 
As we all wait on tenderhooks 
Suspicious of what they might take 
Looks that worry about the quake 
That seems to be shaking the superstructure 
And it’s a wonder something doesn’t rupture 
In the facade 
What if there’s no good or bad 
Only the Ultimate seeking to express itself 
Souls oblivious to the wealth
They hold inside 
Oh, what a time to be alive!

The Influx

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I can sense the influx
And I give all the fucks 
About how we turn out
Don’t want this fire to burn out
As it singes the edge of my shirt
And the heat starts to hurt 
I watch the tv screen
Is this just a dream 
In cosmic consciousness 
And if it is who do I address 
To find out where to go
If you’ve met God could you let me know 
Because following the line 
Grows tiring over time 
And the hinges sink their teeth
Into the jamb of the door 
I couldn’t have wanted anyone more 
But it did me no good 
Snow White in the wood 
Just screaming because the eyes 
Surround her like lies 
In the fabric of what she knows
And it’s like anything goes 
In this midnight era 
I don’t know how to make it clearer 
It’s gonna get worse before it gets better 
And the weather 
Is just a reflection of that
Some iambic pentameter wearing the sun’s hat 
As it shines down 
Some people live and others drown

Buataisí Beaga

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The fire seems to catch me by the boots 
And throw me upside down 
I catch my breath
And then I drown 
In the ocean of what we are 
Cosmically, a star
Fluttering somewhere on the edge of what we know 
I hold on because letting go
Isn’t an option now 
I see you somehow 
Through the smoke and fog
I throw another log 
On the burning hearth
It keeps me warm when it gets dark 
And you share this strength with me
As we fight, wilfully 
Abandon all life thought to know
About twin flames in the snow 
Finally, to realise 
We both share the same skies

The Aura Of Death

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Does all of humanity live within the sphere 
Of a death close enough that it’s ever near
And we may get a hundred years or so 
Or we might not, you just never know 
And I walk within the fear
Just so it becomes clear 
That the immortal in the form
Is that which was never born 
And is out of reach
Of the end that they teach
Is the conclusion of life on earth
And it might hurt
To fall but get back up
I am holding you, love 
And there’s nowhere a cloud can’t go
It wouldn’t be fair if I didn’t share what I know 
Coz I was fourteen and I writhe 
The cumulation of being alive 
Came crashing down 
And I felt I would drown 
In the ocean of it all
When suddenly the brick wall
Just fell to the floor
And I adore 
What got back up
You could call it love 
The living breathing apparition 
Of what happens when fission 
Pulls itself back together 
And heals the wound 
The room
Faded from view 
But you 
Never did 
And it’s worth a couple quid 
Just to say
That I am okay 
Come what may
In the fray
Of the life we know
I held on then It let go

The Girl Time Forgot

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I once loved the girl time forgot
Coz she is everything that I’m not
And we fuse at the edges 
Welded, neighbours over hedges 
Stare at us 
But the trust 
Just drops like a fall away floor
We’re both pulled through
And I can no longer see you
Or the shadow you cast
But the damn thing last
And I swim through the sea
That is pulsing with eternity
Do you think she still loves me
And would she be ashamed 
If I ever uttered her name 
Without the inflection 
The burn of rejection 
Hits home hard 
And I would play but I don’t have a card
To hand out to you
I’m more than what they put me through
For the sake of some belief
And it was relief
To sit in the smoking room
Chatting to someone else’s doom 
About what to do about the saga
And I could say I don’t love the drama 
But I do 
It’s darkness that draws me to you
As you pulse with hidden light
I stop the stare; are you alright
But no reply is all I ever get
I cannot forget
The way the knife twist
When I don’t exist
In your Universe 
The stage is set and we rehearse

The Sunshine On The Street

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The sunshine on the street caught my eye 
And I am not afraid to die 
To the lie 
That has everyone following a string
He asks and I give him everything 
But it is no use 
I feel the pulse confuse
Us both with its throbbing might
I’m sorry but are you alright
And we both stare 
Into the space love left
Is it theft 
If your heart has stolen away 
To another pair of hands 
And we’re standing on holy sands 
As the water beats the shore
And I confess all that I adore 
To an empty blank page 
Do you think the sage 
Could mean me 
When He says Eternity

Benjamin’s Blues

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The mountain sure seemed high til I climbed it
They’d tell you why but I wouldn’t mind it
And I just kick out from the shore 
I couldn’t tell you which I loved more 
The going away or the coming back
Do you really know something til you’ve felt it’s lack
And I was wandering in a cavalcade 
When I just happened upon your shade 
And it let me in 
I was warm when I was with him
As we both pause at the same time 
And he questions my rhyme 
I say it’s funny and he laughs 
I let him in because he asks 
So genially and off the cuff
Five minutes in and I know love 
Has me by the lapel 
But I think it’s too soon to tell
Him what I have on sheets 
Under cover and the streets 
Reminded me of the time I was tripping 
I hold the frame but the picture’s slipping 
And the more I try to steady the ship
The more I can sense an eclipse 
Coming on 
Now the reference is gone 
And I’m trying to even keel 
But the way I feel 
Just tells me to be honest
But I wouldn’t count on it 
And Benjamin is a sure shade of blue
I let it go and I trusted you

The Sweetness Of Stephen

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The sweetness of Stephen 
He says my name 
And I know neither of us 
Will ever be the same 
As the softness just pours from you
Michelle calls you a dote
And I feel a pang of jealousy 
I’m afraid I must quote 
And you inflect your verbs 
People say things are just words
But the monumental silence echoes in your tone
And we are together, alone 
Sitting in two chairs facing each other
I feel I must have met my soul brother 
As we discuss the elemental freedom
The people and the ones who see them
And I wonder how many souls you have guided out
I feel you drop your self doubt
As we talk 
You laugh and I walk
To the sound of your music 
And you know I wouldn’t choose it
But it sure would be great
To be in a state 
Just so you could pull me out by my arm
And I thought Jesus was full of charm 
But He looks like you and I wonder why
Such a cool guy
Could be a shade of shy
When he talks to me 
I know you see
Into the beyond 
I wonder would a dumb blonde 
Tempt your eye 
And I show you my shade of sky 
As we just theorise 
I know that half of it is lies 
They have fed to the ones who eat
But it’s different when we meet

Seven Oceans

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Seven oceans couldn’t keep me away from you
Even as fine as the morning dew
Is, you are subtler still
And it takes a tremendous display of will
To turn my head from you
And it’s not because I wanted to
It’s just this vacuum opens up
And I’m not too sure if it is love
Just some dark oblivion 
Moving to the music of us getting it on
And I’m a magnitude that shakes your sphere 
And there’s a devil may care when you are near
As though you’ve just thrown it over your shoulder 
Near the Colorado river southwest of Boulder 
And I might have allowed 
The fertile land the machinery ploughed 
To bloom green again anew
Because I have been avoiding you
In all the midnights I collected 
And the buildings you erected
Will fall in a storm
I know she keeps your body warm
On cold nights when the wind whistles
And your thoughts are as sharp as thistles 
That you roll onto in your sleep
It’s a promise that you keep
To the girl you’ve wed 
That you will have no one else instead
But I could never agree
It’s simply not me 
To annul the population
For an education 
In solitary and alone
With a man you call home

Youth And It’s Evasion

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I feel the age of youth slip away
You know the one when every day
Is the break of sunrise
And you’re inoculated from the lies
But the burden crushed the butterfly
Crouched in a corner and the fever die
Creeps in on me, I was fourteen 
And the scene 
Threatened to overwhelm 
The captain at the helm
Of this great ship I own
Now the game is thrown 
Fast forward to twenty three
And everything has deserted to me
In search of a grip on the ledge
But there’s just a neighbour looking over the hedge
Wondering if I’ll let go
The sweat is pumping and you know
There’s only so long I can hang on 
My fingers fail and doing wrong
Falls into the dark
I know I said it don’t leave a mark
But it do
I struggle to get over you
Now ten years later, I’m a thirties blue
And I must give time it’s due
It soothes the welts with healing balm
Replaces death with unearthly calm
That seems to settle in my bones
You are never alone 
And iPhones
Only serve to annunciate
A deeper connection in another state
We have yet to learn
I trust in fate and it burn

The Eternal Moment Of Us

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The door opens just a crack
And I know I can’t go back
If I go through
But my love for You
Pulls me through
And I don’t know what the power will do
But break ever rule I ever made
And it’s a light that casts no shade
So no shadow falls behind you
There’s nothing there to remind you 
Of the darkness you left behind 
But would you mind
If everything changed 
And people think you’re strange
For worshipping what they can’t see
Am I crazy or is it just me
Being the dutiful soul
I found something that won’t grow old


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Unspeakable Mystery

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If there’s a loving God why did he create hell
Is it excommunication or just not knowing you well
Coz I see you on the verge of every tip I love to talk
Fascinated in my mind by the way that you walk
As if those two shoulders hold some kind of weight
I can see them start to buckle under heavy fate
So I reach out and grab a hand
We lock eyes; you’ll be grand
And I would die and sacrifice a thousand times
Just to pen you poetry that fit with your rhymes
And the darkness cascades
But you’re the one that it saves
For me 
I love you so much more, I’m free
With the steady beam of headlight gaze
Did you deepen the hue or did I just colour the page
The shade of blue you are to me
Some unspeakable mystery
That blurs all the lines between good and okay
It’s not in what he does or does not say
It’s the vulnerability and the honest truth
The softness I felt in my youth
To hold your hand 
And sit beside your slipping sand
Til the hourglass crack
Now I want you back
For eternity
I scrawl in my diary
A name that I’ll keep
Wake, brother bear, it’s no time for sleep

Eternal Soulmate

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Did I leave Daz behind
Because he’s still on my mind
And it’s so 2003
To think he’s still into me
Blink-182 poster behind his head
As he’s sitting on the bed
With that smile that begets the name
The world rocked and I was not the same
In our bond
And I abscond
But I take something of his air
With me as a prayer
I say into the sky
Please let him love the way I lie
And he looks at me, I look back
Does he know I’m having a heart attack
When he pulls a funny face
And his love gives me a place
To reside
Do I need to hide
The heartbeat
That simply fell at his feet
As we walk out of the bar
Or when I picked him up in my car
Or when he ran from me
I chased him down so he might see
I mean what I say when I say Eternity

The Oil Of Chrism

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How do I write the syllables of my past
How do you make a good thing last
And she screams into the wind
The teacher tells us we have sinned
Though she has battered and bruised my kin
In the name of what to do, amen
And is it just a victim of the times
Do people beat the track that rhymes
And what’s stopping me from being brutal
So I give him first refusal
On a piece of road fronted land
Just one condition: he must take my hand
And be wed
Though the bed
Is big enough for us both
And he just takes off his coat
And asks can he stay
I say; no way!
But I’d like to love you anyway
What do you say? 
He pauses to contemplate
Must I make him wait
I deliberate
It’s not like that
“But it is”
I just wanna be his
Now he has got another soul
And I’m told that their waves roll
And crash upon the shore
Have you ever wanted more
No, he defies
But I see the lies
Catch in his eyes
As he protests the point 
Would you anoint
Our child with the oil of Chrism
I try to move on but no one else is him
And though the chemistry and the sparks fly
What’s born of bodies must admit to die
In their deepest, darkest, most honest moment
It’ll leave you too, won’t it? 
He stares at the floor then back at me
It’s you and I eternity
In some twin flame fusion
And the density is bruising
When it keeps us apart
Did I ever tell you, you have my heart

Glasses And The Lens

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The control and the weariness 
As I trek down the path they mark
But I think they’re stumbling in the dark
Trying to cut a swathe 
I was a person the darkness saved 
From being a rote learned bitch
It saw me open and made the switch
Now I’m the nothingness expanse
The emptiness when it starts to dance 
And there is no way to compare
What was to what isn’t there 
And Mooji says we’re cool
And I graduated from school
With the best I could 
I swore I would leave that wood 
Behind with my peace of mind 
As Tru spoke to me and I took it to heart
There was a life which depart
And I met another pair of eyes
That looked at me with no disguise 
And he is the Heaven and Earth to me
It’s fifteen years and I let him see
That a gravity in his bones 
Walked me right out of my alones 
And she was by my side
I dunno why I thought to hide 
What was real and raw
From the viciousness of an outlaw
Who abides not in time
It’s all I can do to make it rhyme
Zippered in a tent so tight
And I wonder if we’re alright
In the place it hurts
I don’t want to make it worse
But I think you need to hear it from me
I take off my glasses and now I see

The Polarising Strength

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I feel this fire burn within
And wonder am I worthy of him
Coz I just feel dirty
When I meet that part of myself 
And my mental health
Can’t hold up forever 
Under the weight of bad weather 
And it’s tearing at the seams 
And my dreams 
Get somewhat 3D
As I see you kissing me 
In the corner, on the neck
But I wake and it’s a shipwreck 
On the shore 
A lost sailor I adore 
And I help him from his clothes 
Have I become one of those 
Who just capitalise 
But kryptonite is his eyes
And I break at the fragile part
When I feel I have his heart

Conflicting Emotions

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I love her but she stifles my pain
If you’re cold do you stand out in the rain
Just so you can get wet
There are moments I never forget
Of agony and torment
I don’t know where the power went
That used to flow in my veins 
Now it’s all tears and soaking bloodstains 
On the sheet of my bed
Do you think you could just marry me instead 
I say to the sky
In the guise of some guy
Throwing shapes at me
Is this what it means to be free 
Coz my body changed 
The atoms rearranged
With the meds I take 
I feel like a cake
About to bake
And it’s for who’s sake 
As I fight with her
Silently but it’s not for
Any reason that will do me good 
For she burned down the whole wood 
Then put the matches in my hand 
Told me to trace my heart in sand 
As the ocean encroaches 
I dunno but I didn’t vote for this

The Feathered Oasis

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The feathered oasis of calm in my mind
When I think of the trouble I’ve left behind
Like a minute fibre in the distance
Let’s take a minute to remember resistance
As it barricades the doors and fortifies the walls 
Falls deaf to years of desperate calls 
To just be the way I am
And chasing Sam
Like a dream in the sky
Is nothing to the blue of his eye
When he smiles at me
Do I get to call free
The newfangled word
Or will I forever remain unheard

Caves And Close Shaves

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I’m burning down the house I made in my mind
Leave that old cave behind
The one I used to spit and moan
And mainly just feel all alone
Coz they inoculate shame
And call you by your first name
When they want you to back down
Or go ahead and drown
In the ocean that submerge
Don’t you know it’s just a word
They used to categorise 
You so that you’re something in their eyes
And maybe they steal
But they can’t take what is real
No matter how hard they try
And I know that we all die
But I can’t stay under this roof
Where’s your evidence, where’s your proof
That I was ever anything other
Than a cloud that would smother
You with a hot heat
Thick and heavy as defeat

Top Of The Rock

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Am I gonna die if I feel this feeling
Coz I hear a voice screaming in my head
And one day I’m scared I’m gonna wake up dead
Travelling through a vortex through open space 
Why do I keep seeing his face 
And that window in my apartment on floor five
How the hell am I still alive
When all around me has withered 
And the demons veritably slithered 
Down the garden path on the way to Eden
When Eve steps on their heads is it just that she doesn’t see them
And where is Adam in all of this
Is he just lost in his first kiss
With the bride of his dreams 
Is nothing as it may seem
Coz is God the overlord
Or is he simply the spoken Word
That turns Spirit into flesh
Made the sexes and all the rest
All the animals and all the birds
All the potential in the unheard 
And in the night do you hear the call
It was a freefall 
That year I committed myself to you
It’s 2012 and I’m walking through
The doors of my mind back to you then
In all of this did I lose a friend 
Somewhere in the aftermath
And I’m not scared of wrath
By some deity
Telling me that it hates me 
In the world of the hologram 
If there is a plan 
It must be Love
Coz without It what is the above
But a sanctity we fear
I’m running with wolves and near
To the free wind
To love versus to have sinned 
Coz you’re about as bad as they get
But I can bring myself to regret 
Our cataclysm 
Is it time to heal the Great Schism

That String Came Loose

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I’ll always love him
But I don’t think we’ll be together 
Because the weather
Knows me better
Than he ever could 
And I’m knocking on wood 
To find the voice
To speak to Love about the power of choice 
In these spring time days 
And there are so many ways 
You can lose a friend 
I watched the sun set and the end
Begin again so slow
How do you love what you must let go
How can a woman with child
Not crave the wild
And free she used to be 
It’s just not for me 
And no summer can contain
What just came down as rain
And I fainted with the pain
Of knowing oh too slow
That she never cared what happened to me, so
I pull the switch
And I watch the screen begin to trip
On what it holds
Oh, the immortal of our souls
Could never be bound
And the holy sound
Of freedom beckons 
What do you reckon
Do we untie the string
I loved her and I lost everything

The Long Forgiveness

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I don’t want to let go of the feeling
Because it means I must let go of you
And I don’t want to
They all teased us about each other
But sometimes you were like the brother
I never had
And it makes me sad
To think that I
Must wait until I die 
To see your visage again
I should’ve told you I could talk with pen
And write a sonnet for you
Is moving on the same as pulling through
Coz he threw those words at me
But he simply doesn’t see
That life takes care of life
And somebody’s wife
Or somebody’s son
Is warm with the waves that come from the sun
Pure photon light
Balancing between here and alright
And must I escape
A hero in a red cape
Comes to save the day
But he can’t bring back what’s gone away
And what would you say
About things like that
Love is not something that you lack
But something that pours through
Right now I’m starring in a role and you
Have dissipated 
Have I ever hated 
Life so much
To vanish what was warm to the touch
And sincere and honest
They talk about Heaven but I wouldn’t count on it
To save the day
We are born to go away
And must make hay
In the sun we know
Tell me what to do, a stór, the show
Must go on
But how do I love with you gone
How do I let a man into my heart
When it’s been broken and the part
I crave the most
Is with the Father, Son and Holy Ghost

Powerlessness

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Powerlessness
You’re gone, you’re gone
And I didn’t even get to say so long
With your spiky hair
And the way you have of always being there
Are you Spirit now, do you wander through walls
Touching hearts, leave us all enthralled 
With your vagabond
And I abscond 
To elope 
Coz it’s at least a way that I can cope
With the gaping hole, the void, the void 
You were never just one of the boys
And no one has the answer
Life is the movement and you’re just the dancer
On the stage of life
I wonder if I would’ve been your wife
In the years that passed
I thought about it but I never asked 
You to my grad
Now I sit alone and I feel bad
For what we never got to be
And she
Crushes me with a glance
Another spiral, another lance
On the boil of truth
Oh, what is youth
But the sudden celebration and the demise
But it disappears when I look in your eyes
And all I can see is the expanse
I watched you and Linda dance
And felt a pang of jealousy 
Or something akin to it because we
Have a moment by the bar
And that star
Still shines for you
I survive because you want me to

Issues

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The pain reverberates around the inner wall of my sanctum
All is lost and I never thanked him
For who he was to me
They say that death is to be set free
But chains encircle and the vice, it grips
Some people escape by going on head trips
I sit in the suffer 
Coz I know you loved her
In your short time here
Your golden hair and fiery heart, my dear
Will never go to waste 
I stay chaste
And good and clean
But I only meet you in a dream
Til he walks on the scene 
And everything I love is in full colour 
The Now is here and the past is duller
But the car crash of us mimics the cry
Of the moment I learned that you die
Grasping, clawing, trying to hold on
But you are already gone
And memory
Seems to be 
The only thing you have left me 
As the vultures circle looking for some chew 
While I’m on the grass just talking to you
And he was a symbol of salvation, I held him tight
But he’s emptiness in the night
Always a little too far away
With a little too much to say
About me and you, he and I
And I’m not gonna lie
I tried to make that plaster fit
He just thinks I am a little bitch
Affection and playful but it’s not enough
I’m looking for Eternal Love
To bridge the gap
Because Death leaves behind no map
And the scrap of what I can remember 
Of the years of knowing you
Is scrawled in a diary I put pen to
But it doesn’t bring you back, I chew the cap
What if I have another relapse
And end up in the psych ward again
Because reality is not my friend
So I take refuge in fables
Keep up if you’re able
It’s a litany
Of all the liars I never got to be 
And somewhere in the sunshine I see you again
You set the gold standard of men
And you were there that year in 2007
In the blue camp and I, eleven,
In love with with your name
Life will never, ever be the same
With you gone, now there’s no one to squeeze my hand 
And smile like everything is grand 
And fun and neat
Next door neighbours, next time we meet
Will be an eon hence
My Love is never in the past tense

Never There

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They have a locked box and they shine the silver
Praying that it will deliver
On its sacred, holy prompt
What is it that you want 
When you cling to me like that
And, no, I don’t want you back
As you polish the wallpaper til it shines
But you destroy everything that’s mine
And I couldn’t love you more
But you leave me lying on the floor
As I try to be
Everything that your decree
Wants of me
But it just hurts 
And your help makes it worse
As you try to stuff a sock down my throat
But I’ll never be what you quote
In your devotional prayer
You were never there

Not In A Million Years

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Not in a million years or any version of reality
Could life replace what you mean to me 
And I know I was mad on the phone
A passionate Aries all alone
As you fit me into the box
Of a woman in need of locks 
So I rebel, rebel 
And tell you to go to hell
Coz you don’t understand 
You’ve only ever been a man
And the status quo
Is not something I’d like to keep, so
I smash right through the walls you construct
And I don’t give any fucks 
A delectable female on the line
That only wants to make you mine
And I hear the silent pause
That doesn’t obey any laws
Or gravity
What do you think of me 
I shudder and the earth quake
I’m sitting in the room and I shake 
As I try to hold it all in
But I love, I love him
And I’m hearing voices in my head
One tells me to just go to bed
And rest and keep
The best of me for sleep
Let the softness ensue
And I remember that song came out too
That August but I felt nothing at all
Except like banging my head against the wall
And it is silent desperation as I wake at three
Think the devil is talking to me
And the lights all went out
It coincided with my doubt
So I ran to Jennai
How do I remember the name of the nurse 
That sprinkled sawdust on a golden hearse
That seems to carry my body from place to place 
While the demons just lay waste
To the life I used to know
You told me to just let go…

Fliuch Báite

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Deliver all these notes into the hands of my older self 
I don’t know who could take from them anything else
And am I just hoarding trinkets 
Blink it’s 
Gone 
And I never said so long 
But you belong 
By my side
As the grey hairs encroach
On what I love the most
And, time, it is a fickle thing
And Aoibhín said I had a broken wing
In Dean Swift in St. Pat’s
They must have been wondering what I was at
Stalking the halls like a hungry ghost
In the shape of what I love the most
And it is coast to coast
But the shackles just fall
And I drew an eye on the wall
Coz I felt it watching me 
Shared a part of my history
I was back a year later and they hadn’t ruined 
The information that just came too soon
Til a woman took a pen
And wrote words over it again and again
So they painted the colour and the mess
A shade of brown but I digress
From what I’m saying here
It’s just I feel you near
When I’m locked in a cell
By those who wish me well
And they click a pen
Write the error down again
And I can’t seem to explain
That when the sky cracked into the rain
The pane of glass came falling down
Into sheets on the ground 
And I was soaked through and through
Fliuch and staring up at you
As I scream unto the sky
Please don’t let me die
Until I make destiny mine
And I will go through it, it’s fine
As all and sundry move away
Leave me to fall into what they say
And the meanings true
I reach out but there’s no you

Fear To The Touch

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You could be dead and I wouldn’t know
Does the pain start to show
As I mourn your form
So cold where it used to be warm
And I remember kissing the forehead
Of my Grandad in the coffin
It was like ice
And the shock 
Made my soul splice
Into multiple parts
How do you move with a broken heart
And the beat tries to keep you steady
But it stutters and I wasn’t ready
To commit my life to a mortal thing
Coz this bird with broken wing
Can’t fly
And you could die 
And I would shatter like a pane of glass
But somehow in the mists something last
And keeps me walking to your door 
Leaving notes for someone I adore
So he might know 
That, though it doesn’t show
I hold him close to my breast
Calamity and the rest
Can’t shake the ground I know
I watched you change and grow 
From a boy to a man
Through facebook coz I can
And it may track my every move
But I’ve nothing left to prove
Except to leave my open hands
There for the slipping sands
That are the years of us
I shake but I trust

The Light In His Eyes

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I’m emo cool
Well I was in school
Though I was in the closet
Coz it wasn’t the norm was it
Til I met that guy
And, man, I could fly
With the joy of knowing such a soul
It will stay with me as I grow old
And the body will wither and die
But it can never take the blue of his eye
That catches the light from mine
In ‘00’s parlance, he was fine
Though he doesn’t know it
And, man, I throw it 
Like a wine or match
And my roof of thatch
Is burning up a storm
And we could keep each other warm
Not in a sex kind of way
But in the profundity that’s in what he say
And I count lucky stars
That prison bars 
Buckled and fell
And I wish him well
With the girl that he knows
But with me it’s anything goes 
And this love will last a life
Metaphorical man and wife
Even if we never get to be
The ocean is just the sea
By another name and form
I met you and I was born

The Horrors I Hear

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***Trigger Warning***

Tonight Samantha told a story that sent a chill down my spine 
And it was stereotypical of things that ring true to mine
It was an occasion I’d heard of before
But it was still something I abhor 
A woman just after giving birth
Crying about the way it hurt
And she’s so young, so young
Most of her peers are still having fun
And she’s here delivering a child
Does she get to keep her wild
And I think of the raw way it must feel
A viscerality that is real
And how must it be to be so weak
A vulnerability that simply speak
Mountains of what’s expected 
And all that I’ve rejected 
Til her husband appears on the scene 
He’s not something out of a dream
And she starts to scream 
No, no, stop, stop
And I see myself in shoes I will not 
Concede to wear
How bad was the tear
In the fabric true 
And, yes, I’m asking you
To reach into the store
And somehow be something more 
Coz how is woman treated this way
As if it doesn’t matter what she say
It’s gonna happen regardless 
I wonder would a shard of glass
Serrate the edge
As he puts the head
Of the matter to rest
And does his best to bury himself 
In something else 
As she cries and begs coz the pain
It’s right after a shower of rain
And he is opening the door 
Living like she is the shore 
He is bound to dock
And I wanted a rock
Not a ship with no base
Running like I’m the race
He must fight to get to
But I know it’s all about you
In the winter and in the ward
Eternity, maternity and the sword

Machinations

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There is a rotary blade
Looking to make everyone its slave
And it’s such bullshit and you subscribe
To something that drains the alive 
Out of everyone you know
I’m leaving now so let me go
You cannot hold or keep
My fields of solid gold or sleep
Whereupon I enter a dawn
Where your reign is long gone
I remember a child 
Screaming the wild
Into the storm
Your cold isn’t warm
And can’t heat the coals
What do you dare think you know about soul
When all is watered down an infinity
And you think you can grin at me 
And have it all be okay
It doesn’t work that way
And your lies
Cannot disguise 
Your good heart
But I will not be a part
Of the bricks you build
I escape because it was willed

Vidsicitudes

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The vissicitudes of control
Who do you want to enrol 
In your mental scheme
And I just want to scream
Coz you walk over my cold dead body
To get where you’re going
What are you searching for
There’s no way of knowing
But I won’t be victim to
The thread you think you’re pulling through
For the sake of a reason no one can right
You tell me but it’s all shite
And I don’t trust anymore
Not since you slammed that door
And caught my fingers in it
You know it’s wrong
But did you win it
As she and I crystal ball
I just wanna escape from it all

The First Kiss

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The love pulses in my veins
And I can’t get enough of refrains
Even as it causes me pain
I do it again and again and again
I love too much to be let go
I love you and I hope you know
Coz it burns like a holy fire
It hurts but it takes me higher
Could this be the Spirit nothing can contain
Like clouds fail to hold the rain
When they are too full and heavy
And I was born ready
Ready for this
Could forever be my first kiss

Paddy’s Eyes

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Paddy’s eyes were like stone opals 
And I wonder how he is
Did he get his woman
Did he get his wish
Coz for a while he was mine
And I can see the sparkles shine 
As they encase his face 
Not one hair was out of place 
And he had that devilish grin
And a personality that would win
You over with a smile 
I keep it on file
But the memories fade
And the bodies age 
Do you still have facial hair
And a presence that is just there
And we crossed paths in Spiral Tree
I caught you stare at me
As I wait by the bar
Oh, if I could only know what you are 
Coz you escape definition
And the early edition
Of the Longford Leader
(If you took time to read her)
Announces our notice true
What would my life look like with you
By my side, coz you’re in my heart
I watch the comet turn an arc
And come back to flame
Is it okay I used your name?

Juliet On A Balcony

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I keep going to the past
To find something that last
But the present moment is now
And I give in to bow 
And kneel at the sight of it
And I love your wit
And you are perfect grey
It’s soft and soul, okay
Not dry and dead and flat as hell
But luxurious and I wish you well
As you live your life with her
And I don’t know what we were
If not Juliet on a balcony
And you serenading me
With the song of the day
I followed your feed, is that okay
And catalogued the flaws 
And the way the ice thaws 
Around your hidden hinge
The thought of it makes me cringe
As you, on the phone, lay me bare
And make it clear you really don’t care
About who I am or who I be
But one day I swear you’ll see
And regret the moment that you
Said that this was through